theartofyearning

too many feelings, not enough words

[notesfromaheavyheart]

“Communication isn’t the key, understanding is.”

[notesfromaheavyheart]

The curse of loving more than being loved

I always wondered what it would feel like to be loved the way I loved others. Watching people love each other so effortlessly online and in real life made me crave that kind of love for myself. And honestly, I’ve always wanted to be loved as deeply as I love. Well if universe chooses the opposite of what i want, i would still be happy and loved, until it actually put me in that situation. Waiting for their messages, wanting reassurance, and getting stuck in the situation ‘If I were in your place, I would have given you everything I begged for.’ for the millionth time has me questioning their love for me. I’ve always thought being a giver and a lover would always reward me good things and the same energy back. But unfortunately, no. They say, ‘the grass will never appreciate the sun’s rays but the sun will still keep shining’ and i thought the same would happen with me, until i was cursed of loving more than being loved. But who am i without loving too hard?