Writing on the Wall

if I could tell your story, I'd tell it with mirrors

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Haven’t been on in a while ?

Not in a long time

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Hi

Heyyyyyy

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I am always the wrong temperature

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She thought it was December

She thought she was a piece of you

She was like breaking glass

And I can see her crying

And I can see her dying

Always begging you to hold her hand

Like you were made of gold

And I can see her crying

I can see her spinning

She was just trying to let you go

It's snowing again in California

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I woke up late under moonlight beams.

I looked at you, and you were sleeping.

I wonder who watches me while I sleep.

I think I'm dreaming too deep.

I'm like a doll tossed about the sea.

I can't pick up my head or my feet.

I think I'm dreaming too deep.

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"I haven't had another episode, except for last night, when it was touch and go"

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oh, who am I

oh, who am I

I cut my hair in the bathroom

I climbed inside the mirror and

my skin tears like paper and

I can't resist, I can't resist

I can't resist

I taste bitterness on my lips

like a rose bush in January

I wait for you, I beg you, my love

I call to you like a dove

I sing to you like the ocean gales

I lie awake at night and I hear whispers

oh, who is she

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I had a dream last night they came and took you away from me.

The air broke like icy threads and wrapped around my neck.

The wind took flight through cold alleyways in the night,

And I screamed.

The sound was trapped in my throat, like an underwater kiss.

I tried to run after you, but my feet stayed frozen to the floor.

They tell you that loss is a quiet little thing,

With her sorrowful goodbyes and swollen, tearful eyes.

Sorrow is the loudest thing I hear.

The most violent of the seasons.

Sorrow will drag you down by the strings of your heart and drown you in the depths of your own despair.

It's the darkest place I know.

Remember, no matter how dark it may seem, you hold a light in your heart, brighter than a thousand burning flames.

There's hope you will survive.

Wear it like armour across your chest.

Hope has brought a thousand armies to their knees.

It has burned brighter than all the stars in the sky.

Hold it high, so all the world can see.

Hope is the battle cry of the ones who came before you.

It has set the stage for you.

Your teardrops will fall like rain.

And where there's water,

The flowers will grow.

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Sometimes

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The roses don't bloom in the winter

And love is

Love is

Love is hot blood in the cold, cold snow

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In the sunlight

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Hello again gorgeous girl

hello :)

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I've been dreaming

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Would you believe me if I said this is me 7 months pregnant 😅

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is suffering really necessary

like the spiders in my veins

they catch on my ribcage

they keep me up at night

like i am a puppet to torture in vain

the threads pull tight over my chest

they whisper quietly

i am supposed to learn

i am supposed to get better

i sit among the roses

i sleep in cold showers and howling storms

i was not meant for this

i am tired of pain