♢ I’m Nyx ♢ 18 ♢ heavy tlou smau writer ♢(i love to hear feedback, criticism, or advice!) ♢ fem lesbian! ♢ she/her ♢ men dni ♢ masterlist! ♢ what i use!
🕷 word count ~ 3k
🕷 content warning ~ flashbacks, memory loss, mentions of grief, profanity, yearning, no use of y/n, mild violence, uncertainty, self doubt, stalking and mild obsession, light angst
🕷 SYNOPSIS ~ Your visions start to seriously bother you, so you find yourself in a pursuit of the mysterious web-slinger, while she struggles to brush off how much she longs for you.
A/N: RAAAHHHHHH SPIDER-MAN BND COMING OUT TOMORROW OMHOMGOMOMG IM SEEING IT ON OPENING DAYYY!!! quick reminder that this story isn't based on bnd, but it is an interpretation of it in a sense!! dont come at me if its inaccurate lmfao bc i already know it wont be. i made this story up and it simply picks up where nwh left off but with ellie as spidey. hope you enjoy!! i HAD to get one more chapter in before the movie release
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Sticky notes, newspapers, files. They all litter your desk. So much so that you can’t see the wooden surface anymore. Some are stained with coffee rings, some are crumpled after being retrieved from trash cans and such. Some nights, you forget to sleep. Others, you forget that day and night are separate.
A week has passed since you started your search. Maybe a little more. You never officially ‘started’ anything, to be fair. Things keep pointing to your friendly neighborhood Spider-Woman. Your visions, your dreams. You’ve personally met her more times than most other New Yorkers. You aren’t involved in law enforcement, nor are you a reporter. So, why does she keep showing up?
It started with you simply reading articles you happened to come across. Your suspicions (and the algorithms of your socials) promptly led you to go on this wild goose chase for the infamous vigilante. You don’t even know how the sticky notes started.
As of right now, your closest lead is Spider-Woman’s patrol route. You were able to deduce that she has a weekly schedule for her rounds around New York City. On Mondays, she’s usually around ESU. She also often makes a stop at a certain alleyway, according to the footage you found online, so that’s exactly where you’ll be camping all morning!
You set up a little too early, reaching the spot at around six in the morning. It’s not like you slept at all last night. This has been keeping you up for days. These visions…they’ve been getting worse. You keep seeing her, and they keep getting more realistic. You were scared to sleep, truth be told. They got more violent with time, and they always left you feeling shaken.
Two nights ago, you felt it. One minute, you were in bed trying to sleep, and the next, you were trapped under rubble. You felt the weight on top of you. You felt the searing scratches scattered across your flesh, leaving fresh crimson marks that made it hard to move. Next to you was a torn red mask—Spider-Woman’s. Hazy, you crawled towards it and held it close. Then, the large chunk of sidewalk above you flew upwards, having been suspended by a web. For a second, you almost saw a blurred, pale, freckled face, but the concrete fell right back down on top of you, waking you up earlier than you would’ve wanted. If you could’ve just seen her face…
You just had a double shot espresso, though. You’ll be fine with no sleep.
An hour passes. Then two. You definitely came here too early. Every swipe you make on your phone takes away one percent. You should probably get your phone battery replaced. What was the battery health again? Your thumb presses on the grey app to check the battery, but you’re interrupted by the swift sound of wind and the quiet landing of feet against pavement.
Spider-Woman is right in front of you. She doesn’t seem to know you’re here yet. You take a step closer, and only then does she wheel around and look straight at you. Her lenses are comically wide, portraying the surprise she probably feels from seeing a random person in her usual alleyway.
Now, you’re just pissed. You didn’t think you’d feel too strongly about the whole ordeal, but seeing her so clueless and carefree while you’re suffering is driving you up a wall.
“Hey, you’re the girl that gave me the ninja turtle bandaids.” The red and blue one chuckles, schooling her posture and expression into something a little less rigid. “Are you lost?”
All you can do in this moment is glare at her. Why does she get to be relaxed? She probably doesn’t even have a real job! Who knows, maybe she steals from the city fund. For all any of you know, she might be working with the government to stage her ‘heroic deeds’.
Spidey senses the lack of enthusiasm from your end. She tilts her head before asking a follow-up question. “Not lost?”
You scoff, “No, I’m not lost. I’m here for you.”
