An honest look inwards

- L | 20 | He/Him

[anxietyproblem]

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Metaphorically correct too: let things pile up on your mind until they can't pile up anymore and you actually have to practically deal with them to continue and pass go

[kosmogrl]

unstoppable force (wanting to be the kindest version of myself) vs immovable object (all the anger and hatred I have inside myself)

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Oops it's a stalemate

[ifuckingadoreyou]

there's a specific kind of grief and terror traumatized people feel when they're dating. you find someone who you really click with - until things get serious. maybe they witness you having a bad day, and they decide it's not worth it, pack up their things, and leave.

you navigate the dating scene with a low expectations. most people run at the first mention of "abuse" or "assault." sometimes you think about not being open about your trauma again, just so that you can get a better sense of your date so that when the time comes to tell them about it, you might still have a chance of salvaging it. but most neurotypical people don't want somebody with baggage.

then, you meet them. maybe they have baggage, too, but the way they treat you with such patience and respect, and accomodate you however you need — it's something you've never experienced before. you almost start to put them on a pedestal, but they remind you that you need to heighten your expectations, demand respect instead of hoping it'll come to you.

maybe you have memory issues. maybe you apologize a lot for no real reason. maybe you have severe panic attacks in response to triggers. but they're with you through it all, again and again — never raising their voice, never shaming you, never harming you, but always there to pick you up when you need their support.

this is the way you've needed to be loved. this is the way you DESERVE to be loved.

[nonstop-nostalgic]

He's truly a special one 💖

[iglovequotes]

https://iglovequotes.net/

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Yah it's a type 😳

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Imagine not being on here for two whole years just to come back for no reason at all 🤡

[lizardsister]

good god when the onions and garlic hit the olive oil..........

[anxietyproblem]

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Oops this is it...

[loveoreospier]

I had no idea this was a thing so I'm putting it here! Becky Albertalli is signing bookplates for anyone that pre-orders Love, Creekwood!!

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Wow ain't she just.the best

[liberal-memes]

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Such is reality...how are we supposed to feel hopeful for our futures when our youth has been littered with global crises and an increasingly unstable and uncertain economic, social and environmental future?

[anxietyproblem]

[nonstop-nostalgic]

"I'm really sorry I forgot to reply" 😬😬

[insertgirlname]

Please reblog this.

[positive-mh-recovery]

[nonstop-nostalgic]

Sometimes it really doesn't feel like it. Sometimes you recover and then not long after fall again. Sometimes it feels like a never ending battle. But always we have to keep fighting, keep pursuing the dream that we'll reach a day where these battles do not loom over us everyday and threaten our existence.

[anxietyproblem]

Follow @anxietyproblem

[coldcanadianwinters]

Damn didn’t have to call me out this hard

[jorgead94]

They all get me so well

[nonstop-nostalgic]

I have never seen a set of memes/images that describe me so well feeling v attacked

[anxietyproblem]

[dateadork]

date a dork who gives you warm and cuddly feelings whenever you think of them

[anxietyproblem]

[depression-healthy-carrier]

I’m so disappointed in myself. I know I’m better than the choices I keep making and the things I choose to deal with