Note To Self 11-19

From an adult born 11-19 at 11:19 who is constantly haunted by the time 11:19 as if it's the time everything must happen...here is a blog for things I need to hear: notes to self (or a social way of speaking to my inner child without saying it aloud). I have nowhere else to put them that makes sense, so here they are. I hope some of these help other people too. ((If you just need the reminder &/or these help you (even if you don’t believe it yet), go ahead & reblog! It's always okay to reblog my posts!! You can reblog multiple times if you want, I don't mind! It's cool to see you like my content & want to share it 🥰))

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A note that will deviate from the others...

& ⚠️ heavy, heavy ab*se/neglect (leading into as--ult mention) trigger warning & warning g*n*t*ls mention ⚠️

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No human who loves me, especially a parent, ever would’ve told me at six years old what gen*t*ls I have, & then not only allowed without concern but encouraged me to tell total strangers in public about this information. And they would not laugh about it for years (now going on 16 years of laughing about endangering their child). That was one h*ll of a way to set up a child (especially an AFAB/pre transition transmasc person) to get s-xually as--ulted/gr--med....which is exactly what happened after/because of that. 🙄

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Note to self...

You did not deserve to be abused.

You did not deserve to be abused.

You did not deserve to be abused.

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You did not deserve to be traumatized.

You did not deserve to be traumatized.

You did not deserve to be traumatized.

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You did not deserve to be mistreated.

You did not deserve to be mistreated.

You did not deserve to be mistreated.

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You did not deserve to be neglected.

You did not deserve to be neglected.

You did not deserve to be neglected.

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You did not do anything & could not have done anything that would have made someone abusing, neglecting, or mistreating you okay.

You did not do anything & could not have done anything that would have made someone abusing, neglecting, or mistreating you okay.

You did not do anything & could not have done anything that would have made someone abusing, neglecting, or mistreating you okay.

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You did not forget to do anything that would have made someone abusing, neglecting, or mistreating you okay.

You did not forget to do anything that would have made someone abusing, neglecting, or mistreating you okay.

You did not forget to do anything that would have made someone abusing, neglecting, or mistreating you okay.

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You deserve kindness even when you mess up.

You deserve kindness even when you mess up.

You deserve kindness even when you mess up.

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Note to self...

¿What if it works out?

¿What if it works out?

¿What if it works out?

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¿What if you knew more than you thought you did?

¿What if you knew more than you thought you did?

¿What if you knew more than you thought you did?

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¿What if you’re more competent than you assume you are?

¿What if you’re more competent than you assume you are?

¿What if you’re more competent than you assume you are?

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¿What if they were just insecure bullies, & you were never incompetent?

¿What if you were never incompetent?

¿What if you were never incompetent?

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¿What if they were just jealous or envious of your competence, your confidence, your direction in life, something they thought you had that they wanted?

¿What if they were just jealous or envious?

¿What if they were just jealous or envious?

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¿What if you already are enough?

¿What if you already are enough?

¿What if you already are enough?

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Note to self...

You always know more than you think you do.

You always know more than you think you do.

You ALWAYS know more than you think you do.

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So ¿why do you keep underestimating yourself?

¿Why do you keep underestimating yourself?

¿Why do you keep underestimating yourself?

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You are capable.

You are smart.

You are strong.

You can do this, with or without the approval of others.

You can do this.

Maybe it’s time to stop underestimating yourself.

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Note to self...

I will learn to love you.

I will learn to love you.

I will learn to love you.

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I am learning to not hate you.

I am learning to not hate you.

I am learning to not hate you.

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I am learning how to tolerate you.

I am learning how to tolerate you.

I am learning how to tolerate you.

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It is okay to need to learn to tolerate yourself before you can learn to like yourself.

It is okay to need to learn to tolerate yourself before you can learn to like yourself.

It is okay to need to learn to tolerate yourself before you can learn to like yourself.

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It is okay to need to learn to tolerate yourself before you can learn to love yourself.

It is okay to need to learn to tolerate yourself before you can learn to love yourself.

It is okay to need to learn to tolerate yourself before you can learn to love yourself.

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Note to self...

You are worthy.

You are worthy.

You are worthy.

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You are worthy of & deserving of being loved.

You are worthy of & deserving of being loved.

You are worthy of & deserving of being loved.

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You are worthy of respect.

You are worthy of respect.

You are worthy of respect.

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You are not worthless.

You are not worthless.

You are not worthless.

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You are valuable.

You are valuable.

You are valuable.

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You are valued.

You are valued.

You are valued.

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Dear self,

I love you.

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((((You don't have to 100% believe these to reblog them. It's okay to reblog as a reminder.))))

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Note to self...

You don’t need to perform your gender.

You don’t need to perform your gender.

You don’t need to perform your gender.

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You don’t need to raise or lower your voice to “match” your gender.

You don’t need to raise or lower your voice to “match” your gender.

You don’t need to raise or lower your voice to “match” your gender.

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You don’t need to perform your assigned gender.

You don’t need to perform your assigned gender.

You don’t need to perform your assigned gender.

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You don’t need to perform your gender to make other people feel more comfortable or accept you.

You don’t need to perform your gender to make other people feel more comfortable or accept you.

You don’t need to perform your gender to make other people feel more comfortable or accept you.

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YOU DO NOT NEED TO PERFORM YOUR GENDER.