Even through the mask, you can see her cocky smirk when she answers. “Well, I’m flattered, but—”
“Oh my fuck, do you ever shut up?” You snap, frustrated by her ego getting in the way of you getting to the bottom of this.
“Woah, hey, I mean no harm. What do you need?” The woman finally stops teasing. She squints a little to show that she’s no longer screwing around.
“Look, you and whatever voodoo shit you’re pulling is getting on my last nerve. Quit it, or I will find you.” As serious as you are about your threat, even you know how pathetic it sounds when it’s directed at Spider-Woman. What’re you gonna do? Empty her webshooters?
Despite all that, Spidey still appears to be taking you seriously somehow. It’s almost like your words actually mean something to her. You wonder if she’s like this with all the citizens she meets.
“Come again? I’m not sure I follow…”
“The visions. The dreams. Why do I keep dreaming about you?”
“Why do you think I have something to do with this? People have recurring dreams of others all the time.”
“No—these, they’re—they’re different.” You start to stammer, arguing against her statement. “They feel so… real. I know something’s going on, and I know you’re involved. They only started after the first time I met you.”
“I’m sorry, miss, I wish I could help… I don’t know what’s up with that.”
“They’re.. But they’re so vivid. It feels like witchcraft, or—or something,” you start to hesitate, not feeling as certain as you did two hours ago.
She shrugs, repeating her answer with true honesty. “I can’t help you with this. I don’t know, really.”
Your shoulders sag and you nod, taking a deep inhale. “Alright. Alright. Uhm, thanks anyway. Sorry for stalking you.”
Spider-Woman doesn’t give an immediate reply. Instead, she lingers, her hand moving to tug on her pinky and ring fingers. You glance down, noticing that miniscule gesture.
Without thinking, your hand comes up and reaches forward to touch the gloved hands in front of you, as if with the intent to soothe her concern. You stop yourself just in time, wondering what made you have that urge in the first place.
Ellie notices your reaction, of course. She notices every single thing about you. Her heart aches a little. Your body remembers how you held her hands whenever she played anxiously with her fingers. Under school desks during class. In lines for events and concerts. While listening to the news. After Tony died.
That easy, signature smirk still returns, and Spidey gives you a wink before lifting her arm and shooting a distant web. “See you around.”
And she’s gone.
You: hey!! r u busy?
Ellie: hii
Ellie: nah, not really. Why?
You: awesome :) meet me at this location, they make some meaaannn burritos
Ellie: lmfao sure. be there in ten.
You: dont keep me waiting :p
You smile at your phone after sending a link to Delmar’s Deli-Grocery before turning it off and sliding it into your pocket. That plan you made to talk to Spider-Woman was a total bust. She knows nothing about the dreams. All you need right now is a distraction, something to get your mind off of things. Ellie’s great. She’s funny and kind. Spending time with her would definitely do you some good. And you can’t be alone right now. If you’re left alone whenever you feel like this, you’ll spiral or feel awful for the rest of the day. Too awful to get by. You can’t do it.
Something about Ellie drags you in. There’s no denying how beautiful she is with her emerald eyes, her blooming freckles, and her deep auburn hair, but it’s not that. Her words captivate you. She doesn’t speak much, but when she does? It’s like it’s something that should just stay between you two.
She’s thoughtful, too. She recently gifted you a little planner she saw you eyeing at the mall the other day. You told her in passing that it seemed useful, but she never forgot. It’s the same with conversation, too. Ellie’s the type of person who will remember something you casually mention during a story, and she’ll bring it up later on when it’s relevant again unprompted. She’s never the type to dismiss you, either. Whenever your thoughts oppose, she actually listens to your perspective. She hears you out even if nobody else will.
You’ve taken a liking to her. She’s…everything you needed. She has this energy that keeps you in a chokehold you don’t think you can get out of. Her hands, calloused yet still so delicate with you, carry answers to questions you might not even know you have yet. Something about her makes you need to be around her. It feels like your very body is going through withdrawals from a drug you didn’t even know existed. You need Ellie. You just need her to be around, especially after what just happened.
Maybe you won’t admit how you feel just yet. It’ll probably take long for that to happen. For now, like with everything else, you’ll keep your heart’s desire tucked away until holding it in becomes physically inconceivable or too painful. What if the girl you’re longing for is straight? What if she already has someone?
