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Mazzy Star performing Fade Into You in 1994 (MTV): “A stranger’s light comes on slowly, a stranger’s heart without a home, you put your hands into your head, and then smiles cover your heart…”

[picaet]

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RUSSIA. Moscow. 2002 Gueorgui Pinkhassov

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[andsewfortoday]

[wavejumper]

[ashlandrenee]

[anamorphosis-and-isolate]

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[notsohunkydory]

my body is a house that’s falling apart

the floors creak

the ceiling is stained

the doors don’t lock

i didn’t ask for it to be built

and i can barely bother to keep up with the maintenance

and that’s what’s wrong being so complacent

because you see that the world is so meaningless

so i stay stuck in the same cycle

dreading every day

but strangely falling in love with that pain

because it’s the only thing that i can feel

except for the loneliness i feel when i look up into the sky and realize i am nothing

nothing but a raindrop falling into the sea

nothing but everything all at the same time

i am a part of something bigger

that my mind cannot even begin to fathom

because my head is a beautiful, yet dark, complex place

and the weight of my sins overcome the love i want to give

how are you supposed to forgive when you don’t know how to forget?

and what the fuck are you supposed to do when you look in the mirror and don’t know who’s looking back at you?

the love in my heart isn’t enough to keep my body from falling apart

i have the weight of the world on my shoulders

and i feel it collapsing in

because i can’t forgive me

and God won’t forgive me

how are these ceilings so stained?

and how the fuck am i already out of white paint?

and why does this yellow carport light make me feel so god damn empty?

i just need another cup of coffee

and to feel the burn of the smoke from my cigarette in my eye

to remind me that i am here

i am here

and i am real

God, please forgive me.

[notsohunkydory]

happiness

[oliviamobbs]

[stckwll]

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