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[notmeormyself]

Hello peeps.

Been a long time coming but I’m retiring this acc. It’s gonna be my archive! Please dm me for my new acc IF we are mutuals (I follow you, you follow me. Or we’re friends)

[notmeormyself]

Yeagh

[notmeormyself]

I find it beyond funny (annoying and killing me inside) that i don’t post here anymore due to someone stalking the acc that puts my safety at risk. Anyway .

[rollercoasterwords]

i'm literally the priest's favorite sacrificial lamb because i am so docile and sweet and i hold very still when they put the rope around my neck and i trot along so happily while they lead me to the altar and they do not even have to tie me down because i lie so very still and only bleat once or twice in my lovely lamb voice and when the knife comes down it cuts through me like butter and i offer no resistance and i bleed so prettily all over my new white wool and my guts all unspool like the most beautiful shining yarn and my eyes are animal and dumb and hold no accusation and every time i die i come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much and he always chooses me for the sacrifice every time and he always places one hand on my small and twitching nose to calm me while he lifts the knife and he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because i'm his favorite

[notmeormyself]

Haven’t drawn much sorray y’all

[raiain]

the moon asks a question by dirgewithoutmusic

illustrated by raiain

[notmeormyself]

So I’ve been having the worst week ever. Filled with paranoia episodes, constant anxiety & depression. And I think (?) last night I realised it’s mainly I’d run out of meds for a week or so and It only took me getting horrible physical withdrawals to notice this. I was getting tremors, throwing up, so dizzy I couldn’t stand right and hallucinating and more shit. Passed out cuz jannis fronted (according to cerise), and woke up sluggishly to gimmy (the best boyfren) having gone out to get me meds and feeding them to me…but then I woke up properly some hours later and saw he bought me a jumbo version of the perfume I like because “I saw they had a BahamaMama version so I got it for you :]” WAAAAAHJUHHHH HES SO SWEET IM SNIFFLING IM CRYING

[notmeormyself]

Here’s ur bimonthly post:

I hate being a system. We all do. Rn we’re all complaining.

[sysboxes]

[text ID: This innerworld is fucking massive and vivid.]

Like or Reblog if you save or use!!!

[sysboxes]

[text ID: "This innerworld is fucking massive and vivid and full of all kinds of shit."]

Like or Reblog if you save or use!!!

[notmeormyself]

Finding it hard to sleep because heart problems (again) so here are all the thumbnail artworks I’ve done for my most recent music videos

[notmeormyself]

Big fan of this fucking thing

[soundcarvings]

Whenever an ugly feeling arises in me, maybe resent, greed, insecurity, etc. I just have to laugh and think to myself, this is what being alive is and I don’t deny my capacity for ugliness, in fact I store my faith in it because that same awareness of my own ugliness is the place I go to when I am aware of my own beauty. I have all the time in the world to sort it out, that’s the thing with self trust. I don’t hide from others and I don’t hide from myself, where there is ugliness I observe it and I don’t turn away.

[soundcarvings]

People who deny their own ugliness, turn away from it, find shame in it and then pretend that they aren’t ashamed are the ones with the deepest capacity for cruelty. Time to see yourself clearly and move forward anyways.

[sysboxes]

[Text: This system is used to not being able to ask for food, please offer it.]

[Text: This system is not used to being able to ask for food, please offer it.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use

(both these mean the same thing, they’re just worded differently)

[sysboxes]

[text ID: "This system is brainmade heavy"]

Like/Reblog if you use!

[sysboxes]

[Text: This alter is so full of cigarettes, yum.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use!

[notmeormyself]

I NEED TO GET MY PIANO OUT……I NEED TO PLAY IT.

It’s like something that kept me sane so long ago and i haven’t been able to touch the keys for over a year…I NEED IT BACKKKK