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about us:

19 yo system with DID. we collectively go by cadence and use he/they pronouns

traumagenic, but pro endo. start syscourse and get blocked 💜

every member of our system is an introject. our host (mage, he/they) is a rui kamishiro fictive. sourcemates are welcome to say hi!

mutuals can ask for our SP account.

#mage.txt

MY FUCKING BODYGUARD HAS THIS STUPID EMOTE CALLED "MAGE" WHICH IS JUST SHIZUKU GOING SYBAU. i'm going to cut her paycheck so much that instant ramen looks like a luxury meal

#mage.txt #do i even need a bodyguard anymore now that osa's gone. for our parents ig?

another good thing abt finally getting a handle on the osa situation is that we'll probably have more positive things to say abt our own system since we won't constantly be in lockdown mode anymore

#ryuu.txt #FINALLYYYYYYYYYY #it's been pretty... not nice in headspace for the past few months #but hopefully that should be improving as a lot of the caretakers; protectors; etc. who had to spend most of their time and energy trhinf #to prevent osa from attacking a kid (most likely me. lmfao) yet again won't have to worry abt that anymore. we might be able to establish a #consistent caretaker for the front again!!! which would be fantastic. getting miles as a host would be great for mage and our system as a #whole

hi we adore y’alls blog and are really glad we found it, espechially with y’all’s posts about in sys dynamics and espechially family ones…. also congrats on the whole osa situation ^^

YIPPIE!!!! hihi and TYYYYY!!! this means a lot actually, because this blog definitely ended up being a lot more venty than we ever intended it to be — so i'm glad that our posts ended up being something you liked!!! we're really just a more established system who has seen many different types of systems, dynamics, etc. and therefore has many opinions that we've developed over the course of 4ish years

#ryuu.txt #ask #it kinda confuses me how the way the general plural community talks abt in sys dynamics #doesn't match the lived reality of most of the systems we've met. <- has been friends with systems near exclusively for over 4 years atp #so we talk abt it. because it's pretty alienating to traumagenic systems in particular <- speaking from experience

i might complain a bit i am sorry 😔

#mage.txt #do any other systems struggle with the body feeling like it's in api #PAIN.#because you sustained an injury in headspace. is that common #😔 man...

btw if you didn't know this i'm delighted to inform you that mage is amazing. just so you know

#ryuu.txt #you'll never guess who exactly managed to deal with osa. you'll never guess #mage's going to get so spoiled from now on it'll be absurd. GOOD

oddball-1-2

tbh. the past 24 hours have been so wild that i honestly logged back on just to have a place to express them

oddball-1-2

like nobody out of system can truly understand how big of a deal this actually is but like. our system structure for the past 6ish months has been completely altered Specifically to try to minimize any potential harm that osa could do. like basically all of our time and effort was put into trying to get a handle on him and protect the hosts (plus meeee :3), when under normal circumstances most of our time and effort is put into trying to keep the host safe from like. general life conditions. like the thought that osa is no longer a worry of ours completely changes the way our system functions. holy shit

#ryuu.txt #IT'S SAFE FOR ME TO FRONT FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME AGAIN #HOLY SHIT #🎉

tbh. the past 24 hours have been so wild that i honestly logged back on just to have a place to express them

#ryuu.txt

sorry! if you see a lot of mentions of osa in the next few days but the idea that we may finally have handled our most intense persecutor like. ever. after like 6 months of struggling with her abuse is so exciting

#ryuu.txt #hooooly shit. holy shit

don't even know how to word this but we're like 99% sure that we've finally dealt with osa and like. holy shit. Holy Shit

#ryuu.tx #half a year of torment finally over pleaaaaaase. pleaaaase

heartbeat-sys

hosts are such a fun concept. brain is like "okay who do we think should handle daily life" and proceeds to pick the least qualified guy available

#rb #many such cases

honestly the reason i'm worried that i'm making my prior friendgroup seem worse than they actually were is because whenever i say anything it fails to properly take into account the fact that i was also a shitty person who did shitty things. so. y'know

#mage.txt #i was a shitty person who did shitty things and those shitty things were rewarded or justified

huh i make my old friendgroup sound really horrible.

#mage.txt #time for a game of were they actually that bad or am i making them seem worse than they were

maybe it was actually fucked up that it was made decently clear to me (through implications, largely) in my old friendgroup that i shouldn't be going to third parties about my issues with these people ever and that i should only ever go to them specifically about it. especially when i know that these people would dm one another abt their issues with me from time to time

#mage.txt #cw vent #< ONCE AGAIIIN JIC

y'know. i'm thinking abt smth i've been feeling so ridiculously guilty abt for months now. and now that i think abt it i actually don't think it was morally reprehensible of me to ask for third party perspectives on a really fucked up conversation (and my relationship as a whole) with my old friends considering that one of them showed me screenshots of her ex saying horrifically ableist things abt me to xir in her dms when we first met. maybe i shouldn't feel guilty for going "hey i don't think my friends take no for an answer :((" when this person showed me dms with someone talking abt how i shouldn't be using PK

#mage.txt #cw vent #<- KINDA? just to be safe

daily-plural-questions

Daily plural question: What level of communication do you have with your headmates / how do you communicate with them?

Examples sent in by the suggester: Speaking outwardly (where it looks like you're talking to yourself), speaking internally, communicating through emotions/vibes, communicating through writing/apps/etc, no/little communication

Question sent in by @virus-leo !

#rb #we communicate very frequently! most commonly internally via thoughts (and sometimes emotions or mental images)#we use discord semi-frequently too

daily-plural-questions

Daily plural question: For systems with introjects, what source do you have the most introjects from?

For systems without introjects: What's the most common species in your system?

Feel free to answer both if you'd like! :)

#rb #project sekai!

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