hello! youve been hacked by whatever the rays sunglasses thing is. i didn't know if you were aware so, now you are. im pretty sure the recommended course of action is to change your password and absolutely never click the link again. and probably delete the post too. maybe through archive? idk what does or doesnt set it off. hope tomorrow is a better day for you
Thank you (and the other anon) so so much!!! I saw a post just this morning on “what to do if your account starts posting spam advertisements” and scrolled past it, clearly I summoned this. All good advice above! Thank you so much vi; have a good day! <3
hello! youve been hacked by whatever the rays sunglasses thing is. i didn't know if you were aware so, now you are. im pretty sure the recommended course of action is to change your password and absolutely never click the link again. and probably delete the post too. maybe through archive? idk what does or doesnt set it off. hope tomorrow is a better day for you
Thank you (and the other anon) so so much!!! I saw a post just this morning on “what to do if your account starts posting spam advertisements” and scrolled past it, clearly I summoned this. All good advice above! Thank you so much vi; have a good day! <3
hello! youve been hacked by whatever the rays sunglasses thing is. i didn't know if you were aware so, now you are. im pretty sure the recommended course of action is to change your password and absolutely never click the link again. and probably delete the post too. maybe through archive? idk what does or doesnt set it off. hope tomorrow is a better day for you
Thank you (and the other anon) so so much!!! I saw a post just this morning on “what to do if your account starts posting spam advertisements” and scrolled past it, clearly I summoned this. All good advice above! Thank you so much vi; have a good day! <3
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 8/8
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: Edward Elric & Roy Mustang
Characters: Roy Mustang, Edward Elric, Alphonse Elric, Maes Hughes
Additional Tags: Originally Posted on FanFiction.Net, Parental Roy Mustang, BAMF Edward Elric, Canon-Typical Violence, Major Character Injury, Translation Available
Summary:
When an explosion takes out their train, Ed learns something about Mustang: the Flame Alchemist can start fires. He can't put them out.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: Edward Elric & Roy Mustang
Characters: Edward Elric, Roy Mustang, Maes Hughes, Riza Hawkeye, Alphonse Elric, Team Mustang, Chris "Madam Christmas" Mustang, Original Characters
Additional Tags: Torture, Medical Torture, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Isolation, Amnesia, Hurt/Comfort, Parental Roy Mustang, Podfic, Audio Book, Audio Format: MP3, currently over 10 hours, will update when it's finished, only the first half currently posted, arc one if you will, given the current climate I thought I'd release as much as I've done, give people something to listen to
Summary:
"They tell him he lost his mind. He doesn't remember anything else, so he believes them. But if that's the case, then why does he sometimes feel like he doesn't belong here... and neither does that little, annoying, blond kid named Ed? Parental RoyEd, not traditional amnesia fic."
Podfic version of Ranowa's work - https://archiveofourown.org/works/13703991/chapters/31478043
I’m also taking prompts for the 221B virtual con, and I’m already working on one fill this weekend! I’m new to tumblr and the fandom, but I’ve posted a few Sherlock things on ao3, if anyone wants to see what I’m like before asking. Happy virtual convention, everyone!
@221b-consolation @discordantwords for "How about Wizard!John taking Sherlock for a ride on a broomstick?" Let’s try my first 221b drabble! Tysm for the prompt!!! <3
"No."
"Come on, Sherlock!"
"Absolutely not."
"You had fun before!"
"Yes," he said. "Because I understood how the hippogriff could fly. I do not understand how- that does!"
John gave a very cheshire, Mycroft-esque smile. "Magic?"
"That's not an answer!"
They both looked at the offered broomstick, nestled in the crook of John's arm. Long, shiny, and by all appearances, incapable of flight.
All appearances excepting the spectacle Sherlock had previously just witnessed, that was John flying on said broomstick. In a physics-defying loop with windswept hair and shot past him so fast it'd nearly turned him over, and up higher than the roof of St. Bart's hospital.
"Come on," John tried again, pleading. "This is one of the only things you can actually do! You've been begging me all week to let you try out things, but now that I finally say yes, you back out? What is it?" he teased, "Sherlock Holmes, afraid of heights?"
Sherlock wondered if he might be able to set the broom on fire.
