she/her. indian. hindu. straight. highschooler. bindi equipped 24/7. full-time singer. part-time dancer. part-time reader. part-time author. sunshine personality. an enthusiast. professional procrastinator. (not-so) slightly crazy. lover of classical music and mostly all things desi. @musiwashere, @lunarlee101 and @is-it-claire r to blame for my craziness.
(twinning themes with @darknesswrappedinfallcolors )
my traditionblr: changing themes acc to books or characters or fandoms, no follower events (for now)
my masterlist : subject to update (obvi)
(hanji mujhe hindi bhi aati hai)
the note board:-
(current hyper fixations)
the marauders. avatar the last airbender. avatar: fire and ash. the inheritance games. haikyuu. percy jackson. tian guan ci fu. the grishaverse. alien stage. conan gray. voltron. katseye.
(current playlist)
where is my husband. the best (conan gray). vodka cranberry. velvet ring. ghoomar. ghar more pardesiya. put your records on. so easy (to fall in love). the cut that always bleeds. lover. copacabana. fever dream. let the world burn. army dreamers. tomorrow never dies. from the start. homewrecker.
(current goals)
preserve hinduism. control your anger. 85% in boards. get better at hindi. be a respectful daughter. study hard.
(nostalgic run-down)
gacha girl. miraculous lady bug freak. taarak mehta ka ulta chashma. paw patrol. bts army. just add water. just add magic.
fanfic review (the fanfic my theme is based on)
[the cadence of part time poets, motswolo]
★★★★★
“It was mayhem. It was magic. It was rock and roll.”
Of all literature I have consumed (not exactly a small amount), this is probably my favorite piece.
TCOPTP is one of those fanfics that you can’t stop rereading— not only because the plot is immaculate and unique, but also because you get attached to the individual characters and emotions you feel along the way.
the way this fic explains each and every character’s personal problems, yet manages to implement it all into the story flawlessly shocks me. it displays the importance of friendship and love for music in a way so contagious i swear my music taste changed because of this fic.
TCOPTP isn’t just a wolfstar fic or a band fic— I think it’s an entire life wrapped up into a few chapters. Wether you want to read and live through the love, music and rapid ups and downs is completely up to you, but missing out on this masterpiece is a huge mistake in and of itself.
the perfect mix of wolfstar, music, love, sexual awakenings, black brother angst, jily and— most of all— friendships :3
Girly i NEED more people to talk to about these crumbs. Like— the first time i read TCOPTP i wasnt a jegulus fan, so the jegulus just like went over my head. But re reading it now as a jegulus person through and through? My heart was aching so bad the entire time—
okay so i picked up the fic from a random chapter so these arent ALL the snippets but the main ones— prepare urself girly 😭🥹🙏🏻
SPOILERS UNDER CUT!!
This is the first big one i screenied—
So Trish (absolute queen) confessed to Reg and Remus had been under the impression that both Regulus and Trish liked eachother— so this is Trish explaining that Reg rejected her because he likes someone else…. FUCKING GUESS WHO AHAHAHHSHA IM GOING TO CRY IT IS INSANE HOW LONG REG HAS BEEN CRUSHING ON JAMES HGAJSJDJDJSJ 🔪🔪🔪
ehem. next up we have a teeny tiny crumb
James asking “really” gave me life im sorry. anytime these two interacted— whether directly or not— made me squeal. (And cry.)
NEXTT we have one of my fav scenes
So here Regulus played the drums like an absolute MASTER in front of a crowd and nobody (except Barty and Trish) knew he had been learning to play up until this point hehehrhahajdkjdk he flexed so hard— this is everybody complimenting him but ALSO the first like civil interaction between Starchaser— notice how Reg replies to James’s compliment 🤭✨ (ik im being delusional… bare with me)
NEXTTTT UPPPP we have what follows this event (prepare urself for this one had me biting my fist)
…yes. …… JAMES YOU FUCKING OBLIVIOUS LITTLE AJAHEKAJDJAKHDRJ BLIND ASS— Not Remus clocking their chemistry, not James REACHING AROUND THE POOR BOY WHO HAS BEEN PINING FOR HIM SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME?? ARGHHSHSHSHSJJS FUCK. Sorry :3 but they’re so fucking cute im gonna cry
next.
