ofxbeasts:
he stared at her, stunned and stuck in place. her words rang in his ears. “easy?” he repeated, as if the word was utterly disgusting. his voice was breathy and weak, he could barely make eye contact with her. his fists bundled and all he wanted to do was scream that pushing her away was one of the hardest fucking things he’d ever done. but he didn’t. he just clenched his jaw and said, “nothing about the past six months have been easy.”
adam didn’t understand why she had come here. why had she stormed over - to ask him this? wasn’t she glad that the snarly hairy guy had finally left her alone? could he have really meant anything to her? surly no one cared all that much about him. he’d lasted this long tucked away in the shadows without anyone wondering where he’d been. and now suddenly this bright beautiful girl comes marching in demanding to know how he could do such a thing - he just didn’t understand it.
“i mean hell i just, i dunno i just-” he lifted his hand up in the air as his worlds trailed off. he ruffled the back of his long messy hair. it was terribly unkept. minnie would be so ashamed. “i just got busy,” he lied. “it was easier to just…stay around the house. i don’t know. what does it even matter anyway?”
she almost couldn’t help the slight scoff that came out of her. “you pushing me away hasn’t been easy.” she felt selfish for saying that, especially with everything that he’s been through within these past six months. it was understandable why he had practically gone off the grid, but on the same hand, a simple text, letter, anything to say that he was okay but needed time would’ve been more than okay with her and she would’ve understood.
her brows furrowed at his words. he’s been busy. busy pushing people who care about him away. she almost hated that she had become this person, normally she wouldn’t chase after someone who no longer showed interest, but with adam it was different. it was something that she didn’t quite understand, what there was about him that made her so intrigued.
“i mean honestly, what is it? you’ve been busy, you stayed around the house, you don’t know? just be honest with me, you’ve been avoiding me.” she didn’t want him to lie to her, now was not the time to make up some sort of excuse. “because it just does. i’ve been worried about you, i felt like you completely vanished.”









