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[nov4c4n3]

|HEADCANON: Rui sometimes writes his own feelings for Tsukasa.|

Rui's POV

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Sometimes I wonder, could life really be this colorful?

Could there be a sun just for me in my life?

Or should I call it a star instead?

☆☆☆

Every time I hold your hands, I think about the first time we became friends.

I think about you in general, but I never imagined we would come to such a beautiful point together.

“Weird kid” huh? You’re probably the first person who never looked at me that way.

If I had the right, I’d like to appreciate you, but instead, I want to be appreciated by you.

I want to have that right too.

☆☆☆

I will always love looking into your star-like shining eyes. I will always love stroking your soft hair, breathing in your scent that feels like the sea.

☆☆☆

You know how people see infinity when they look at the horizon? That’s what I see when I look at you. Or rather, what I see is my love for you. Infinite, boundless, endless. Just like the seas. Just like the sky.

☆☆☆

Just like the stars in the sky.

☆☆☆

Just like you.

--- ART CR: @tyuoisugoikani on X next shipp?? skdfjskfjsk

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Voting ended onAug 31, 2025

[nov4c4n3]

hello.

thank you for supporting my writings

i take reqs, you can just send them

any fandom and any pov

the fandoms i take reqs: bsd, pjsk, vocaloid, angel beats, eva and more

if youre curious, just ask me the fandom

[nov4c4n3]

someone said "youre shipping mizurui just because you want to see mizuki with a male" ENOUGH.

[nov4c4n3]

In an alternative universe, Mizuki is depressed, in love with Rui, writes a letter for him that she never gets to give to him.

Mizuki's POV

"I haven't seen you around here in a long time.

Though, it's kind of my fault since i haven't been going to school for quite a while.

Or basically, i haven't been going outside.

It's been a long time.

A really long time.

Days.

Weeks.

Months?

I think i've even lost my sense of time, haha.

The only place i've gone during this time was that CD shop we went to together.

And the last place i saw you was on the school rooftop, just like the first time I saw you.

Actually, you know what? I never forget the first time i saw you.

Your bright yellow eyes reminded me of the sun.

And you truly became the sun in my dark world.

When i was in a terrible state, you brought light and warmth into my life.

I still haven’t forgotten the day i cried in your arms back in middle school.

And when none of my other friends accepted me as i am, i started missing you even more.

I still even miss you so much.

How many more days do i have to wait to be like we used to be?

365? 730?

But if i knew it would be worth it, i could wait my whole life for you.

For you to come back to that rooftop, to talk to me again.

To break the silence and the stillness.

To belong to you again, even if I never really did.

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Maybe I should go up to that rooftop one last time and look at the sun one last time,

as it sets.

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You promised you wouldn't leave me behind, yet you still did."

ART CR: @/OKUJ0UGUMI on X

[nov4c4n3]

In an alternative universe, where Mizuki didn't come back to the N25, left the group and N25 fell apart.

Ena's POV

"There may be sides of you that i don't know,

but, as far as i'm concerned, you have been always here,

so i hope you stay a little longer.

I want you to know that i've never changed since then. I just stayed and waited for you.

I waited for you to come back.

I waited for you to come back to my arms.

And that's it, that is all.

You're not coming back.

I've been looking for you in every person i meet and talk since then.

Life was beautiful when you were there.

My life was black and white, and you painted it pink.

But now, there's no color anymore.

Just me, my little stupid brother, and my worthless art.

I miss that you're being the only precious thing in my life.

I miss you, my precious friend.

ART CR: @/WreckrOfLaplace on X

[nov4c4n3]

Dazai's POV

"With you, i can be insistent.

But unfortunately, one of us had to die.

And you were the one who insisted.

Can you see where am i right now?

Can you feel what i cherish?

And the most important,

can you come back?

Not trying to sound like a freak,

but,

when i look up to the sky, i've always seen you through it.

And it looked so beautiful,

just like you.

And even though people pollute the sky, it still looks beautiful,

and i know you're still beautiful even though you're gone."

COULDN'T FIND THE ARTIST, COMMENT IF YOU KNOW.

[nicerbutnot2u]

Once again asking

1) why are you crosstagging

2) why are you reposting art that you not only don't have permission to post, but don't know the artist for?

You're good enough to delete my reply, but you're not good enough to investigate the information the other person gave to try and help you. Are you even old enough to be on tumblr?

[nov4c4n3]

hi.

first of all, i forgot to edit the tags.

second of all, i got that photo on pinterest, there was NO credits. there was actually one, but when i took a look to the artists pages, i couldnt find THIS photo.

i didnt deleted the comment, idk why, it disappeared. maybe i accidently deleted yours.

and yes, i am. im not a minor.

[nov4c4n3]

Dazai's POV

"With you, i can be insistent.

But unfortunately, one of us had to die.

And you were the one who insisted.

Can you see where am i right now?

Can you feel what i cherish?

And the most important,

can you come back?

Not trying to sound like a freak,

but,

when i look up to the sky, i've always seen you through it.

And it looked so beautiful,

just like you.

And even though people pollute the sky, it still looks beautiful,

and i know you're still beautiful even though you're gone."

COULDN'T FIND THE ARTIST, COMMENT IF YOU KNOW.