♚ You Can't Break Me

natasha romanoff alexandra murphy (the white witch) Multimuse || Multiverse Selective. Mun & Muse are 21+

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Is there another platform you write on?

I mainly write on Discord.

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Do you still write or have you grown out of it?

I definitely still write, just not so much on Tumblr anymore.

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Update: Tumblr still has not given me back my IMs. I can’t see anything that’s sent to me, and can’t send anything out. 

Sooo message me on Discord: alexandraxsark#5982

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i just want writing partners that actually want to write why is this so hard 

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Winter Fever Verse One

They'd been here before. Guns drawn, pointed at each other and trying to pretend they would actually pull the trigger. Bucky knew exactly what she was capable of, but he also knew she wouldn't kill him. Nor would he her. Yet there they were, Barnes staring down the barrel of a Sig 228 while Alexandra's piercing green eyes stared straight through him. It felt like hours passed with the two of them frozen in place, before finally her gun lowered, the blonde tucking the pistol back into its holster at her back.

"You shouldn't have come," she stated flatly, moving into the kitchen of the barely furnished flat as if nothing had just happened. Alexandra wasn't used to much, but this was certainly a new low even for her. The small studio in the heart of Belarus seemed all but vacant, had it not been for the bed in the corner of the room and the few nonperishable foods that lingered on top of the refrigerator.

Bucky watched as she moved through the flat with a grace that was burned into his memory from years before, although she had a tension to her now that he'd never known her to have before. His movements were careful and calculated, gun still at his side, though he knew it was more for her protection than his own. "What did you expect? Thinking a person is dead tends to make you curious," Bucky said as he lowered his weapon to the dusty countertop, setting it down carefully. "Really not happy to see me?"

Alex scoffed a bit, shaking her head as she pulled a bottle of Russian vodka from the old refrigerator. "Last time I saw you, you were fucking some redhead from one of Steve's fan clubs....in our bed," the blonde stated with a pointed look in his direction. "Happy is not the word I would use," she said, setting the bottle down a little too rough on the counter.

Ouch. It was a memory Bucky wasn't fond of, despite the circumstances. The part that stuck out at him like a knife in the gut was the ring that was left on an entry table, and the scent of her perfume disappearing out the door and out of his life for nearly five years. His face grimaced, taking a seat at the small bartop. Instead of arguing the specifics around the instance she referred to, Bucky cleared his throat, grabbing the bottle from the counter before she could, and taking a long swig to settle his own nerves. "You know why I'm here. They're looking for you, and it's only a matter of time before they find you."

The nefarious they. There was always a 'they'. Good guys, bad guys, sometimes even bill collectors that were far less threatening but just as annoying. Not knowing what she was tended to bring out a lot of 'theys', especially when they needed a weapon in the form of a immeasurable antihuman.

Alexandra had been a point of study most of her life, her touch being able to draw energy from anywhere it was available, absorbing it and converting it into electricity that coursed through her entire body. The absorbing of energy gave her strength that rivaled Bucky's, among other abilities that were still making themselves known. It was one of the many reasons she stayed off the radar for the past several years, tired of being used as a 'weapon' in wars that she had no part in.

Dark lashes lifted to watch his every movement - the ticks in his jaw, the flit of his eyes as he watched the door. He was predictable enough, though whose side he was on remained to be seen. "Sounds like you've been watching me," she said as she grabbed the bottle from his hands, taking a drink herself, more so to keep from slapping him like she desperately wanted to do. "Is that why you're here? To bring me in?" Alexandra asked, brow arching at the idea of a challenge.

Yes. He didn't say the words out loud, but that was precisely why he was sent there, regardless what his actual intentions were. "I want to know why they're after you," he stated simply, pulling a tracker from his pocket and snapping it in half between his fingers. He'd definitely pay for that one later, but Fury didn't need to know everything.

"Would you now?" Alex replied, staring at him without flinching. "Your boss doesn't give you a detailed summary of every mission you're sent on? Or have you turned into one of those scary looking henchmen that CNN raves about?"

Bucky rolled his eyes at the reference, even though that was almost exactly what he was on the surface. "All I saw was a name and a face," he said. "I volunteered once I saw that face on a wanted poster."

Alex let her lips lift in the slightest smirk, almost unnoticeable. "Sounds like a pretty important target," she said nonchalantly, taking another gulp straight from the bottle. "Still doesn't explain why you're here right now."

Bucky's instructions were clear - get her back to SHIELD. It was a difficult task, considering the amount of baggage between them was enough to fill a Boeing 727, but he also knew what could happen if things went sideways. "I'm trying to keep you safe. Whatever you've gotten yourself into, you can't get yourself out. You know that, I know that, and Fury knows that. We need you, and I think you need us," he said, pulling a flip phone from his back pocket slowly, opening it and leaving one number on the screen.

"You can come with me, or take your chances with them. You've only got about thirty minutes, give or take," he stated simply, rising from his seat and tucking his gun back into the holster in his jeans, moving towards the door. "See you soon Lex," Bucky said before he disappeared through the front door as quickly as he'd come.

