So it has been quite some time since I followed up with this account. I’m now about to be 31. Weight loss efforts failed as in 2017 I was diagnosed with relapse remitting MS (RRMS) and became pretty depressed. This is one of the more common forms of MS. I believe about 80% ish of people diagnosed are diagnosed with this type. I got into a weird funk I guess you could call it. I ate my emotions, lost interest in a lot of things and was dropped from nursing school for academic failure. I felt like an absolute loser! I truly felt like my kids had a loser for a mother and it hurt more than anything. Fast forward to now - January 2020 - I am working as a nurse case manager, I am going to a Community college for my Science courses and a private college for the RN bridge program and I’m taking back my health little by little. With the grace of God, I have not had a relapse in well over a year and it is still uncertain if the “relapse” that I had was even a relapse at all or just my anxiety. I have taken my anxiety and depression head on thanks to my AMAZING Neurologist. My anxiety was SO bad following the diagnosis to the point I was needing Ativan to calm me down almost every day. Thanks to the antidepressant I am taking (that also helps the anxiety), I haven’t needed my Ativan in close to a year 💪🏼. I used to get depressed and down about the diagnosis and the uncertainty of this disease. Now, though it is still scary, I realize it is a manageable disease that like most, require lifestyle modifications. (I honestly think the scary part of this disease is that, as a nurse, you don’t really see those who don’t have much deficit. You see and care for those who are relapsing or succumbing to the disease entirely). I promise to keep this blog for anyone who wants to follow me in regaining my life! I hope that it can bring inspiration to those newly diagnosed and peace to those already kicking MS’ ass!!! Much love y’all! Til next time