The bell above the entrance rings, and looking under it, you recognize Ellie’s signature low bun. You push yourself off from the wall you were leaning against and make your way towards her.
“You made it,” you smile slightly. It’s more tender than the smiles you’d give Jesse or Dina.
“Why wouldn’t I?” She asks, confused but still smiling back.
“Well, this deli sells the best sandwiches you’ll ever eat. I was craving it for lunch and didn’t really wanna go by myself.” You admit, approaching the counter.
“Hey, Mr. Delmar,” you chirp, knowing this guy likes you because you’ve been coming here since you were a high school freshman. “Sandwiches, please. Two, this time.”
“You boost my customer count, kid.” He grins, pointing at you as a raspy laugh leaves him. “Two sandwiches.”
You chuckle back and hand him the money you owe before Ellie can argue and pay. You know she’s broke as shit.
Mr. Delmar hands you the sandwiches with a wink behind Ellie’s back and you shoot him a look, but your little smirk betrays you. With the food in hand, you decide to walk to Central Park, finding a bench to sit on while you eat.
“Do you feel alright?” Ellie asks between mouthfuls, facing you with her legs crossed on the bench. “You seem a little pale.”
You pause and furrow your eyebrows, pulling away from your sandwich when she catches you off guard. “I’m…Yeah, I’m fine. Do I look pale?”
“Not pale pale, it’s—it looks like there’s something on your mind.”
You stare at her for a beat, then down at your sandwich before lowering your hands and murmuring in a lower voice. “Uhm, well, I guess there’s something.”
Ellie simply nods, nudging you to keep going.
“I’ve been getting visions. Dreams. I don’t know what they are anymore. “You groan, closing your eyes in frustration about all this.
“Visions?”
“Kinda? I dunno… They’re all about Spider-Woman, and they all feel so vivid. They don’t feel like they’re ‘just’ dreams, Ellie. I feel crazy, but they hurt. And I’ve been getting these awful migraines and random headaches, and they’re only getting worse. It’s almost unbearable.”
“You’re not crazy.” Ellie mumbles. “People get visions sometimes. You think meds would help with the headaches?”
“I tried painkillers. The stronger shit too. They don’t do anything.”
“Maybe you’ve been interested in Spider-Woman? I used to have vivid dreams as a kid. The migraines might be from stress…”
You shrug. “That could be it, but it’s still annoying.”
“Try to wait it out. See how you feel.”
A weak huff of laughter leaves your lips. “Well, it’s not like I can do much else.”
“Let’s get ice cream after this. My treat, so you feel better.” Ellie gives a small, calm smile, the one that makes you feel less hopeless about things.
Slowly, you and Ellie fall back into an easier rhythm, leaving the negativity behind now that it’s out of your system. Even as your head pounds with that same ache with her in front of you, you turn a blind eye as much as you can to savor this moment.
Ellie’s good with a mask. You don’t feel an inch of the fear that engulfed her after your confession. She’s worried because why would you be getting visions of her as Spider-Woman?! If there’s one thing the multiverse and Dr. Strange taught Ellie, it’s that nothing happens without reason.
How could you be involved in this?
On the way, you and Ellie find yourselves taking the long route to the ice cream parlor. The two of you collectively went the wrong way a couple of times for the sake of walking a little while longer.
When you finally stop at the pastel rainbow colored shop, Ellie taps on the glass to show you a flavor. She points at your favorite.
“Salted caramel?” She suggests, giving you a questioning look even though she already knows.
You smile, and your face feels a little warmer than before. “How’d you know it’s my favorite?”
Something flickers across Ellie’s face. Her smile drops for a second, but she smoothly schools it into something more offhand as she shrugs. “I didn’t. Just picked a random flavor.”
“So, salted caramel it is.”
“What the hell could that have been, Happy?!” Ellie exclaims, pacing in front of her station while her newfound ally watches from his desk. “She’s getting visions. Didn’t you get a vision before you remembered me?”
“Well, yeah, but—”
“So she’s close! She’ll remember me soon, right? That makes sense!”
“Ellie—”
“I just have to stay close to her. Proximity is what triggers it. You were around me for hours at a time every day, so by that logic, I should spend more time with her, and Jesse, and Dina, and then they’ll—”
“Are you gonna let me speak?” Happy raises his voice, maintaining his tone enough to get Ellie to pause without startling her. The girl nods once, stopping in her tracks to face him.
