Hyperfixations of Curios Girl

23, I know nothing, Call me A

[wedarkacademia]

Andrea Gibson

[bishopsprodigal]

tumblr user aropride // richard siken, birds hover the trampled field // twitter user kvetchkween // richard siken, you are jeff // mitski, stay soft // diane ackerman in bell hooks, all about love // richard siken, a primer for the small weird loves // cj hauser, the crane wife // quote by tim kreider, posted by tumblr user 1dietcokeinacan // sk osborn, a hunger like no other // richard siken, litany in which certain things are crossed out

[obsessedovertoomanythings]

To my dear friend,

Why is it so hard to give up the imagined future? The things that never happened and never will.

I do not love you anymore but I still sometimes mourn the future that never was.

I mourn the children who will never be born and the Christmas parties that will never happen.

I told about you to my grandpa, but only after I knew that he forgets about it before the next day arrives. He asked if I would have been your wife and I still know it to my heart that I would have been if it ever would have come to that.

But alas, I cannot fault you for loving her. I love her now, too.

But I’m little bit bitter about my fate. I keep blowing up my love life because of you. Because of what loving you did to me. I don’t think that the fracture healed quite right. I feel like I’m little crooked inside.

I feel like my own mistakes caused by the accumulated insecurities made me act in a way that cost me him. So in a way you took him too as you took so many other things.

I feel like I cannot love or cannot be loved anymore. Before you, I was shiny and lovable but the hellfire you put me through, albeit inadvertently, forged me into something that cannot properly love or be loved.

The way I am now makes it, love, too intense and too frail to survive. And I’m too much, too hateful and also nothing. Too cold and distant. Building walls and being nonchalant. Too afraid of showing love in fear of a rejection and being laughed at.

I can’t feel love now if it doesn’t hurt. I got so used to feeling love with pain that now they are intertwined. I think I fell for him partly because he reminded me of that feeling.

It’s so consuming and powerful. To love someone who does not love you. And wonder what if they did? Ah the hope. It’s the worst part. It’s not the pain that cuts your spirit in pieces but the god damned hope.

In the end, I still want to believe that I can do it. Find it in myself to be able to love again without all the thorns and wrongly healed fractures. Or despite them. And even more to let myself be loved.

[remanence-of-love]

[myhiddenquerencia]

Look at you, Wiping your own tears With the same hands That long to be held

Ayesha Zahra

[remanence-of-love]

[dramione-librarian]

"Oh, you haven't read the classics..." I'VE READ THE CLASSICS

✨Dramione edition✨

Manacled by senlinyu

Rights and Wrongs by LovesBitca8

Isolation by bexchan

The Fallout by everythursday

Breath Mints / Battle Scars by Onyx_and_Elm

Draco Malfoy and the Mortifying Ordeal of Being in Love by isthisselfcare

Wait and Hope by mightbewriting

Meet Your Match by morriganmercy

Measure of a Man by inadaze22

Love In A Time Of The Zombie Apocalypse by rizzlewrites

Secrets and Masks by EmeraldSlytherin

Remain Nameless by HeyJude19

Bring Him To His Knees by musyc

The Eagle's Nest by HeartOfAspen

Dragon's Heartstrings by pinkinku

[sydcarmen]

do you have any fic recs for the bear? 👀

hi friend !!! i'm sorry for taking so long but yes, of course i do >:-) it's my first time recommending fics like this so i'm nervous ?!?!? some things to consider: 1. english isn't my first language. idk if that changes anything 2. i only started reading sydcarmy on ao3 like, a month ago lol which is kind of embarrassing considering the amount of works i'm about to list 3. most of these are explicit 4. i fucking love a slow burn

fireproof (2.5k) : "s1 just hot as hell" -my notes

Talking Bodies (7.9k): so well written, slightly angsty and dark, really cool images. really hot!

five times a simmer; once boiling over (7k): set after s1, tension and sweetness. real heat, chef.

a curious token (would the talkers be talking?) (4.1k): richie's pov! so fun! really cute!!!

bad for business (31.4k): lighthearted and fun and silly ! i really like how the author weaves sydney's story with her parents'.

