delphine defender

frances, 20s, she/her | UK | elder scrolls, fantasy, art + video games | tes AO3: nuwanders | BOYCOTT BETHESDA

[nuwanders]

friend of mine who stayed over at the weekend just texted to say she found a bed bug in her flat

[nuwanders]

i think it's time for a bcs rewatch soon. im suffering from a spiritual malaise that only kim wexler can heal

[dyedu]

[deanwinchesterapologist]

nothing wrong with me

[loveridden1999]

top 3 hobbies for young adults:

1. borrowing misery from future

2. carrying grief of the past

3. agonizing over the present

[nuwanders]

want to play paralives so bad but god my poor laptop is struggling. do i take it to get its ram upgraded....

[plasticblisss]

me flirting: okay so how temporary is this?

[nuwanders]

i've noticed a pattern lately where when things in my life appear to be going well, i'm able to maintain a fairly healthy balance between IRL stuff and spending time online / engaging with fandom. but when things IRL start to get a bit shit, i end up withdrawing from fandom a little, up to a point, until they get REALLY shit and then i swing back hard.

anyway unrelated but i think i'm feeling the beginnings of my interest in elder scrolls returning. it's too early to say, but i'm trying not to force it... have to coax it out like a cat on the street. pspsps.

[rosenkranz-does-things]

Under the skin, against the skull

They put a little chip so that they know it all

[nuwanders]

My favourite ever club in the world is closing down. Fuck my stupid baka life

[nuwanders]

second favourite club also shutting. is nothing sacred?

[nuwanders]

My favourite ever club in the world is closing down. Fuck my stupid baka life

[lady-of-the-harbour]

NAUSICAÄ OF THE VALLEY OF THE WIND 風の谷のナウシカ (1984) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

[jame7t]

lowkey you will taste my steel, foul creature

[apricops]

that post about “you get bandits when you cut soldiers loose without pay” reminds me of the Thirty Years War, because one could say that beneath all the religious schisms and diplomatic jockeying, the heart of the thirty years war was “what happens when you have a state with just enough capacity to raise massive armies but without enough financial capacity to actually pay those armies” and the answer is that the line between professional armies and roving gangs of bandits disappears and every time you try to raise an army it just becomes another independently acting wildfire devouring the countryside. No matter how bad things get, every day I wake up and thank my lucky stars that I do not live in 17th century Europe. Or 17th century China. Or the 17th century Americas. Or basically anywhere in the 17th century.

[probabilitydirigible]

One of my favorite little anecdotes about ancient mercenaries is that it was tradition for most of history to give your mercenaries two wages- "Bread" and "Gravy." Both were set at a daily value, but where "Bread" was intended to cover regular maintenance and life stuff and therefore paid out frequently (Here's your week's meal and gear repair budget!) the "Gravy" wage was paid out exclusively at the end of the contract as one lump sum. So like, your gravy wage and bread wage might be one silver coin per day each, so you're getting a handful of coins every week to cover food, and then at the end of an 800 day campaign, you get a wheelbarrow with 800 coins.

Employers liked offering this structure because then they didn't have to like, try to guess how long the invasion of spain will take and then carry 800 coins per soldier around the battlefield where it could be captured. It also gives them the chance to budget around the assumption that they take an enemy city and *find* vast sums of treasure even if they don't have the full value at the beginning of the war.

The main flaw of this system is that it's very easy to end up in a scenario where if you have, say, 50,000 guys that have been fighting for 800 days, you now owe 40 million silver to your army, and if the budget has not worked out to a 40 million surplus, you literally can't afford to end the war, but you can probably afford to pay them for a couple more weeks. So then you have to start thinking creatively.

Anyway across all time and history a lot of generals were ultimately beaten to death by men chanting gravy.

[atsu-kinnie]

Doomed siblings have me on a chokehold in a way no trope can ever achieve. Something so gut wrenchingly beautiful about two kids going through unimaginable trauma and coming out damaged forever. I always eat it up. Maybe they stay together and find solace only in each other, used and kicked out by society! Maybe they end up on opposite sides of the war! Maybe they end up betraying one another! Maybe one of them dies haunting the narrative forever! Maybe one of them destroys the world for the other! So many endless tragic possibilities!

[probuccalfat]

i’m having a grand old time in this bitch of a life

[nuwanders]

he just replied i want to throw up