So here we have James attempting to show off and failing miserably… EXCEPTTT REGULUS WHO IS THE ONLY IDIOT ENTRANCED BY THE WHOLE THING. Boy locked in the moment James started talking smh— ignore Remus’s last comment, his gaydar was so off— we’re getting to that 😭😔✋
NEXT WE HAVE
So Regulus was terribly intoxicated and wouldn’t give up Peter’s drumset until JAMES eased him off his seat. And then Regulus’s gay panic (or whatever it was) took place. Notice how he says “don’t touch me” or “find your perfect little girlfriend”….haaaa jealousy isn’t a good look Reg— James being effortlessly kind to the guy that’s gone for him hurts my soul. Open ur eyes Jamie I beg of u, the man of ur dreams is RIGHT THERE (sorry Lily— i love u <33)
Next up we have the infamous kiss scene
ARGHHHHHSHSHGSJSHJE RAHHHGHHHH 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹 WHEN I TELL U I NEAR TO GOD CHUCKED THE PHONE INTO THE WALL. FUCK ME ARGHHAHSHSHJSJS. James u being nice does NOTHING to help Regulus’s one sided love (cant even call it crush cuz of how long its been going for) Reg saying he needed to know how it felt just once 😭😭 James not pulling away but being completely floored 😭🔪 Remus realising how off his gaydar was 😭😭😭🔪🔪🔪 REG RUNNING AWAY?? (Well he was leaving anyway but like HE WAS EMBARASSED SYRHHSBSJSHSGD) And James only thinking about how he would tell Lily and that Sirius can’t know 😭🥹 it hurts that James doesn’t like Reg back, but he isn’t a cheating piece of shit. Mad respect James (i say this as i pull my hair out over James’s reaction because he definitely doesn’t like Reg that way and it KILLS ME ARGHSHSJSHSKDNS I LOVE JILY— TCOPTP JILY IS SO WELL WRITTEN…. SO TELL ME WHY THE JEGULUS CRUMBS ESTABLISHED THE JEGULUS RELATIONSHIP SO WELL TOO?? WHY DO I STILL FEEL MORE FOR THE SUNSEEKER CRUMBS THAN FOR ALL OF THE JILY SCENES COMBINED KAHDJSNJSJSJD JUST TAKE THE KNIFEEEE 🥹🔪🔪🔪 AHGRHWHSHSHJDHSKSHDJSHDKSHHDJSHDKDHSJSHWJSHSAGGE)
and ofc, because this much torture wasn’t enough— we got a James POV in the B-sides series that just HAD TO HAVE another Jegulus crumb 🥹🥹🔪
So, for context, James sees the world and all sounds in colors— its a very rare and amazing ability which makes him a very unique and skilled musician. Growing up— he didn’t like the color green until he realised Lily was that color. And then suddenly he was… enamoured with it in a way. And this is how the chapter ended. James saw Regulus as green as well.
Girly. Ml. Liz. Do u realise WHAT THIS MEANS AISHKAHDKSJRJAJDH— JEGULUS HAD A CHANCE IN THIS UNIVERSE TOO— i run the risk of sounding delusional but just think about it. Reg liked James from the very start, as we can see here, and James was definitely intrigued by his best friend’s little brother— i mean he associated him with the same color he associated LILY with. He TURNED BACK TO LOOK AT HIM SJSKSHSKAHDKS— ehem. Its just that they never got a chance to actually talk or form a relationship because Regulus always pulled away and James listened to Sirius rant on and on about his little brother. They both weren’t given A CHANCE to establish what could have been and i will die on this hill.
also it’s important to note that Regulus approached James RIGHT AFTER James flirted with Lily. I feel like that timing is so fucking poetically devastating cuz that puts their entire relationship into perspective. Regulus will always notice James, but James only ever looks at Lily and whenever he does interact with Regulus, James’s brain will catalogue that green-ness but not realise why until he’s already with Lily.
…help i do sound delusional but this part made me come undone. Oh what could have been 😭🥹🔪🔪🔪
there are a lot more if my memory serves me right— there was a dancing scene where James pulls Regulus onto the dance floor (BUT I CANT BE SURE IF IT WAS IN THIS FIC OR ANOTHER— but im pretty sure it was TCOPTP) and there was also Regulus blushing at the very mention of James etc etc. there’s quite a few more and they kill me everyday.
