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24. I usually take photos and hate my whole existence.

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Life update:

24, still know nothing at all.

Can’t believe i’m back here again, welp

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Noice. -cc

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by Citlali Haro

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beauty of Shaw at night

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Short Term 12 (2013) ayoko na lalo ata ako magkakasakit neto shet kanina pa ako umiiyak dahil sobrang ganda ng film na to hayyyyy pakshet kayong lahat ☹️ pero sana makahanap tayong lahat ng Mason sa buhay natin because we all deserve someone who will still hold our hand kahit na gaano man kahirap, kahit na gaano man natin inaakala na di natin deserve ang mahalin, kahit na gaano man tayo katakot, kahit na gaano man natin tinutulak palayo ang mga taong gusto tayong mahalin at mas makilala pa (kahit naman di talaga natin mine-mean yun most of the time, i think we're all just afraid of letting them in??? or we're just rlly overwhelmed kaya di na natin alam paano mag function kapag ayan na shet may tao na na gusto tayong mahalin). i know being loved by someone doesn't necessarily mean na they can heal our wounds or kaya na nila tayong ayusin kasi wala naman pwedeng mag-ayos sa sarili natin kundi ang sarili lang din natin mismo. hindi ganun kadali. but i think, being genuinely loved by a person who doesn't invalidate your mental illness, who doesn't leave you everytime you breakdown, who doesn't make you feel that your feelings and thoughts are insignificant, and someone who makes you realize your purpose can somehow make you want to kill your self less. sana mahanap niyo yung person na yun and sana you can also find that kind of love within yourselves.

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parang lagi na lang may kulang

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first day ko sa first job ko tomorrow!!!!

after the interview few weeks ago, i’ve been thinking really hard about whether i should accept this job or not kasi di ko pa talaga alam kung ready na ako mga mumsh. but i realized na sometimes, okay din siguro yung hindi maging totally ready and just let things be. kaya eto, magpapaagos na ako sa daloy ng buhay at susubukan kong hindi magpalunod :-)

good luck sa ‘yo, self. don’t forget that it’s okay to fail. make room for mistakes and be sure to turn it into smthn that can help you improve yourself more. and lastly, have courage. you are so much braver than your fears.

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I don’t know how to love without using my whole heart. I don’t know what its like to love someone ‘half way’. I practice giving love in the same way I’d like to receive it.

Reyna Biddy (via thequotejournals)

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good night from my lonely heart

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“I remember I loved you. But I don’t feel it anymore.” Equals (2015)

aahhhhhh this film really fucked me up. bigtime. watching it at 1am makes it even more harder to bear gags sobrang hnghhhh. tapos gusto ko lang din mag rant abt how she could’ve chose to get the cure too para di na din siya makaramdam ng anything katulad ni guy, but… she chose not to. she decided to still live with the pain instead of feeling absolutely nothing??????? :-( alam din niya na getting the cure also means remembering how she loved the guy but not being able to feel it. ang lungkot kasi mas pinili niyang maramdaman lahat lahaaaat kesa makalimutan kung gaano niya kamahal yung guy kahit na alam niyang possible na she wouldn’t be able to get the same love she gave to him. she chooses to love him unconditionally :( God, i wish i was that brave.

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What app do you use in editing your photos?

VSCO :)

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April 6-8, 2017 Matabungkay, Batangas.

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Pinili ang sarili, nadisappoint. Char hahahaha ✨ piliin natin lagi maging masaya ✨

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It has been 2 days since I graduated. And the feeling is still absolutely ~surreal~. Good luck sa real world, self. You got this ✨

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Anong gamit mong cam?

Cam lang ng phone ko bc my savings aren't that enough for me to buy my own camera :((

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How did you print those pictures on your wall?

Yung parang polaroid ba? I printed out my photos lang sa old printer namin then nag improvise lang ako nung frame para maging polaroid-ish 😊 The rest, artworks ko na talaga and not pictures :)