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okk just used some girls pics for the first time in a few years. i got a double text. & a compliment

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the world is coming to an end but i’m not sad abt that. i’m sad that i never got the chance to be be in a relationship with someone. whether that be platonic or romantic. all thanks to me being unattractive.

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me when i wanna call someone retarded but to be fair i’m not specifying my responses so

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and just like that june is over

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considering catfishing just so i can get some male attention. used to to it a few years ago but stopped because i realized whats the point since they’re going to eventually find out im lying anyway. and i wanted to be authentic with people and not hide behind the face of some random woman i found on the internet. but overtime ive just grown to not care anymore. although the attention i receive as a catfish is temporary id rather that than being ugly and getting no attention at all.

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everyone is just genuinely pissing me off i miss my incel friend i used to talk to. i’ve known him since i was 14 but abt a year ago we got into a petty argument like we always do and i blocked him out of irritation. usually we always end up adding each other back or so, as we’ve had an on & off relationship throughout the years, but i deleted my acc during our last argument bc i decided i wanted nothing to do with him. looking back i don’t regret it in the moment because we did need a break from each other, but i do regret it now. i miss him alot and ik he misses me too. i just don’t know his username unfortunately & i don’t have the same username ive had previously either. and ik this sounds silly “why are you obsessing over some white incel & ur black at that” we truly had a strong connection that grew each year. i felt like we understood each other like no other despite us being the opposite gender. & i’ve been chronically online my entire fucking life, so i’m a fucked up & weird individual. my self respect goes out the window. like i’m genuinely just a lost cause and im fucked.

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i genuinely hate when i tell someone abt my problems or how im unattractive and they try giving me advice that makes no sense what so fucking ever. you can not change what features you’re born with. like that’s it. i’m just ugly. also im not looking for fucking advice i can’t change myself. i’m simply just fucking venting.

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hopping back on this acc again bc i don’t want ppl to know im genuinely a femcel with a negative mindset 24/7

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just scrolled through the femcel tag and there’s so many pretty women i would kill to be. the larp is genuinely insane, meanwhile im genuinely unattractive.

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it’s humiliating to be so ugly to the point you can’t even casually hold a conversation with someone let alone a relationship. whether it be romantic or platonic, my statement still stands. i feel guilty when i interact with people.

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what do i truly look like under all these layers of fat

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it’s crazy how life genuinely relies on jobs… i see a lot of ppl say “oh i don’t need a job in order to keep a steady flow of income” and good for them but that’s not the reality for most ppl… im not a creative person nor am i the entrepreneur type i quite literally need to work for someone lol sigh. anyway it’s just frustrating bc i need a job i wanna change my life and be able to take care of things but i can’t without money. and i need a job for the money. sigh

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i’m a living example of the term humiliation ritual

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death is easier than being fat

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i need a fuckign JOB.

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idk what’s up with black girls being upset.. (well i guess in a sense it’s similar to someone saying they’re upset over racism) but idk why they’re so upset when someone says they don’t like black girls / don’t want to date them? the world is full of ppl why are you upset abt ppl who don’t like/wont date your kind lol. just find someone who will. for every person that dislikes you there is someone that likes you. stop getting upset/obsessing over ppl that don’t even like you / don’t want to date you. i’m black and i never cared abt that lol

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i wish i was pretty enough to be in a relationship