"Fine," he gave. "Fine! I will trust your- insane, illogical contraption! But if I end up falling to my probable death and need you to catch me?" He hitched a leg over, looking the challenge right in the face, and high on the thrill of it alone. "Don't make me beg."
Standing by as a casual observer to what's going on with the fish blog, I decided I'd make a single discourse-y post on it, then shut up. Because out of all nonsense on this website this discourse is the one I feel most passionately for, and as a relatively popular creator on other platforms, and one who's been uncomfortably silent on it before, I thought I might as well speak up.
Pro-shipper. Anti-anti. Whatever label you want to call it. That's me. If that makes you uncomfortable, or like you no longer want to read my stuff, that's fine; I cordially invite you to take the nearest exit ramp.
I'm not really inclined to write up the whole scientific basis, for why antis are full of shit. I do have advanced degrees in neuroscience and psychology, but if you're actually looking for a well-sourced academic essay, @antis-delete-your-blogs-pls-thx has a ton of citations and their field of study is even more appropriate than mine for this. I don't have the desire to write up my own essay on a such a basic, widely accepted tenet of psychology, that "writing dark content does not make you an abuser, writing 16/17 year old smut does not make you a goddamn pedophile", it's actually fucking WILD that this site has latched on to such an ice cold take severely lacking in scientific basis, but if you're sincerely looking for arguments about it, again, adybpt has all the sources, and I'd potentially be willing to chat about it a little in DMs. Mirror neurons are my jam.
I know I've been mistaken as an anti before, because I tend to write anti-approved things. Parental content, platonic content, Pure Pairings, little smut or slash. And in that anti-approved content, content I have watched proud anti-shippers gush over, I've written all the trash. Rape, torture, abuse, suffering, PTSD. Sex trafficking, child soldiers, substance abuse, mental illness. And it's certainly not all clearly condemned in the writing. I've written fucked up abuse apologism/borderline glamorization, and got all the praise for it, because it was for a Pure Pairing like Johnlock or Hyuroi, and meanwhile, watched some of those same people giving me positive comments turn around and lambast someone as a pedophile because they wrote a fluffy aged-up AU of Sheith. I have watched people I thought I knew, people I thought were my friends, laugh "sure, suicide baiting is bad,,, but like you ship royed, what do you expect." Over and over and over I've seen death threats, rape threats, mass harassment campaigns mounted, and it's as disgusting as the cognitive dissonance is astounding.
The reason I'm posting this is because writing what I do, what I have, was the only coping mechanism I had for a really long time. My teachers were friends with my abuser, my therapist willfully triggered and exacerbated a panic attack without my consent, and I didn't know how to reach out to friends: ALL I had was working out trauma through fiction. Properly tagged fiction, warned as such that if the content upset you, you would be warned beforehand and wouldn't have to see it, and I can't even begin to tell you how many comments and DMs I've gotten from fellow survivors wanting to tell me how much it helped them. And I'm tired of sitting here watching these rabid fucking asshats proclaim "it's for the children!!! we care about survivors!!!" as they suicide bait and harass those same survivors in the exact same breath, for not coping in a nice, socially pleasant, cutesy, Purity Police Approved way. I was lucky enough to cope in that socially acceptable way. Many people aren't, and they deserve exactly the same support I've gotten.
(And for all those that claim the Nasty Ships are only okay as long as it's Cope Shipping Only, you can take an exit ramp, too. It's a slap in the face. It's pouring gasoline on someone and threatening them with a lit match to disclose something deeply personal and traumatic, and then giving them a hug and pretending you're a hero for not setting them on fire. It's more insulting than the antis who don't even pretend to draw a line in the sand.)
tl;dr if you think calling someone a child molester because they followed a twitter account that posted lolicon one time last year is okay, if you think harassing someone for a Nasty Ship is in any way, shape, or form, okay, you are actively contributing to a toxic culture of bullying and harassment that has actively made fandom culture more dangerous for the very minors you want to protect. If you think I'm an abuse apologist, or whatever the fuck the buzzword is now, for writing about abuse, then you are welcome to leave.
