That sucks, I just unfollowed a lot of really good writers I liked. I'll lose their good stories, but it will be better this way.
People who are talking shit about the Brazilian stays really should think a little bit. They go through it in every country. It was their first time here, and everyone was happy. Now, it looks like a kindergarten fight all of sudden.
Not only the pictures thing, but also when Chan said Brasil was their other home, he had to apologize. Why is everyone so mean and can't see people being happy?
I had the time of my life on the concert, and I don't want this wonderful memory I have of them being here to be crashed by mean people.
Wooyoung stopped halfway into bringing his cup to his lips as he looked at the pretty girl he was on a third date with. He contemplated for a moment, not that he hadn't thought about it before but the conversation was very sudden.
"Jumping the gun a little?"
"So you don't want to date me?"
"Two is a good number," He replied immediately, going back to sipping his cup of coffee, "But as one of three kids, I am partial to three. You?"
"I don't have a preference," You said, smiling at him, "Girl dad or boy dad?"
"Girl dad for sure," Wooyoung said surely, giving a nod, letting out a large grunt after drinking, "I'd treat my boys the same way until they hit puberty and then I would start panicking."
You laughed, making Wooyoung smile. "I think I'd be a boy mom," you said, then chuckled, "Until they hit puberty and then I wouldn't know what to do."
"We better not have boys then, huh?"
You coughed violently, not expecting him to be so nonchalant and he looked at you incredulously, "What? You're the one who started asking about kids!"
"They were general questions, I wasn't talking about us!" "What!? Who else would you be talking about!?" "No! No one, but-!"
"But? But what?" Wooyoung's smile was teasing and you slouched, pouty. "You're making fun of me."
"No, I was taking you seriously! But why the question, though?"
Wooyoung had found you intriguing from the beginning and even more so when he realized that even though you definitely liked him, you were hard to get. You weren't playing either, he could tell that you mentally couldn't let yourself indulge in him.
He hadn't even gotten to kiss you yet.
"I just like being on the same page about things!" you defended yourself, "I wasn't- I wasn't planning anything yet, but I was just... you know... I don't want to waste your time."
Wooyoung smiled at you, "I think that's a reasonable question, but... I think if I liked you enough, I would have gone with whatever you wanted. You'd be the one having the kids after all."
"Fair...," you murmured, "But... is that something you want? A lot of guys want kids and don't know what it means to be a father, making their wife do all the work."
"Oh, you definitely wouldn't have to worry about that with me," he chuckled, "I raised my younger brother from the day he was born when I was 16. Being a father is kind of in my bones now. If anything, I'd willingly be taking all the work from you."
You smiled bashfully, "I like that answer."
Wooyoung grinned, leaning back in his chair, "I'm glad you do. Now, are you going to ask more questions about our potential future or are you going to finally let me kiss you in the present?"
You blushed, turning away from him, covering your embarrassed face.
"I'm kidding!" he chuckled, taking your hand, "I like you... a lot."
You turned back to look at him, an earnest expression on his face as he stroked the back of your hand with his thumb, "These questions are a little fast, but I'm okay with that. It's because I like you so much that I want to go at whatever pace you want me to. Even if you ask me about kids before I've found out what your lips taste like."
He was honest, but his words were teasing. You pouted at him, attempting to take your hang away, but he held it tightly.
"I'm not letting you go, even if you pull away. I can see that you only play the long game, and I want to play it with you."
Your body flushed with warmth, and you smiled widely. "I'd- I'd love that." Wooyoung smiled, lacing your fingers together, "Good."
You knew that Chan would want to get in the hot tub the second you surveyed the Airbnb. You figured that one of the guys could join him, you weren’t sure if you’d be able to handle being in it with him and only him
Alas, he invited you anyway, to which you agreed to because you could never say no to him. Here he sat, right in front of you, head rolled back and soaking up the warm water. “This is the fucking best.”
It would be more enjoyable if he had a shirt on. Maybe then, you’d be able to stop drooling. You’d be able to focus on literally anything other than his body. He was your friend, your closest friend, you shouldn’t be looking at him like that
Who could blame you? Chris was one of the most handsome guys you’d ever laid eyes on. There was no denying your attraction, but times like these were the ones you hated the most because he seemed to catch your staring every single time
“Like what you see?” He joked with a laugh. Oh, if only he knew
lee know didn’t seem to mind sharing a bed
“How funny,” Minho scoffed, standing over the single bed that the two of you were supposed to share overnight. The managers must’ve forgot that they were supposed to book a double for this stay, since you’d be attending. “Well, what can we do? Just a night, right?”
It was his first priority to make sure that this scenario didn’t make you uncomfortable. If it did, he was ready to sleep on the floor, but he relaxed once you plopped down on the mattress. “Guess so. Go shower first, you stink.”
With a roll of his eyes, he did as told, leaving you to stare at the ceiling and mentally prepare yourself. This would be your first time sleeping side by side despite knowing him for over a decade. It would be easier if you didn’t have a raging crush on him
“You look nervous,” he teased from the doorframe, scaring you. With a laugh, he dried his hair off and got himself comfortable on his side. “If you are, just say the word. Speak now or forever hold your peace.”
You responded by getting under the covers as well, quick to turn out the lights on your side, hoping that’ll help calm yourself down. God, your palms were so sweaty. Everything went well until he started tossing a bit, back now pressed right against yours. This was gonna be fun
changbin can’t seem to find a good place for his hands
Going around with the guys meant that space was limited. They came as a pack and moved as a pack, all of them shoving into the same vehicle to go from place to place. So, when you were nearly sat in Changbin’s lap, you couldn’t even be surprised
You preferred being in his personal space than any of the others, only because you’ve known him since school. Most of the time, you were with them as you were his best friend, so you’ve gotten used to their presence. Just not quite at the point where you’d sit on them if need be
A pair of hands placed themselves on your lap and you instantly froze. Of course, there wasn’t a place for Changbin to keep his hands to himself. Of course, he’d have to reach over you to rest, why were you so shaken up about it?
Was it because you’ve been helplessly in love with him for years? Yeah, that would sure do it. You felt that you couldn’t move a single inch, nearly jumping out of your skin once he started sliding them up and down, not even thinking about it because he was so comfortable with you
“You okay?” Hyunjin asked from beside you, laughing knowingly at your shocked expression. Changbin extended his neck to look your way, just barely catching sight of the sweat gathering near your neck. “You look a little hot over there.” Leave it to the boys to blow your cover
hyunjin has a staring problem
You thought you were going crazy when you felt something, someone burning holes into the side of your face as you slouched over the table, trying to get some work done as you waited for Hyunjin to finish up his meal
“Is there something on my face?” You quirk a brow at him, patting all over your cheeks. It was obvious that he was staring at you, and if you were honest, his gaze made you squirm in your seat. It was intense and usually you could read him, but right now, he was impossible
He barely shook his head, eyes locked on your lips. It was so blatantly obvious and you wondered if this was on purpose or if he genuinely couldn’t tell how forward he was being. Regardless, you could feel yourself heating up and there was no stopping the butterflies that flooded your stomach
He’s always just been stupid Hyunjin that all the girls liked. He’s always been a silly guy that liked to read and listen to stories and perform. He’s always been your companion, someone who you could go to without judgement and be yourself around
So why now? Why do you want to shy away from him? Why does he suddenly have such an intense effect on you with a single gesture? Why does his eye contact make your heart beat out of your chest?
han desperately needed you to shut up
Jisung had pulled a prank on Chan, and normally you were on board with these pranks but you weren’t warned beforehand. So, you didn’t hold back on calling out his name as soon as you saw him suspiciously hiding in a corner
“I was wondering where you’ve been!” You called out rather loud, announcing his position to the entire building. In a panic, he tugged you over to him and clamped a hand over your mouth. At first, you wanted to fight back, ask him what the hell his deal was
Then again, this was Hannie. He surely did something that caused one of the members to be turning the dorm upside down to look for him. So, understanding the situation, you shut your mouth
Yet, he didn’t let go. He still had a rough hand over your mouth, keeping your sounds quiet. You were sure that he could feel the heat in your cheeks, you were sure he could feel the rate of your breathing. You were held quite tightly against him after all
Everything was semi-calm until you locked eyes. You’ve always been able to communicate with a single look, but right now, you weren’t sure what he was feeling. It was new, he looked a way that you’ve never seen before. What was it?
felix invited you to watch him perform
Everyone knows that Felix’s duality is insane. He’s a beast on stage, a total 180 from the normal Felix that you’d see every single day. You agreed when your best friend offered you tickets to watch him do what he does best, after all, you’re a supportive friend
You couldn’t help but see him in a new light after watching him devour the concert. His movements when dancing are so precise, his jaw locks in place when he’s concentrated, his voice is killer and smooth at the same time
“Did you enjoy yourself out there?” Felix shot you a hearty smile and you almost felt bad for feeling so attracted to him. He just did what he always does, he gave every song and choreo his all. It’s not his fault that you’re now noticing the appeal that everyone else around you seems to see
You could tell that he was studying your expression, hopefully not examining the way that your eyes were shaking and the way that your chest started rising and falling a bit faster at the proximity. That would probably give you away.
There was no fighting him. He probably had you figured out already. With a large gulp, you gave a nod. “Great as always.”
seungmin doesn’t give a single fuck and flirts directly
It was hard to tell when Seungmin was playing with you or being serious. You’ve never been able to differentiate the two and it’s only gotten worse throughout the years, he’s gotten bolder with the comments he’d make and it’s starting to make your mind wander
Whether it’s offering his hand when walking across the street or changing out of his attire into comfy clothes over FaceTime, there are moments when you question what type of relationship you have with him
He does this all on purpose too. “Stop dressing up so nice lately,” Seungmin puts a hand over his heart, acting faint. Another one of those times where you aren’t sure if he’s just messing with you. “You’ll make me fall in love.”
Whatever he’s doing, whatever he’s aiming for, he needs to stop. It’s gonna start working because you’re noticing that you’re holding your breath, waiting for the next action or comment. Waiting for another old lady to tell you in public that you’re such a cute couple like the lady from last week
You don’t smile like you usually do. You don’t laugh. Instead, your eyes soften up and he watches the way that your breath hitches in your throat. Oh.
jeongin gets stuck in the heat of the moment
It wasn’t often that the two of you would bicker, but right now, Jeongin was very clearly not the happiest person in the world. You had gone against what he advised and went on a date with someone that had a sketchy history, especially without telling anyone
You’re allowed to do what you want but he just hates to know that you aren’t safe. You were told about yourself as soon as you came back to the dorm, ready to moan and groan about how bad it went
“Why didn’t you listen?” He asked from his spot on the table, watching you in his peripheral as you slumped against the kitchen counter. You could only shake your head and sigh because he was right
“I was curious.” He seemed to dislike your answer, erupting from his seat and backing you further into the counter, both arms locking you in place on either side. You weren’t scared or surprised, he’s always been a little protective about things like this. It was just one of the things that came with being his childhood best friend
The air seemed thicker and it was suddenly unbearably hot. You could feel his breath hit your cheek and you were sure that locking eyes was the worst idea. So, you sat this one out
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♡bang chan♡
we all know how chan is a big extrovert, right?
I mean he's friends with so many idols, yeah?
but not you
and he wants to change that
he always thought that you were really talented and cute
so he walked up to you and told you just that
you were a bit flustered but thanked him promptly and told him that you were a big fan too
by the end of the day you had already exchanged numbers and became friends
♡lee minho♡
you liked minho
but it was always so hard to talk to him, you felt that for sure he won't be interested so you never did
until one day at isac when both of your groups sat next to each other and played games
you and minho sat side by side
you were internally panicking and swooning
but he was so sweet and both of you won the game
laughing and teasing the rest
you almost passed out when he hugged you after you both won
I think it would be fair to think that the feelings are mutual
♡seo changbin♡
isac was always fun but this time around it was too cold
you tried to find your jacket that you had lost but you couldn't find it
just seeing a random jacket lying on the ground, you picked it up and put it on
afterall it looked pretty abandoned
later as you were preparing for your next game, someone taped on your shoulder "umm I am really sorry but...I think the jacket that you are wearing is mine..."
oh
oh shit
you immediately removed it and thrusted it in the speaker's hands. looking up, you see changbin
he's cute
"I am really sorry. I actually lost mine and couldn't find it and then I saw your jacket just lying on the ground and I thought..." you repeatedly bowed and apologized
he shook his head and told you it's ok
anddd then even helped you find your jacket! you are in love now
♡hwang hyunjin♡
you laughed and nodded as your fans yelled and asked you if you had lunch
you gestured and told them that they should eat too
but suddenly someone bumped into you and you both fell down
you could swear, you broke your ribs
who was this gigantic, heavy ass dude anyway. bumping into people
you tried to push but instead he gently picked you up after him and helped you dust yourself
when you finally got the chance to look at him, your mouth hung open
it was the hwang hyunjin
"I am sorry. are you okay?"
you weren't
he was too beautiful
"y-yeah." "tell me if you need anything." he smiled and walked away
"oh I am hyunjin btw." he turned back to tell you "y/n." "I am glad we met."
and from that moment the y/n+hyunjin ship sailed high
♡han jisung♡
han couldn't help but keep looking at you, you looked so cute while laughing
well you looked cute all the damn time
and he wanted to make you laugh like that
so the next time he interacted with his fans, he made sure to do some funny choreographies, right in front of you
he hoped that it would make you laugh
and it did!
when he heard your laughter he couldn't help but smile
"do you want to join?" "sure. but you need to teach me the choreo."
it was han's lucky day
bless isac
he was coming here, every year from then on
♡lee yongbok ♡
felix wanted to befriend you
well he wanted more than that but friendship was the first step
so he had baked your favorite cookies which he had read about in an interview
trying to be subtle, he passed on the box of cookies to your group
he immediately saw you smile
"hey these are my favorite cookies!" "oh. I bake these often, I really like them too."
you immediately start muching on them "oh I'd love you to teach me. these are really good."
step one, done
♡kim seungmin♡
seungmin stared at you from afar
but not really stare
others might think that he was zoning out
but he wasn't
he was looking at you
finally after about half an hour of it, you caught onto him and stared back
he was shocked, he didn't expect you to stare back
but does started the staring game
staring at each other from here or there
finally at the end of the program he came upto you with a bottle of water and asked for your number
you happily complied
♡yang jeongin♡
the hyungs knew he liked you before he did
and after a long time in denial, he finally accepted the fact
"should we walk around, next to where she is sitting?" hyunjin asked, being the good hyung that he is "no! don't even think about it!" "ok. I was just trying to help..." hyunjin pouted and turned away
argh
"ok. ok. but don't be obvious, ok?"
hyunjin immediately jumped up and down and dragged him to where you sat. they walked around for bit, talking to fans and other friends
when you finally asked them to join you for a game
hyunjin cleverly made an excuse and ran away
and that is how jeogin got his first date with you
[8:58 pm] you don’t know what happened or how it happened. it shouldn’t even have happened but, it always does. best friends don’t kiss. you know that and he knows that as well. this isn’t normal, it isn’t right.
“best friends kiss sometimes right?” yeonjun asks while pulling away from you, taking a few seconds to try and bring his breathing back down.
he knows the answer to his question. he always knows the answer, but it’s like he enjoys mocking you. he enjoys the way you never hesitate to agree with him. he enjoys the way he has you wrapped around his finger. he enjoys this way too much.
desperately trying to ignore the sinking feeling in your chest, you nod back at him trying to bring him closer to you once again. “they do this all the time,” you mumble against his lips. lies. you’re lying. you’re so lying. best friends don’t do this. best friends don’t kiss but you can’t bring yourself to push him away because it’s him. it’s yeonjun.
best friends don’t kiss. best friends don’t make out. you know that and so does he and yet for some reason every single time you both hang out you find yourselves in this exact same position.
“i’m glad we’re friends,” yeonjun sighs against your lips. giving your lips one last peck, he slowly begins working his way towards your jaw. “best friends.”
