Hey there, it's been a very long time. Long time no write and I miss writing , like a lot.
If you're going to ask me the same, I'll say "I'm fine. No. I'm better. Better than who I am the last time we talked here".
After how many years of healing, finally I found myself again. I've got my heart broken 7 years ago and that heartbreak leads me to become a better person than who I am yesterday.
Heartbreaks leads me to forgiving myself. Heartbreaks leads me to loving myself. Heartbreaks leads me to be extra careful. Heartbreaks leads me to be kinder. Heartbreaks leads me to be strong. Heartbreaks leads me to set priorities. Heartbreaks leads me to realisations. Heartbreaks leads me to close doors. Heartbreaks leads me to trust less. Heartbreaks leads me to become better.
I know I'm still the average Filipina, who enjoys simple life and masyadong mababaw Ang kaligayahan. That's something in me na Hindi mabago bago. And I still love that.
Yes, I've been broken from that almost fairytale lovestory, but I put myself back together.
Nowadays, people judge me just because I couldn't go out on a date but here's the thing:
Just because I cook for him and try to be the best person I can be but still ginago, doesn't mean I wouldn't cook for the right person anymore.
Just because I take care of him but got cheated in return doesn't mean I won't do the same anymore.
Just because masyado akong naging pasensyosa before and maluwag doesn't mean magiging mahigpit and short temper na ako.
Just because I've got trust issues doesn't mean lahat Ng lalaki manloloko sa paningin ko.
Just because I've been badly hurt by the only person I loved doesn't mean I'll forever close doors and judge them right away.
NO. Just because I've got my heart shattered and took me years and years to get myself back together doesn't mean I'll let other guys suffer just to get even. It's a NO.
I'm still willing to take risks and trust, I'm still capable of loving someone without judging them, I'm not closing doors, I'm still the same loving person it's just that this time I'm guarding my heart well. 🥀
I'm still an average Filipina Girl, the same simple and wife material but this time not so naive like I used to be and I prefer it that way. 💕