In my fic here, Sherlock has a little brainstorming session while drugged out of his mind, and this sheet of notes below is the result of it. I decided to write out a little explanation as to what all the individual parts of it mean. The explanation will be in the format of ITEM - TRANSLATION - BREAKDOWN. The item will be the selection of the notes that the section will be explaining, copied roughly verbatim for the reader's convenience. The translation, if needed, will be translating Sherlock's (my) shorthand into standard notation. The breakdown, then, will be the explanation.
Disclaimer: I was a medical student, before I had to withdraw due to hand injury, and my area of study in undergraduate was neuroscience and neuropsychology (and music performance, but that's not relevant here). I do try and explain everything in layman's terms, but 1) it will get a little technical in parts, fair warning, and 2) I'm still learning on how best to explain concepts to other. I try my best, people!
In the episode, Sherlock says that he had come up with seven possible reasons for how he, Henry, and John could have all seen the dog-that-could-not-exist, and that he'd settled upon narcotics as the most likely. I came up with a list of seven of my own reasons:
1) Narcotics- hallucinogen: self-explanatory, as explained by the actual episode.
2) Sleep deprivation hallucination: this episode takes place what appears to be several days into pretty severe nicotine withdrawal, for Sherlock. His sleep schedule seems to be disastrous as is, and the nicotine withdrawal would've made him even more wired, so there's a solid chance he hadn't slept for several days, which is long enough to for sleep deprivation-induced hallucinations. While the hypothesis itself is perfectly sound, Sherlock puts it at number 2 instead of 1 because A) Henry ALSO saw the dog, B) sleep deprivation induced hallucinations generally don't start out with a full-fledged monster dog screaming in your face. If this hypothesis had been correct, he should've been experiencing more subtle hallucinations all night long.
3) Mycroft- test?: As discussed in series four, Mycroft occasionally has been employing tests into Sherlock's mental stability for decades, focusing on what Sherlock believes to be a dog. Sherlock, being Sherlock, has likely noticed this. Mycroft knows Sherlock is hanging around Baskerville. Sherlock also knows Mycroft knows this. Under the influence of a paranoia-inducing narcotic, Sherlock very easily could suspect his nosy brother at being somehow responsible.
4) Lights show: Again, inspired by series 4, and how the illusion of a ghost is created in TAB with nothing more than a projector. The logistics of how this would actually work are hazy, which is why this is further down the list, and quickly discounted by Sherlock.
5) GMO: While GMOs are usually discussed in the context of resilient strains of plants, all it really means is genetically modified organism. I'm speaking as one educated in 2014+, not 2012 (the ep air date), but breeding an especially large dog, and genetically modifying it to have red eyes, would probably not be too difficult a feat, scientifically. It could even be glowing, if you spliced in that GFP gene that the scientist mentions! However, this possibility is unlikely, because it raises the very big question as to why the scientists would allow their experiment to roam wild and attack people, why the scientists would bother making it in the first place, why haven't others taken pictures, etc. This is why it's so low on the list.
6) Moriarty???: Similar premise as the Mycroft's inclusion.
7) Acute psychosis xxx: AKA, "I lost my mind". Very unlikely, because it doesn't explain why Henry shared his hallucination, has no explanation as to why or how, and he has no other symptoms suggestive of a psychotic break. Which is why Sherlock scratched it out, and marked it with three Xs.
ITEM 2: THE FEEDBACK LOOP
This refers to the diagram, sitting just to the right of the list.
Breakdown:
X -> SNS Act -> Occ. -> (SNS Act) | (Amyg up) (Temporal) (up up Amyg)
Translation:
Unknown Substance X -> Sympathetic Nervous System Activation -> Occipital Cortex
This little diagram is a positive feedback loop, drawn very messily and with multiple steps added in after the fact. In biology, a feedback loop is a circuit in which the output of a system feeds back around to affect the system's input, which indirectly affects the system's output again, and so on. A simple example of a positive feedback loop is as follows: Addition of Substance X to System yields output of Substance Y. Substance Y triggers the production of more of Substance X, which again yields the output of more of Substance Y, which again triggers more production of Substance X- and so on. (feedback loops in the body are far more complicated, and most will eventually trigger their own end, etc, but such discussion is beyond the purpose of this post).
Unknown Substance X = input of whatever Sherlock was drugged with
Sympathetic Nervous System = simplistically speaking, our autonomic nervous system has two parts that work together, the sympathetic nervous system, and the parasympathetic nervous system. PNS can be summed up as rest and digestion, while SNS can be summed up as fight or flight.