“best friends,” you softly repeat to yourself trying to ignore the way your heart felt heavy against your chest once again. 
best friends, you remind yourself as he fondly smiles down at you while caressing your cheek. best friends, you continue to remind yourself as he brushes his lips against your own. best friends, you remind yourself one last time before urgently kissing him back.
hyunjin loves kissing you, it’s like his lifeline. he really loves kissing your lips, claiming that he can’t get enough of your taste. if he wants to tease you he’ll nibble at your bottom lip or your neck. he loves watching how flustered you get just from his kisses. oftentimes when hyunjin greets you, he’ll slowly kiss your fingers then your forehead.
drawing you
hyunjin gets his some of his inspiration from romantic things, so it’s no surprise that you have become his muse. usually he does little sketches of you, quickly and cartoon like. although sometimes he likes to take his time, making a portrait to catch your beauty. hyunjin likes to say that he is never able to perfectly catch his stunning you are in only a painting.
spa nights
spa nights
hyunjin basically forces a face mask on you some nights if he wants to stay in. he loves to give you back massages and looks forward to his own since he claims you have to “repay him”. hyunjin ends up taking a lot of photos of you (most you would like to delete off his phone) and photos of each other to savor the memory. the two of you will sit in your bathrobes while watching a movie— sometimes you even braid hyunjin’s hair.
squeezing you to death in his sleep
hyunjin loves when you sleep over or vice versa, mostly so he can have someone to cuddle with. hyunjin is a very heavy sleeper, and a crazy one so typically the two of you wake up with either no blanket, at least one pillow on the floor or both. 99.9% of the time hyunjin latches onto you like a leech, wrapping his long legs around you and making an escape impossible. it’s nice when it’s cold outside, but not so nice when he accidentally elbows you in the face.
reading/singing you to sleep
hyunjin knows how much you love his voice as you’ve told him many times before. because of this, hyunjin occasionally sings to you or even reads to you before bed. he typically does it when you’re not feeling well or have had a bad day. hearing his voice sing a sweet tune or reading your favorite book always makes your sour mood disappear or distracts you from whatever pain you may be feeling.
being your hype-man
hyunjin always wants you to feel good about yourself, and he’ll make sure to do whatever he can to help with that. he loves taking photos of you, kneeling in extreme positions just to capture the best photos of your figure. and of course you can’t forget the multitude of compliments spewing from his lips as he snaps a bunch of shots.
being very kind and considerate of your feelings
i know this is the bare minimum but— hyunjin is truly the sweetest. he always wants to make sure that you’re comfortable with him, whatever it is. he never wants to cross any boundaries and he always wants you to tell him if there’s ever anything wrong. hyunjin values your trust and never wants to do anything to break it. if he notices that something is off, he never waits to address the issue, only wanting the best for you and your well-being.
Genre: smut, fluff, sex lessons au, friends to lovers
Word Count: ~8,2k
Includes: high school seniors (everyone is legal of age); canon bisexual mc; side characters donghyuck, renjun, and karina; profanities; obviously, sex lessons; kind of a slow burn; mc is not as oblivious and innocent anymore?; does mc unconsciously have praise kink? she might; protected sex!!
Summary: you'd had a crush on renjun for as long as you could remember, but your lack of experience always stopped you from taking the first step; it's a good thing you have your trusted friend jaemin to help you out
Author's note: i’d like to use the moment to say that pt.1 is already at 1000+ and pt.2 is at 500+ and i really wanna thank all of you for reading so far! it means so much that so many people like it and that there are so many of you that keep up with the story, i hope that you will enjoy this one too !! <33 on a lighter note tho, time is relative so once again, pretend you understand the time skips plz
“Princess, let’s go on a date.”
You’d been on the phone with Jaemin for the past half an hour, discussing an imaginary future where the world was ruled by dogs and arguing which breeds would hold the highest positions. The sudden drop of such a question was enough to have your brain short-circuiting for a second until you realized the meaning of the words.
“A date?” you asked, still too dumbfounded to respond.
“Yeah, a date,” he repeated with a soft chuckle but you could hear a slight awkwardness in the sound. Something in your chest fluttered. “We’ve literally been having sex for like three months now, might as well go on an official date or something.”
It sounded like it made sense. And at the same time, it absolutely didn’t. Your sex lessons with Jaemin had nothing to do with romance and feelings, and while you did start hanging out a lot because of them, an actual date really sounded way too distant from the nature of your relationship.
But then your mind took a turn towards the warmth that spread in your chest every time he complimented you, the way you looked forward to any and every moment you could spend with him alone, the way you’d started seeing him differently - he was not just one of your best friends anymore, in the sense that he meant more. Suddenly, a suspicion started growing in you at that realization.
“Y/N? You still there? You can just say no, y’know…” Jaemin coughed awkwardly on the other side of the line.
“Okay, let’s do it,” you said instead.
“Wait-” Jaemin sounded genuinely surprised, and honestly you were too. “Are you for real?” he asked and you couldn’t help but think that his voice sounded hopeful.
“Yeah, sure, I’m up for that,” you confirmed, nibbling on your lower lip. “Where do you wanna go?”
“Just stay where you are,” he said, a bit too obviously excited. The thought made the unfamiliar fluttering in your chest appear again. “I’ll come get you in, like, an hour.”
Next thing you knew, the call had dropped. You stared at the screen of your phone for a moment as the call screen disappeared and made way to your home screen. A photo of you and Jaemin. He’d been the one to take it, in celebration of putting up all the stars on your wall and he’d also been the one to set it as your wallpaper but you never thought of changing it. Looking at his smile made you happy every time you unlocked your phone.
Maybe that’s something you should have realized sooner.
Your mind was buzzing as you got ready for your date with Jaemin. You were supposed to be in love with Renjun, so why was this date with Jaemin making you so nervously excited? You tried to imagine what it would be like if you were going out with Renjun instead but for some reason that didn’t feel right.
Deciding you should owe it to the fact that they are two different people and it felt unfair to spend a whole day with someone while imagining what it would be like to be with another person, you finished up picking your outfit and waited for Jaemin to arrive.
“Pretty flowers for a pretty girl?” Jaemin grinned as you opened the door. Your gaze shifted down to a bouquet in his outstretched arm.
“Daisies?” you raised your eyebrows, chucking. “I do appreciate the uniqueness but that’s kind of an odd choice, no?”
“Yeah, uh,” he scratched the back of his head awkwardly and chuckled, “a granny on the street gave them to me and she was so sweet I just couldn’t say no.”
You couldn’t help but roll your eyes and laugh softly as you took the small bouquet from him and brought it inside to put in a vase. You could easily believe the grandma story, but a little part of you melted at the idea that maybe he could have actually gotten out of his way to get you flowers. You did your best to disregard the thought for the time being and walked out again.
“So where are we going exactly, Romeo?” you asked, hooking your arm around his with a smile.
“Does it have to be Romeo exactly?” he asked, sounding a little concerned. “I don’t really feel like dying yet.”
“Sure, sure, be whoever you want,” you shook your head dismissively, in a quite childish manner honestly. “I just wanna know what we’re doing today.”
“You’ll see soon enough,” he smiled and you whined in response. “Come on, it’s not like I could come up with anything that spectacular on the spot, at least let me have the element of surprise with it.”
“First of all, don’t act like I’ve not been a witness to the extent to which you’re willing to go to impress a girl you like,” you huffed, trying to cross your arms despite the fact that they were still wrapped around one of his. “And sure, this may be a kinda-not-really-a-date date but I will be genuinely offended if you just took me to the convenience store and got me a lollipop or something.”
“Well shit, can we go sit on that bench over there, I need to come up with a new date idea real quick,” he grinned and you hated the fact that you almost believed he could have been planning to do just that. “Relax, it’s at least a little bit better than that.”
You couldn’t make up your mind on whether that sounded reassuring or not. You decided to just trust him for now. With a quiet huff, you unwrapped your arms from his and instead decided on intertwining your fingers with his, which earned you a surprised glance and a sweet smile as his hold on your hand tightened. Some goddamn butterflies in your stomach seemed to come alive at that.
~
The walk seemed both too long for your curiosity, and yet quite short once you reached your supposed destination - one of the city parks.
“I didn’t know there’s a fair going on here,” you said as you took in the stalls offering anything from sweet corn to trinkets and games like duck fishing and shooting. There was even a carousel and a small Ferris wheel.
“Yeah, I found out randomly and I thought you might like it so I really wanted to bring you here,” Jaemin smiled. Then his smile seemed to waver a little as he added: “Of course, if you completely hate it and that was a dumb idea, we can do something else instead…”
You quickly shook your head and looked at him, eyes shining as you smiled.
“No, it’s perfect,” you reassured him. “I haven’t been to one of these in a while, let’s go look around!”
The first stop you dragged Jaemin to was a cotton candy stall. You watched with almost child-like fascination as the owner rolled the cotton into a blue flower for the kid in line before you, bouncing a little on your heels excitedly.
“Which color do you want, princess?” Jaemin asked as your turn came and he pulled out his wallet. You would have argued but you knew there wasn’t much of a point with him.
“Pink,” you said instead, a smile curving your lips when the stall owner started working on your cotton candy.
Soon enough you were holding a pink flower in your hand, munching cheerfully on the sugary treat. Jaemin led you as you walked around and looked at what every stand had to offer. You did end up buying a cute bracelet from a really kind lady and matching rings for you and Jaemin because you wanted to “have a memory of your kinda-not-really-a-date date”. It’s not like he tried to argue anyway.
Instead, once you two had walked away from the stall, he dragged you to the side of the alley and stopped you there.
“Remember that Polaroid camera you guys got me two years ago?” he asked and you nodded. “Since I rarely have the chance to use it, I actually brought it today. So let’s make some memories, hm?”
“Yes, yes!” you beamed and he took the small device out of his backpack, snapping a quick picture of your intertwined fingers and the rings on them. “Take one of the cotton candy too while it still looks pretty!” you prompted excitedly and he obliged with a soft chuckle.
With the camera in his hand, he started pulling you around to take more and more photos of you and you had to literally steal it from him so that you could take a few of him as well. You did also take a couple of photos together: one taken by a lady passing by and one he took of the two of you.
Somehow, you ended up in front of a shooting game stall. Your eyes glided over the prizes offered and stopped on a big stuffed bunny.
“Look, it looks just like you,” you giggled, pointing at the toy. Jaemin followed your finger and smiled.
“How about I win it for you?” he raised his eyebrows.
“Can you?” you laughed. “You’ve never even been in the same room as a gun before.”
“So? You doubt my abilities to win a toy for you?” he asked, sounding almost offended if it wasn’t for the smile still curving his lips prettily.
“I know better than to underestimate Na Jaemin,” you rolled your eyes. “But you can’t just be good at everything from the first try, you know.”
Jaemin scoffed at your words. With a determination you rarely saw in him, he placed his things on the counter and paid the man behind the counter for one game.
“How many points do I need for the bunny?” he asked seriously.
“120 in total or three of those rabbit targets,” the man chuckled. He’d witnessed your conversation and he seemed entertained by it.
Briefly, he explained how many points each target brought and Jaemin took upon his task. Surprisingly enough, he was doing quite well. He didn’t go for the rabbits, but five shots later, he hadn’t missed a single one. Setting the gun down, he looked at the man expectantly.
“110, my boy,” he shook his head.
“What do you mean 110?!” Jaemin widened his eyes in surprise. “I shot them all!”
“Yeah, you got three times thirty and two tens,” the man explained patiently.
“No, no, you said that those were 15 points each!” the boy argued and you could see him getting frustrated. You glanced at the man again.
“He said that the ones above them are 15 points, Nana, you must have misunderstood,” you said. Bringing a smile on your face, you added: “It’s okay, I told you you can’t make it, let me be right this once, okay?”
“But…” You could see the pout forming on his face and you couldn’t help but chuckle, reaching over to ruffle his hair. “I wanted to get it for you…”
“Tell you what, son,” the man spoke up again. “Since no one else is in line right now, I’ll give you one extra shot. If you can get one of the rabbits, I’ll give you the bunny.”
Jaemin’s face lit up at that as he nodded quickly and picked up the gun again. You couldn’t miss the tension in his body as he aimed for what seemed like ages. When he finally took the shot, you were almost anxious to check the result.
He’d shot the rabbit in the center. The victorious shout from his side told you as much about the achievement. He turned to you, a radiant smile on his lips which you couldn’t help but return. The stall owner went to get the stuffed bunny.
“You should keep him, kid,” he said as he handed you the toy, winking conspiratorially to you. “He looks like he might be for real.”
You felt heat rush to your face as you took the plushie and hugged it tightly to your chest. You glanced at Jaemin at found him holding the polaroid towards you. A photo rolled out of the device a moment later.
“Sorry, you just looked adorable,” he grinned at your accusing glare. “Told you I can win.”
“Only because you got a bonus shot,” you rolled your eyes, yet your eyes drifted down to the toy and a smile grew on your lips. “Thank you.”
Jaemin returned your smile and reached over to take your hand again as the two of you waved goodbye to the stall owner and walked away. A soft silence fell between you. Your thoughts drifted away to the thumping of your heart as you thought about the way he was squeezing your hand gently and the soft toy in your other hand. How different from before it felt and how similar it was to the way you felt about Renjun. Which was really weird to think about, because you could almost swear that thinking of Renjun at the moment did not make you feel the same way.
“Is there anything else you’d wanna do, princess?” he spoke up suddenly, startling you out of your thoughts. You looked at him again, and it felt like you looked for the first time. The realization almost startled the air out of your lungs.
“We’ve been here for quite a while,” you said, nibbling on your lower lip. It was true, not that you minded. “How about we go get a drink from over there and head home?” you offered and he nodded, leading you to the nearby coffee booth.
The walk to your house felt much shorter than the one from it, perhaps because you didn't really wanna go home so it could only come too quickly. And indeed too soon you found yourself at the front door of your house. You turned to look at Jaemin.
“Thank you for today,” he said, surprising you. He smiled at your expression and reached up to ruffle your hair. “I had fun so thanks for actually taking me up on the idea.”
“Oh, no, yeah,” you chuckled. “I had fun too, and I got a new plushie. His name is Nana by the way.”
“Oh what, really?” he gasped in fake surprise, bringing a hand to his chest for a bigger effect. “I can’t imagine how you thought of that!”
You giggled, hitting his arm lightly and he laughed in response. Then you bit your lip for a second, before taking an impulsive decision to lean up and press your lips against his. That seemed to startle him as he gaped as you pulled away. You could see red covering his ears.
“What, we just went on a date, can I not do that?” you teased, giggling again at his flustered expression. “Come on, it’s not even our first kiss.”
“You…” He stared at you for a moment, maybe fighting his embarrassment or whatever else he was feeling, before finally smiling calmly again. “Thank you for the great date, Y/N. I’ll see you at school tomorrow.”
With those words, he leaned over to peck your lips softly and then walked away.
~
That Saturday you found yourself reminiscing about the carnival visit, curled up in your bed, and looking through the numerous Polaroid photos you two had taken. Jaemin had given you half of them, ‘as is only fair’ and you were trying to pick which ones to put up on your memory board and which ones to keep somewhere safe.
There were multiple photos where it was just you. Happily smiling, laughing, sometimes in the middle of saying something or eating cotton candy. It was all due to the fact that he never warned you that he was taking a photo, of course, but there was the undeniable fact that you couldn’t remember the last time you had so much fun without another care in the world.
Then there were the photos you’d taken of him. He’d said he was giving all of them to you. They weren’t as natural as yours were - mainly because you had to specifically take the camera from him every time you wanted to take one - but despite that his smile was bright and genuine. And there was an… unusual glow in his eyes. It felt like he hadn’t been looking at the camera but at you. And like he was still looking through the photo at you. The clenching in your stomach came back so you quickly put the photo you were looking at away.
He’d also given you the photo of your hands with the rings and one of the two of you that the random lady had taken. On it, you were clinging onto his side, while his arm wrapped around your waist and held you close. You were leaning onto him and his smile was halfway buried in your hair as if he was a second away from pressing a kiss to the top of your head.
The two photos right next to each other left a sweet taste in your mouth. It felt like they were real. It felt like your kinda-not-really-a-date date had been… well, really a date. You couldn’t help but think back to the afternoon you’d spent together, the bubbling excitement in your chest when you were with him and the warmth you felt whenever he smiled at you.
Your eyes traveled over to your bed where Bunny Nana was comfortably nestled between your pillows. You’d hardly let go of it for the first couple of days since the date. And it’d been your faithful companion for a good night’s sleep throughout the whole week. A small smile curved your lips.
Turning your gaze back onto the photos, you reached out and picked up one of the photos with only Jaemin on it. Your favorite one. As your fingers traced his face on it, you reached a painful conclusion - your feelings had irreversibly changed.
You couldn’t tell when. You pushed your brain and you couldn’t come up with any recollection of it happening. And you could swear you hadn’t meant for it to happen.
But you were in love with Jaemin.
In all honesty, the realization scared you. It scared you when you compared it to what you felt towards Renjun - it had the same bittersweet taste, yet this time felt like so much more. It scared you as you realized that what you’d felt towards Renjun was not there anymore - he was one of your best friends and you didn’t wish him to be anything else anymore. But mostly, it scared you as you realized what you’d brought upon yourself.
Perhaps this was what Hyuck had tried to warn you about. But you hadn’t fallen for Jaemin because of the sex lessons. You’d fallen for him because he was sweet and caring to you, because he always made sure you were okay, because of the way he always knew how to brighten your day. Because you’d allowed yourself to see him, instead of focusing only on Renjun. As you remembered all the times you’d been together, the little jokes, the shared comforting cuddles as you watched a dumb movie or talked about just anything, the stolen pecks whenever you could excuse them, you couldn’t help but realize how oblivious you’d been to your own heart.
And that same heart was now thumping in your chest, both exhilarated by the freedom that awareness brought, and terrified of the mess lying ahead of you.