thank u for coming to my slightly delusional, very very emotionally charged ted talk 😔🥹✨
@darknesswrappedinfallcolors for u too girly pop :3
This is an incredible compilation oh my godddddd its making me more and more certain that tcoptp part two is gonna have jegulus (am i delusion? If i am you will be delusional with me right?) Like COME ON thats setup surely. Surely its setup. Wolfstar pshh, the maybe true slowburn was the jegulus we found crumbs of along the way. Like COME ON wait im gonna reread james' missed awakening (chap99 right?) and return
also what colours do you think it was for james when reg kissed him
YESYESYES IM SO HOPEFUL FOR JEGULUS- tho upon rereading tcoptp, i will say that establishing jegulus in part 2 would be exceedingly difficult- but just as interesting sosoos im praying bro. we'll be delusional together twin <333
SSSTOPP HOLY SHIT THAT'S SUCH A GOOD QUESTION I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT?? fuck... lemme think ToT
the black brothers but its sirius doing that one “dancing till i get a reaction out of my brother” challenge. insert regulus with headphones— hyper focused on wtv he’s drawing and sirius is just over here throwing it back, head banging and hip swirling to try and get a reaction. but reg is so used to his bs at this point he doesn’t say anything for a long while. and when he does finally deign to take his headphones off and look at sirius, he goes “now imagine if you put this much effort into taking lupin out on a date. i think you’d have yourself a boyfriend and i’d have some peace.”
theoretically sirius and regulus show up to every family reunion/event with a new dance/song number ready to perform, unfortunately, their family is insane and their parents lowkey hate them
fortunately, uncle alphard and his perpetually single roommate who he's just best friends with *wink* do get to babysit them/have them over occasionally, and they love their dance/song numbers
if hogwarts!black brothers ever get drunk together, they make a new song/dance number and make their collective friends watch it
adults! black brothers, if they live that long, have a song and dance number ready to perform sober at any chance
Girly i NEED more people to talk to about these crumbs. Like— the first time i read TCOPTP i wasnt a jegulus fan, so the jegulus just like went over my head. But re reading it now as a jegulus person through and through? My heart was aching so bad the entire time—
okay so i picked up the fic from a random chapter so these arent ALL the snippets but the main ones— prepare urself girly 😭🥹🙏🏻
SPOILERS UNDER CUT!!
This is the first big one i screenied—
So Trish (absolute queen) confessed to Reg and Remus had been under the impression that both Regulus and Trish liked eachother— so this is Trish explaining that Reg rejected her because he likes someone else…. FUCKING GUESS WHO AHAHAHHSHA IM GOING TO CRY IT IS INSANE HOW LONG REG HAS BEEN CRUSHING ON JAMES HGAJSJDJDJSJ 🔪🔪🔪
ehem. next up we have a teeny tiny crumb
James asking “really” gave me life im sorry. anytime these two interacted— whether directly or not— made me squeal. (And cry.)
NEXTT we have one of my fav scenes
So here Regulus played the drums like an absolute MASTER in front of a crowd and nobody (except Barty and Trish) knew he had been learning to play up until this point hehehrhahajdkjdk he flexed so hard— this is everybody complimenting him but ALSO the first like civil interaction between Starchaser— notice how Reg replies to James’s compliment 🤭✨ (ik im being delusional… bare with me)
NEXTTTT UPPPP we have what follows this event (prepare urself for this one had me biting my fist)
…yes. …… JAMES YOU FUCKING OBLIVIOUS LITTLE AJAHEKAJDJAKHDRJ BLIND ASS— Not Remus clocking their chemistry, not James REACHING AROUND THE POOR BOY WHO HAS BEEN PINING FOR HIM SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME?? ARGHHSHSHSHSJJS FUCK. Sorry :3 but they’re so fucking cute im gonna cry
next.
