𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐝/𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞

schrödinger's cat.

[nonsix]

affiliated akane kurashiki of zero escape. .

〖 seek a way out. 〗

[nonsix]

anything past this post is independent interactions before affiliating with isola radiale!

[taffybuns]

the cat in the box, is it dead or alive?

[onesecondbeforesunset]

. . .there is a fate worse than death / and it’s living to hear eulogies / for the person you could have been.

from Chorus, eds. Saul Williams, Dufflyn Lammers & Aja Monet

[freelance-philosopher]

I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing.

Anaïs Nin (via freelance-philosopher)

[nonsix]

i think about this scene a lot

[nonsix]

@nultri asked: ✮ = stargazing .

it had been a few nights since after they left d-com. all was revealed onto them, but even after forming a newfound resolve toward changing the future: there were still parts of her that were still haunted by the truths unveiled. so, as she stood next to her brother on their apartment’s balcony, she looked out toward the night sky, letting the heat from her coffee mug warm her hands.

❛ do you remember when i was little, i wanted to visit the observatory? ❜ akane’s lips form a sad smile, collecting the patches of memories she could recall of their family. ❛ i think mom was a little surprised, but dad promised he’d take us after he came back from their trip. i was so excited, i even made a notebook filled with charts and constellations. but then ... ❜

they didn’t come back. 

❛ i still ... can’t believe it all. ❜ her eyes don’t leave the sky, resting the mug down and tracing the wooden rails of their balcony. ❛ it would have been so different if — ❜

she closes her eyes, calming her mind and quelling sorrow building beneath her chest. for so long, they’ve attempted to work the cogs of destiny: whether it be by saving her life, or trying to save six billion. and yet, as they’ve found — their parents were lost to the same force. the hands of fate takes ... and it takes, and it takes. but no more. this time, they’ll take the reigns.

❛ we have to end this ... for them. then maybe, they could rest in peace. ❜ 

maybe they all could.

prompt / accepting.

[cobaltqueen]

Oh my god, I’m the moronsexual

[nonsix]

k.urashiki parents

[caelytrix]

made a short comic ft. the kurashikis and something that i did to my parents multiple times sjkfhks

[flowerytale]

Anne Carson, from Autobiography of Red

[lyricalmusingstuff]

                   I was looking for a way out,                      … now I can’t escape.

[nonsix]

if you really think about it without the snail eric’s mom would be alive, akane and aoi’s parents would still be alive, akane would have never met junpei, akane and aoi would likely never have been taken by cradle for the experiment; the second nonary game likely wouldn’t have happened and subsequently crash keys + vlr and zero time wouldn’t have happened either

[twinkle-art]

the cat is always in the box

[nonsix]

—  aoi .

his hands grip the wheel        —            a semblance of control,   finally.        aoi can count his life in clenched fists  :     the hand holding akane’s in grief,   the burning of flesh to metal,   the white - knuckled patience under branching decisions,   the still tight grip on the leather beneath his fingers now.     ❝   those guys   ?     yeah,   they’ll look.   ❞     there’s no illusions,   hopefuls spent on avoiding their half - life contingencies    ;    there are timelines where aoi doesn’t see her existence made fact,   timelines where they open the box to a grim end.        (    there are no timelines where aoi saves her.     it has to be junpei.     it leaves a bitter taste in his mouth.    )

is he okay   ?        ❝   akane,   i—     i should be askin’ you that.     how are you feelin’ after all that   ?     are you sure you want to go without saying goodbye   ?   ❞     regrets aren’t just for the dying,     he wants to say,   chest tight,     there’s plenty for the living and i’d know.     ❝   i’m fine,   akane.     i’m just    …    i’m glad you’re safe.   ❞

❛ how i’m feeling ... ? ❜ her gaze trails down to her palms, almost like making sure they were still there. before all this, her body felt like a hollow shell; porcelain with a soul. often there were small rituals, reminders that assured she was alive: feeling the pulse on her wrist, or letting sunlight trickle on her skin. now there was no question. slowly, her skin began to feel like her own. ❛ i’m okay, i think. maybe just a little tired ...  ❜

she leans back against her seat, fingers twiddling on her lap. 

❛ i suppose i just ... don’t want to involve them any more than necessary. ❜ a hint of sorrow in her tone. she would be lying if she said a part of her didn’t wish to stay, give them the answers they seek. ❛ maybe it’s best this way. ❜ to stay out of their lives, help them avoid getting caught in the crossfire.

❛ i mean ... i can’t blame them if they hate us for what we did. ❜ she doesn’t know if she could face them, after all that. if she could face junpei — but all akane knew was to press forward and bear every burden, every consequence. every ounce of pain. ( perhaps, this is why she's growing numb to it all. ) ❛ but this was the only way ... and we still have work to do. ❜

[veilled-deactivated20160315]

send one for my muse’s reaction to your muse ---

[itmeanshcpe-blog]

veilled :

alternatively send ‘ + ‘ after the symbol for the roles to be reversed where possible !

✘ = hugging them . Δ = playing with their hair .  ❤ = kissing them .  ₪ =  asking them out for dinner . ☀ = giving them a gift of ___ ( asker’s choice ) . ♘ = stabbing them . ♕ = bowing down before them . ♒ = lying to them .   ✿ = buying them flowers . ☾ = being found shirtless . ♢ = reading them a story . ☂ = giving them their jumper to keep warm . ✎ = speaking in a different language . ✏ = teaching them a different language . ▄ = telling them a joke . ♬ = singing to them . ☹ = insulting a loved one . ஐ = slapping them . ✂ = threatening them . ❃ = dancing with them . ▤ = falling asleep on them . ☮ = waking them up after a nightmare .  ♣ = discovering them crying .  回 = patching a wound .  ✮ = stargazing . ▓ = caught stealing their belongings . ☽ = wandering alone at night . ♡ = complimenting them . ≡ = offering a place to stay overnight . ☢ = falling over . ✦ = being well-dressed . ❂ = wiping blood off their face . ◎ = taking care of them while ill . ☁ = being caught in the middle a storm with them . ⇕ = holding their hand . ↱ = being lost with them . ☠ = pushing them against a wall .

[nonsix]

akane brings out the inner nerd in me and i just want to cry