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Why can't I belive that you love me? I've spent years convincing myself that I was undeserving incapable and unloveable, I just wasn't able to see. Maybe it's because I have yet to learn how to even love myself and who I am. This won't be an easy feat, not by a long shot, but I work on it, and I continue to yearn. For the voices for the thoughts for the train to stop at its final destination. instead it continues on its track through the fog no end to this journey, except the forever black. . . . . . . . . #poem #poetry #depression #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #lanadelrey #malahidecastle #livemusic #poetsofinstagram #poets_area #heartofquill #cosmosofwriters https://www.instagram.com/p/CMM3v5DrjO8/?igshid=17foouuhaf45v

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With every high I come down And the hells Freeze over The engine sputters Spitting vitriol . . . . . . #iceland #rocks #waterfall #poem #poems #poetry #photography #poetsofinstagram #poetrysociety #instapoetry #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #cptsd https://www.instagram.com/p/CMCFgcSrizw/?igshid=14jc4l3d1m41o

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From mind To matter I breathe new life And from the pieces Of the dream That had shattered I do As the Romans do . . . . . . . . #poem #poetry #art #photography #poets_area #poetsandwriters #rome #colosseum #blackandwhite https://www.instagram.com/p/CL_slkOrDTZ/?igshid=rfsfutg8e1kv

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Veering off the path, into a foggy unknown. Traps, dangers, and warnings litter the way to freedom. Freedom? I never knew you. Hurried along past checkpoints I'm expected to achieve, walking the path most taken to a crowded future, a future that is now unfathomable. . . . . . . . #poem #poetry #poetryofinstagram #poemsofinstagram #poetrycommunity #poets_area #livemusic #singer #photography ##art #expression #freedom #future https://www.instagram.com/p/CL_XpZgLVO_/?igshid=1mxltt96ik76f

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I look back at my steps in 20/20 and I mourn the loss of a past that has passed me by, with me I mourn the lives lost. I mourn the dearly departed. I mourn the six degrees. I mourn the lost lives. I mourn my lost life. I mourn. . . . . . . . . #poetry #poets_area #cosmosofwriters #poemsofinstagram #poems #mourning #germany #berlin #art #sculptureart (at Berlin, Germany) https://www.instagram.com/p/CL8uwqhLdH4/?igshid=6ijk3mk44pff

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The warmth has little to offer when the recesses of my mind are frozen in time. . . . . . . . #iceland #diamondbeachiceland #frozen #cptsdrecovery #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetryisnotdead #instapoetry #poetryofinstagram #poetryporn #poetrylovers #bymepoetry #poetrygram #igpoetry #poetrysociety #micropoetry #sadpoetry #visualpoetry #poetrylove #poetrybook #poetryislove #randompoetry #photography https://www.instagram.com/p/CL6UTjirQy8/?igshid=ljl3mz3yti76

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What kind of poison did you feed A hidden message planted like a seed The roots grip me Feeding them lies that make them grow stronger Choking my throat til I turn blue Burn the leaves, it'll make it easier to get through each night The past tortures me Disoriented, I've been flanked, caught off guard, and now I'm vulnerable. There's a cut in my hazmat suit I got scratched by the zombie I got bitten by the wolf Suppressed in the depths of my psyche is something that needs to come out . . . . . . . . . . #poetry #poet #art #poem #poetrycommunity #writersofinstagram #writer #poetsofinstagram #poems #writing #quotes #music #photography #life #artist #quote #words #instagood #spokenword #wordporn #hiphop #poets #inspiration #quoteoftheday #poetsofig #writersofig #writerscommunity #poetryofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/CL3q8DXr90C/?igshid=v4xzlwi1jk1l

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End of an 8 year depression Mourning the loss of innocence Naivety over The dream was only a dream But there is no end Only a resurfacing It's about how quickly I realise That I'm in the darkness And that I have the tools The knowledge to use To get me out of the cycle of abuse I'd put myself through Scratching the itch Peeling the scab My bandages are peeling off Now, Revealing resilience in its place I look up to the surface to see light And using my new found power Lift myself out of the only darkness Murkiness replaced with clarity Darkness replaced with hope And a hope that although the old me Is behind me I can let them go I've mourned for long enough Through letting go of the past One can embrace a new future So I'm not back I haven't returned I'm reborn #writing #writingcommunity #instapoetry #poetry #rebirth #mentalhealth #depression #cptsd https://www.instagram.com/p/CLzki6wLBYqCjzruNa6lUU0JEC3R_UyJKkQ8MA0/?igshid=12my3yfsjt3v