So here we have James attempting to show off and failing miserably… EXCEPTTT REGULUS WHO IS THE ONLY IDIOT ENTRANCED BY THE WHOLE THING. Boy locked in the moment James started talking smh— ignore Remus’s last comment, his gaydar was so off— we’re getting to that 😭😔✋
NEXT WE HAVE
So Regulus was terribly intoxicated and wouldn’t give up Peter’s drumset until JAMES eased him off his seat. And then Regulus’s gay panic (or whatever it was) took place. Notice how he says “don’t touch me” or “find your perfect little girlfriend”….haaaa jealousy isn’t a good look Reg— James being effortlessly kind to the guy that’s gone for him hurts my soul. Open ur eyes Jamie I beg of u, the man of ur dreams is RIGHT THERE (sorry Lily— i love u <33)
Next up we have the infamous kiss scene
ARGHHHHHSHSHGSJSHJE RAHHHGHHHH 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹 WHEN I TELL U I NEAR TO GOD CHUCKED THE PHONE INTO THE WALL. FUCK ME ARGHHAHSHSHJSJS. James u being nice does NOTHING to help Regulus’s one sided love (cant even call it crush cuz of how long its been going for) Reg saying he needed to know how it felt just once 😭😭 James not pulling away but being completely floored 😭🔪 Remus realising how off his gaydar was 😭😭😭🔪🔪🔪 REG RUNNING AWAY?? (Well he was leaving anyway but like HE WAS EMBARASSED SYRHHSBSJSHSGD) And James only thinking about how he would tell Lily and that Sirius can’t know 😭🥹 it hurts that James doesn’t like Reg back, but he isn’t a cheating piece of shit. Mad respect James (i say this as i pull my hair out over James’s reaction because he definitely doesn’t like Reg that way and it KILLS ME ARGHSHSJSHSKDNS I LOVE JILY— TCOPTP JILY IS SO WELL WRITTEN…. SO TELL ME WHY THE JEGULUS CRUMBS ESTABLISHED THE JEGULUS RELATIONSHIP SO WELL TOO?? WHY DO I STILL FEEL MORE FOR THE SUNSEEKER CRUMBS THAN FOR ALL OF THE JILY SCENES COMBINED KAHDJSNJSJSJD JUST TAKE THE KNIFEEEE 🥹🔪🔪🔪 AHGRHWHSHSHJDHSKSHDJSHDKSHHDJSHDKDHSJSHWJSHSAGGE)
and ofc, because this much torture wasn’t enough— we got a James POV in the B-sides series that just HAD TO HAVE another Jegulus crumb 🥹🥹🔪
So, for context, James sees the world and all sounds in colors— its a very rare and amazing ability which makes him a very unique and skilled musician. Growing up— he didn’t like the color green until he realised Lily was that color. And then suddenly he was… enamoured with it in a way. And this is how the chapter ended. James saw Regulus as green as well.
Girly. Ml. Liz. Do u realise WHAT THIS MEANS AISHKAHDKSJRJAJDH— JEGULUS HAD A CHANCE IN THIS UNIVERSE TOO— i run the risk of sounding delusional but just think about it. Reg liked James from the very start, as we can see here, and James was definitely intrigued by his best friend’s little brother— i mean he associated him with the same color he associated LILY with. He TURNED BACK TO LOOK AT HIM SJSKSHSKAHDKS— ehem. Its just that they never got a chance to actually talk or form a relationship because Regulus always pulled away and James listened to Sirius rant on and on about his little brother. They both weren’t given A CHANCE to establish what could have been and i will die on this hill.
also it’s important to note that Regulus approached James RIGHT AFTER James flirted with Lily. I feel like that timing is so fucking poetically devastating cuz that puts their entire relationship into perspective. Regulus will always notice James, but James only ever looks at Lily and whenever he does interact with Regulus, James’s brain will catalogue that green-ness but not realise why until he’s already with Lily.
…help i do sound delusional but this part made me come undone. Oh what could have been 😭🥹🔪🔪🔪
there are a lot more if my memory serves me right— there was a dancing scene where James pulls Regulus onto the dance floor (BUT I CANT BE SURE IF IT WAS IN THIS FIC OR ANOTHER— but im pretty sure it was TCOPTP) and there was also Regulus blushing at the very mention of James etc etc. there’s quite a few more and they kill me everyday.
thank u for coming to my slightly delusional, very very emotionally charged ted talk 😔🥹✨
@darknesswrappedinfallcolors for u too girly pop :3
the black brothers but its sirius doing that one “dancing till i get a reaction out of my brother” challenge. insert regulus with headphones— hyper focused on wtv he’s drawing and sirius is just over here throwing it back, head banging and hip swirling to try and get a reaction. but reg is so used to his bs at this point he doesn’t say anything for a long while. and when he does finally deign to take his headphones off and look at sirius, he goes “now imagine if you put this much effort into taking lupin out on a date. i think you’d have yourself a boyfriend and i’d have some peace.”
Smt I rlly wanna see for lyrason is after the grandest games, Lyra goes home and they're both sad they'll never see each other again but Gray goes to her hometown or smt and finds her... In the grocery store... buying limes 🥹🥹🥹
[ i can’t remember the blog that i learned it from, but if i can find it, i will link them here ]
in this tutorial, i’m going to teach you how to make gradient text like this in your tumblr posts. i work off of desktop, so i’m going to follow those controls.
the black brothers but its sirius doing that one “dancing till i get a reaction out of my brother” challenge. insert regulus with headphones— hyper focused on wtv he’s drawing and sirius is just over here throwing it back, head banging and hip swirling to try and get a reaction. but reg is so used to his bs at this point he doesn’t say anything for a long while. and when he does finally deign to take his headphones off and look at sirius, he goes “now imagine if you put this much effort into taking lupin out on a date. i think you’d have yourself a boyfriend and i’d have some peace.”