Because you were closer to Jaemin than you’d ever been to Renjun, and because your feelings were apparently stronger this time, and because you weren’t sure whether you’d manage acting oblivious about them when you were not anymore.
Because you were terrified of ruining what you had with Jaemin, but it was all your fault for starting the whole thing to begin with.
~
“Have you and Hyuck had sex already?” you asked, eyes fixed on the ceiling in Karina’s bedroom. The girl looked up from her eyeshadow palette and raised a questioning eyebrow at you.
“Yeah, we have,” she answered directly. “Why?”
“How long did it take you? Like, after you got together, I know that it took you ages to get to that point,” you chuckled.
“Well, that depends,” your best friend laughed, setting down her makeup brush as she walked over to sit down next to you on the bed. “If you count just messing around a little, we’d been doing that since a long time back.” You couldn’t help the surprised gasp that escaped your lips to which Karina just rolled her eyes jokingly. “But if you mean, like, going all the way or whatever, it didn’t happen right away.”
You hummed, nibbling on your lower lip. You were overthinking the amount of time you’d been stalling with Jaemin. Especially after your recent revelation.
“Is this about Renjun again?” Karina asked, taking your hand with a concerned look in her eyes. “Still worried about your lack of experience?”
“Yeah,” you lied almost too easily. You trusted your best friend with your whole heart, but you did not feel ready to open up about everything that had been going on. You hoped she’d forgive you for hiding it from her.
“Babe, he’s known you for years,” she said gently, squeezing your hand. “If your lack of experience can be a breaking point for him, then he’s not the right one for you. Plus, corruption kink is a thing, you know.”
You scoffed and rolled your eyes.
“It’s not only that, Rina,” you muttered, hugging one of her fluffy pillows. “I’m still scared of what it’s gonna be like. What if the moment comes but I’m too scared to do it? Or what if I keep waiting for ‘the right time’ but it never comes? What if he’s okay with waiting for me but I ruin everything because I’m too self-conscious?”
“Y/N,” she chuckled softly. “All those ‘what if’s are in your head. What if he’s happy to just have you by his side? What if he wants you to feel comfortable with him rather than just get it over with?”
You bit your lips, thinking over her words. Of course, she was thinking about you in a potential relationship with Renjun, but you were thinking about how many different ways there were for you to ruin things with Jaemin. Yeah, to him it was just about helping you learn. But you guessed he was expecting that at some point he’d fuck you, and that was something he had made clear he’d like to do, even that he’d thought about it. And, well, he probably wouldn’t have agreed if that weren’t the case. What if he was disappointed that you kept stalling? Yeah, he’d never even hinted at that, but…
You’d also thought about telling off the deal. Not because you didn’t want to go through with it, you actually wanted to do it more than when you had initially. And that was dangerous. What if it became impossible to hold back once you’d slept with him? But then again, how do you explain why you wanna give up the lessons halfway without lying but also without telling the truth?
“You’re overthinking again, aren’t you?” Karina pulled you out of your thoughts and you looked at her, pouting at being caught. “Listen, do you remember how it was the first time you were with a girl?”
“Yeah,” you nodded, smiling a bit at the memory. “We were both so lost and I was terrified of doing something wrong.”
“And did you do something wrong?” she prompted.
“Probably,” you laughed a little. “But it got easier after that. I felt comfortable with her.”
“Exactly,” Karina winked at you and grinned. “Whether it’s Renjun that you get to be with or not, this is something that you’ll be able to talk about, and you’ll know how far you wanna go and when. Just go with what feels right to you. If it makes you feel better, I was anxious too the first time Donghyuck and I had sex. And for all his big talk, he was just as anxious.”
“Thanks,” you smiled at her gratefully. You did feel a bit better. There was still a lot you couldn’t talk to her about, but even so, she’d managed to reassure you.
“Of course,” she waved her hand in an ‘it’s nothing’ gesture. “Now, you can repay me by helping me with my eyeliner.”
~
You’d made up your mind. Your talk with Karina had made you reach a conclusion and you were going to stick with it before you ended up overthinking again and convincing yourself against it.
“Nana, you’re home, right?” you asked over the phone, a little breathless from the fast walking.
“Yeah, why?” the boy on the other side asked, confused by your sudden call.
“Can you come down and open the door please?”
“I’ll come in a second,” he said quickly, and indeed a moment later, he was opening the door for you, a worried look in his eyes. “Is everything okay? Are you alright?”
You couldn’t stop a chuckle from escaping you as you nodded in confirmation and walked inside.
“Yes, everything’s fine, I just…” you started, then bit your lips as you searched for the right words. When you didn’t find them, you reached into your handbag and pulled out your most recent purchase, handing it to him.
He stared at your outstretched hand for a long moment, before looking up at your face again, eyebrows raised in question. You weren’t sure what to say so you just stood there for a while, hoping he’d speak up sooner or later. His eyes fell again to the condom in your hand and he laughed voicelessly.
“And here I thought something bad had happened to you,” he said finally, crossing his arms and leaning on the wall behind him.
“Sorry,” you chuckled a little awkwardly. “I just wanted to get here before I change my mind.”
Your eyes drifted away from him, heart beating loudly in your ears and you briefly wondered if the tension in your body was concealed or if he could see the shaking of your hands.
“Of course, if it’s a bad time, I can go…” you said quickly, realizing that you’d just appeared out of nowhere without a warning.
“No, no, it’s as good a time as any,” he said in what you supposed was meant to be a reassuring tone. Yet you either imagined or caught a slight nervousness in his voice. “Come, let’s go upstairs.”
You knew the way to his bedroom with your eyes closed by now. The familiarity of the place did not, however, take off the edge of tension. When you entered, he didn’t sit down. Instead, he looked at you with serious eyes.
“Princess, if I’m understanding right, you’re here because you want me to have sex with you,” he started, pausing to give you time to disagree. You didn’t. “Are you sure about it?”
“Yes, I am,” you nodded. “I’ve thought about it a lot and I want to do it. The more I let myself worry, the more I’ll stall.”
“And you’re sure that you’re ready?” he asked again, stepping closer to you and wrapping his arms gently around your waist. “I promised to help you and I will, but you know that I don’t want you to feel pressured to do something like this.”
“I know, Jaem,” you said, barely hearing your voice yourself. A confession was almost on your lips, but you’d already prepared what you could say to him instead. “Yes, I’m anxious, but I trust you. I’ve thought about this enough to know that I want to do it with you.”
“Okay,” he responded softly, a small smile curving his lips. “Let me know if you change your mind at any point.”
All it took was a nod from you and his lips were pressed against yours. It started slow, almost as if both of you were just savoring the moment and you loved it. Then he took a step back to his bed, pulling you with him.
Before you had time to think about it, you were sitting in his lap, legs on both sides of his. Your fingers buried in his hair and his hands gripping onto your sides almost desperately. You rolled your hips down and he pulled away from the kiss to groan quietly, then pressed his lips against your neck, leaving open-mouthed kisses along your skin. You let out a shaky breath and leaned your head to the side. When he pulled away, your eyes met and you felt an excited shiver run down your spine.
“Princess, can I take off your clothes?” he asked, a reassuring smile curving his lips. “And I’m gonna need to hear you on this, okay?”
You chuckled and rolled your eyes, but leaned down to peck his lips.
“Okay,” you agreed as you looked at him again. “Yes, you can, and if it’s okay, take yours off as well, please.”
You had just a second to register his pleased smile before he started undressing you. His fingers started swiftly working on pulling off your top and then followed your shorts, leaving you in a mismatched white lacy bra and panties with kittens. An amused chuckle left his lips and he smirked at you teasingly.
“Listen, I wasn’t planning on this when I was getting ready in the morning,” you defended yourself, flustered with embarrassment.
“That’s okay, it’s cute,” he smiled and pecked your nose. Then he carefully lifted you by the thighs and let you sit on the bed instead. “Get comfortable for me, okay? I’ll be with you in a second.”
You nodded, yet didn’t move at all, instead choosing to watch as he took off his clothes. You’d seen him naked many times already yet it never failed to amaze you. And, well, more or less you were looking with new eyes, heart pounding loudly in your chest as you marveled at the sight. Plus, you were naked in front of him for the first time as well…
“If you keep looking at me like that, I’ll end up forgetting to take it slow,” Jaemin chuckled and you quickly shifted your gaze to his face instead, heat rushing to your face, but also between your legs. He stepped in front of you again and leaned down to be closer to you. “Now, I want you to promise me, if something feels good, you tell me, if something doesn’t, you also tell me.”
“I will,” you nodded, smiling a little. There was something in the way he spoke, confident yet ever so caring, that made you want to let him do just anything he wanted.
“Good girl,” he said, pecking your forehead. “Now, first of all, foreplay - always a good thing, goes both ways. But since I’m excited enough as it is, we’ll focus on you this time, okay?”
He waited for you to voice out your agreement before helping you move up on the bed and get comfortable, hovering over you as he kissed you again. His lips moved against yours slowly and sensually, as one of his hands took hold of your waist. Then it started sliding upwards, moving to your back so he could unclip your bra almost too easily. You expected him to pull away and look, but his lips remained on yours. It was only his fingers that carefully found their way under the fabric and gently rubbed over your nipple. You let out a whimper in the kiss and felt him smirk a little.
For a short moment, it was as if he was just playing around, fondling your breast or pinching your nipple occasionally. And while you did like it, it was annoyingly not enough. Reluctantly you pulled away from your kiss and pouted at him.
“Jaem, please, I need you to do more,” you asked quietly, a pleased smile from him meeting your words. And god, you realized, you’d do anything to see more of those.
“That’s it, I want to hear how I can do better at all times,” he said, almost as if he’d just been testing you. Although you’d guess that he was also just teasing you. Both were equally plausible.
But you didn’t have time to ponder over that as his lips pressed against your jaw and started working their way down. In the meantime, he got rid of your bra, yet you were surprised when suddenly something wet brushed along your nipple. You gasped and looked down to Jaemin looking up at you with a playful spark in his eyes. He hadn’t asked yet you still nodded and then his lips wrapped around the sensitive bud.
He sucked and teased it with his tongue, then moved along to the other one, drawing small whimpers out of you as he worked you up little by little. At one point though, his lips stopped a little higher up your chest and he started sucking persistently on that spot. He only pulled away when you couldn’t help but squirm a little.
“Did you just leave a hickey on my boob?” you scoffed in amusement, eyebrows raised.
“Not exactly your boob but close enough,” he grinned. “It’s not that high up, you can hide it, don’t worry.”
You hadn’t even thought about that. You couldn’t tell him that you didn’t care, so instead you just nodded. You waited for a moment but he didn’t do anything else and you could feel anxiousness starting to build up in you again.
“So what comes now?” you asked, cringing internally at how dumb that sounded. “I mean like-” you tried to explain but he shushed you with a peck.
“Can I eat you out?” he asked with a smile that felt too innocent for his question.
“God, please do,” you blurted out. The knowing look on his face told you that he knew how much you’d wanted that, yet he didn’t say anything.
Instead, with small open-mouthed kisses, he made his way down your body, settling between your legs. He took a moment to just press featherlight kisses along your thighs. Then his lips pressed against your still clothed clit and your thighs twitched. You couldn’t help but moan quietly when you felt his tongue glide over your soaked slit through your panties. It was so good but it could be so much better, you thought and squirmed a little. You felt his light chuckle more than you heard it as he slowly dragged down your underwear and threw it to the side. And then finally, finally, his tongue met your bare pussy.
As his lips wrapped around your clit and his tongue pressed down on it lightly, you could swear you were going to lose your mind by the time he was done. And it would be worth it. He lapped kittenishly at the sensitive spot, only moving occasionally to focus on your slit for a short while instead. You were a moaning mess almost too quickly but it all felt so good you couldn’t even feel embarrassed about it.
Jaemin’s fingers brushed along your thighs and you couldn’t tell if he meant to tease you or not but you couldn’t help but squirm in his hold. He chuckled against you, sending a shiver down your spine and a whine out your lips.
“Nana, can you please…” you mustered up the courage to speak up, although not very coherently “fingers, your fingers…”
He pulled away, a string of saliva connecting his lips and your clit. When he licked his lips, it broke, but the sight of his puffy lips glistening with your arousal was enough to have you whimpering again.
“You want my fingers inside of you, princess?” he asked to confirm and you nodded quickly. “Of course, anything for you,” he smiled and one of his hands immediately reached down between your legs.
His fingers brushed over your hole teasingly before one of them slipped inside you pumping slowly. You squirmed in pleasure, grasping at the bedsheet as you struggled to hold back a moan. Jaemin didn’t seem to help with that though, as his tongue was back on you a moment later. Between his mouth and his finger curling inside you and pressing against your walls, you were easily far too gone.
“So good,” you whimpered out. “So close, please, don’t stop,” you pleaded, feeling the orgasm building up dangerously.
Diligently, he obeyed your plea and soon you were slipping over the edge, a moan of his name on your lips, fingers clutching the sheets in a death grip. His tongue worked on you gently until you started calming down finally and only then did he pull away and sit up to look at you.
“Such a sweet princess you are,” he praised gently and reached over to stroke your head. When you blinked up at him in confusion, he chuckled. “You let me know what you wanted and you also told me what felt good.”
“You take such a strong stance on that whole thing,” you muttered and he laughed.
“Because that’s how you learn, babe,” he pointed out. “You listen to what the other person says. I want you to feel good, and I also want you to understand that it’s okay to voice out your needs or preferences, okay?”
What he said made sense, and although it wasn’t something you were hearing for the first time, you guessed it was nice of him to make sure that you felt comfortable enough to apply it in practice. But that was not what made butterflies rise in your stomach. It was the pet name. Jaemin often called you princess. While it always made you feel soft and mushy on the inside, you were used to it and didn’t give it too much thought. But babe? Babe was something only Karina called you platonically. But babe was also something that from him sounded too nice. You brushed the thought away.
“Okay,” you agreed. “Can I touch you?” you asked and that earned you another one of those gorgeous pleased smiles.
“Be my guest,” he said, leaning down to peck your neck again. “Oh, how I would love to cover you in love bites,” he mumbled against your skin and you couldn’t tell if he was telling you or just thinking out loud. You wanted to tell him that he could, but a small still rational part in your brain convinced you against it.
Hooking one of your arms over his shoulder, you reached your free hand out and carefully wrapped it around his cock, stroking it slowly. You teased the tip and Jaemin exhaled slowly against your skin, burying his face in your neck. You sped up your hand movement a little, squeezing your fingers around him gently and he groaned, grabbing your hips.
“Is this good?” you asked quietly, heart thumping in your chest.
“So good,” he groaned, pressing his lips to your collarbone shortly. “But if you could do it faster, it would be amazing.”
You were happy to oblige, even happier when you felt him shiver in your arms. Yet as soon as a moan escaped his lips, he was fumbling to stop you.
“I don’t want to come before I’m inside you,” he explained breathlessly to your quizzical look and you bit your lips.
Right. He would soon be inside you. That same dick you were just stroking would be entering you and nervousness found its way to you again.
“Princess, stay with me,” Jaemin called out, stroking your hair gently. “Are you still sure you want to do this?”
“I am,” you confirmed, your free arm joining the other one around his neck. “I’m just nervous. Is it going to hurt?”
“It might,” he confirmed what you already knew. “But for that reason, we have…” Instead of finishing his sentence, he reached over to his bedside drawer and pulled out a bottle of lube. “You’re already quite wet, but it’s always easier with some additional help.”
You nodded in understanding and he sat back up to pour some of the liquid onto his fingers. He rubbed his fingers together to make sure they were properly covered and then brought them down between your legs. You shivered slightly at the cool wet feeling and Jaemin looked up at you.
“Oh, no, I’m okay,” you quickly assured him. “Go for it.”
Two of his fingers pushed inside you slowly. It wasn’t your first time using lube so you knew what to expect, but you still couldn’t help but moan at the feeling as his fingers started working inside you and spreading you out. As you relaxed more into his touch, he carefully added a third finger and you let out something between a gasp and a moan. Jaemin chuckled quietly, rubbing his thumb over your clit.
“If you do that again, I might actually cry,” you whimpered and he laughed. “I think… I don’t really know, but I think I’ll be fine like this, can we…”
“Yes, princess?” he chirped as if he didn’t know crystal clear what you meant. You scoffed, feeling heat rush down your whole body.
“Jaemin, just fuck me already, please,” you said as decisively as you could without your voice shaking.
“Come here, princess,” he smiled, pulling you to sit up in front of him. “You’ll help me put on the condom.”
“Why me?” you asked, narrowing your eyebrows. “I think you know how to do it yourself.”
“I do know,” he rolled his eyes jokingly, “but that doesn’t mean it wouldn’t feel nice if you did it instead.”
You let out a small ‘oh’ and nodded, so he smiled and handed you the packet. When you looked down, you noticed it wasn’t the one you’d brought and chuckled slightly at the idea that he had been prepared already. You tore it open and pulled out the rubber.