Occipital Cortex = simplistically speaking, the visual center in the brain. There are other areas involved, but this area is the key and center to visual perception.
Temporal = simplistically speaking, the auditory cortex in the brain.
Amygdala = simplistically speaking, the fear center of the brain.
(I am defining all these terms as their relation to this situation at hand, nothing more. The brain is not so simple as to allocate X Function to Y cortex.)
So, Sherlock theorizes that input of Drug X stimulates the SNS and/or the amygdala, which caused inappropriate occipital lobe stimulation leading to hallucinations, which increased Sherlock's fear response, which caused further SNS activation, and so on. He suggested temporal lobe as a possible step; however, at no point during the episode did the drug cause auditory hallucinations, which is why it's not including in the loop proper.
There are actually a few problems with his loop, because he drew it out on the fly, while high off his mind, and he's not a neuroscientist, but he's got the right idea. The inappropriate, uncontrollable stimulation of the amygdala is almost certainly what Drug X causes, and would result in fear, paranoia, and increased suggestibility, all stated symptoms of Drug X. Inappropriate amygdala stimulation leads to inappropriate SNS activation, which encourages hallucinations, but would not cause them directly. It's likely that the drug also caused overproduction of dopamine, which can cause hallucinations. (However, there is no guarantee the occipital cortex was involved).
Whatever the chemical cause of the hallucination, he "sees" the dog, freaks out more, amygdala continues to be stimulated, freaks out because he’s Sherlock and isn’t used to freaking out, and the cycle continues, which is what leads to Sherlock's panic attack/meltdown in the pub- short-term, we're able to handle those stress reactions, especially if they're rational reactions to a stimulus, but keep them going for hours at a time and the body will start to freak out.
Breakdown: Very rapid heartrate, increased sweating, shaking, nausea, emesis = vomiting, panic attack? (Question mark because Sherlock is not convinced of the diagnosis. Even high off his mind, he's still got his pride- he's Sherlock Holmes! He does not Get panic attacks! >;0)
3b. NOT NICOTINE, WITHDRAWAL UPUPUP
Breakdown: as John says in the pub, Sherlock was pretttty wired before all of this. Sherlock notes down that these symptoms are not the result of the nicotine withdrawal, because he can still feel the now increased effects of the nicotine withdrawal going on alongside these new symptoms. Chemically speaking, Drug X probably wouldn’t have any /direct/ effect on nicotine withdrawal, but it very well might exacerbate it indirectly.
3c. OH NO EFFECT - NOT STIMULANT
Translation: Alcohol no effect - not stimulant
Alcohol, to our bodies, is a depressant. If you drink it with a straight stimulant, like caffeine, their effects will counteract each other; for example, if I want to drink but keep clear-headed, I'll have a soda with my glass of wine. (DISCLAIMER: this will not make it safe to drive, this will not prevent alcohol poisoning, this can be dangerous, and do not do it in anything but careful moderation). Sherlock, as seen in the show, gets a shot of alcohol, probably in a desperate bid to calm down. It also does not work at all, because he was not dosed with a stimulant, but a hallucinogenic. The hallucinations led to stimulant-esque effects, but with no stimulant to counteract, Sherlock would simply end up sloshed and panicking. Sherlock realizes that the alcohol is not having the desired affect, and, when he realizes he was drugged, concludes that it therefore can not have been with a simple stimulant.
ITEM FOUR: DIAGRAM B
Oral --> long-lasting VS inhale --> feedback loop
no IV/IM
BLOOD TEST NEC ASAP (check)
Breakdown:
While the identity/structure of the drug he was dosed with are important, the route/method of administration are also a huge factor of variability that affects the intensity and timeline of the symptoms. Sherlock mentions four different routes of administration, here: oral (PO), inhalation, IV, and IM (intramuscular). A drug taken orally will have slower and longer lasting effects than one that is inhaled: one that is inhaled will act almost immediately, as seen in the episode, and its effect will also wear off very quickly.
