i keep being alive in the morning :)

20s. she/her. alive // this is a vent blog why are you here // i am on a worm journey more updates to come

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made a little. rabbit the other day. little guy. crochet. my friends liked it :)

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an innate biological desire to peel things is why i pick at my skin and probably why i like twizzlers even though they taste like chemicals

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the worms say i should be dead but i think theyre probably overreacting

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i have found a Flaw!! the worms will be eeating well tonight. i love having a project :D something to mull over and stress about and problem solve wow

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people keep telling me things like im a "good person" and ""kind"". it must be some sort of conspiracy. i must be tricking them. accidentally, like an evil bad manipulative person perhaps..

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we need to ban polo shirts i am so fucking serious

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big fan of literature but i will not be reading it i am too busy distractgin myself with stupid things like the news and obscure subreddits and of course my estranged lover tumblr. com. would love to read a book thouh for sure. the last novel i read took me no lie 4 months to get through ahhhghghg. fuck.

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thinking about that phenomenon where men's living spaces are sparce and grey and like a blanket on the floor with a tv propped up on milk crates and how in all of sex and the single girl/the cosmo girls guide to the new etiquette they do not discuss what to do in a gentleman's apartment. Makes me think women just weren't going to their boyfriend's place for some reason? It's never explained why not. But they go into great detail on what you should do to impress a man in your own home. anyway huh. wonder if it's connected

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cuddle your friends.

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you can invite people into your hourse and you can give them food and they like that very much. and if they dont you are allowed to simply never invite them back again you can be a hostess with bread and water and a person that values you and wants to be around you will be grateful that you shared. i think thats what jesus was on about or somethig

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drinkng make piss hope my tits get. bigger

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making new friends is so weird because people keep like. enjoying my company. and then they tell me and i have to grapple with it like im not sure what im doing right but i guess it's good to know that i've succeeded at being a better or i guess more social person. But on the other hand i enjoy having a goal and not having a list of specific things to improve leaves me with a slight feeling of emptiness. Particularly in social situations; i like having a mission. Anyways so i will be compiling a mental list of all my thoughtcrimes and my sins so minor nobody noticed enough to be even mildly annoyed at me and i will be mulling over it until i feel at ease and surely this is the correct solution. and i will not be listening to other perspectives because frankly they exist for other people and i am in fact fundamentally flawed and so they only apply to everyone else on the planet and not to me and

the most annoying part of being generally liked is that i can't in good conscience assume that people are lying to me. like unfortunately no actual evidence points to me being The Worst, and to try to craft a narrative where i am would require believing deeply insulting, horrible things about my friends, which I categorically refuse to do. so i guess I have to accept that maybe my ego can stand to be a tiny bit bigger and maybe i have a right to relax and fuck next im going to be thinking i deserve to have good things oh my fucking god okay

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big fan of the juggling random event

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stop using tumblr on a friday night. go outside and talk to a stranger until you learn something you didn't want to know . do it again and again until you either have friends or a lot of interesting stories to make friends with. become the strange relative at the family function that you've always dreamed of being

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we desperately need a new way to cite web sources on platforms that require an account to access content. I don't have or want tiktok, twitter, facebook, or instagram but people are allergic to embedding videos and posts in their articles. like i know and understand that screenshots can be faked and that linking directly to the content serves to authenticate it but also, as an outsider, i am left with no way to verify that the primary source says what you claim it says.

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i love spiders so much i forget that im supposed to remove them as part of my job. i see spiders and go hi friends!! :D but unfortunately most people do not want spiders in their homes, so i must remove them. i hope all of them are happy

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image description: a screencap of a wikipedia page that reads "The CAnada goose is also colloquially referred to as the "Canadian goose". This name may annoy some birders."

From personal experience, "annoy" is putting it mildly, wikipedia.

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This could cause fistfights among birders.

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in canada we call them canadian geese because they are in canada and they're neato

i haven't seen a really good reason why canadian geese is that bad or wrong either? lots of birds are like that, there's american crows, and a bunch of eurasian something-or-others. why can't we claim the geese