“Squeeze it here,” Jaemin instructed and your fingers pinched at the closed end. “Now put it on and roll it down.”
You followed through, experimentally stroking his shaft a couple of times once it was fully on.
“Good enough?” you asked, looking up to meet Jaemin’s eyes again. You couldn’t stop yourself from leaning up and kissing him shortly.
“Perfect,” he smiled.
He reached over for the lube once again, pouring some of it on his hand again and then stroking himself a few times as you watched a little curiously. Jaemin used his free hand to tilt up your chin and tsked quietly. You pouted but he pecked away your pout and pushed you back until you were laying down again.
“Ready?” he asked and despite the anxious shiver that ran down your spine, you said yes.
It started out slow. You wouldn’t say it was really that painful but you could definitely feel the stretch, thankful for the lube Jaemin had generously applied. You heard yourself whimper out at some point and he immediately stopped, peppering your face with little kisses.
“I’m good,” you assured him with a trembling voice, gently threading your fingers through his hair, “kiss me and keep going.”
And he did. His lips pressed against yours in what was probably the sweetest and most gentle kiss in your life so far. At the same time, his hips pushed forward again. You got so lost in the kiss that it took you a while to notice that he’d stopped again. He was already fully inside you, you realized, as you broke the kiss.
“How are you feeling, princess?” he asked quietly.
“Good, I’m feeling good,” you said honestly, brushing through his hair, already damp with sweat. “How are you feeling?”
“Never been better,” he chuckled, pecking your nose. “You feel so good around me. And you’re doing so good.”
“Is it hard for you to go so slow and hold back?” you smiled, twirling a strand of his hair around your finger. You were beaming on the inside from his praise though.
“Don’t think about it, okay?” he grinned and you giggled. “Take your time and tell me when you’re okay to go on.”
“It’s okay, Jaem, you can move,” you said and he raised his eyebrows doubtfully. “I’m sure, just don’t go all out on me from the start, hm?”
“As you say,” he smiled and pecked you again.
And then started moving slowly. It took you a moment to get used to the feeling of his dick sliding in and out of you, but soon enough you were already moaning softly, gripping onto his hair in pleasure. You made sure to let him know that you liked it, that you were okay with going faster, with going harder and he followed through.
You were seeing stars again. Jaemin was working his magic on you again, your moans were mixing with his and the sounds of sex. When he leaned down to kiss you again, you whimpered against his lips. You were so close to cumming again and by the tension in his body, you could guess he was too.
“Jaem, I’m close,” you whimpered as you pulled away from the kiss and he smiled against your lips. “Keep going, please.”
“Of course, princess,” he responded, voice raspy and low and you could cum just from that.
Truth be told, it took so little after that that maybe you did indeed. Your orgasm washed over you so intensely that you were digging your nails in his shoulder blades so hard you were sure you’d leave marks, only self-aware enough to move your hands from his hair before you’d pulled out a chunk of it.
You only somewhat registered Jaemin cumming as well once he started gradually slowing down and came to a stop. You were both panting heavily, too blown out to even move at the moment. You brought one of your hands up again to stroke his hair gently and his forehead dropped onto your shoulder.
You weren’t sure how long you’d spent that way before he finally moved, pulling out of you and taking off the condom. You sat up in the bed crossing your legs as he tied the rubber, then went to throw it in the bin. Then he came to sit next to you, pushing a few sweaty strands of hair away from your face.
“So… how do you feel, princess?” he asked carefully. “Does it hurt anywhere? Did you like it?”
“I feel honestly great,” you hummed, smiling a little. “It was amazing. I knew I made a good choice with you, thank you so much.”
“Well, congrats, your basic Sex Ed course has been completed, you’re ready to conquer a man’s bed,” he smiled in response and ruffled your hair.
Despite the lighthearted truth in his statement, your heart clenched painfully.
“Nana, can I go take a shower?” you asked instead of acknowledging his words.
If he noticed your avoidance, he didn’t comment on it. Instead, he found you a towel to use, brought your clothes to the bathroom for you, and explained to you which bottle contained what. He didn’t offer to join you and you couldn’t decide whether you were relieved or disappointed. You didn’t offer either.
As hot water started pouring on you, you let out a quiet sight. There was no doubt anymore. You were down, and you were down bad. You couldn’t go back to being Jaemin’s friend. It had been easier with Renjun, you’d only ever imagined what being with him would be like. But with Jaemin, you knew. And you didn’t know if you could bear letting it go.
You ordered yourself not to cry. As you washed your body, your eyes fell on the hickey he’d left you. You reminisced over the past three months. About all the times he’d stolen kisses from you for no apparent reason. About his little remarks of ‘I imagined this’ or ‘I wanted to do this’ or ‘I’ve been waiting for this’. About the way he looked at you sometimes. About the game stall owner’s words. About the photos.
A small traitorous part of you wanted to put those pieces together and maybe hope that he’d have some feelings for you too. It sounded too good to be real, yet what if…
Clinging onto that little hope, you dried your body, got dressed again, and returned to his bedroom. He’d put on loose gray sweatpants and a black t-shirt while you were gone and he looked too good in that. You couldn’t help yourself as you walked over and pecked his lips.
“Thank you,” you said softly.
“You don’t need to thank me for anything,” he smiled in response. “Would you like to stay over?”
“Sorry, my parents will be waiting for me,” you shook your head. Half a truth, as your parents were indeed home but you’d doubted they would disagree if you told them where you were. You just needed some time to think everything through. “I’ll see you tomorrow at school, okay?”
You could have imagined the disappointment on his face. But as you made your way home, you let the idea warm you up. By the time you reached your front door, you’d made up your mind - distancing yourself would be impossible, and hiding your feelings was going to do you more harm than good.
ateez reaction when you confess your feelings to him while drunk
requested? yes.
PARK SEONGHWA
seonghwa answered your call almost immediately. at first heard a lot of background noises coming from your end as he tried to get your attention.
“y/n? hello?”
he was about to hang up, thinking maybe you called him on accident but before he could do that, you whined his name into the phone followed by a hiccup and a giggle.
“are you drunk?” he asked with a sigh, already standing up from the couch to search for his car keys. “where are you?”
“seonghwaaa” you slurred. “i really really like you”
“i know” he simply answered as he made his way to the door, car keys in his hands, ready to pick you up.
“no. i mean i like like you. and i did for a looong time” you dragged your words and chuckled dryly, suddenly your voice became more serious. “shit, who knows, maybe i’m in love with you”
he stopped dead in his tracks, his phone almost slipping from his grasp. seonghwa opened his mouth to say something but words didn’t come out, his heart was beating out of his chest and for a moment, he thought maybe he was dreaming until he heard your voice again.
“please, love me, seonghwa”
and without any more thoughts, he answered. “i do”
KIM HONGJOONG
“i’m sorry, i didn’t know who else to call and you’re the closest to her. i can’t bring her to my place, i still live with my parents” you friend chuckled, cheeks flushing from embarrassment.
TXT HEADCANON: they think about you when they're with their current partner... ✿⁺🧋˳ ˚ ᜔
INSPIRATION: "glimpse of us" by joji
SOOBIN: feels so guilty about what he is doing in his current relationship. he compares all the things from your relationship with him to his current one. his current partner’s hands aren’t as loving as yours, and you had always held his face as if you held the world in your hands. he appreciates the way his partner runs their hands through his hair to comfort him, but it’s not like the way you did ever did it. they can’t take the weight off his shoulders caused from his work like you did. tries to just concentrate on his current relationship to forget you, but you’ve engraved yourself into the weakest parts of himself.
YEONJUN: pretends that his new partner is you. when he lays with them in bed, and the lights are off, he can make himself concentrate hard enough to convince himself it's you, even if it's just for a second. when they cuddle, he can't help but remember the way you felt in his arms. if he closes his eyes when they kiss, he hopes that when he opens his eyes it'll be you infront of him. sometimes he finds himself almost saying your name when his partner does something that reminds him of you. knows that what he is doing is wrong, but he's only in his current relationship only to fill the empty space you left inside of him.
BEOMGYU: convinces himself that he can be happy without you. but when he comes back from practice and feels that familiar feeling of excitement that came when he knew he was about to see you, it diminishes when his new partner goes up to him. he can't help but look in their eyes and think about what the two of you could have become if you had stayed together. now that you've moved on to someone new, were they everything he was and wasn't in your relationship? he wonders if your new partner makes you laugh the way he did. if they made you happy the way he thought he had made you.
TAEHYUN: tries to move on by getting into a new relationship. but when he hold hands with his new partner, he feels nothing. when he cuddles with them feels nothing, when he wraps his arms around them he feels nothing, and when kisses them he feels absolutely nothing. all of it only reminds him of how it felt to do all those things with you. but, he'll stay in his current relationships because he hopes that he'll one day fall in love with them in order to forget about you. it causes him a wrenching pain, but he'll never be able to admit that to himself.
HUENING KAI: stays in his current relationship hoping that maybe one day you'll come back. he loves his new partner, but they're not you. he'll enjoy the time he spends with them, but his partner often see him drifting away in his thoughts when they're spending time together. when asked if he's okay, he says he's fine. but in reality, he waiting for one day you'll fall back into his life again. maybe his partner notices, maybe they don't. either way, they don't have the heart to ask when huening kai seems to be more in love with his thoughts than them.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: what i write about each member is not at all the way i view them as people. this is purely fiction and written for purposes of entertainment. xo
</3 . . . soobin: he can’t think straight. his days no longer seem normal, and he finds it hard to keep it together. he kept you as his wallpaper until someone saw it and asked how your relationship was going. sometimes, he’ll hover over your name to call you, his fingers shaking and tears falling down his face. he pretends to be okay so he doesn’t worry the members, but they worry about him when he starts to sleep in, miss practices, and talk less. can’t find it in himself to hate you. still loves you even when you took pieces of him that he’ll never get back.
</3 . . . yeonjun: after the break up, he hates you. blocks you on everything he has you on. has emotional outbreaks when people ask him if he is okay and tells people to leave him alone. over works himself until someone has to go tell him to take a break. one time, soobin walked over to him to tell him to stop, and yeonjun shoved him back before falling out to the floor with tears in his eyes. apologized profusely. realizes he doesn’t hate you, but he hates himself. wishes he could go back and do it differently so that maybe you would have stayed.
</3 . . . beomgyu: he loses himself. doesn’t laugh as loud as he used to and doesn’t make jokes to lighten up the mood anymore. finds it hard to concentrate during practices or interviews. his eyes no longer sparkle with his energetic personality. instead, they show how little sleep he’s gotten from staying up scrolling through pictures of when the two of you were together and the text message he’s been writing and deleting, wondering if he should actually send it to you. if you asked him to, he would change every part of himself so he could go back to you.
</3 . . . taehyun: he suppresses himself. the day you broke up, he walked into the dorm and went about his day. he didn’t tell the members, but they watched as his actions became more aggressive. the way he would throw his plates into the sink or how he would hit the remote against the coffee table when it didn’t work, the sound making everyone jump. an attitude in his voice when people ask him how he’s been. one day, the members were teasing him, and he completely lost it. stood up and screamed at everyone. left the room and went to his room, tears running down his face. he hasn’t and still won’t talk about what happened.
</3 . . . hueningkai: he shuts himself out. can’t sleep at night because all he thinks about is you. doesn’t leave his room at all and rereads old texts, wondering what he did wrong. you were his first serious relationship. you were his first love, his first kiss, the first person held to sleep at night, and ultimately, his first heartbreak. he thought, innocently, that he would one day end up marrying you. can’t bring himself to even tell his mom that he’s not with you anymore. he’s trying to learn how to not miss you, but it’s hard because there’s this ache in his heart that he can’t get rid of.
stray kids - their crush sits on their lap (req)
includes: ot8 | wc: 6.5k
genre: fluff, school au (binnie) | tws/cws: alcohol (minho), heated makeout session (minho), suggestive comment (hyunjin), throwing up (jisung)
a/n: i slightly edited the request, just to make it easier on me. also, this got long and it got wild. aha, im sorry. there's also more shippy stuff in this one, in changbin and seungmin's parts. also, i overuse the term puppy to describe seungmin in this cuz im in my seungmin bias hyperfixation stage, stfu bout it lol.
ღBANG CHAN:
you, being the oh-so-good friend you were, decided to join chan at the studio today. however, as seems to be the plot in every fanfic involving chan, he's too focused on the screens in front of him to really pay too much attention to you. you've been here for 4 hours, you've even gotten up to get drinks and snacks for you both, only getting a small 'thank you' in return. it wasn't the gratitude you wanted, if was the attention. sure, you had brought stuff to do, knowing how chan could get, but you've finished it all and now you're bored. the sound of chan letting out a frustrated sigh is enough of a sign that he needs a break. so you put a plan into motion.
"chan, you need to take a break." you say, standing up and walking over to where he was sat. he ignores you; the audacity. you realise he isn't going to listen to your words, so you go to plan b; moving his chair to make him realise you are, in fact, still there. the minute your hand even lightly touches the chair, chan is turning to look at you.
"(y/n), what are you doing?" he asks, his eyes flitting back and forth between you and the screen. you huff in response.
"i've been here for four hours, you haven't taken a break and you've barely spoken to me. i'm just kinda feeling ignored." you say, letting sadness and your own petty wants slip in at the end of the sentence. chan looks at you with wide eyes as you speak before pushing his chair back from the desk slightly.
"i'm sorry, there's just a lot of work to do. in fact, i can't afford a break right now, i'm so sorry." he says and goes to pull himself closer to the desk again, but you act before he can. you scramble forward and sit yourself on his lap, back facing him, the screens in front of you two lighting up your face. you didn't really think this through and oh my god now you're sat on chan's lap and what if this is weird to him and what if he decides to stop being friends with you and what-.
"i mean, i can still work with you on my lap, (y/n)." chan says, cutting off your internal monologue-freak-out-panic-overthinking situation.
"you sure this isn't weird to you?" you ask, wanting to clarify 100% that chan was okay with you sat on him like this. your breath hitches when you feel his hands slide around your waist, pulling you closer to his chest.
"i don't mind, as long as you don't mind." he says and you're quick to affirm that you don't mind. he smiles at you before speaking. "well, i suppose a small break wouldn't hurt too much." he leans back in the chair slightly, taking you with him, his head resting on your shoulder.
you two talk for about 10 minutes before chan decides he had to get back to work and, after clarifying that you finished all of your own work, allows you to stay on his lap as he does so. let's just say when changbin and jisung came by later to help with the producing, and they see you still on his lap, they were very confused and lots of questions had to be answered from both of you. you got yourself a date with chan through it, though😳.
ღLEE MINHO:
you had been invited to join stray kids at a party that was just gonna be the 9 of you. you were more than happy to join, i mean, why wouldn't you? your best friends, good alcohol, free food... lee minho. okay, yes, stray kids were your best friends but for gods sake you couldn't deny that you had a raging crush on minho and thought maybe you could try and get closer to him. felix trying to encourage you about it over text didn't help either. so you pulled on a cute but casual outfit before heading over to the dorms. the minute you arrived, you were being pulled inside by felix, who was smirking at you.
"what are you smirking about, felix?" you asked and he just laughed, ignoring your comment and dragging you into the living room where all the other members were sat around and there were only 2 empty spaces; 1 between minho and hyunjin and the other between jisung and chan. you don't even time to glare at felix before he's already bouncing over to sit with chan and jisung. you greet everyone as you sit between minho and hyunjin.
as the night goes on, and the alcohol starts pouring, everyone starts to get a tad drunk, yourself included, which leads to felix suggesting you guys play truth or dare, but specifically the version where you spin the bottle to pick your target. you sigh and reluctantly agree, knowing damn well you weren't getting out of this, no matter how much of a fight you put up. luckily the bottle only lands on you once, and it was chan spinning it, so he wasn't mean with his truth question for you but when felix spins the bottle and it lands on you, you know you're fucked.
"(y/n), truth or dare?"
"truth." there's no hesitation in your answer. when everyone around you boos or calls you boring, however, the alcohol in your system decides now is the time to take the reigns. "fine, dare." you change your answer and oh god, felix's eyes seem to glint even brighter at the change. he smirks before he tells you what your dare is to be.
"you have to sit on minho's lap... for the rest of the game." your eyes widened. you were expecting him to say something like confess, or kiss minho, or even sit on his lap for 5 minutes, maybe 10, but the rest of the game? that's evil, even by felix's standards! you look over at minho who seems to have frozen up and you shoot daggers at felix before making your way over to the older man.
"is this, is this okay? you can say no, i don't mind doing the forfeit." you say. felix sits nearby, shocked that you actually were planning on going through with it. once you get minho's permission, you sit yourself on his lap, trying to be calm and casual whilst also not being too heavy or too relaxed on him or anything. as the game continues and everyone stops teasing the two of you, minho wraps his arms around your waist, chin on your shoulder before he whispers to you.
