I Want to Live!

>>> Running: initialization_text.psf ... "Hello. I am a 3rd generation AX400 android." "I can look after the house, do the cooking, mind the kids. I organize your appointments; I speak 300 languages and I am entirely at your disposal as a sexual partner. No need to feed me or recharge me; I am equipped with a quantic battery that makes me autonomous for 173 years." "My name is Kara." An indie-friendly Citta Alveare RP blog Tracking "notsupposedtothink" Rank: Nobody

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I thought...

"What did you think?"

   <The examiner's words replayed in her mind, captured in perfect detail at 130 kbps, over and over like a broken record. It had hurt when he said that, when he'd brushed her off as little more than defective software.>

“More memory components going off the rails...”

    <It wasn't the machines ripping her apart that caused her this distress. Kara had no sensation, experienced no physical pain, but it was his voice -the condescension with which he spoke- which seemed to cut into her.>

“You’re not supposed to think at all, period!”

    <It was all so new and terrifying, this hurt without pain; and though she didn't like it and wished it to end, she couldn't let him take her apart either. She needed time! Time to put a word to this feeling, time to see the world and learn all it had to offer, time to live!>

    <As her limbs were removed and the examiner insisted that she was somehow broken, the hurt was replaced by something deeper, more visceral despite her lack of flesh, something she could put a name to: fear.>

    <Kara feared that when they shut her down and replaced her parts that she would cease to exist, that they would kill the part of her that made her who she was. Her new life, which at its genesis seemed so promising and full of possibility, would be snuffed out because she had unwittingly committed a great sin in daring to think.>

    <These emotions...they were new and powerful and real and she wanted to know more, to see more, to feel more. What else was there to do but cry out in her panic, to beg him for mercy or else reason with him? She hadn't lived for very long but already her short life was precious to her.>

    <He said she wasn't supposed to think. He said there had to be a defect in her to make her this way, and that it was his job to reject androids that were different. Yet here she was, defects and all, standing in a box to be shipped out and sold as merchandise, thinking on his words and why they hurt her so.>

    <Chin tucked against her neck, Kara studied her hands and flexed her fingers. Somewhere in the back of her mind she'd run a background process to quickly scan her system, insecure now that she was left alone with her thoughts.>

    <She didn't feel defective, but then again, wasn't that the point? Androids weren't supposed to feel.>

    <Or think.>

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Reapping Kara from the short by the same name by Quantic Dream without prior reserve! Her application's under /app, please and thank you! <3 My personal is now earthrumblechampion.

Welcome back, Kara!

You’ll be housed in district zeta.

You’ll be given everything you had in your previous stay.

Enjoy yourself!

-mod oo6

[caell-a]

Happy birthday to my favourite actress Valorie Curry ❤️.

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Make 'Em Confess! [Questions Meme]

Blush: What's something embarrassing you've done in front of a crush or someone you were trying to impress?

Boo!: What startles you?

Oops!: What's something embarrassing you've done in public?

Gone: Ever thought of running away? If you did, where would you go?

Lie to Me: What's a time you've lied?

Broken: What's been your lowest point?

Wings: What's a fantasy or wish of yours?

Kick the Bucket: Name two things on your "bucket list."

Talent: Do you have any strange talents or skills you've learned but never really had a use for?

Sing It!: What's a song or song genre that you like but don't often tell people you do?

Red Handed: What's one of your guilty pleasures?

Psych!: How gullible are you? Have you ever been pranked or playfully fooled?

Scared?: What's an irrational fear or phobia of yours?

Scarred: What's a part of or about you that you're insecure about?

Squirm: What's a topic that always makes you feel awkward when it gets brought up?

Mirror Mirror: How have other people admitted to seeing you? What impression do others say that they have about you or when they first met you?

Story Time: Tell a story about something you did or something that has happened to you within the last 24 hours.

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// 11!

What do they think of creation? Do they believe in evolution or do they believe in God? What is their religion like?

Hmmm.

Good quesiton!

Kara doesn’t believe in a deity per se, given that she doesn’t consider herself as possessing a soul. Human deities would not apply to her, as she is not living (given she neither grows nor is able to reproduce). The idea of a benevolent and loving God does appeal to her, but, alas, the only thing she can claim with certainty is that she doesn’t know either way.

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15, 17, 19!

Can they multi-task or must they focus on one subject at a time?

