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[oestespalabras]

Don't ever let anyone fool you into the false sense that you aren't alone

[oestespalabras]

Hes got these Blue porcelain eyes

Hail the halos, hypnosis disguised

In a flurry of movements in a flurry of speech

Pull out of focus flow out of reach

Visions of acute angles brain waves blurped

Cling to smoke when the lines become blurred

I found it, i found this, she "found out"

And i was Cast away without a single doubt

Quietly, quickly sink away to mend

Patch up the illusion that i could call you "friend"

[iooeste]

My heart aches all the time

Sometimes more than others

Try to distract myself somehow

In a variety of lovers

God, does it burn, god does it seethe

The aftermath of becoming incomplete

Broken glass patterns slivers and shards

Putting myself together shouldnt be this hard

Oh, such exquisite pain came with such divine being

Lost you to circumstances I could not forsee

Now I know that it was always me

Now I know I set myself free

I pushed and I pulled at your heart strings

And yeah, you could so much more better than me

God, I walk around with acid in my veins

Heart gripped by loss, dying neurons of the brain

I wait to be released of this pain

Whether it be by time or it be by death

One day I will outrun all the sad thoughts in my head

One day I'll stop repeating my mistakes

Forgive me

[oestespalabras]

Hyped up gassed up

Hit the brakes

Clam up ice up

Let me down again

Melting point my breaking point

Lake of magma between me and you

I wouldnt cross it for the world

Damn you for asking me to

Youre oh so perfect oh so nice

Being overly generous is your only vice

While i take and i take then i break

I do it purely for your sake

[oestespalabras]

I am too much I am too intense Don't really measure up Always on the defense On the Surface calm Still water illusion Sunlit shores warm Wade out into confusion Currents that's flow Currents that drift Volatile undertow Gives out to rifts I try my best I go With the dark thoughts And yet I get told I am still, too much

[oestespalabras]

in its raw form

I promised myself when I met him That id break him out of that state of patriarchy You aint the head I'm not the neck of my family You may have sailed the seas as a captain But life's a slippery slope And going solo loses traction

It aint about leadership it aint about saviors My kids and i dont need the help, aint doing us any favors They have me and ill forever have them Three tiny delgatos clan of equal ladies and men

dont try to plug that void you carry, Losing your unborn child, that girld you'd marry we are not a replacement dont have vacancies in us when all weve had is each other protection and isolation is a must

I know the ways of men The wounds that they carry Prone to repeat the cycle again Their spirits growing weary I can spot the signs from miles off Neon bright "danger" signs will label anything as "love "affections" will be of all kinds But not the type that comes from above not divine not selflesss Not presumptoous wholehertedly accepting

i know the waves and the waves and im busy raising two babes, In the love, the light, i long to be Two tiny humans i pray turn out better than me

teach the girl to be outspoken, the boy that its okay to cry That this realm is seasonal,nothings really "mine" From earth we were formed and to dust we'll go back In between we fill the world with all the love it lacks

Teach the girl of beauty,and hone her intelligence and will this worlds no place for girls who follow everything they feel teach her fluidity, flexibility how to be humble All the things i lack and cause me to stumble

teach the boy to make the right choice not just for himself, but for the surrounding world teach him to voice his worries, never bottle them in to never bind his own throat chakra, something his mother did

im not alone in this ive got two tiny ones in the backseat headed towards our own brand of bliss shackles removed from our feet

[oestespalabras]

Scorpio

The way that you smiled The way that you raised A little hello Your hands to your face The way that you shuffled As you picked up your pace Oblique of your eyes Soften as they see Deep voice and polite Your arms around me Couple of hours together Scorpio and water bearer Love and struggles were shared Caught up on the lost five years Still so much love, so much care Smiled through the held back tears We walked for hours and we talked Paid each other close attention Led me to where my car was parked Purity in redemption Asked me so innocently When you could be around me My heart lit up My breath was caught I missed you and it shows Let's see where this goes

[oestespalabras]

The pale King

[oestespalabras]

Your Last Serenade

[oestespalabras]

Pure Spirit

[iooeste]

Taurus

I doubt us, I doubt you

I doubt everything that you do

Intentions toward me

What will they be?

I doubt sincerity from you

How could you want this wayward wind?

Creating sandstorms, your View has dimmed

Vulnerable Invincibility, your broken heart open

Lending to restoration, my energy you soak in

What is it that you want of me?

Am I someone you’ll want to keep

Or someone that you’ll cast aside

When I’ve finally taken enough of your time?

But yeah, I doubt your actions

Call it intuitive reactions

[oestespalabras]

Taurus : Part Two

[iooeste]

Taurus

I doubt us, I doubt you

I doubt everything that you do

Intentions toward me

What will they be?

I doubt sincerity from you

How could you want this wayward wind?

Creating sandstorms, your View has dimmed

Vulnerable Invincibility, your broken heart open

Lending to restoration, my energy you soak in

What is it that you want of me?

Am I someone you’ll want to keep

Or someone that you’ll cast aside

When I’ve finally taken enough of your time?

But yeah, I doubt your actions

Call it intuitive reactions

[iooeste]

To the Moon

[oestespalabras]

Shock the System

Fucking A don’t you dare give up

No matter the obstacle it ain’t enough

to keep you down; remember who you are

Inner saints and demons attending bloody brawls

It’s time to shock the system

Ignite the fires of resistance

Reckless Dive into icy cold, water blue

Abandon the thoughts at the bottom of  a pool

Reroute thoughts, visions of red

Awakened monster, it must be fed

Put away razors find another way

self mutilation to mark a hard day

Rid of human “flaws” don’t submit

Lustful, gluttonous, negative I’ll admit

But fuck the fucking system

Eremitic to acquire wisdom

-IoOeste 

[iooeste]

Song of Healing: Full Moon of Nov 3rd

Light of the Moon Blessed in abundance Push me to cocoon Aid me in resurgence

Song of Healing, as I Cast Trees release their leaves Help me to release my past May it no longer haunt me

Let go of all my grievances Free up my head to sunny skies Plant the seeds of differences Upgrade from black and white

Cut the ties to loves of old That was then and this is now Lend no invitation to my world I’m building my empire somehow

Glow of Light Guide my night So mote it be

[iooeste]

Song to Sow (Frostflower)

The days grow short the nights are cold Heart to Earth, my seeds to sow Allow my powers to expand and flow May my frost flower emerge and grow

Bloom back the life that ebbed from me Nurture this dwelling of Infinity Heal my heart, my soul as well as my mind Awaken that within which is divine

Restore that which was stripped away Lovely seedlings emerge with age Auras: haze gives out to dew Overturned leaves to a life renewed

Mesocyclones surround, heart sundered wars Bring peace, still the breeze, calm my Storms Plant my roots and grow in stillness Grow in strength and be resilient

Song to sow Heal my Bones Aura glow Banish my woe

So mote it be

[iooeste]

It went from one knot

To two knots to three knots to four To feeling like I’m still not whole Pain in my chest, chronic and intense Turns me into a fetal positioned mess Knots of four, chakras blocked here comes the waves of aftershocks Clay body, deteriorating vessel Dark cloudy thoughts with which i wrestle I don’t want this body it can’t contain Pain and issues that are hard to reign In, thrums hums vibrational frequency Suffer in silence and suffer frequently This body’s a vessel A broken one at best That still moves forward Without taking rest I refuse to be bound This pain I renounce I will heal this mess of insanity And find a place of serenity -Io