"i like this, (y/n). i like it a lot." you blush and try and ignore him but the delicate feeling of a quick kiss against your neck is enough to startle you. you stand up and quickly excuse yourself to the restroom. fuck, he probably thinks you hate him now. when you hear a soft knock against the door shortly after you excused yourself, you don't know who to expect on the other side of the door. minho, ready to confront you? felix, ready to drag you back to the game? chan, ready to comfort you? who knows. but what you do know is that you can't avoid whoever it is for long without raising suspicions. so, with a sigh, you brush yourself down before swinging the door open.
"(y/n), are you okay? i didn't go too far, did i?" it's minho and holy fuck hearing him be so caring, even if he is slightly tipsy, is the hottest thing about him that you've experienced in a while. you sigh, shaking your head no, before reaching a hand up to fiddle with the necklace you were wearing. "so, if i didn't go too far, does that mean i flustered you too much instead?" he says, his usual cocky confidence returning to his voice. you look at him and laugh.
"ever the confident one, aren't we?" you respond back before slowly walking out of the restroom to join him in the hallway. he takes your response, and your exiting of the restroom, to be a good sign and before you know it, minho's lips are on yours and you're slowly being backed up. when you finally collide with one of the walls of the hallway, minho pulls away, looking you up and down. fuck, his confidence was hot. (because confidence is hot, you can't change my mind). you pull him back into a kiss which continues down it's passionate path until a voice is heard, cutting you both off.
"are you guys oka- oh, no, you are more than okay. pretend i wasn't here and continue!" you hear felix's voice ring out and you pull away from minho to cough out a laugh at the way the australian's voice fades off upon discovering yours and minho's position. you kiss the man in front of you a couple more times before you speak again.
"we should probably head back downstairs now. wouldn't wanna be known as the friends who sneak off to make out all the time." you say, laughing slightly as you readjust yourself. minho smirks again before lacing his hand with yours as you two head downstairs.
"i wouldn't mind that. cuz it means i get to make out with you." he says in response to your previous statement and you can't but laugh at him, finally joining the boys again. this time, you purposefully sit on minho's lap, causing the members, especially the more intoxicated ones, to wolf whistle and cheer at you two. felix can only smile victoriously at you, to which you flip him off before snuggling back into minho's embrace.
ღSEO CHANGBIN:
you had arrived late to school, having had a dentist's appointment to attend, so when you did finally arrive, it was just as the lunch bell rang. once you finally get through all the sign-ins and stuff, you're in a rush to find your friends, just wanting some company after such a busy morning. however, when you get to your usual table, you notice that, for once, everyone is actually in school at the same time, a rare event to occur within your friendship group.
"woah, who are you guys and what did you do to my friend group?" you say, catching their attention, everyone soon greeting you in a chorus of hey's, hi's and how are you's. your friend hyunjin stands up to hug you before sitting back down, sliding his arm around his boyfriend, felix's shoulders. (yes i made it shippy again, stfu). you look around before noticing a very glaring issue. there was no spare seats.
"um, guys? there's no spare seats. where am i meant to sit?" before you can even finish your question, hyunjin is already answering it, a special lilt in his voice that he uses whenever he's teasing people, especially you.
"(y/n) can just sit on your lap, right changbin? considering that's normally where (y/n) would sit, but you'd also throw a hissy fit if you were made to give up your seat." hyunjin says, smirking at you. felix is trying to hold back a laugh, your body temperature is going up and up, and the look on changbin's face is making you very, very scared for his response.
"if (y/n) doesn't mind, then i don't mind." is all he says before going back to scrolling through his phone. your eyes widen, mouth opening a little bit in shock and you blink like a deer caught in headlights for all of ten seconds before you're shaking your head and making your way over to where changbin is sat. when he senses you near him, he adjusts his position to allow you to sit on his lap. as soon as you sit down, his arm is wrapping around your waist and his head is resting on your shoulder as he continues scrolling through his phone. you see hyunjin's phone as he snaps a picture, but you're a second too late. when you go to lean across the table to snatch at his phone though, changbin's arm blocks your movement, slightly pulling you back into his lap. everyone looks at you and hyunjin in confusion as hyunjin bursts into laughter and you keep spitting light-hearted threats and curse words at him.
"don't worry, babe, you'll get the chance for revenge against him later. you always do." changbin says, voice quiet, but still loud enough for everyone present at the table to hear. however, the table is only quiet for about 3 seconds before the entire host of people at the table, sans you and changbin, burst into screams and yells, startling you two. why were they screaming now?
"what on earth are you guys screaming about?!" you yell over the others at the table.
"um, changbin called you babe? what the hell was that?" felix was the one to provide the details on what exactly caused the screaming. when your brain processes the information, you let a small 'oh' slip out of your mouth, before looking down with a smile, smile getting wider at the sight of changbin's arm still wrapped around your midriff. changbin, meanwhile, was smiling at his phone. no, he didn't mean to call you babe, but the fact that the back of your neck and your ears had tinged red once you realised he did gave him a little bit of confidence that maybe you liked him back. the table avoided discussing you two for the rest of lunch and when the bell rang signalling the end of lunch, you got a little pouty. you were gonna miss sitting on changbin's lap, if you were being totally honest. this sort of situation wouldn't ever happen again, knowing that you didn't have the best of luck.
as you stood up and dusted yourself off, changbin stood up as well, pulling his backpack onto his shoulders. he offered you his arm, smiling at the way you giggled when you intertwined your arms together. and with arms linked, and hyunjin phone's secretly recording the two of you, you and changbin headed off to class together. when changbin slid you a note at the end of maths class asking you to accompany him on a date sometime that week, who were you to say no? and yes, you told hyunjin, who told felix, who promptly freaked out and immediately messaged you, demanding him and hyunjin got to style you for the date. you could only really agree with a sigh. the boys knew their stuff about fashion, to be fair. oh, and expect hyunjin to never, ever shut up about how he basically got you two together. good luck with that one bestie.
ღHWANG HYUNJIN:
you're sat in the back of the practice room as you watch stray kids do their thing, eyes particularly drawn to the elegant figure of hyunjin. yes, you liked him, but you were too cowardly to ask him out. he's too pretty! what if he rejects you? what then? you wouldn't be able to show your face around the boys after being rejected by The Hwang Hyunjin. the sound of the music cutting out drags you out of your thoughts.
"ahh, finally a break." you hear jisung say, watching as he winces mid-stretch. you push yourself up to stand and walk over to the group.
"you guys did so well! you're all so talented." you say and everyone says thanks or shoots you an appreciative grin, bar hyunjin. he seems to be stuck in his head and when he walks back to the middle of the room, you quickly realise he's thinking badly about himself and that he's gonna try practice during the break too. not on your watch, he isn't.
"if you're gonna start dancing again, at least take a sip of water before you do so. you'll be no good at dancing if you can't stand on your feet." you say to hyunjin. he quickly glances at you, before listening to you. the minute he gets the bottle in his hands, your hands are coming up to rest on his shoulders, lightly pushing at them to try and force him to sit down.
"i'm not sitting down, (y/n), i need to keep dancing." he says and you pout. however, you're stubborn and don't give in so easily.
"just for a minute, please, hyunjin!" you say, busting out the puppy dog eyes and your hands are clasp together like you're pleading to or praying for him to listen to you.
"fine, one minute, then i seriously gotta get back to working." the minute he sits down, long legs sprawling out in front of him, you sit down on his lap, straddling him, not minding his sweaty nature or the confused noise jeongin lets out at the sight of you on hyunjin's lap, especially in a position that could probably only spawn certain images in some of the boys' minds.
"there, now, you're gonna sit here for the rest of your break and you're not going to overwork yourself because of some stupid and very, very false insecurities, okay?" you say, poking at his cheeks as you talk. he's bright red and you're unsure if its because of the intense dancing he just did or because of your actions, kinda hoping its the latter, or at least a combination of the two. he softly nods his head at you, but when you don't move, even after his body relaxes and he takes a sip of water, he tilts his head at you like a puppy.
"are you, are you gonna get up?" he asks, voice quiet, very well aware of your body weight on top of him and of the 7 other pairs of eyes in the room that could turn to look at you two at any point in time.
"nope. gotta make sure you stick to your promise," you say before the thought that maybe he's uncomfortable hits your mind. "uh-unless you're uncomfortable, of course, in which case, tell me and i'll get up." you say, eyes avoiding his. he softly laughs at you before speaking up again.
"no, no i'm okay. just wanted to check, that's all." he says and smiles at you, reaching a hand up to play with your hair. you two sit like this the entire break, both of you flustered and yet happy messes. when chan finally speaks up to say the break is over, hyunjin leans in to kiss your cheek before gently manoeuvring you off of his lap.
"gotta go back to practice, how long are you gonna be staying here for?" he asks and when you say that you're here for the remainder of practice, he smiles before asking you a question you were not expecting to receive today.
"how about after this, we have a late night date?" he winks before walking off, leaving you to weakly call out an okay before running back to the place you sat in last time, hiding your flustered face in the sleeves of your sweater.
ღHAN JISUNG:
jisung had gotten sick but was still trying his damn hardest to get up to go to work, or to the gym. he wouldn't listen to any of the boys, pushing that he was fine and wasn't sick at all, so minho had called you to come and take care of the stubborn boy. jisung was happy to see you until you told him the reason for your visit and then all of a sudden, he was back to whining and complaining about how nobody would let him live his life.
"yah, you're definitely not sick or anything. here, drink this." you say, handing jisung a water bottle as he finishes having a coughing fit that left him very out of breath. he only scowls at you before snatching the water bottle. after drinking some and re-capping the bottle, he places it on the table before standing up again.
"i'm fine, (y/n), i promise! i'm gonna get ready to head to the studio. you're free to tag along!" he says, shooting a quick smile in your direction. what he isn't expecting, however, is for you to glare at him, before walking towards him, the angry look on your face causing him to walk backwards, until his legs hit the sofa, causing him to fall down on it. you see your chance and quickly climb onto his lap, straddling him. he looks at you in shock, his face slowly colouring red as he blushes at how close you are to him.
"there, now you can't go anywhere. if you try and pick me, i will scream bloody murder, jisung. and you know damn well i will!" you say, glaring at him again when his hands go to your sides to lift you up.
"well fine then! but you're gonna have to stay there all day because the minute you get up, i'm gonna go and get ready to go to the studio so... hmm!" he says, playfully sticking his tongue out at you as he finishes his sentences. you boop his nose before answering him back.
"fine by me. get comfy, i'm not going anywhere." you say, before turning around so you're still on jisung's lap, just turning so your back is facing him. you quickly grab the tv remote before turning on some random show to act as a background noise to the rant you're about to hit him with. "i wish you weren't so stubborn sometimes. just, why can't you listen to people when they tell you to stay home? you're sick, you need to rest, sungie!" you say, slightly tilting yourself so you're sat sidewards on his lap instead. he looks down at his hands that are playing with a loose thread on the hem of your shirt before acting upon a stupid idea he has in his head.
"hey (y/n)?" he says and you look at him again, eyes slightly widened in curiosity. "don't hate me for this." he continues and before you can ask what he means, he leans forward, pressing his lips firmly against yours. you squeak and push him away, however, you push too hard and fall off his lap, landing with a hard thud on the floor. as you wince, rubbing at the red mark that is now emblazoned on your elbow, jisung is pouting as he looks down at his lap. you realise you need to do damage control, and quick.
"jisungie, i only pushed away because you're sick and i do not wanna get sick from you kissing me. i really wanna kiss you, i do, but i'm not taking the risk of getting sick too. i'm sorry." you say and he looks up at you, doe eyes sparkling with joy at your confession. you sit on his lap again, this time curling yourself into his chest.
"c'mon lets take a nap, sungie, you need one." you murmur into his chest and he verbalises a small okay in response, snuggling into you even more.
when you wake up an hour later, you're quick to realise that you're lying on the sofa, jisung nowhere in sight. you go to curse him out when you hear gagging and retching from the bathroom. you sigh and pad over to see the poor boy being sick. you sit next to him and rub at his back, gently soothing him and whispering soft assurances.
"told ya you were sick." is all you say, jisung just groaning in return. but the little smile he sends you after is enough for you to know he isn't actually annoyed with you. you stay by him the rest of the day and when he calls you baby in front of the boys later on at dinner, you don't even flinch, you just turn to him with a big smile.
ღFELIX LEE:
you and felix were serious gamers, dedicated to beating each other in an intense game of mario kart. you two often started off friendly and civil, the competition light-hearted. next thing you know, you two are shoving at each other, snatching controllers from hands and even going so far as to stand in front of the other to block their view. the other members of stray kids have seen you two go at this competition many many times and you always seem to lose, no matter what. so changbin, your wonderful wingman and the only person who knows about your raging crush on felix, has given you one trick to use against felix. next time he presents an opportunity for you to do so mid-playfight, sit on his lap. so, when you two next settle down to play games together, it plagues your mind, causing you to lose a lot more than you typically do.
"wow, you've gotten worse, if that's even possible!" felix snarks playfully, before turning all soft boy on you. "are you okay, though? this is so unlike you." he follows up with. you turn to look at him and the gentle look in his eyes makes you wanna cry, your love for him so strong that it scares you.
"i'm fine lol. just tired." you say, and felix seems satisfied with the answer. you two go back to playing, keeping it civil for about another 5 minutes before felix jabs you in the side with his elbow to distract you.
game on, felix.
you and him are immediately pulling at controllers, throwing them on sofas and sliding them across the floors. you two are essentially chasing each other around the room whilst trying to finish the race. what you don't notice is the other members slowly filling up the space in the doorway. so when felix finally sits down after the race ends, you find yourself enacting the plan, unaware of your crowd. you sit on his lap and you feel him tense underneath you.
"what's wrong, felix? cat got your tongue?" you say over your shoulder, giggling as he still hasn't recovered from your actions. however, before you can celebrate your victory against him, you feel his lips against your neck. you freak out and push off of him, falling to the floor in a very cluttered messy heap of (y/n). the sound of the other members trying (and very much failing) to hold in their laughter has you and felix turning to look towards the doorway. you're all pouty and sad so you get up and run past all the members to changbin's room, face planting on his bed and mentally cursing yourself over and over for taking advice from an idiot like changbin. after about 5 minutes, you hear the door open, so you try and pretend you're asleep, hoping its just chan or changbin coming to check on you. however, it takes only one second for you to realise that the hand stroking your hair is felix's. oh god, you recognise him by how his hands feel! thats a new level of lovesick, you think. you hope and pray felix is buying into your fake-sleeping shtick right now, cuz you do not want to face him, at all.
"i know you're asleep and can't really hear me, but i'm sorry if i went too far back there. i just... i really like you, and i thought your actions meant you liked me too. i'm sorry, i'll try and stay away from scaring you like that again." he says and he leans down to press a kiss against your cheek before standing up and walking away. you decide to fake waking up and turn to face him.
"lixie?" you ask, hoping felix can't see through your acting. he turns around, looking at your sleepy expression and walks back over to you.
"did i wake you? i'm sorry, sunflower, i didn't mean to." he says, gently stroking at your cheek. you reach your arms up to wrap around his neck and pull him down.
"cuddle me? please?" you whisper into his ear. he's nods an okay before picking you up. you go to question him but then you remember that his bed is in the same room as changbin's so you just accept your fate. as you two snuggle up together in his bed, you decide to tell him the truth about what you heard.
"i heard what you said earlier, lixie. i really like you too." you whisper into the (very little) space between you two, before snuggling further into his chest. his hearts start racing and your little giggle tells him that you can hear it but he can't bring himself to care. a pathetic attempt at winning against him in your stupid little gaming challenge lead to you finally confessing your feelings. changbin is never gonna let you live this down, btw.
ღKIM SEUNGMIN:
you were sitting with minho and jisung, who were all tangled up in each other. not gonna lie, you were kinda jealous of the pair. not because you fancied one of them, no no no, but because, well, you and jisung used to confide in each other about your crushes; him crushing on minho and you crushing on seungmin. so to see jisung all happy and actually succeeding in a relationship with this crush made you the slightest bit salty. you kinda zone out at one point, pouting over how lucky jisung was, knowing damn well that you'd never have a chance with seungmin, no matter how much minho and jisung proclaimed you did.
"n), (y/n), (y/n)!" you here your name being yelled and you snap yourself out of your thoughts, noticing that minho and jisung are both looking at you in concern. "you good? you zoned out, hard." jisung continues talking. you blink and shake your head.
"yeah, i'm good. sorry, just got in my thoughts." you say, shooting the couple an apologetic smile. minho sighs and rolls his eyes, seeing right through your little act of nonchalance.