Happy stands up and leans against the edge of the table. “Look, kid. When I remembered you, it hurt. Bad. I mean,” he chuckles. “I thought I was dying back there. Don’t you think you should give it some time? Let it happen without rushing it? You said she’s getting migraines, and they’re pretty bad, and we both know you were closer to her than to me. It might only be worse for her.”
Silence washes over the lab as Ellie mulls over what Happy just said. She looks down at her beat up Converse.
“I…I really miss her, Happy.” She mumbles eventually. “She looks at me like I’m just some college friend now. Like I haven’t known her since grade school.”
“I know, Ellie. But give it time. Forcing it will hurt her.”
“Yeah…yeah, you’re right.”
“Oh, I almost forgot. I have a surprise.” Happy smirks, a light bulb turning on in his head now that Ellie’s satisfied with his advice.
Ellie’s brows knit together, but she gives a cautious little smile. “What is it?”
Hogan leads her to Tony’s old office, and he walks over to a large Stark family portrait with the man himself, Pepper, and Morgan. He taps a few concealed buttons on the painting, and the whole frame shifts slightly to the left. Ellie can’t really say she’s surprised.
He pulls out this glowy, metal briefcase. A pit forms in Ellie’s stomach, and her heart starts to beat louder and louder. She recognizes that thing.
“Holy shit, is that…”
Happy smiles before she can continue. He brings the briefcase to the table between the two chairs in front of Tony’s old desk and gently sets it down.
“I figured out how to rig the system and add your biometrics…” He murmurs, entering a code before pressing two buttons on each side of the case. It opens with a soft whirring sound and Ellie has to stifle a quiet gasp.
Inside the case is a brand new suit, designed just like the last one she made with Tony’s tech. Her heart flutters as she takes a step closer to examine the new suit. The mask rests delicately, each web perfectly placed on the fabric she once loved and cherished. It’s nothing like the old stuff she wears that barely fits her probably.
Beside the mask and suit resides a pair of brand new webshooters. They’re a sleek, glossy black and clearly look more advanced than her at-home science project. She takes one out with a tentative touch and puts it on. It snaps into place around her wrist and even adjusts to fit her perfectly. She extends her arm all the way and aims up at the window. With the smallest press, a powerful web slices the air like a bullet, leaving a thick, sturdy mark on the black leather.
It brings tears to her eyes. The sight of what once was a guaranteed object in her life, now presented to her all over again like it wasn’t her property before. But he knows. Happy knows. He remembers. He’s the only current living proof of Ellie’s presence and existence on this Earth from beyond a couple of months.
He pulls an earpiece out of the case, placed with obvious care on top of the expensive red and blue material, and hands it to her. His eyes glisten with the emotion of seeing the start of her return to her former glory.
Ellie puts it on, and a feminine, robotic voice resounds from the tiny device.
synopsis: you're a photographer who attends a small art school on the western side of the united states. you and ellie attend the same school, and she develops a small crush on you.
warnings: none!
a/n: i wanna make an abby fic so bad but brain won’t let me concentrate.
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y: Okay, moving on… I’m gonna open it.
e: and you never found out who it’s from?
y: no it was just sitting.
e: that’s weird, set the phone up i wanna see.
y: it’s up!
e: i want to see your face too? is that a crime?
y: should be.
e: shut up and open it.
y: chill..
y: omg wait it could be one that i never put up last year.
e: mm, maybe not.
y: stop looking at me like that.
e: like what?
y: …
e: can you just open it?
y: i am! it has a million fucking rubber bands on it.
e: i didn’t want anyone to see it.
y: What? your phone is cutting out like crazy.
e: nothing. I was talking to my roomie.
y: Dina? tell her i said hi.
e: she says hi, and to hurry.
y: fuck you.
y: okay moment of truth…
e: this could be a bomb about to explode and you’re taking your sweet fucking tim-
y: ELLIE OH MY FUCK.
y: YOU DID NOT, OH MY GOD.
y: I FUCKING HATE YOU.
e: is this a good reaction or…
y: you’re so fucking stupid, oh my god. When did you do this?
✎You have a part time job as a librarian at the college that both you and Ellie attend. Ellie is studying rather late into the night, and you are the “lucky” one who begrudgingly shares the news of the library’s closing until tomorrow morning. As you continue to cross paths on campus, you both realize you might be something more than just peers.
