A few minutes before leaving the house, I told myself I would write about this when I got home, so here I am!
I'm sorry if this is all over the place; at least that will be a clear reflection of how I'm feeling.
Today, all in all, was marvelous.
Last night, like I mentioned in a few Facebook posts about the event, I was running in place out of excitement for today; and today, I was skipping about the house, singing, "Today's the day!".
Before I left home, I was texting a friend, confessing how nervous I was feeling. I was nervous on how the party would turn out because I'm a worrywart and I wanted everyone to be happy on how they spent their four hours. I'm a people pleaser (who isn't?), and especially for this party that I had spent a substantial amount of time planning, I just really wanted everyone to have fun.
And I was nervous about donning a bikini for the first time. I've always held a low body image, like so many boys and girls out there. I can blame society for instilling such a specific standard on what physical beauty means, but ultimately, I wish I could change my outlook on what those words mean to me And I'm working on it! Regardless, wearing a bikini was daunting; actually, I had a one-piece I was going to wear, in case I chickened out, but I'm glad I worked up the confidence to walk around in a two-piece. Just a week ago, I was entirely convinced that I should not be allowed to wear a bikini and I would never be able to pull it off, but after today, y'know, I think... maybe... yes, I can!
Alright, alright, enough of that.
Before the event, I was so frazzled, so panicked, and entirely frantic. I'm pretty sure I ran back and forth on that dock sixty-five times, to be exact. I was worried people would get lost or wouldn't able to get on the boat in time. Admittedly, I got a bit frustrated trying getting everything done, but like I said, I just wanted all fifty of y'all to have fun! When we finally left the dock, I slumped down in my seat, watching the shore go farther and farther away into the distance, I breathed several sighs of relief and squeals in excitement!
We were finally on the boat and moving!
My only wish that more friends could've joined us, but we were restrained by the 50 person limit.
With the thousands - literally thousands - of pictures we took, I don't really feel the need to recap the details on the boat. I'm just so grateful for the delicious food and refreshing drinks (that I didn't get a chance to consume because I was a bit frantic), the splashes in the cool water accompanied by noodles, the warmth of the sun, the perfect breeze that drifted by, and the laughter and company of nearly fifty friends.
Many people thanked me for hosting this party. I'd like to thank Mary for helping so much with the planning, moral support, and calming words; Abhishek for the bass-dropping music; Jessica Xiao for giving me advice and reassurance; and Dan for the proof-reading; but most of all, the fifty friends who came and were the sole reason of why these four hours were so much fun.
Man, I feel like I'm giving an Oscar speech at this point.
tl;dr today was a lotta fun I lurv you all