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NATASHA ROMANOFF in CAPTAIN AMERICA: THE WINTER SOLDIER (deleted scene)

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UNREQUITED,  FALSE ASSUMPTIONS  &  PINING  PROMPTS 

TO EACH OTHER

❝  i love you.  and i know you don’t feel that way about me and that’s okay i just.  i wanted to get to say it at least once.  ❞

❝  what are you talking about—   of course i love you?  ❞

❝  but i do love you.  i always have.  i just thought you didn’t feel that way so i never said anything.  ❞

❝  look i…i do care about you.  a lot.  and i wish i could love you that way.  i really do but i just,  i’ve never seen you like that.  ❞ 

❝  …you love me?  ❞ 

❝  why didn’t you ever say anything?  ❞

❝  i did!  i loved you.  and i thought you didn’t feel that way so i moved on.  i’m with someone now.  why…why did you wait so long?  ❞

❝  why did you wait so long to tell me how you feel?  ❞

❝  i love you!   okay?  i’ve been so fucking in love with you for longer than i can remember.  ❞

❝  you should have told me how you felt.  ❞

❝  actually i…there was a little while there where i had this horrible crush on you.  if i’d known this was how you were feeling i would’ve gone for it.  ❞

❝  please don’t say it.  i know you don’t love me.  i don’t expect you to,  but just.  don’t make me have to hear you say it.  ❞

❝  i’ve loved you for so long…i don’t remember what it was like to not be in love with you.  ❞

❝  i can’t say no to you.  and it’s just not fair.  ❞

❝  please,  don’t be cruel.  i love you.  like really love you.  so if i’m just some passing curiosity for you…don’t.  don’t say anything at all. ❞

❝  you don’t get it.  i want the whole package with you. i don’t wanna be some fling you forget about in a few months.  ❞

❝  do you know how long i’ve waited for you?  ❞

❝  i don’t need you to love me back.  i just want you to be able to accept that this is how i feel.  ❞

❝  why did you think i wouldn’t love you back?  ❞

❝  will you just slow down a minute!  i’m trying to tell you i love you too.  ❞

❝  i wouldn’t have been messing around with anyone else if i knew about this sooner.  ❞

❝  will you stop crying so i can kiss you already?  ❞

❝  honestly i’d never thought about it…i just need time to think it over.  ❞

❝  i hadn’t ever taken the time to think about it.  but…that doesn’t mean i couldn’t love you.  ❞

❝  i just need to know.  do you love me?  or have i just been making this all in my head?  ❞

❝  i love you.  please don’t say anything yet.  you don’t need to say anything. ❞

❝  no—  they weren’t lying.  i do.  i love you.  but i didn’t want you to find out like that.  i didn’t want you find out at all,  actually.  ❞

❝  look can you just forget about it?  okay?  yeah i’m in love with you.  big deal.  it happens.  ❞

❝  yes i love you.  i’ll get over it.  ❞

❝  are you…are you really over me?  cause,  that’d actually really suck because i’m not over you.  ❞

❝  look,  i know you love me.  but you shouldn’t.  ❞

❝  you are far too good to love someone like me.  you’ll find someone better.  ❞

TO/FROM A THIRD PARTY

❝  if that’s how you feel about them why not just say it?  take a chance.  wouldn’t you rather know one way or the other?  ❞

❝  this whole time i didn’t see them…i didn’t see what was right in front of me and now it might be too late.   ❞

❝  i love them so much it hurts.  ❞

❝  love shouldn’t hurt this much.  this whole thing is just consuming you in a way that isn’t healthy.  ❞

❝  you either need to make a move or let them go.  ❞

❝  this isn’t good for you.  you can’t keep pouring yourself into someone who doesn’t even know you exist.  ❞

❝  you do see how they look at you,  right?  ❞

❝  don’t you realize they’ve been in love with you for years?  ❞

❝  they love you,  dumbass.  ❞

❝  look i’m so fed up with everyone knowing you two love each other except you.  go kiss them or shut the fuck up about it.  ❞

❝  just take a chance.  you might be surprised.  ❞

ACTIONS/SCENARIOS

[ CONFESSION ]  for sender to interrupt receiver’s confession of love by kissing them. 

[ CONFESSED ]  for receiver to interrupt sender’s confession of love by kissing them. 

[ STOP ]  for sender to try and walk away,  afraid they’re going to get their heart broken but receiver grabs their wrist and pulls them back in for a kiss. 

[ STOPPING ]  for receiver to try and walk away,  afraid they’re going to get their heart broken but sender grabs their wrist and pulls them back in for a kiss. 

[ CONFRONTING ]  for receiver to confront sender after a third party told receiver that sender is in love with them. 

[ DRAMATICS ]  for a near death experience to drive receiver to confess their feelings to sender. 

[ SEE ]  for receiver to be hurt and realize sender loves them because of the way they’re taking care of them. 

