everyone's warmth;

There's still a lot that I don't understand, but... this is a very beautiful world, isn't it? My name is Nai! Nice to meet you! Let's play together, okay? [An independent Karneval roleplay blog. Tracking "nonexistentwonderstuck". Currently on INDEFINITE HIATUS.]

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+1 new friend; @clashedminds

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Celty exhaled silently, her nonexsistent eyes skimming her surrondings. Usually, she didn’t get lost but this time she managed to pull off something she thought she never would. At the question, her gaze swept down unto the white haired boy. She whipped out her PDA so she could reply to his question. 

No. It's not a magic helmet.

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Nai frowns slightly, his forehead creasing in concentration as he slowly processes the letters on the screen, the words and what they meant. He wasn't very good at reading, but he thinks he understood--he was wrong, right? But then, how could she see?! It's a mystery to Nai, and one he wants to know the answer to. Tilting his head in puzzlement, he says, "But it's not... see-through."

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+1 new friend; @mckennaakuita

Nai wanders around, taking in his surroundings as they walked. The ship had never landed here before, and so it was impossible not to look around excitedly, stumbling a little too close to an older girl. Blinking up at her, Nai quickly smiles--"I like your hair!" he says, trying to make friends.

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+1 new friend; @cloudyanalise

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She shook her head to the first question, and nodded to the second. “If it did hurt, I cannot remember now…it was a long time ago. I am fine, do not worry." She giggled a little bit as he poked the little fluffball floating above her palm. “Yes, it is real, it is exactly the same as the ones above us." She used her other hand to take his, and transferred the cloud so it was floating above his hand. “It will stay as long as you want it too."

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Ah. was that so? That was okay then--he guessed it sounded a little scary, to fall from so high up, but he was glad it didn't hurt. She didn't sound scared, either, so Nai would believe her. He wasn't one to doubt people, after all. He watches her curiously as she takes his hand, before his mouth opens with a small gasp as the cloud switches to it. Experimenting, he waves his hand around, a wide smile growing on his face as it follows it. "Th... thank you very much!" he says brightly, his eyes glowing, feeling like he'd been given a present. "It's lovely...!" He never wanted it to leave.

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+1 new friend; @captain-oddball

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"A-Ah..!" Seeing that the ball didn’t come all the way to him, he took a few steps forward and picked it up. “I got it!" He smiled hopefully. Seeing the younger boy get disappointed because of this sort of hurt the brunet.

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Nai looks up, still somewhat upset, but encouraged by the other's smile. It made him feel bad, that he had to work hard because of him--of course, Nai just had to try harder! Now staring determinedly at the ball in the boy's hands, Nai says, "I-I can still catch it!" Could he? Well, maybe he was better than throwing.

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+1 old friend; @karoku-the-first

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Karoku saw that look on the face of his creation, it dampened his mood greatly. He picked Nai's head up, fiddling with the ends of the niji's ears and stared into his eyes, a smile found it's way across his features. But it didn't last long. It was replaced with worry. "No, I am not angry at you, I am just.. Concerned. Is there something you would like to talk about? Something on your mind? You can tell me, Nai."

He let go of Nai's head when he noticed someone standing a few feet away and staring at the two of them.

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He... he wasn't angry? Nai looks tentatively back at him, his worried expression not fading, though he gives a small smile at Karoku's--he did love Karoku's smile. Very much. He had... worried Karoku, by being this way. For a moment, Nai can't forgive himself for that. For a moment, he wants to put on a big smile and pretend like it's okay. In that moment, he realises he doesn't know how to do that.

He looks down as Karoku lets go, watching himself playing awkwardly with his feet. "Karoku...," he mumbles, unsure where to start. He finds his hand reaching for Karoku's, wanting to reassure himself that this was the warm person he remembered. "I don't... understand, some things," he says slowly, trying to phrase it clearly. "Like I, I don't know... why you said... those things, that time." I was scared. "It was scary, Karoku."

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New customer: nonexistent-wonderstruck

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Faye couldn’t help but return the boy’s smile. He was good company, and that was much needed for her empty shop. 

Faye brushed the meat with her lemongrass mixture to give it a finishing gloss. After she rolled paper to line the wire cone, she plucked four skewers from the grill and arranged them like a bouquet. With the cone in one hand and the tea in the other, she set the skewers down in front of the boy and refilled his cup with tea.

"Let me know if you need anything. Enjoy."

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Nai watches her curiously, his eyes lighting up as he sees her start to return, sitting up straight as he gets excited, his eyes intently fixed on the skewers as she puts them down. "Th-thank you!" He didn't exactly see where the lemongrass part was, but it looked delicious anyway--unsure how he was supposed to eat them, he tentatively picks one up, awkwardly biting into some of the beef, before getting the piece in his mouth.

Ah, that's... He blinks, swallowing, before smiling widely. "It's really tasty!"