Fundamentals for the Fun and Mental (70.6k): post season 2. changed my life forever. ruined my sleep schedule. probably my favorite sydcarmy fic of all. idek what to say. it's just a good ass fucking slow burn. i feel like this fic/author really understands the show and the characters. love love love. cannot recommend this one enough. plus i love a good carmy pov.

how will i know? (97.2k): this one is intense! no spoilers but like, it actually made me tear up at one point lol sooo much happens but it's really cool to see how their relationship evolves (through passion and creativity?) to something deeper and more honest. it's set after s3 so it's kinda what we're hoping for lol. really sweet story, overall.

Rules For (fake) Dating an Italian (99.6k): so. much. FUN. also ruined my sleep schedule, couldn't stop reading. the tension, the dynamic between characters, the pacing, AMAZING DIALOGUE, which makes or breaks a fic for me. i feel like it's hard to nail a good sydney pov but this one is incredible. the chapter from carmy's pov is also really good, really carmy. it's just so well done, so well written, so many sweet and silly moments. it's an AU of sorts? which also makes it stand out! no wonder it's a fandom classic!

that would be all! heheh happy reading and definitely let me know what you think ! <3

[virgosgrooveis4ever]

let me get this straight.

we got the fact that sydney lied saying she’d go to the original beef on sundays with her dad when they’re always closed on sundays just to work under carmy (s1 says they are open 7 days a week HOWEVER in s1 episode 8 syd tells marcus that her family rarely ate out and then in season 2 carmy tells claire how much he hates sundays)

the THOUGHT of sydney calming carmy down during a panic attack twice mind you when the thought of claire only made it worse

the iconic table scene in season two

the fact that CARMYS FIRST DISH was the best meal sydney had (looked like a bleeding heart mind you)

burned himself out and put the restaurant in debt because he wanted to get a star FOR SYDNEY not for himself

carmy saying he liked this when it was literally just them in the kitchen in episode one mind you

him literally begging sydney to let him come to the hospital and that phone call in general

both the kid and donna’s crazy ass clocked sydcarmy and they didn’t even watch them interact

carmy literally sounding so sad with that “you didn’t talk to me all service” in episode ten

the fact that sydney knows she can run the bear herself with sugar and richie but she WANTS to work with carmy cried over the fact that he was leaving her

and yet they’re still pushing the claire and carmy narrative when every single action points to carmy and sydney right…right…

[mccinnamon-bun]

Chat is it really platonic if you're talking with his mom and telling her you went all the way to New York to try her son's food and that her son's meal was one of the best of your life BEFORE YOU TELL HIM?!

[gentlesleaze]

Imagine meeting your hero and he turns out to be your shit show of a soulmate

[afrofairysblog]

That's so TRUE

[v2isfuckingdead]

not even horny atp i just want to feel wanted

[starsandscars81]

i’ve never wanted to hug a character while also badly wanting to punch them before i discovered kaz brekker

[7975348473]

Most relatable shit of the day.

[septemberkisses]

March - the month of dreams and hopes.

Excerpts from:

Warm Moon by Mary Oliver • With the Fog So Dense on the Bridge in Almond Blossoms and Beyond by Mahmoud Darwish, tr. Mohammad Shaheen • The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab • Pinterest • March by Hannahrowrites • Great Expectations by Charles Dickens • To March by Emily Dickinson • Worth the Wait by Schuyler Peck • Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Aurelia Plath written c. February 1953 • Second Dedication by Anna Akhmatova, tr. D.M. Thomas •

[mournfulroses]

Rainer Maria Rilke, from The Selected Poems of Rainer Maria Rilke; "You See, I Desire a Lot,"

[mournfulroses]

Hanako Footman, from her novel titled "Mongrel," originally published in 2024

[tenderwatches]

sometimes you need dialogue tags and don't want to use the same four