[ EAVESDROP ]  for receiver to overhear a conversation where sender talks about their feelings for them. 

[ HUSH ]  for sender to ramble about their feelings and how they know it isn’t requited only for receiver to put a hand over their mouth so they’ll be quiet long enough for them to explain they love them too. 

[ AWAKEN ]  for receiver to not think they feel the same way but realize after a simple hookup with sender that they’re in love with them to. 

[ CASUAL ]  for sender to want to sleep with receiver to get it out of their system.  but receiver winds up catching feelings to because of it. 

[ TENSION ]  for muses who have been pining for each other to finally have sex for the first time. 

[ BREAK ]  sender can’t take it anymore and kisses receiver out of nowhere. 

[ FREE ]  receiver can’t take it anymore and kisses sender out of nowhere. 

[ TRY ]  sender has confessed their feelings and receiver tries kissing them to see how they feel.  

[ TRYING ]  receiver has confessed their feelings and sender tries kissing them to see how they feel. 

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had a family emergency so I disappeared for a bit but I want to start some new threads sooooo

like for a starter from natasha or alexandra (specify which please)

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“ that guy's a real jerk. you should be with someone who respects you. “ “ and who would that be? “ for Natasha, if you like!

Respect. It was a concept that was rare with women in general unless it was demanded, but Bucky had a point. Natasha had a way of falling into old habits, simply because she needed to save everyone around her. It was both a blessing and a cancer that she refused to cut out. Bucky was a heavy example, just like Clint, and the countless others that she refused to give up on.

But hearing the words out loud felt different, like her aversion to leaving those who deserved to be left was somehow better if it was silent and swept under the rug. There he was though, hitting her in the face with reality and it stung worse than any wound she could have gotten in battle.

"And who would that be?" she mused, refusing to meet his gaze. "You? Steve? Why is it any of your concern who respects me and who doesn't?"

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oblivious idiots in love

credit if reposting, don't repost to other websites, change pronouns as needed x

“ you really don’t see it, do you? “

“ if there’s nothing going on there, you don’t mind if i ask her out, do you? “

“ you flat out just admitted you have feelings for me. “

“ i think i’m falling in love with you. “

“ is that really all she is to you? “

“ he kissed you? “ it was more of a peck... “

“ she’s just a friend? “

“ you’re so full of shit. “

“ come on, you’re in love with her. “

“ doesn’t take an idiot to figure it out. “ “ are you calling me an idiot? “

“ i wanted to kiss you. i’ve been wanting to kiss you for quite a while. “

“ so you kissed him, and then you... “ “ ran away. “

“ friends don't look at each other that way. “

“ not like i’ve fantasized about you, or anything… “

“ friends don’t talk about each other that way. “

“ you said i had nice lips. who says that? “

“ it’s just an innocent kiss. “

“ it’s easy to confuse feelings for something they aren’t, especially when eye-contact is involved. “

“ friends kiss each other all the time, right? “

“ we're just friends. “

“ you're still hung up on [your ex]. “

“ if you refuse to make a move, i will. “

“ man, fuck that guy. go show her what she’s missing. “

“ just put us all out of our misery and admit it already. “

“ she invited you to her [loved one's] funeral? “ “ yeah, for support and comfort. “ “ ...why you specifically? “

“ you were practically made for each other. “

“ she shut me down last time, remember? “

“ you’re in denial. “ “ i am not in denial! “

“ that guy's a real jerk. you should be with someone who respects you. “ “ and who would that be? “

“ look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t feel something for me. “

“ do you have a crush on me or something? “

“ are you asking me out? “ “ no. i mean yes, maybe... as friends? “

“ don’t let this one go. he’s perfect for you. “

“ unless you don't like me, in which case i take it back. “

“ do you think that this, us… do you think it could ever be something more? “

“ she’s everything i ever wanted, but i don’t want to risk losing her as a friend. “

“ i’m worried that if we go there, and things don't work out... things might never be the same. “

“ you know that’s not the case. she adores you. “

“ you’re more than just friends. it’s obvious. “

“ of course i love him, we’ve been friends for ages. “

“ grow some balls and be honest with her. “

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tag dump

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Finally ready to do some writing so I have my bio for Alexandra Sarkovsky up, but I’m also open to some other Marvel, TVD, The Originals verses!

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Soooo while I’m revamping this blog, I’m down to take on new plots here or on Discord.

This new lil bean is my Marvel OC, Alexandra Murphy, the sister to the Scarlet Witch. I have so many plot ideas for her that involve several MCU characters like Steve, Bucky, Wanda, etc.

So if you’re looking for an MCU plot based writing partner, message me here or on discord! I’ll be posting the full verse I have in mind as well as some other ideas soon!

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oh hi i’ll just be here revamping this page

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They told me that to make her fall in love, I had to make her laugh. But everytime she laughs, I’m the one who falls in love.

Tommaso Ferraris  (via thelovejournals)

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