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+1 new friend; @shiro-no-dragon

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Interesting people, Hakuryuu noted. How Nai described them physically was more than enough. But the one with the name of Yogi took his interest. Especially when Nai said he smiles a lot. He might be like Alibaba in a way, since they are both blonde and unless the situation is dead serious, Alibaba is nothing short of all-smiles. 

But why was he thinking about that now? He almost laughed from how his train of thought is working at the moment. Still he is aware that he is helping Nai find his friends again. “Well, they look like they can be spotted in no time. But this number of people might make that less easier than it should…" Then he got an idea. 

"Oh, Nai. Would you not mind if I lift you? You might be able to detect your friends faster than I would in such a crowd." he suggested as he pulled the white-haired boy closer since many people were around him and doing it might just make Nai feel a little more secure. 

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Nai tilts his head, a bit disheartened at his words. There were a lot of people, that was true--but if he concentrated on listening really hard, he was sure he should be able to pick out his friends' familiar voices. In many instances, his ears had been the only way he was able to help Circus... if he couldn't make use of them, then was he useful at all...?

He blinks at the suggestion, before smiling and nodding. "Yes! I don't mind!" More than that, it sounded a little fun, didn't it? Yogi had played with him like that before, spinning him around in the air--ahh, Nai hoped he could see him again. More so, he definitely would see him again, and they could play together like always.

A happy memory surfaces in his mind--one that seemed, for once, to be relevant to the situation at hand. Still smiling, but a little shy now, he asks, "Then... would a piggy back be okay?" There was something else that Yogi had done once--but it could be helpful as well as fun, couldn't it?

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✉ Lag blew up towards his hair as the heat bore down upon it with it’s mighty heat and he began to resent the uniform that Letter Bees had to wear, there were too many ridiculous layers! Didn’t the Letter Bee foundation realise that they would have to travel to hotter climates sometimes?

Unfortunately for him, Lag wasn’t really paying attention to where he was walking and ended up walking head on into another person, whom happened to look extremely similar to himself.

"A-ah! Sorry!" 

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A small sound comes out of Nai's mouth as he stumbles back a step, whimpering slightly in surprise. As he looks up at the other, he blinks slowly, his eyes widening as his mouth opens slightly. Ah, he looks just like me! A wide smile spreads across Nai's face at the realisation--he never saw people who looked like him, but here, down to the white hair and eyes and even height... it was a little exciting!

"I-it's okay!" he says brightly, his eyes shining slightly. If he looked like this, was this boy like him? Nai wanted to... meet people like him. Very much. He hops slightly, anticipation building up. "A-are you a niji too?"

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+1 new friend; @clashedminds

A curious Nai had been watching a woman for a while now, baffled by how she seemed to be moving around perfectly normally while he couldn't see any kind of window in her helmet. Jiki's glasses were transparent, weren't they? But Nai could see anything like that here! Not aware of the existence of tinted visors, Nai can't help trotting up to the woman, asking, "Is that helmet magic?"

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"Just don't drop them okay? They're very fragile!" She cautioned him. She held them out so that he could take them.

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Fragile? Nai blinks, thinking about the word for a second, before his eyes widen slightly. That meant they could break easily, right? Gareki. He looks down, before carefully taking the packet, placing it in his basket as delicately as he can, now being extremely cautious with the thing. "I... I won't let the eggs break!" he says, his face serious. It had nothing to do with those words about Gareki breaking, but--ah, maybe the thought just scared him again.

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+1 new friend; @ayumi-theneko

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Ayumi giggled and pointed into the mouthpiece, “Try blowing into that curved piece first. It’s the part that will make the noise." The blonde watched him, hoping he wouldn’t drop the instrument even though it was fairly light. 

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Ah, it was? So that was what you were supposed to do! Nodding determinedly, Nai puts his mouth over the part she pointed out, struggling a little with his hands and now his mouth full--but when he blows, much to his disappointment, very little sound came out apart from maybe the fizzle of his breath. Instruments are hard! He looks up at the girl helplessly, a little upset, saying, "Um... I don't understand."

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+1... old friend?; @littlenai-nai

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"Hmm… Anything happy, right? How about our friends?" There was a thought. To be by their sides made the niji happy, to have a great relationship with all of them made it even better. “Would that work?"

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Ah...! That was a good idea, Nai thought, smiling. He did love his friends more than anything else in the world, after all--the other Nai seemed to like his too, but were they the same? It was weird thinking about it, but maybe it was really different. "Y-yes!" he says, before putting two fingers together, playing with his hands a little. "Are you friends with Gareki and Yogi and Tsukumo too?"

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+1 new friend; @tales-of-black

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{♞}| There was a soft voice rushing into his ears that made Kuroh turn around, shorty surprised to meet no one until he bends his gaze down to finally see the boy kneeling beside him. 

Obviously startled by the small boy’s appearance, the ravenet needs a second to recognize the words he was speaking. He almost looked like Shiro only— much more adorable. If that’s even possible.  Clearing his throat and trying to fight against that faint blush about to appear on his cheeks, he finally managed to form a proper answer

"It is indeed real. It’s name is Kotowari."

