dying inside

It's over Opened: 12.03.18 Last cut: 17.10.2019 NSFW Blog! Boy / 23 y o | Blog where I reblog stuff : numb-n-crying

[numb-n-dying]

I'm sorry for the countless ways I've hurt you.

02.06.2021

[numb-n-dying]

I wanna fuck it up so bad, then at least I know it's my fault

[numb-n-dying]

Keep moving

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Go back and correct or move on and suffer

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Move on and suffer. Then go back and correct.

[numb-n-dying]

Go back and correct or move on and suffer

[numb-n-dying]

I'm lost in ways I'm stuck in, but can't see. I'm panicking and feel like I need to go back.

[numb-n-dying]

Mental hospital pt.2

[numb-n-dying]

[If the lesson is letting go then I'm refusing to move on cuz there's a reason why I held on]

23.10.2020

[numb-n-dying]

[It's not about letting go. It's about not holding on it so much]

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Everything is going on so fast and im so slow. I'm afraid it might tear me apart.

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One wants to learn and define. The other one uses what's learned to live. Both try to dwell. While learning means no emotions, living means no theory. And I'm jumping between them.

[numb-n-dying]

Two voices and both are me. Fail one for the other to be.

31.01.2021

[numb-n-dying]

I'm scared because it'd mean changes

26.01.2021

[numb-n-dying]

Don't forget I'm here, and I'll find my words

[numb-n-dying]

I feel like I'm going insane again.

19.01.2021

[numb-n-dying]

This is a war I can't win cuz every layer I build is based on believes he knows I don't have. And so I collapse under myself over and over.

28.12.2020

[numb-n-dying]

Please fuck me up

[numb-n-dying]

I'm getting worse again.

27.12.2020