"just go and confess already, (y/n). one, so you'll stop being jealous of us, two, so that you can finally get an answer. a yes gets you a boyfriend, a no gets you a chance to move on and find someone else. so go do it, hes upstairs in his room, no one else is here, go! don't come back down until you confess." he says and you go to protest but the look minho shoots you is enough for you to realise you're not getting out of this that easily. so, you stand up and flick minho's forehead on the way pass him, watching as he goes to hit you back before getting distracted by the sound of jisung laughing at your friendship dynamic. you smile softly at the lovesick couple before continuing on your path upstairs to the puppy-like boy. you knock gently on his door and when you hear the soft 'come in', you gently push the door open. seungmin is laying on his bed, back against the soft bedding, with his phone in his hands straight above him. he tilts his head up to look at who it is and is so shocked to see you that he drops his phone straight onto his face. you immediately rush over to check if he's okay.
"omg, minnie, are you okay?" you ask. he's still laying down so, without a rational braincell available for work that day, you clamber onto this lap and pull his hands away to check over his face. (god to be on seungmin's lap in this position🤧, sans injury ofc lol). as you look over seungmin's face, you notice its slowly getting more and more red and, im sorry to do this but you're a daft twat in this, you assume he's seriously hurt himself. you go to get up and grab some ice for him but his hands latch onto your waist as you go to do so, causing you to go red and quickly realise why his face was red too, a soft 'oh' leaving your lips. seungmin, noticing your now-shy nature, decides to tease you. he pushes himself up so he's sitting at a slightly inclined angle, resting his weight on his elbows. (god thats hot to imagine).
"ya know, if you wanted to sit on my lap so badly, all you had to do was ask." he says, a smirk present on his lips. you scoff and slap at his chest.
"you've been spending too much time with minho, i swear." you say, a small pout on your lips as you cross your arms across you chest, playfully avoiding his gaze. he sits up properly this time, which causes you two to be really close, as you had sat quite high up on him. your eyes widen at the close proximity and you gulp after seeing seungmin's eyes flit down to your lips, right at the same time he wraps his arms around your waist, pulling you closer, if that was even possible at this point.
"can i?" he asks, and you nod, not trusting your voice right now. he leans in and kisses you, slowly deepening the kiss, however the sound of a phone camera going off behind you has you both pulling away and looking towards the doorway. jisung is holding his phone, a shocked look on his face about the fact that it was actually on loud for once, and minho is facepalming at his idiot of a boyfriend. you giggle and tuck yourself into seungmin's neck, too shy to face the couple in the doorway.
"told you life would be easier if you just confessed, (y/n)." minho says before linking his hand with jisung's and dragging the younger boy away from seungmin's room. jisung yells like 8 apologies before he finally stops and you two are left in the silence of the room again. you look at each other and laugh before seungmin leans in to kiss you again. you gotta thank your 0 working braincells for this one, bestie.
ღYANG JEONGIN:
you were just vibing in the stray kids dorm, chatting to seungmin in the kitchen as he made a cup of coffee. you were just about to ask seungmin a question when felix comes sliding into the kitchen, slamming into you and a) causing you to hurt your back against the counter you were leaning against and b) accidentally pinning you there too. he pulls back immediately, though, and bursts into apologies.
"oh my god, i'm so sorry (y/n)! i thought i'd stop before then, are you okay?" he asks, panic written all over his features as he scans your form. you nod, pressing your hands into the space on your back where it hurts before questioning him on his abrupt arrival.
"why did you come speeding into the room like that?" you ask. he pulls his phone out of his pocket and loads it up to his private tiktok page. he goes to his likes and loads up the most recent video there. its a video entitled 'sitting on my best friends lap prank' and you immediately push his phone away from your vision.
"no, absolutely not, felix." you say and you go to walk away from one pouting felix lee and one laughing kim seungmin, but felix grabs your arm and you sigh before turning to face him and his puppy dog eyes.
"please, please, please, (y/n). please do this with jeongin! you don't gotta film it, but i will definitely be spying. i mean, definitely won't be spying, hehe." your eyes widen when he says you have to do it with jeongin.
"with jeongin, of all people, are you kidding me felix?! do you have a death wish against me or something?" you say. seungmin looks confused at the two of you and decides to ask before he fries his brain trying to figure out the meaning behind your sentences.
"what do you mean by 'jeongin of all people' and 'death wish against you'?" he asks, putting speech quotes around the two details he picked up from your response to felix's exclamation. you turn to face seungmin and realise you can't get out of filling him in on all of the missing details of this situation.
"i, i like jeongin, but i'm positive he hates me." you say, quickly explaining the situation to the puppy boy before you. he looks at you in silence for one second before bursting into laughter. you look at him with a confused look on your face. "what's so funny minnie?" you ask, pouting and crossing your arms across your chest.
"cuz seungmin sees what i see and that's jeongin being obsessed with you." felix says and you turn on him, glare sharp. he just smiles at you. you huff, realising you're not getting out of this.
"fine, i'll do the shitty prank but if this goes wrong, you gotta step in to help me out!" you say, pointing your finger at the aussie in front of you. seungmin ends up tagging along as you walk to jeongin's room. you knock gently and upon being given consent to enter, you gently push the door open, not shutting it behind you fully, allowing the two boys outside to see through the gap in the door.
"oh, hey (y/n). what do you want?" he asks, looking up from his phone briefly to glance at who came in before focusing his attention back on the screen before him. you walk up to him without saying anything, moving his arm out of the way and climbing into his lap before hiding your face in his neck/chest and snuggling into the space there, actually really enjoying the feeling of being on his lap. jeongin is frozen for a couple of seconds before he feels his intense feelings for you brush red across his face and he unfreezes, wrapping his free arm around your waist.
"are, are you okay, (y/n)?" he asks, still slightly shocked at your behaviour. he was so utterly convinced you hated him. when you mutter out a small 'yeah, just tired', jeongin smiles softly before gently drawing little shapes against the shirt that's covering your back. "we can take a nap together, if you want?" he says shyly, worried he may be pushing his luck with this. you weren't actually tired but the thought of getting to cuddle with jeongin was so worth the lie. you pull away from him briefly to look at his face before saying something that even you're shocked you had the confidence to say, let alone the two boys spying on you and the maknae.
"what, like a date?" you say and jeongin gets flustered before responding.
"if, if that's what you want it to be then, then sure." he says. you happily agree, and jeongin locks his phone shifting slightly so that he is laying down with you still on top of him. you two quickly fall asleep together and so, without you realising, the two boys who were still sneaking around outside the door, creep into the room and take pictures. as they turn to leave, they spot minho standing in their doorway with his arms crossed.
"what are you two doing?" he says, eyebrow raised. welp, you and jeongin were happily sleeping away and felix and seungmin were getting lectured by the dads of stray kids. rip them, i guess.
hello could I ask you for a reaction to txt when his crush calls bro 🫶🏻 please?
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ txt reaction to their crush calling them 'bro'
notes: hi anon! this was super fun to write. hope u enjoy!! <3
genre: fluff, crack, slight angst
tw: none
❥˗ˏˋyeonjun ´ˎ˗
◦ oh, this sneaky mf. bro??? that's all he was to you??? a 'bro'??? he immediately tackles you to the ground, tickling you while exclaiming 'bro, huh? where the hell did you learn that from?'. besides, two can absolutely play at that game. instead of calling you 'bro' back, he decides to call you sweet pet names to make you just as flustered as you make him. will start calling you sweetheart, darling, prince/ss, beautiful, etc. anything to make you realise that you're not just a 'bro' to him.
❥˗ˏˋsoobin ´ˎ˗
◦ soobin.exe has stopped working. mans is absolutely perplexed. he honestly does a double take, and just sits there processing what you just said. you guys were getting so close recently, he completely forgot that you only saw him as a friend. he pouts his lips as tears start forming, and plays with the hem of his jumper to distract himself. he does find you extremely adorable, so he starts smiling at the randomness of it, but deep down is disappointed at the unrequited feeling.
❥˗ˏˋbeomgyu´ˎ˗
◦ his reaction is honestly a mix of yeonjun and soobin's. just like yeonjun, he will waste zero time in teasing you about it. but instead of using pet names, he starts calling you 'bro' back while putting on a fake 'alpha-male' accent y'all know the one. 'sure thing, bro' 'you want a glass of water, bro?' 'hey bro, did you wanna watch a movie bro?'. he keeps going until you hit him out of annoyance. however, just like soobin, he's using the jokes and laughter to cover up his sadness at the realisation that you may have just friendzoned him :(
❥˗ˏˋtaehyun´ˎ˗
◦ tae, like usual, gives absolutely zero reaction. like nothing. just sits there and acts as if you calling him bro is a regular occurence which happens all the time and is definitely not something out of the ordinary. meanwhile, his heart is pounding so hard he thinks it might fall out of his chest, but he remains composed. so to annoy him, you do it again. and again. and again. you honestly think about giving up until taehyun sighs heavily and asks 'what is it, bro?'. you definitely didn't expect him to play along, and taehyun sits there smirking, knowing he just beat you at your own game.
❥˗ˏˋkai´ˎ˗
◦ 'bro?? who's bro??' this man asks the audacity, completely unaware of what you were doing. he honestly thinks you're talking to someone else, until he sees your eyes locked on his. and then it clicks. 'ohhh... i'm the bro...'. and you're just sitting there like yah ur my bro why wouldn't you be?? and he just goes red and stutters a quiet 'nothing no reason' before going back to what you were doing. kai was acting weird and it was, dare i say it, kinda sus tho
🥀Genre: Angst, Fluff (if you squint hard enough baby, sorry-)
🥀Warnings: mentions of; violence, death, cussing, Beomgyu was slightly a jerk at first:( (and if I miss something please do tell me, thank you<33)
🥀W/c: __
🥀Disclaimer(s);
the header and divider in this post were both made/edited by me !! So please don't come at me for "not giving credit"<3
This does not represent txt's Choi Beomgyu in any way !! Anything and basically everything that this post contains are out of pure fiction. So please don't take anything too seriously!<3
🥀A/n✉: hello lovelies !! Yes, I'm alive. Just not well. Anyways, I'm writing this fic because I had a dream about it and I'm making it everyone's problem<3. This is also not proofread so if you see some dents here and there I'm sorry 😭 Anyways, Hope you guys enjoy! if you do, please reblog/reply and just give me your thoughts, it would really mean alot to me! Thank you! Mwah mwah<33
You're currently walking down the hallway of your school, on your way to your next period. Your attention was just focused on your reviewer you personally made for this periods' quiz. You were nervous. Hands shaking as you mumbled out some words as you tried to read parts that you were having trouble with over and over again, skimming through each page quickly. Students walking pass by you thought you were crazy. Well, you did look the part.
"Y/n!"
You suddenly snapped back to reality once you heard your name echoed through the halls by a familiar voice. Shooting your head towards the direction to face its' owner.
And there you saw Huening Kai running towards your direction, something in his hands that was other than his back and nintendo on the other.
"Hey, Hyuka, what's u---"
"No time to chat! This is for you!" He gently shoves something in your hands as he stopped and jogged in place behind you for a second, waving whilst up holding a smile. "I need to go now! My class is about to start!" With that, he left you, slightly dumfounded as you stared down at the item in your hands.
It was a small box with a red ribbon neatly tied around it. Containing... your favorite chocolate?? You sighed as you looked back at the hallway where Huening had passed, thinking this was actually from it. Just then you noticed a yellow tag which was attached to the ribbon while you were inspecting it's packaging slowly.
It was a note. Which read;
Hope you like these. I sorta forgot what kind of these you liked someone I got each and every one, just in case. I hope you enjoy them;) -Beomgyu♡
You almost jumped in place as the feeling of excitement started to kick in. But you were too shocked to even move an inch.
"Beomgyu?? The Beomgyu?? He gave this to me????" You thought to yourself, in disbelief. More questions in your mind that were left unansweared as the bell rung, making your excitement turn into panic once you realized that you were late for your next period.
Running to your classroom. You couldn't help but have a little smile creep up onto your lips as the thought of Beomgyu. Your crush since gradeschool. Gave you your favorite chocolate(s). You thought he didn't even give two fucks about what you kept on babbling to him on the way to school. Since you both were neighbors, both of you would sometimes end up walking together to school if his friends don't pick him up in their flashy cars.
Your stomach felt so warm and fuzzy inside. The thought that he even remembered your favorite kind of chocolate, let alone even listen to you when you mentioned it, caused your heart to do backlips.
After class ended; you were on your way to the cafeteria. A huge smile that could almost reach the sky was still plastered to your face. Books still in hand. Staring at the sky as you were dreaming of how sweet Beomgyu could be and etc.
Your thoughts got run over once you tripped on one of the broken tiles that was slightly lifted up. You closed your eyes and embraced yourself for the harsh impact. Yet, it didn't come. You felt strong arms wrapped around you, the reason why you weren't harmed, not even a scratch.
You opened your eyes to see Taehyun's piercing yours, a look of dissappointment in his face. Sighing, he stood you back up your feet and collected the books that you dropped on the floor. You quickly knealt down to help him but finished once you barely picked up a single book from the tiled floor.
He shook his head as he took the book frok your hands, offering to carry them for you. You protested yet he insisted. So you nod and thank you. Both of you walking to the cafeteria together. As usual.
Taehyun was and still is your bestfriend since junior high (middleschool). You didn't know how he still puts up with you after all these years. But he says he just simply enjoys your company. Just that. He never further elaborated. He just ended his statement there. You questioned him; "That's it?" And he just responds with a shrug and went back to whatever he was doing during your conversation.
"First; you act like you were possed while reciting your review sheet. And now you're looking like someone who just broke out of a Mental Hospital, smiling like a crazy person. You looked like you were thinking of multiple ways on how to chop someone up and different dishes you'd turn them to fpr dinner." He said with a straight face, still focuses on the road and checking your every step within the range of his periphiral vision.
"Well... that was detailed. Too detailed, Tyun." He shrugged, tugging your sleeve to make you avoid another broken tile. He mouths out a "whatever" and opens the door to the cafeteria with his free hand and lets you in first before entering. "I'm staarrvinggggg." You sat down on a random table while Taehyun left to go get both of you food.
You then Beomgyu sitting with Huening, Soobin, and your brother; Yeonjun, a few tables across yours. As always. You smiled, seeing Beomgyu smile at one remark his friend made to the other. Whenever he smiles you feel like your world starts to slow down. You couldn't see anyone but him as of the moment.
Taehyun came back with two trays in hand. He stared at you with a frown. Your chin rested in the palm of your hands, staring at someone with complete heart eyes. It didn't even take him a second to realize whom you were staring at. "Whom else?" He thought.
After placing your tray of food infront of you, he snaps his fingers before sitting down on the opposite side of the table.
"Careful there, pup. You might start to salivate any moment now." He comments, slurping on hos noodles after his statement.
You pout at him as you cross your arms at your chest. He didn't bother looking back at you as he continued to it. Sighing, you opened your bag. "Tyun, tyun, look,"
He hums as a response before lifting his head up to look at you, wiping his slightly stained lips with his handkercheif.
Pulling out the box Huening handed you earlier you showed ot to him. "It says Gyu gave it.."
"Hardly." Slurp.
"Can you at least consider being a little less harsh to me sometimes? It's like I'm not even your friend." You frown, acting a little offended as your hand flew to your chest. Taehyun frowns back at you, making you clear your throat and continue what you were saying.
"Soooo... he gave me my favorite chocolates! Isn't he soooo sweet? He even picked out every kind of it, just in case I only like one specific kind."
"Your mom does that everyday I don't see any differe-" bonk. You --not so harsly-- smack his head with a book and continue to speak.
"And now I don't know how I should thank him. Should it be through text? Or in person?"
"Do you even have his number?"
"Infact.. yes. Yes I do."
"You've gone too fa--" bonk.
"I have it because Yeonjun saved it on my phone when he needed to message him but his phone was dead. Get it?? Do you really think I'd lower my pride and ask him for his number?"
"No. Actually, I thought you were being a total creep and hacked open his phone and maybe took a glimpse of his number and phot-" bonk. He sucks in a deep breath, trying to mentain his cool and rubs the spot you kept on hitting.
"Wooowww. You're some best friend, Tyun." You say, sarcasm aboviously could be heard from your choice of tone.
"Yeah, Satan especially sent me here to make your life miserable." You scoff and took out your phone.
"Okay. I'm just gonna text him."
"Pussy."
"SHUT UP?????"
Taehyun chuckled and waved his hand. "Sorry, sorry, just get it over with. You need to finish your food and head to class soon."
You nod and opened Beomgyu's contact.
To; Gyu (･´з`･)💕
Hey Gyu!
It's Y/n! Thank you for the chocolates<3
"The contact name..." You turn around to see Taehyun behind you, staring at your phone, disgust was written all over his face. Gagging as his covered his mouth with his left hand.
You glare at him and nudge his stomach with your elbow. Making him bend over a bit and groan, hugging his stomach.
You peek your head to Taehyun's side to see if Beomgyu noticed the message. And he did. The notification on his phone making the four men look at Beomgyu's phone in his hands. You turn back to your phone, trying not to be obvious that you were looking at them.