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Nai blinks, tilting his head at the other, repeating it slowly. "Koto... wari?" He looks back at the sword, his eyes shining in curiosity--he'd never heard anyone in Circus call their weapon by a name before, not even Yogi, but he liked the idea. He was sure the sword must like it too! He smiles widely, beaming as he says, "Hello, Kotowari!"

Then Nai gets a thought--if it had a name, maybe it could talk? Ah, maybe it was like a person! Still staring intently at the sword, his face eager, he asks, "D-did you have a nice day?"

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+1 new friend; @cloudyanalise

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"I have not met any, sadly," she said with a sigh, removing her hand from his head wondering why she’d felt the urge to pet him in the first place. But he’d seemed to enjoy it, so perhaps it wasn’t so bad. Plus, his purring was slightly…adorable. Minus the slightly. “I was found this way, and slowly started to remember things about the sky. It seems as if… I fell." She stood up, not having to have bent down that far in the first place as she wasn’t that much taller; only about two inches or so. “But I am alright, see?" She held out her hand to him, a small cloud forming in it and spinning gently. He seemed curious, and she knew what it was like to be a curious being, so she wanted to see someone else enjoy having any questions answered that she could manage to help with.

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"Fell?" Nai repeats, his forehead creasing. She said she was okay, but he can't help being worried. He could barely imagine how high up the sky was--not even the ship could touch the top! Nai wouldn't like to fall out of the sky. "It didn't hurt?" he asks, his eyes wide and concerned--though they shine in curiosity as he watches a cloud appear in Analise's hand. For a moment, he simply stares at it, his mouth slightly open, completely fascinated by its presence. Then he reaches with a tentative finger to poke it, giggling lightly. He wonders, what could a cloud feel like...? Fluffy, he's sure. "I-is that a real cloud?"

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+1 old friend; @karoku-the-first

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He would miss that solitude they once had, back when it was just the two of them. But it had to be accepted that Nai had new friends, that he had others he cared for. Although he really didn't want it to be that way. It would be wrong to pull him away from his friends, after he had already suffered more than he should have.

Karoku nodded in approval, but his mouth curved into a bitter frown. He placed a hand on Nai's head, what was he afraid of? Despite his claims about healing already and healthful appearance, he started to feel rather lightheaded and airy. Luckily Karoku spotted a few benches no more then a few feet away. He placed both his hands over the others and tugged them away from his shirt, "Nai, why don't we go sit down?" He let go of one of Nai's hands but held the other, as if he feared they would be separated again.

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Nai blinks slowly, looking up at Karoku with wide eyes. He'd half been expecting a backlash, and the realisation makes him look down, an uneasy flutter in his chest. When had he started expecting a different Karoku than the one that he remembered, the one that he loved? He didn't want things to be like that. Above all other things, it terrified him. Karoku was his security, and had been forever--so how could he have gotten so... scared?

He's been staring into space, he realises. "Y-yes!" he says quickly, almost immediately perking up, holding Karoku's hand tightly as he trots over to a bench, intending to pull him along with him. Nai sits down, one hand restless in his lap. He didn't like this sad feeling--but did Karoku want to tell him off, now? He swings his legs, trying to fight it off as he looks up at him, swallowing. After a moment, he looks down, pressing his lips together as if he's about to cry. "Are... are you mad at me?"

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+4 old friends

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Gareki was waiting with patience for the other to answer him. At least he was trying his best to get the answer right, but he knew himself that he was not a very good teacher. At least that’s what he believed he was. After a few moments, a small smile form over the other’s lips to hear the correct answer as he brought a hand over to pat his head. “Good. Now you just continue adding eight every time you receive an answer. So forty plus eight… you’re smart. You can do this."

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Nai's eyes close in pleasure as he's patted, smiling contentedly, pleased that Gareki seemed happy with him. He opens his eyes, nodding determinedly as he finishes, suddenly motivated. Still, his counting continues slowly; "forty... forty... forty-eight... um... um... fifty-six..." In contrast, Nai's concentration fizzles as he writes down seventy-two, looking up at Gareki with wide, confused eyes. "Th-there's too many to get to a thousand, Gareki!"

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"I-I umm hai" she nodded her head “Im ok.. just a bit  worried is all" not having all her memories made her feel even more tense but she didn’t want to worry the other so she never told him the real truth why she was acting the way she was.

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"Worried?" Nai repeats, pressing his lips together, not registering her reluctance to share at all. He could remember that when he was worried... he was worried about Gareki, and scared. And usually, whenever he was scared, his friends would help him. Then he had to help Lin too, didn't he? "W-when I'm worried, I get help from my friends! A-and... um, I think that talking about it, will make things better..." Really, what he meant to say was that he wanted to help, but Nai wasn't good at conveying his thoughts in ways that others could understand.