Sherlock theorizes he must have taken the drug either orally or inhaled it, because the only other options are being stuck with a needle at some point, which he is sure never occurred. (Really, there are a few other options, most notably transdermal, that is unlikely for other reasons). Because the drug affects him for so long, he assumes he must have taken it orally, but also allows inhalation a spot on the list, by noting it could have instigated a feedback loop, and continued affecting him even after it'd left his system. He also notes the need for an urgent blood test, in the case that there are still some traces left to analyze. Especially if the drug was inhaled, the blood needs to be drawn ASAP. (Without any information on the chemical structure of Drug X, though, I can’t make any sort of estimation on what results Sherlock’s own blood test would show, with the sample drawn ~8 hours after being dosed).
ITEM FIVE: TIMELINE
To the left of diagram B, eleven hash marks next to a supremely messy "hours". AKA, eleven hours of 'experimentation', after Sherlock realizes he was drugged.
(upside down-items):
ITEM SIX: FORMULA
C12H22O11
The chemical formula for a sugar, which, as Sherlock states in the episode, was his initial theory. This would suggest PO as method of administration, not inhalation, but Sherlock's also not thinking too straight, right now. Give him a break. (He's also probably got a ton more information on PO medications in his head than airborne compounds).
ITEM SEVEN: SHERLOCK'S THEORY
THC? -amyg overstim in subject
-no SNS activ
(scratched out, termed STUPID by Sherlock)
Translation:
THC? - amygdala overstimulation in subject
-no SNS activation
Breakdown (this is the most technical passage of the post, fair warning:)
The 'subject' in this case refers to Sherlock. THC, as you probably know, is is the primary hallucinogenic/psychoactive component of cannabis (marijuana). Also as you probably know, cannabis tends to reduce anxiety effects in most individuals, but in some, it results in a paradoxical panic reaction. We're not entirely sure why, but this panic reaction appears to be due to GABA paradoxical disinhibition. Essentially, in a standard patient, cannabis leads to mass increases in GABA, which is the calm-down chemical in the brain. However, in these select patients, cannabis' initial activation of GABA may lead to the brain telling the production of GABA itself to calm down, which lead to an overall decrease in GABA levels in the amygdala, which leads to a panic reaction. (Disclaimer: This is still a working theory in the scientific community, and all depends on an individual's makeup of receptors and neural circuits. This is by no means settled discussion, either the end result or its mechanism.)
Overall, irrelevant to THC and cannabis, patients with severe childhood trauma do tend to have amygdalas that are primed for overstimulation (possibly by the very process described in the paragraph above). Whether Sherlock deleted Eurus and Victor or not, those neurological affects aren't something he could just will away. This is not saying that if you have childhood trauma, you will have a negative reaction to cannabis- but it IS saying that Sherlock might be a candidate expected to have a negative reaction.
Now, given Sherlock's extensive drug history, I'm sure he tried cannabis, at some point. It is also, however, never once brought up in the series proper, which suggests he has absolutely no interest in trying it again- perhaps because he had a negative reaction the first time. The panic reaction and amygdala overstimulation would probably feel similar to how Drug X affected him, which is why, initially, Sherlock writes it down as a suggestion, and also notes that it would not directly cause SNS activation. (At this point, he is not sure if SNS activation is a direct symptom or not).
He then swiftly marks it out as a stupid theory, because he realizes that he has a very atypical reaction to THC, so the likelihood of Henry sharing his hallucination and panic is very low. More to the point, because his reaction is so atypical and unpredictable, it makes no sense that unknown criminals would drug them with it.
TO SUM UP:
Sherlock is a graduate chemist, not a medical doctor, neuroscientist, or neuropsychologist. He does seem to have a great degree of interest and expertise in pharmacology, and probably also has a lot of knowledge in different routes of administration, due to his own personal history and his interest in forensics. However, he has no need to know, for example, the exact neuro-chemical causes of hallucinations. Therefore, his sheet of data is intentionally a bit spotty and with questionable accuracy, at points. (He also gets a bit of a break, considering he was "off his tits", or whatever the fuck that means, at the time. Poor guy needs a rest and a blanket and a hug.)
And that sums up Ranowa's entirely unnecessary lecture on pharmacodynamics!
Not quite my usual, just bonus fun: I got drunk in order to write drunk-texts in my latest Johnlock fic (located Here). This is a lil clip of the shenanigans that transpired.