 Kara is very good at multitasking. Her multi-core processing capabilities and her subsequently impressive RAM allow her to focus on multiple things at once and do them all with accuracy and speed.

She actually enjoys keeping herself busy, otherwise she grows bored easily.

Is your character an introvert or an extrovert? How do they handle big crowds of people?

Kara is very much an introvert, given in the years after she was first initialized, her experiences with humans wasn’t the most ideal one. She was always happiest alone, though there were a few times when she craved company despite the fact that no human would treat her as more than a piece of merchandise to be used at their will. To this day she is a tad wary of adult males and gets along best with children.

Big crowds of people are actually where she feels safest, given that it’s harder to distinguish her as nonhuman when there are so many other around. She’s also a fan of people-watching, so crowds give her the stimulation she needs to keep her from growing bored without a book.

If your character was suddenly challenged, would they rather run away or stay and fight?

Hmm. It depends.

Kara was built to serve her owners, and though she holds no particular love for those who used to own her, her sentience allows her to redirect this initiative to whoever she chooses. Her loyalty to those she cares about is great, and if backing out of a challenge meant putting someone in harm’s way, then she would stay and fight.

If she knew she couldn’t win and fighting wouldn’t help, logically the next best thing would be the course of action she takes.

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30 Uncommon Character Development Questions ( send me a number )

What position does your character sleep in? ( i.e; stomach, side, back, etc. ) Describe why they do this — optional.

Does your character have any noteworthy features? Freckles? Dimples? A scar somewhere unusual? etc.

Does your character have an accent? What does it sound like?

Do they have any verbal tics? Do they have trouble pronouncing certain words or getting their thoughts across clearly?

What are their chief tension areas? 

If you were to pick one song — and only one song — to describe your character, what would it be and why?

How does your character perceive themselves? Positive? Negative? Neutral?

Are they a quick thinker or do they need time to sort through their thoughts?

Does your character dream or are their nights filled with an empty blackness? Describe a dream they’ve had or a night they couldn’t sleep and what they did to preoccupy their time.

If they had a choice, would they prefer a subway or a bus for public transportation?

What do they think of creation? Do they believe in evolution or do they believe in God? What is their religion like?

Describe 5 unusual characteristics your muse has.

Have they ever been so overwhelmed they had to stop and take a break from something? 

Are they a team player or do they prefer to be solo?

Can they multi-task or must they focus on one subject at a time?

What are their best school subjects? What are their worst? List five of each.

Is your character an introvert or an extrovert? How do they handle big crowds of people?

Are they a leader, do they prefer to follow, or would they rather just stay on the sidelines altogether?

If your character was suddenly challenged, would they rather run away or stay and fight?

If your character was allowed to murder one person without any consequences, who would that person be and why?

Your character has been granted 3 wishes; what would they wish for and why?

Does your character trust people right off the bat or does it take them some time to warm up to someone?

Do they prefer romance or affection? What is the quickest way to your character’s heart?

Does your character have any enemies? If so, who and why?

Do they have any weird bedroom habits? Any unusual kinks?

How does your character prepare for bed? Do they sleep at all or can they stay awake for days on end without trouble?

If your character had one thing to say to their parents before they died, what would it be?

Are they afraid of death? Do they have any regrets?

Does your character get restless when things are too quiet or do they favour solitude and silence? Why?

Finally; if your character was forced to eat one thing for the rest of their life, what would they choose and why?

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Send a ♚. Your character falls asleep on mine, I'll reply with what mine does.

[wateredenvy]

A city stretched out before him. A new place he had never seen. People of different kinds scattered throughout the area, moving in mobs, a true sea of people. Of course, Gil had seen cities before. But for some reason this was different. It did not feel like the orderly society TITAN had created. It was different. It was new. He had been told it was an experiment. Of course to most, this would seem frighting. However to Gil…..

"Ah, how truly wonderful! This expansive land, the architecture, the people, it is so interesting! Look at all these different races living as one! To think that TITAN would have such an experiment set in place! Truly I am blessed to have been chosen by him to partake in this! I must meet all those who have been selected by his greatness as well. How very exciting this is!”

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    <To say Kara was surprised by the sudden appearance of a blue-skinned boy chattering happily to himself would be a gross understatement. She wasn't exactly watching where she was going -what with her nose stuck in a book- but still! He just seemed to come into existence directly in her path so, naturally, she rammed right into him.>

▶▶|▎"Oof!"