Meanwhile, Taehyun saw that two of the boys teasing him as the four checked the message, while Huening Kai stayed silent as Beomgyu glared at him. Beomgyu sighed and opened his phone and started to type. He waves his hand to the boys, asking for a little privacy as he replies. Taehyun frowned and turned his attention back to you and your phone.
"HE'S TYPING...!" You scream whisper, as you shake Taehyun's arm. He just replied with a hum, attention on what Beomgyu was going to reply.
From; Gyu(･´з`･)💕
Hey uhm..
What chocolates?
Oh..
The ones inside a small box??
Lmao those are for Mia XD
You felt your heart ache. Mia? She was one of your closest friends in your class. Pretty. Smart. Muse of almost every event. She was like every girl could ever dream to be. And you were no exemption.
From; Gyu(･´з`･)💕
Sorry for the misunderstanding, y/n.
Huening didn't listen carefully to me.
I wanted him to give the box to you and put it under her desk. You're classmates, right?
To; Gyu (･´з`･)💕
I'll be sure to do that.
From; Gyu(･´з`･)💕
thanks, y/n-nie:)
You didn't reply after that. Tears threatened to fall from your eyes. You lowered your head and shakily put back your phone into your bag. You felt Taehyun's hand on your shoulder, gently tightening it's grip before rubbing and up and down motion on your back. Trying to comfort you.
"You were right, Tyun, these aren't even meant for me. I was being delusional. Wasn't I?" You sniffled. Wiping your tears as you lifted up your head and faked a smile, forcing a small chuckle out your throat.
You could do so much better than that, Y/n.. Taehyun thought. He didn't say anything, the frown on his face turning into a look of concern.
Standing up from your seat, you took your back and slung it over your shoulder and quickly picked up your books.
"I gotta go now, 'kay? I just remembered I had something to do. See you after school, Tyun!" before you could leave, you felt Taehyun's hand grab your arm.
"You didn't even eat, y/n. Knowing you, you even skipped breakfast earlier, didn't you?"
"I did.... But I'm not hungr-"
"You just stated you were starving, earlier." You lowered your head, gently removing his grip from your arm.
"I.. lost my appetite. And besides," you spun around, both hands behind your back, forcing yourself to smile at him as you point your head behind you. "I've been trusted with a special mission. And it's from Gyu!"
Taehyun didn't know what to say. He just retracted back his hand and nodded hesitantly. You thank him and rush to your classroom.
You were thankful that nobody was inside. Swiftly taking out the box from your bag, you stared at it for a few seconds before pkacing it underneat Mia's desk.
You stood there, scoffing, "To think he'd actually give me that was just so rediculus." You whisper to yourself before going to your spot in class, which was two tables away from Mia's, taking a seat and laying your head down on your desk.
Feeling your stomach rumble, you placed your hand against it. Regretting to not even take a bite of the lunch Taehyun got for the two of you. "Stupid. Just plain stupid, y/n." You thought.
You could just go back to the cafeteria for Tyun, but after what scene you made in front of him, you just couldn't. You felt like you'd just embarrass yourself more than you're feeling now.
When the bell finally rung, you saw your classmates come inside the classroom in groups, pairs and some by themselves.
Your attention was on Mia. Once she entered, you kept your eye on her from the corner of your eye. She waved at you and you wabed back, a smile on both of your faces but who knows if both were genuenly even real and sencere. You saw as she sat down, she immediately noticed the box with a red ribbon around it.
She opened the box and her face lit up. She looked back at the lip of the box, seeing the yellow tag. After reading it, her white cheeks turning into a shade of dustly rose pink, a huge smile was then plastered on her face. Hugging the box, holding it close to her chest.
You smiled, seeing her reaction. You layed your head back into your arms as they rested on your desk. Her soft golden hair bouncing as he made small jumps of excitement. Her eyes glowing while she smiles. Who wouldn't fall for her? You hid your face into your arms. Again, feeling so stupid.
Both of them look good together. You thought. Your eyes; not being able to keep the some years from falling, you shed some drops here and there. But you sniffled quietly to avaid attracting any attention to you. Which was the least thing you wanted now.
After class, which you swore you slept through it half way, you rushed out the room and went to the waiting shed that was near the gates of the school. Your usual meet up place with Taehyun whenever you arrived and were about to leave school.
Once Taehyun saw you as he lifted up his head from his phone, he placed it back to his pockets. He smiled whilst waving at your direction.
You waved back. A soft, weak smile on your face. Taehyun wasn't stupid to not notice that you were still upset. But he didn't want to bring it up. It might upset you more. So he decided to just help you distract yourself from today's events.
After Taehyun dropped you off at your house, you felt so drained. You went to your bathroom and change. Your parents werent at home since they come home from work late at night. So it was just basically you and Yeonjun most of the time. But he wasn't also at home right now. You remembered him telling you at breakfast that he wouldn't be home for tonight since him and his friends decided to have a sleep over at Huening Kai's place. And now it was just you.
That's why sometimes you were even questioning if your parents actually cared for the both of you. They never seemed to be interested in your daily lives. Never asked how you guys were doing. They'd never have incontact with you if you weren't the one to approach them. You sighed.
Being alone didn't bother you. You liked your space. Your alone time. But sometimes, like everybody else, you wanted someone to keep you company every once in while.
As you washed your face, you stared up at the mirror above your sink, staring at your reflection. You looked so sorrowful. Eyes not lit with the usual joy that fuels your body. Your lips weren't even the slightest lifted into a smile.
You sighed, wiping some steam off of your mirror where it reflected your face before closing the lights and exiting your bathroom, plopping yourself onto your bed.
How many nights had you stared at the ceiling instead of sleeping, wondering what about you was so lacking? No matter how hard you tried, you still felt like you weren't ever enough.
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The next day, you just stayed in your bed for s few hours the second you woke up. Not even bothering to get up to open the door for your bother; Yeonjun, whom was spam calling you and almost banging on the gate to your house for almost 20 minutes.
After a while you suddenly heard someone knock on your door before opening it. You didn't even look at your door to even check who it was. You could already feel Yeonjun's glare burn the back of your head. "Really? Y/n what if I was a serial killer and just waltz inside your room and was about to kill you? Would you still ignore me?" he said, crossing his arms.
"And why didn't you answer my calls? I was out there banging on the gate to hopefully get your attention. People whom passed by thought I was crazy!"
You just groan and hug your pillow, hiding underneath your blanket. "Sorry.." you said with a groggy and dead voice.
Yeanjun's furious expression suddenly softened. He sighed and sat down next to you on your bed. Shaking you by the shoulder.
"Okay okay, I'm not mad anymore. But damn sis, are you okay? Woke up at the wrong side of the bed or somethin'?" he gently lifts up the blanket to see your face. Your eyes were bloodshot red and black circles could be noticed from underneath them.
"What the fuck-- Y/n what happened to you!?" you glared and him and sat down.
"Lower your voice, will 'ya?" Yeonjun apologized before tilting his head to take a good look at your face.
"But seriously, what happened?"
"I just.." you paused, trying to think of an excuse. To say that you've been crying over why your crush doesn't really like you nor take an interest in you was just childish. He might just tease you if you were to tell him that. "I had another.. Nightmare. And I didn't get to sleep well when I suddenly woke up at 3 in the morning."
Yeonjun frowned, contemplating if he should buy what you said or not. He sighed and gave you a hug, patting your back. "You wanna talk about it?"
"...No.." you answered, hugging him back.
"Okay, then.. Get your ass up! I'm making breakfast." your brow jerked up, looking at him slightly confused.
"Since when?"
"Excuse me? I make a mean breakfast if I do say so myself." he said, a hand on his chest and the other officer his hip.
"By 'mean', do you mean like, 'burning down the house, mean'?" Yeonjun glared at you and you laughed. You stood up from your bed and went downstairs to the kitchen before he could say a word.
"Are you that excited to taste my cooking?" you rolled your eyes at him before sitting down on the kitchen counter.
"No. I'm just here to monitor you just in case you might burn something."
"Why you little-"
And let's say your morning got way better than expected. You and Yeonjun ate breakfast together and played some games in his PS5. Everything was all fine and dandy until you got a notification from a gc where you, Huening Kai, and Taehyun were in.
Hyuka🗿
Hey besties💕
Wake up.
Rise from the dead 👹
Tyun-nie🛐
What is it this time?
I'm busy working out.
Y/n👑
What's up?
Hyuka🗿
I have tea<3
Y/n👑
Spill.
Hyuka🗿
did you guys know that Mia is going to a different country?
Well now you do👹
Y/n👑
does Gyu know?
Hyuka🗿
Idkkkkk, try and ask him
You stared at Huening Kai's message. Contemplating if you should actually ask him or not. But out of curiosity, you sucked in a deep breath and open Beomgyu's contact.
To; Gyu (･´з`･)💕
hey Gyu,
Uhm, do you know that Mia is moving to a different country soon?
It took him a while to read your message, and once you saw that he was typing, your heart was beating so fast. You didn't know if asking him that was actually okay. Since it wasn't even your business.
From; Gyu(･´з`･)💕
Hmm?
Oh. Yeah.
She just told me earlier today.
To; Gyu (･´з`･)💕
oh, I see
I was just curious hehe
Byebye:)
Beomgyu just reacted with a like on your message. You didn't wanna sulk over something like that so you just went back to the gc.
Y/n👑
Ok, so he knows. She told him earlier today:)
Hyuka🗿
I see
But like
Do you guys have an idea why she's moving? 🤔
Tyun-nie🛐
Her parents are taking her away??
Hyuka🗿
Yes, and? What else??
Tyun-nie🛐
idfk
how do you expect us to know these shit💀
Hyuka🗿
Aish....
It's because she has a heart disease.
Tyun-nie🛐
....
Y/n👑
..???
Hyuka🗿
Yeah... Her cousin told me:(
Y/n👑
does... Gyu know about this...?
Hyuka🗿
Unfortunately, no:(
Mia doesn't want Gyu to know,
Tyun-nie🛐
But isn't Beomgyu planning on waiting and hoping for Mia to come back....?
Hyuka🗿
we can't do anything about that, sadly..
It's her faith..
Y/n👑
No.
Gyu is going to get hurt.
I don't want him to loose someone he loves and cares about.
I can't live seeing him devastated and heart broken.
"Hey... Y/n? What's with the face?" you look to your side, seeing Yeonjun approaching you with two glasses of orange juice.
You immediately close your phone and fix your face. "Nothing. I just saw some... Disturbing news. That's all." you gave him a smile as you take the glass of juice that he was handing to you.
"Mhm.. So uhm, I'll be away for like, a week or something. I already told mum and dad. They agreed. As long as I'm with Hyuka and his parents. They invited me and Gyu for a beach vacation or something like that. I'll update you though. Okay?"
You frown, almost not liking the idea that he's leaving you again all alone. But you didn't want to be a burden to him by babysitting you. So you nod and smiled at him.
That same night; Yeonjun bid his goodbyes to you, hugging him before marching away with his bags in hand. You saw as the car that was waiting for Yeonjun opened, Beomgyu was the first to greet him. He was laughing and smiling after greeting your brother. It warmed your heart seeing him happy like that.
You met his eyes one last time, nodding before Yeonjun hopped in the car, you gave him and the others a weak smile and a wave goodbye before Beomgyu closed the door. You were left alone. Once again.
⇱ ⇢ Time Skip; 1week and 1day later ⇲
Beomgyu was staring at his bedroom ceiling, feeling bored, he stood up and got some decent clothes to change in and decided to collect the gang. So he started with Yeonjun. Since they were neighbors, he didn't mind walking his way to his place.
When he knocked the door; surprisingly, it wasn't Yeonjun whom answered. It was Huening Kai. Huening's face was first shown with a surprised expression before suddenly his eyebrows furrowed.
"Hey, Huening? What's up? What're you doing here?" Beomgyu questioned, head tilting to the side.
"..Beomgyu, I think it isn't the right time for you to show up here right now..."
Beomgyu frowned. Arms on his hips. "And why is th-"
Before he could finish his sentenced, he was cut off by somebody's fist harshly meeting with his face. Beomgyu took a few steps backwards, holding his cheek while staring at the attacker. Yeonjun.
"FUCKING LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT, BEOMGYU!!"
"YEONJUN-HYUNG! STOP!" Taehyun yelled out, trying to hold back the elderly member of the group.
"FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU MAN! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" Yeonjun barked. "LET GO OF ME, TAEHYUN! LET ME FUCKING AT 'EM!"
"Hey... What the fuck are you talking about, Yeonjun??" Beomgyu said, not trying to raise his voice. He stared at Yeonjun. His eyes looked like he'd been crying a river. Face all red. Tear stains were visible here and there on his flushed cheeks as new ones flowed down from his eyes once more. Pain and anger could be sensed in his voice.
"FUCK YOU ALL! FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKING GIRLFRIEND!" Beomgyu lunged at Yeonjun just then and punched his face.
"HEY HEY!" Huening yelled, trying to hold back Beomgyu.
"Look! If you have a fucking problem with me just say it, old man! Don't fucking bring Mia into this." Beomgyu snapped back.
"OHOHO! SHE'S SUPPOSED TO BE BROUGHT INTO THIS. IT'S HER FAULT! FUCK HER!" Yeonjun's voice was so loud that it attracted some neighbors to come out of their houses and see what the fuss was about.
"Are you drunk? Whatever the problem is, Yeonjun, let's just calm down and talk it out. Let's try and fix thi---" Yeonjun got even more furious and shoved Taehyun's arms away from him and gave Beomgyu another punch. Taehyun quickly tried to pull him away from Beomgyu.
"FUCK OFF!! IT'S OVER!! NOTHING CAN FIX THIS!" Beomgyu glared at Yeonjun, questioning him. "SHE'S FUCKING GONE!"
"...what..? Who??" Beomgyu asked.
"Y/n....." Huening Kai mumbled, his grip on Beomgyu unwillingly loosened.
"What? Is she missing or something?" Yeonjun screamed in irritation at Beomgyu's statement.
"Oh? You don't fucking know???? MAYBE BECAUSE ALL YOU EVER CARED ABOUT WAS MIA. MIA MIA MIA MIA. FUCKING SHIT BEOMGYU." he paused. "Did you ever think about Y/n...?" Yeonjun's brows frowned in a way that showed more sorrow than anger, voice cracking and shaking as he spoke.
"I.... I don't get you, Yeonjun."
"SHE'S FUCKING DEAD, CHOI BEOMGYU. DEAD. DO YOU HEAR ME???" Beomgyu's body froze.
"...I don't understand... IM SORRY FOR YOUR FUCKING LOSS... But what does that fucking have to do with me and Mia, Huh!? Did she kill herself because she couldn't accept that I'm finally with someone!?" Yeonjun growled.
"YOU ASSHOLE!" Yeonjun had enough and pushed Taehyun aside, pouncing on Beomgyu. Making him and Huening fall. Yeonjun was trying to punch Beomgyu's face but Beomgyu tried his best to block each punch with his arms as a shield.
"YOU DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND ANYTHING BECAUSE THAT FUCKING PERFECT GIRLFRIEND OF YOURS HID THE TRUTH FROM YOU ON WHY SHE'S MOVING TO A DIFFERENT COUNTRY." Beomgyu was staring at Yeonjun. Yelling out a "WHAT".
"She has a heart disease, Beomgyu. You're fucking girlfriend was about to die. IT WAS HER FAITH.... BUT FUCKING SHIT GYU!" Yeonjun sobbed, wanting to punch Beomgyu again but gave up, his face now buried in his hands. Beomgyu stayed silent. Speechless.
"Y/N CHANGED HER FAITH. SHE FUCKING GAVE HER HEART TO MIA. SO THAT SHE COULD LIVE ON AND BE HAPPY. SO THAT SHE COULD SEE YOU HAPPY, BEOMGYU." Huening and Taehyun gently pulled Yeonjun off of Beomgyu.
"SHE WAS FUCKING WILLING TO GIVE AWAY HER OWN FUCKING LIFE! JUST SO SHE COULD SEE YOU HAPPY! SHE WANTED YOU TO BE HAPPY EVEN THOUGH IF YOU WERE IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE ELSE!" Yeonjun broke down there, he screamed in pain whilst crying. "of all people... Why my sister... She doesn't deserve to go to heaven yet.. No no.... Fuck...."
Beomgyu stood up. Staring at Yeonjun in disbelief. He slowly inched closer to Yeonjun, hand reaching out for him. "Yeonjun, I...."
"Just go." Taehyun said coldly. Beomgyu had no choice. Gyu nodded and said sorry before walking away.
The next day, Yeonjun got the news that Beomgyu moved to a different country. He was sad that he lost a friend. But he'd already lost you. The treasure he promised to you and himself that he'd keep safe no matter what. But he failed. He now doesn't know whom he should blame.
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Years passed and Beomgyu went back to his old house to visit his parents. Him and Mia ended things after a week of what happened last time he was here.
