im not being sarcastic im putting this to an end. i had a lapse in judgement, i was scared, and we threatened to kill u. im sorry for it.
okay, i accept that. thank you matt, i’m sorry as well for the ways i wronged you and i hope that we can both do better by putting this behind us. i promise you that i won’t contact you or speak about you. i hope you do well in the future, take care.
listen, i don’t want to hurt you more than i already did in the past. i don’t want to spite you or make your life miserable. all i want is an acknowledgement that you, too, wronged me deeply. one that isn’t sarcastic and subversive and a dig at me and pins all of the blame on me like you have been trying to do. i swallowed my pride and acknowledged and apologized for my problematic and hurtful behavior and have sincerely apologized MULTIPLE TIMES for it. that’s all i want from you. i just want this to be over in the right way.
i did not send u anons and i was not involved in people liking ur post. i dont interact with cubgender, i dont even follow them. i told u to kill urself once publicly for stalking me and im sorry for that too.
alright, i’ll clear that up in the post. thank you
fine. im done. im sorry. u affected my life SO BAD i cant leave the house because im STILL convinced ur watching me but im sorry. im sorry for everything i did. im sorry for threatening u for making my life miserable. im sorry.
you don’t think that i still suffer daily for what has happened? you don’t think i feel unsafe at school, at graduation, at my own home because of all of this? you think you’re the only one whose life was fucked up because of this?
that is incredibly arrogant and selfish. this is clearly riddled with sarcasm and spite and is not at all a solution.
hello, this is shizunes/occkham addressing this post and matt 319px’s claims against me
i’ll be breaking everything down so this will most likely be a heavy read below the cut
as i said, i’m gale and i’m finally going to respond to this callout against me. i’ll provide some background before dissecting the claims
matt and i were friends from school for most of 2014, all of the falling out occurring mostly in early 2015. after becoming friends with one of its friends, it expressed that it no longer wanted to contact me, which i understood. during this we were both minors. so, onto the response
throughout our friendship, i did express romantic interest in matt, but respectfully backed off with that when asked. i did also criticize matt for not expressing that it was uncomfortable in our friendship when it told me at the end, which was wrong of me seeing as it has autism among other things. however, it did clearly engage me in our friendship: it voluntarily called me once or twice and invited me over to its house as well. i took these as signs of comfortable friendship. but again, my reaction to it telling me otherwise was not the right one
the repeated stalking i did of matt’s blog, i have no excuses for. it was completely inappropriate, seeing as it requested for me to stop due to its paranoia. i did for a while, but my own paranoia drove me back to check to see if it was threatening or attacking me. while i offer my ocd and own paranoia as an explanation, i do not offer it as an excuse. i am sorry for the distress i caused with that behavior
when matt responded violently to my behavior, i did say that it was an “unwarranted response,” which was incorrect. we both suffer from extreme violent impulses, so that was very hypocritical of me, seeing as i responded in the same way very often
the screenshot of my violent thoughts against matt from my personal blog was not meant to belittle it for its mental illness or shizophrenia. i can see how it may come across that was but that was not my intention at all. as i said, i’m severely mentally ill myself so i would never insult someone else for their own illness
now, the gaslighting. i have NO RECOLLECTION of any sort of gaslighting. i never told anyone that matt had or was abusing me: i said very plainly that it was treating me badly. there is such a large difference between abuse and mistakes of mistreatment and i would never use such a heavy term to describe our falling out. it’s inappropriate and unfitting
it also claims that i have abused others in the past which is completely untrue and if anyone feels that way, please do talk to me as i wish to know and probably apologize
so, that was my addressing of the claims against me
now, i would like to add the offenses that i was made to suffer through
death threats and suicide baiting
// EDIT: matt claims it did not send any anons. it did, however, post on its blog that people should send me shit (i don’t remember the specific wording of the post and i do not want to go through its archive to find it). this is a discrepancy as i do clearly remember it telling people to come after me. //
anons sent me death threats and suicide baits on anon, all in relation to the drama. this caused a MASSIVE episode and breakdown while i was at work among various other times. unfortunately, these attacks were on my old blog (shizunes) which i was forced to delete, so all i can offer is my word and witnesses if need be
this was a malicious attack on me after i talked about how i had been wronged on my blog. tons of messages of death threats and encouragement to kill myself, an extremely mentally ill, suicidal teen
its friend went back 2 weeks onto my blog and liked this post:
(first picture: “im so fucking angry im stuck working with the creature that stalked and sexually harassed and threatened me and i want to kill him but i cant but i just fucking might”)
(second picture shows the post was liked by knife.core)
// EDIT: matt is not associated with cub.gender. my apologies //
now, whether or not matt sent or encouraged them to do this, i don’t know. but the fact remains that one person matt interacted with and whom did not follow me went back 2 weeks into my blog and liked a post that talked about the boy that threatened me for nudes and attempted to break into my house
threats by matt and its alter, maka
months back, i was told that matt and its alter were posting very bad things about me on its blog. i searched for these posts to screenshot the offenses and protect myself, and i do not consider this stalking as it was in my own self defense
(image 1: “we have gale’s address i want to kick their ass”)
(image 2: “i want to go to their fucking house i want to fucking strangle them”)
(image 3: “i’m supposed to keep gale’s address from matt but i want to soooo badly i want to goooooo”)
these are all posts from matt’s alter, maka, so i am not blaming matt for them. however, the fact is that these posts were DIRECT THREATS to my safety and showed that a close contact and friend of matt’s had access to my house and wanted to harm me. directly.
given that i was over to its house once before, the argument can be made that i could do the same. i have NEVER ONCE threatened to go into matt’s home and harm it, nor would i ever do something so gross and terrifying. furthermore, like matt, an alter has the information of where it lives, not me. i have no access to that
at this point, i stayed at a friend’s house for about 5 days out of fear for my safety
(image 1: “with beck gale and moon finally off my blogs, i can finally talk about how much i want to fucking smash gales skull open”)
(image 2: “ill break their fucking ribs ill smash their ugly face in. ill tie their intestines in a nice little bow. for once, they’ll be pretty.”)
these posts were directly by matt. after including violence from my personal blog in its callout post against me, it turned around and said these things
along with what’s inherently wrong with these posts (hypocrisy and insults against my looks), i would like to add that i suffer from body dysmorphic disorder. bdd is incredibly crippling and already provides a huge struggle with my body. matt stooped to attacking my looks in the second post in a very direct and gross way. to me, attacking how someone looks is the lowest someone can bend to, and it is clearly shown here
i know that this was an extremely long and heavy read, and i sincerely thank anyone who took the time to go through it with all of my heart. i have been suffering these offenses for months with no acknowledgment or apology from matt, while i have frequently done both of those things with my own offenses toward it.
if anyone has any questions, comments, or concerns, i implore you to send an ask to this blog (anon is on). for my own safety, i will not reveal my current blog location. i do hope that all of this helps to clear up this entire situation. thank you