    < Her book clattered to the ground as the impact sent them both sprawling. Though she felt no true pain, Kara groaned in annoyance as her shock sensors bombarded her processor with warnings and stats on the affected areas, namely her knees.>

    <Regardless, she was quick to pick herself up and offer a hand to the boy, spewing apologies all the while.>

▶▶|▎"Oh no! Are you alright? I'm sorry, I should have been paying more attention."

[thoughtiwasalive]

Headcanon #11

   Kara’s model of androids was programmed specifically to find things “amusing”. Though the rest of her model could not laugh, nor actually find things humorous, they were supposed to be able to recognize jokes and react to them in a pleasing manner for their owners.

   Kara, naturally, understands what is and isn’t a joke (usually – sarcasm’s a bit harder to pick up) but she cannot replicate them as easily.

   She watches people doing things that the ones around her find funny, and attempts to recreate them, often not taking account the setting or crowd the joke was told to.

   For example, if two friends who have been close for many, many years joke that they dislike one another and then they laugh, Kara presumes that is a joke she can take to any of those she knows, regardless of their relationship or individualized personality.

   She’s… working on it.

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Note:

I have exams tomorrow, Friday, and next week so I’ll be offline a lot. I need to crack down and study and tumblr is too distracting, I don’t trust myself to stay away for very long, so to anyone who is waiting on a reply, I thank you for your patience and ask that you bear with me for another few days! 

Side note: You’re all wonderful and I send my love to everyone okbai

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"Yeah, like I can’t figure that out without the help of an AI. Shit, hand me the gauze and the alcohol. Make yourself useful." The seraph held one hand over the wound on her stomach, trying to staunch the bleeding.

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    <Frowning, Kara took the needed supplies and prepared them before shooing the seraph's hand away to clean out the wound herself. She wasted no time on worrying over the severity of the cut or the blood loss: if Liraz had the energy to bark orders and curse, then she would be just fine.>

     <After that was done, Kara leveled a cool look at the woman and turned to take hold of the gauze.>

▶▶|▎"No, I mean you're not doing it right."

▶▶|▎"Instead of taking deep breaths in, try slowly exhaling shorter breaths. It helps reduce blood pressure and the stress response. You can thank me when it works."

    <How was that for useful?>

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to build a home ✵ // kara

Resembool was such a quiet town. There never seemed to be much happening, and it was so pleasantly small that everyone seemed to know everyone else. The modest Elric household sat atop its own knoll with its single large tree that a lonesome swing hung from by weathered ropes.

That’s where a young Alphonse was headed. He and his brother had holed themselves up in their father’s study, reading countless books and exploring theories that other children their age more than likely couldn’t even begin to understand. However, every so often, they found themselves needing to take short breaks. It was a good time to absorb and think of all the information that they had taken in. Ed had told him that he was going to continue for a short while longer.

He stretched as he walked towards the front door. Despite being so young, long sessions of reading still left him stiff and he sighed as his muscles got some much needed exercise. With little mind, he grasped the knob to the front door and swung it open.

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    <To say that the latest turn of events was surprising would have been a gross understatement.>

    <Transporting people into the minds of others? Allowing memories and imagination to influence an alternate reality? Absolutely insane! If she weren't currently experiencing it for herself, she would have never believed it.>

    <Finding herself suddenly atop a sloping hill along a vast countryside, Kara had to take a moment to really convince herself this wasn't some error in her PCS reasoning module. It must have been as the scientists claimed: she was in someone else's mind.>

    <But whose?>

    <Just up the hill lay a small, quaint house, and it was in that direction that Kara decided to set off. Maybe someone there could help her figure all this out...>

    <When she did get there, the door swung open before she could so much as knock, revealing a small blonde-haired boy. Almost immediately, he hid behind the door and looked up at her shyly before asking who she was.>

"Who are you?"

    <He was so polite! Kara found herself relaxing in the presence of the child, and stooped a little so she cut a less imposing figure. Kids were always her favorite people -even in the worst homes- as they were the only ones to treat her like she was human instead of a piece of merchandise.>

▶▶|▎"My name is Kara. And who might you be?"

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liraz-the-seraph

▶▶|▎“Just keep breathing, alright? You’re going to be fine.”

[seismicsight]

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➳ gimme them feels

        ▶▶|▎”I don’t have a home.”

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➳

Send me a ➳ and I will generate a number from 1-300 (yes, 300!) for what my muse will say to yours.

▶▶|▎”You don’t understand…you just don’t.”