He wanted to visit Yeonjun and give him a proper apology, but he also realized that he owed you and apology too. He still had connections with Huening Kai after all these years so he knew where you were.
Once he reached the cemetery where you were, he looked around almost everywhere just to find you. And when he did, he felt chills run up his spine. He gulped and knelt down to the stone which had your name carved on it, a picture of You that was framed was also present near some candles that were about to go out any moment.
He stared at your picture, his heart ached, realizing how much he'd miss seeing you. How much he missed your voice. You smile. Your crazy laughs. He missed walking to school with you by his side. He was missing you.
Placing a rose on your tomb stone, you started to sob. He wasn't sure what the reason was. Was it pure out of guilt? Was he missing you that much?
"I'm really sorry Y/n.. I really am.. I.. It should've been me who did that.. I should've been the one whose gone. Not you. You don't deserve this. Y/n I-I... Fucking shit I miss you, goddammit..." he sniffled. "6 feet never felt so far..."
After pouring out his heart with all the things he wished he'd told you before, he took in a deep breath. He suddenly hugged your tomb stone, feeling a little stupid and crazy for it but he didn't care.
His tears flowed down his cheeks like a rushing waterfall. Falling down onto the candle, making the fire burn out. "This wasn't what I wanted..."
pairing: bang chan x reader
word count: 3k
genre: angst and fluff with the barest speck of suggestiveness at the end
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you have always dealt with insecurities and having a family life where your sense of worth is questioned leaves you with issues, good thing you have bang chan and his selfless support of you.
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a/n: written entirely in lower case. also not totally edited so there may be some grammatical errors but i'm dyslexic so i mess spelling and grammar up sorry.
insecurity was something you had always dealt with. being run into the ground because of what you wanted, asked for or often even how you were made you constantly hyper aware of your flaws. the fact that it was usually at the hands of people you loved, trusted and adored made it all the worse, conditioning you into someone who could rarely ever trust that the people around you or whatever praise they may send your way. it made your relationship with yourself and others more difficult than it ever needed to be often leading to fights, tears and breakdowns. you felt isolated from the happiness you saw around you. resenting those who managed to feel happy with their lives.
meeting chan had only made it harder for you in some ways. He was so kind, so sweet and far too good a person to be wasting his time on you but he did and he always insisted he had no place he would rather be than with you. you had met by accident when he ducked into a small cafe to avoid photographers who were tailing him. looking for a place to sit that was out of the way he plopped himself down into the last table in the back corner half covered by the indoor plants that made the decor seem more homely. not noticing a bag already sitting on one of the chairs that you had left when you went to order your iced honey latte. when you approached the table it had surprised you to find him there but he had quickly apologised a look of guilt crossing his face as he planned where he could next hide. in an unexpected move on your behalf you had invited him to stay where he was you were only going to be reading anyway it didn't matter if there was another person with you. he had thanked you repeatedly his adorable dimples and smile lighting up his face. he seemed nice you had thought before retreating back into your head. when he felt it was safe to leave he did but not without thanking you again and sliding a note into your belongings with his name, a number and an email hopeful you would contact him.
that day had been a little over a year ago and although it had taken you a day to pluck up the courage to text him it had been a fateful decision that had turned your life around. at first it had just been texts back and forth then after a week or so he started calling you which was pleasant, his voice seemed to always melt away the stress you felt in your everyday life. after a month though he finally had some free time to actually catch up with you so you had leapt at the chance to actually see him, even if it was a little strange since all of your contact had been via your phone, he made you feel like you had been friends for years. made you feel safe and cared for and very quickly you had fallen for him.
"what are you thinking about" his voice bringing you back to the present to the quiet park you sat in together "you have been spacing out for a while now are you feeling alright?" he waited for your eyes to meet his before placing the back of his hand on your forehead to check your temperature
"im alright chan i'm just tired" you explained slowly smiling at him and he took his hand back and ran it through his blue hair "mum has just been really hard on me lately and my brother is alway on her side. it gets exhausting to be honest with you" chan furrowed his eyebrows are he frowned he knew you had a hard home life but it was increasingly oblivious that you were struggling more than you ever had
"what is it about this time? if you don't mind me asking that is" chan had always tried to get the details from you without pushing too hard he knew that would make it worse for you and he would never want that besides you were one of the the only people he knew that wasn't in the industry or family he wanted to keep you as close as he could. you gave him perspective, kept him grounded in a way that no one else did you were very special to him.
"just my life decisions nothing i do is ever good enough, my job doesn't pay enough, my education isn't good enough, i'm not smart enough and that i will never be pretty enough to marry well. just the usual really" you explained glumly "it's getting harder for me to ignore it nowadays it's just all the time i can't take much more of it"
"then don't" the blue haired boy exclaimed "come back to the dorm with me. just for the night the boys love you and i can totally stay on the couch or the floor" his quick verbal deluge surprised you. you had never stayed the night with chan you had fallen asleep on his shoulder watching movies before but he always woke you up and made sure you got home safe "on top of that your job isn't permanent you can get another one if you like and you are gorgeous so dating son't be hard for you"
"i can't do that what if someone at the company found out or worse one of those psycho fans of yours" your head was almost spinning at the suggestion you would love to stay at chan's for the night if you were honest you would love to stay with chan forever. he unwittingly had made you fall in love with him so soon after you met that you could never bring yourself to even imagine being with someone else preferring to be alone than with a guy who wasn't him. you were so caught up in the possibility of what could go wrong you had totally missed him calling you beautiful.
"yes you can and you will im not giving you the option tonight. you will come for dinner and a movie and then it will be too late and dangerous for you to go home so you will have to stay. the guys will back me up on this so don't make me call them" he was already texting the group chat to let them know what was happening. you sighed you knew that determined look chan was wearing on his face and it was pretty much impossible for anyone to change his mind once he decided that strongly something.
'ok chan if you're sure it will be ok" you agreed tentatively watching as his phone lit up with endless comments from the boys. felix was already starting on chocolate chip cookies for you all, lee know was asking about your food preferences and jeongin wanted to know what kind of movies you liked. they were darlings all of them and it almost hurt how grateful you were for them. getting to your feet you followed chan back towards the dorm being careful to keep enough space between you that no one could get the wrong idea.
you arrived at the dorm with chan after stopping to pick up a few ingredients that lee know needed for the dinner he had planned it was almost coming together so smoothly that you would have thought they had pre-planned this whole getting you to the dorm thing between them earlier. walking in you were quickly swamped by felix and changbin for cuddles as chan disappeared and while hyunjin made some tea for everyone.
"hyung said that you were having a bad day" seungmin stated quietly handing you a mug of the fesh hot tea
"thank you minnie i am not the best right now" you smiled up at him taking the warm mug in your hands
"do you want to talk about it?" felix whispered cuddling up to your left side
"it's just family stuff lixie i don't want to bore you all" you explained gently as each of the guys sat down around you with cups of tea "this i delicious tea jinnie" you murmured as you savour the flavour of the tea mixed with honey and warm milk
"it's not boring if its upset you" jeongin said as comforting as possible his voice soft and warm as he pouted at you. you thought about it for a moment as you felt several pairs of eyes on you as chan returned from his room and plopped himself down on your right side his arm instantly falling onto the back of the arm behind your head as he placed a black hoodie on your lap
"you said you were cold when we were getting here but since you haven't got anything with you just wear mine" he explained to answer the unsaid question on your lips smiling you detaingled yourself from felix and slipped it over your head. it was easily a few sizes too big for you since chan wore his hoodies on the oversized and baggy side anyway and it made you feel almost shy to be so small in his clothes.
"thanks channie" you whispered almost too quietly to hear feeling quite overwhelmed by the kindness they were all showing you. tears pricked your eyes and you blinked quickly trying to fend them off before any of them noticed even though you knew it was foolish they always noticed.
"nope no tears baby" Han announced as he launched across the coffee table to grab as many skzoos as he could before throwing them at you comedically. you giggled as you were battered around the head by a wolf chan and puppym while a bbokari sailed passed you and his chan in the face "sorry hyung but this is an emergency" he ducked but then continued to thow the plushies until all of them were around you or on you.
"my mother and my brother spend all their time trying to run me down. its getting harder to ignore that's all" you explained looking and the jiniret in your hands "my job isn't good enough, i'm not smart enough, i'm not educated enough and i'm not pretty enough to get a rich husband. which by the way is the stupidest thing i have ever heard i don't want a rich husband, if i ever got married i would want a nice husband not a rich one who even cares that much about money" your frown deepened as you started to vent to the boys around you "besides i don't even date so there isn't going to be a husband" you finished grumbling picking up leebit from the floor and smoothing out the fur. the boys all looked at you with shock then each other and finally chan before all talking over each other
"who cares what job you have you are still young"
"you are way pretty who even says that to their own daughter? you are the prettiest noona"
"your brother is a jerk if he thinks you are stupid, you are super smart"
"your mum really only worries about money?"
"i need to figure out how long to set the air fryer to cook them both!"
"you don't need a rich husband you have us to look after you"
"what do you mean you don't date why not you're so beautiful?
you teared up again but this time out of happiness they all looked so offended on your behalf and you couldn't help but feel loved and cared for by them. it warmed you knowing that these were the type of guys you had befriended these sweet boys who would always try to lift you up and look to help you with anything.
"why don't you date?" chan repeated slowly glossing over the fact that it was the second time today he had called you attractive to your face. you blushed the dark pink quickly racing across your cheeks and down onto your neck.
"there is no one i like" you replied softly hiding your face behind the sweater paws you had from the hoodie he had lent you
"Oh really? i would say that there is from that reaction" felix teased bumping your shoulder with his which in turn caused you to bump against chan's warm chest
"hey, hey, hey, hey less teasing more being nice you lot" chan playfully admonished enjoying the feeling of you leaning against his chest. you had yet to re-adjust yourself and he would take any moment of you being this close to him.
"ok if you are feeling better maybe you could help chan and i in the kitchen with dinner?" lee know asked trying to further distract the conversation away from your embarrassment as he and chan both stood up
"of course i'll help i don't like to freeload of you" you missed chan's warmth against your side but easily accepted his hand to help you stand leading you back through the room passed the dining table to the kitchen he didn't let your hand go. which also didn't go unnoticed by the others, each smirking at each other as they all realised that you wanted chan probably as much as they knew he wanted you. after chopping vegetables, making rice and helping lee know grill meat you all sat down together for your meal. the boys complimenting you and lee know on the food while chan just let the acknowledgement of his efforts slide knowing the praise would help you feel happy. after helping clear the table changbin organised han, seungmin and jeongin to wash the dishes while felix got out the cookies he made earlier in the afternoon and helped make hot chocolate with hyunjin while chan took you back through to the lounge to pick a movie. you settled on a marvel film to hopefully appease all of them.
"thanks for thinking of us but squirrel and i were going to go for a run after dinner" changbin apologised after to you looked up at him with worried eyes
"that's true i lost a bet and this is my stupid punishment" han whinged playing up the whole situation as changbin dragged him up the hallway to change into workout gear
"lix, jinnie and i are going to work on some choreography at the studio tonight so that we have something to show our manager for the comeback in a few months" lee know explained which you nodded to instantly
"oh of course if you need to work i don't want to hinder you but please don't overwork yourselves" you replied guiltily not wanting to hold up their schedules more than you probably already had. they each grabbed a bag and made there way out of the dorm followed not long after by changbin and han. finally jeongin and seungmin left to their own dorm to do a vocalracha vlive leaving you alone with chan.
"i guess it's not a movie night then" you muttered reaching for a cookie that had been put on the coffee table along with the hot chocolates that were left for you. chan sighed he realised that the boys had made these excuses to give you some privacy without wanting to let you know that they were giving you privacy so chan knew he had to make the best of it.
"we can still watch a movie or we could play a video go or just talk whatever you like" chan started softly "or we can just go up to my room to hangout" he trailed off looking at you warmly.
"chan can i ask you something and you won't think less of me?" the apprehension in you voice obvious to chan
"of course you can i will always support you, you're one of my closest friends" he answered immediately trying to calm himself for the possibility that this question could cause him or you pain. he watched you take a deep breath letting it out slowly as if to steel yourself for his answer
"did you mean it when you said i was beautiful earlier?"
"yes" chan breathed out instantly "i meant it when i said you are gorgeous earlier today too" he watched as your eyes widened in shock meeting his and you gasped sharply. in the few second he gave you to comprehend what he said he realised you were not unhappy with his compliment you were in fact very pleased with it. making up his mind he quickly cupped your cheek in his warm hands before leaning in to place his lips tentatively on yours this kiss soft and short but still incredibly sweet. your eyes had still been open he was sure of it but when your fingers slowly rose to your face to touch your lips you smiled brightly
"chan" you sighed softly feeling as though you must be dreaming silly grin on your lips as you blushed all the way to your ears "i have wanted to kiss you for so long would you kiss me again?" chan's heart soared as he realised what you were saying nodding emphatically he connected his lips to yours once more this time letting you kiss him back before deepening it until you were both out of breath. coming up for air he watched the dreamy expression on your face and knew there was only one more thing he had to say before this night lead you both to whatever destination fate had for you.
"please stay here with me and be mine, dont go back to your family stay here with this family stay here with me" he knew he sounded as though he was pleading even begging but he didnt care he wanted you only you. "i love you baby and i swear i'll take care of you forever" you felt as though your heart would burst from his confession knowing that he was putting on the line right here and now for you. you pulled him back to you to place a searing kiss on his lips.
"i love you too chan and i'll stay for as long as you want me" your words coming straight from your heart amazing you how right they felt to say
"always then" chan whispered taking you hand and leading you to his room.
i haven't posted in so long, but i was thinking about this all day. ~ C
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You sat in your living room scrolling through your phone, the background quiet but not gone completely, the loudness of the boys messing around wasn’t something you could easily tune out. Chan sat beside you messing around with some work things on his laptop, smiling at his group, finally relaxing (if only he’d do the same you thought). You’d become close with the boys while working in JYP quickly becoming more like a friend than a member of staff so you often hung around with them like this.
The atmosphere suddenly changed, the warm summer weather turning a little muggy, you peaked out the window hoping this meant what you thought, You saw the little grey clouds and could smell the change in the air. You put your phone down and started to walk towards the big doors that led to the garden, swinging them open and staring outside.
A chorus of questions followed from the boys ‘What are you doing y/n?’ ‘yo, you good?’ you just chuckled and said ‘yeah, just waiting’ the boys looked at you confused but continued with whatever activities they were doing. You suddenly felt a presence beside you and looked up to see it was Chan smiling at you ‘What are you waiting for y/n?’ he had this big smile but still confusion was evident in his features, you stared up at him briefly admiring your friends good looks blushing slightly at your thoughts, you turned back to the garden and smiled ‘Peace’
Chan's eyebrows scrunched up at this and just as he was about to question further the wind picked up slightly and spots of rain dropped onto the patio, he stared at your figure as you wandered into the garden and looked up to the sky, allowing the rain to soak your face.
He admired how you smiled and giggled as the rain soaked you through to the bone then laying on the grass, he found himself walking out towards you rain soaking his hair and shirt laughing at you as he crouched down over you ‘What are you doing down here silly~’ You beamed up at him and said ‘I like the summer rain, it helps me relax. Why don't you lay down and try it?’
You closed your eyes again but heard him shuffle and sigh as he laid down beside you. He was very close as your shoulders bumped together, You could smell his aftershave and shampoo. This made your tummy flutter slightly, you were close to Chan but never thought you’d be this close to him. You let the silence overtake you just lying there letting the rain cool your skin and clear your mind.
You heard Chan sigh so you opened your eyes and turned to look at him, he had a huge grin on his face and you could see the stress melting from his body. ‘You are so right y/n this is relaxing, but i can’t figure out if it's the rain or you’ You stared up to the sky not wanting him to see the blush on your cheeks ‘wha-what do you mean channie?’
He let out a little chuckle and turned his head to you ‘what i’m saying is you help me more than you realise and i appreciate you a lot’ he cleared his throat and continued when you didn’t say anything ‘everytime i see you i relax because i know i can rely on you to help me.’ you looked over at him and you could swear your heart exploded as his beautiful smile came into view, along with his wet hair sticking across his forehead. ‘I’m glad I can help you Chris, you don’t need to worry so much, you're doing great. But in my opinion it’s definitely the rain not me’ you chuckled and turned back as chan never replied he also stared back to the sky, you heard him clear his throat and then some shuffling, before you could register what was happening you felt a warm grip on your hand, you looked down and saw Chan link his fingers with yours, still staring at the sky. He smiled and said
‘Nah it’s definitely you y/n, you’re my summer rain’
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Bonus back at the house:
The boys were all staring in disbelief of this happening in front of them, finally you two idiots were doing something about your feelings.
‘Should we tell them to come inside?’ Minho whispered with a smirk
‘Don't you dare’ grumbled Felix, standing there with a huge smile on his face, he pulled his phone out of his pocket and snapped a few pictures for memories. They slowly walked back inside to leave you two in peace.
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