✎ modern college au, nerdy!ellie, awkward!reader, slow burn, eventual smut/fluff
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A headache mixed with coffee was not how you wanted to end your day, but the uninterrupted silence and dim ambience helped with the pain caused by assisting insufferable students, which seemed to fill your entire shift. By 11:53, the last few pupils filling the wooden seats lined with dark green, leather cushions unplugged their chargers from their respective outlets and headed out the building. You received three apologetic ‘goodnights’ from those who seemed to realize you were not in good shape after having to stay here way past your bedtime.
Once the last person left and the automatic doors closed, you gave an obnoxiously loud sigh for no one to hear and brought the palms of your hands to your eyes, trying your hardest to wipe the headache off to no avail. Several books still needed to be put away, and you stared at them with malice as if they would magically be scared of you and run off to their individual shelves. Alas, you took the handle of the metal cart and walked it towards the elevator.
It was 12:15 when you had finished putting the books to bed. A wave of relief hit you like a warm, fuzzy truck and you headed towards the stairs, leaving the cart behind at the expense of your freedom. As you were eyeing the steps down, you noticed a red-headed girl hunched over a wooden desk meant to seat four people.
Her black headphones kept her overgrown bangs out of her face as she buried her head deeper in the book she was studying from. Her laptop lit up her face, accentuating her scrunched up nose as she sniffled twice quietly. Your lips formed a prominent line as you breathed in deeply before reluctantly walking toward her.
Her eyes widened ever so slightly as they met yours, but it didn’t go unnoticed, and her headphones were quickly taken off before you even had the chance to try and get her attention.
“Hi, uhm, sorry but we closed like 16 minutes ago.” Your voice was sweet and airy, although you were the slightest bit annoyed. She stared at you for a second too long before her eyes flicked to her laptop screen then meeting yours again, opening her mouth and spitting out a jumble of words that assured you of your annoyance. “17 minutes, actually. Ago. 17 minutes ago.”
Eyes still glued to hers, your lips pressed into a line again and your head turned to the side slightly, as if to say, “Okay?” without actually saying anything at all. She stared for a moment before quickly closing her laptop and unplugging her chargers, clearly taking your exasperated expression into account.
Once packed up, she stood in front of you, pursing her lips as if she was waiting for you to speak first. Before you could break the awkward silence, she swiftly sliced it in half. “Thank you for letting me stay,” she paused to check her phone screen, “18 minutes after closing.” You rolled your eyes playfully and gave a sarcastic smile. “It’s okay. I didn’t even know, so…” you trailed off and stared at the floor. Her cheeks formed a bubble as she clapped her hands together louder than she meant to. “Well, okay,” she said with almost no emotion prior to walking past you and down the stairs.
It seemed warmer outside than the weather app predicted—the cause being your thick leather jacket you refused to take off for a week straight—minus the merciful breeze mother nature thrusted upon you. Your car keys jingled in your hand as you opened the passenger door to load your backpack and a few extra books you had grabbed–one for studying and two for enjoyment.
The drive home was quiet and foggy, the hum of the car monotone enough to allow you to file through the thoughts in your brain, one in particular you couldn’t quite forget: how absolutely weird and awkward the interaction between you and that girl was. Most people who overstayed their welcome in the library had stumbled over their words and gave excuses due to the embarrassment of being 19 and unaware in every circumstance. This interaction, however, was more awkward than any stilted apology. Her reaction was quite unique and unexpected, which left you wondering about her late into the night until slumber eventually claimed you later on.
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thank you for reading! i’m testing writing techniques and such, so i apologize for the short chapter. i have a lot more free time to brainstorm ideas and actually continue where i left off from all of the drafts in my docs, so i’m excited to get back into it. i hope you enjoyed! i’m already working on the next chapters and i’m excited to share!
synopsis nerdy ellie is hopeless in love with the sweetest popular girl of her school, and being the nerd she is, she gets obsessed with her fixation; you. she starts texting you "hi" and "bye" every day, and refuses to tell you she's her
synopsis: you're a photographer who attends a small art school on the western side of the united states. you and ellie attend the same school, and she develops a small crush on you.
warnings: none!
A/N: ANDDDDDDD WE ARE BACK! i had such a hard time mapping the rest of this fic out and even then i still feel like this part doesn’t meet my expectations BUT i really wanted to get something out before i procrastinated on it! BARE WITH ME IT GETS GOOD!
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