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DONE. I’m resisting the urge to do a whole TED Talk on future Leo. However, I do want to discuss something on the matter. To be brief, while I see a lot of people in the fandom emphasizing the pain and self loathing of this character (all of which I am certain he goes through) that is not what I see in him by the beginning of the movie. Some one who hates himself that much and is so bogged down with regret would not be the type to speak about still having “hope” as their greatest weapon (especially in such a cheesy manner). I see a man who has gone through the ringer and come out the other end harder and wiser. But most importantly he appears to have doubled down on his faith in himself and even more so in his loved ones. He knows it’s not about him. That he doesn’t have the luxury to be depressed and ultimately must overcome his own mind to achieve his tenacious goals. Does he still have bad days? Most certainly, anyone filled with that kind of regret does, but I really think that this is a battle he fights and wins more often than not by the time of 2044. He is a man dedicated to his cause and family, and while he still has a long ways to go at this point in the story, I feel like this would be the start of him finally forgiving himself.
I’m not into torture porn (though that may surprise some of you) nor do I think it’s healthy to wallow in that sort of pain for an extensive period (fandoms can be a great outlet for this, but it can have a huge impact on your mental and emotional state if not treated in a healthy manner), and I want this to be a story of healing rather than one completely bogged down with sorrow. Because no matter how bleak things can be, you are always worthy of love, especially self love.
Please make sure to give yourself a hug and thank you for all your support and kind words. We have one last round to wrap up Leo’s arch then it’s onto April.
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