» okay mild cw cuz mentions of birth complications «
» ricky was the only one who knew janes real name (savannah). he chose to say it was 'a name [he'd] been saving up' because he didnt want to embarrass the rest of the choir as theyd been ignoring her unintentionally since she joined.
» ricky wishes he never joined the choir. although he loves them, ocean kept babying him pre-cyclone and it was really patronising and uncomfortable when he just wanted to sit at home and fantasise about zolaria
» ricky is some kind of asexual (possibly cupio), and he discovered sexuality at a young age
» rickys parents were ashamed to have a disabled child after long-awaiting a son. he has 2 older sisters, and they are 7+ years older than him as their parents suffered several miscarriages/complications in attempts to conceive a boy
» his parents also saw the amount of ableism in the world, and locked him away to protect ricky as soon as they found out he had a degenerative disease as they thought he would be too mentally fragile for the world (incorrect, physical disability is irrelevant to mental disability). as a result, he never made friends until he joined the choir
» after his parents acted as if ricky was a baby for 16 years of his life, they pushed him out into the world suddenly by recommendation of his doctors, and joined the choir. due to this, he had no social skills and struggled to make friends within the group.
» ricky spent a year in the choir just going and listening to them sing. he found it boring, and spent most of his time imagining worlds within vocal lines and instrumentals. then, savannah joined the choir and, although ricky could never speak to her, he felt they had a connection due to their statuses as outcasts within the group
» whenever savannah talked, most people either ignored her or just let it go through one ear and out the other, but ricky made sure to listen to her every time. he saw savannah as human, and could never understand why the choir couldnt
» in the accident, ricky knew it was unsafe for him and savannah to get on the ride(sixth sense) and tried to persuade ocean that he shouldnt go. however, ocean just bullied him for being childish and he went on anyway with the carnies encouragement/permission (the carnie was tired after his shift and wanted to go home early, so he was trying to avoid an argument)