𝚂𝙿𝙸𝚃𝙵𝙸𝚁𝙴

𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗅𝖺𝗌𝗍 𝗈𝖿 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀.​

[ofhighever]

⸺ 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘳𝘺; 𝘪 𝘢𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘦.

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#ofhighever lillian "lily" cousland. // warden established in 2015 with verses in dragon age, + several modern & fantasy universes. primarily writing on discord. heavily plot based. affiliated with @higheverlost

links: blogroll / rules / carrd

IMPORTANT! please read the disclaimer under the cut.

other than my rules, my most important rule from now on is that you should NOT follow me if you have no intention of writing with me. that said, once we become mutuals, i'll eventually come to you via dms to ask to plot and we can figure out a way we can write. that's why i am here. my hobby is writing.

if i notice that my attempts at doing so have gone either ignored or kind of dismissed, i will softblock you and we will go our separate ways, no harm done! this doesn't mean you have to be a fast replier or anything, that's not it. i just want to have mutuals who seem interested in my character. <3

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is anyone still here?

[feather-of-maat]

LexaSnarl™

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“  i don’t know how to just live.  i constantly feel like i’m waiting for the other shoe to drop.  ”

@highevar . elethea ;

❝ i wish i could tell you that that's not healthy or something, but i do it too, and honestly... at this point, i just think it's better. i mean, LOOK at us. ❞ they had only recruited half of the people they had to talk to about providing aid against the blight, the darkspawn were catching up to them at an ALARMING speed, they were constantly covered in blood or bruised and battered and, to top it all off, they were two orphans who didn't have a home to go back to anymore.

❝ if constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop will keep us from being caught off guard and killed before we get to kill howe, then i'm taking it. ❞ she shrugged, feeling the weight of her words after a few moments of silence. ❝ sorry. ❞ lily sighed. ❝ i wish i could be more optimistic. i made it worse, didn't i? ❞

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i'm making MAJOR changes on lily's verse post awakening/pre-inquisition. that whole middle section is going to change. i might scrap the whole "dragonslayer" thing. i'm not vibing with it anymore.

i'm thinking more mercenary!lily that ends up picking up her own crew along the way and they're very much a 'all my friends are heathens take it slow' type.

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done it! included it below too if anyone wants to take a look.

despite the fact that both howe and loghain were dead, lily was not satisfied. the feeling she had expected to go away, the dread, the nightmares, the horror --- they stuck with her. it wasn't just about howe anymore, it was all of them. every single soldier that stepped foot in her home with a blade on their hand had to die or she wouldn't be able to rest.

without an actual obstacle to overcome, an enemy to defeat or a mission to complete, that feeling of emptiness and darkness inside of lily's mind only grew larger, swallowing her entirely. PTSD and other issues deriving from her past traumas such as night terrors, survivor's guilt, depression and sensation-seeking, coupled with the guilt on the decisions the made in the past, paved the path for lily to go almost insane.

she started her mission of revenge alone, but picked up a few people along the way that, despite initial resistance from her part, she really liked. she helped them and, in turn, they helped her, even when they shouldn't. lily spent years tracking down every single soldier that was a part of the assault on castle cousland that was still alive. she paid spies, information brokers, other mercenaries, anyone she had to for information and proof of their identities and their locations. acquiring the gold to make those payments resulted in having to rely on mercenary work.

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“  no one is meant to be all alone.  that’s not how humans are built.  you don’t need to do all this on your own.   ”

@lunedaepenid . liserne ;

❝ but i have to. this part i have to do by myself. ❞

she was the one that couldn't forget. couldn't let herself be satisfied by only killing the one man that orchestrated the fall of her family and her house.

everyone involved had to die. ❝ i can't ask anyone else to risk their lives with me simply because i can't let go. ❞

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𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄’𝐒 𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 ! go here and pick out a font which resembles your muse's handwriting the closest.

tagged by: stole it; tagging: steal it!

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reminder that this is lily's fc in her verses post awakening/inquisition.

[elaectrahrt]

if ❝ boys will be boys ❞ then girls must be WOLVES.

take back the streets. take back our skin.

because if ❝ boys will be boys ❞ these girls won’t be sweet.

[elaectrahrt]

send ✉ for my muse’s version of what they would have written to your muse on a goodbye letter, delivered after my muse has died.

[elaectrahrt]

things catarina de lurton from deus salve o rei said — a sentence starter.

❝ i’m going to be your queen. you should look down at the ground when you talk to me. ❞

❝ the thought of being with him makes death by hanging a tempting offer. ❞

❝ please, tell me she caught the plague and is now in hell bothering the devil with her dull company. ❞

❝ i like to watch my enemy’s defeat up close. ❞

❝ i don’t think i can get everything i want. i know it. ❞

❝ am i being accused of, what… gossip? ❞

❝ i regret nothing. ❞

❝ i would do it all again, exactly the same way. ❞

❝ i will talk to you in any way i want, that is my right. ❞

❝ he’s a fool, but a powerful fool. ❞

❝ few things in life gave me/would give me as much pleasure as watching that place burn down with you in it. ❞

❝ you can’t beat me. ❞

❝ now they taste our wrath. ❞

❝ i’m capable of things you can’t even imagine. ❞

❝ everything would be easier if i didn’t love [name/you]. ❞

❝ you haven’t seen me angry yet. ❞

❝ i will always be on your side. ❞

❝ a pity. you’re wasting your time. ❞

❝ we were never friends but i thought we could have a good relationship. ❞

❝ you still have to learn a lot about being at court, my dear. ❞

❝ no one wants to submit to a temperamental queen. not the people, much less the king. ❞

❝ despite your insistence on blaming me, i do not hold a grudge, my dear. ❞

❝ i know this is a consequence of everything you’ve been through lately. ❞

❝ i think it’s time to accept my defeat. ❞

❝ you’re turning your back on your people all over again, because of her. and once more, the people will pay dearly for it. ❞

❝ i won’t wait for you forever, [name]. ❞

❝ i deserve more than what you’re giving me. ❞

❝ one day you will look at me not only as a business deal, but as a woman/man. ❞

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howe’s words. (02/??) // lillian cousland edits — 𝟢𝟨/??

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lillian cousland study --- ellie williams.

ellie's revenge journey is a BIG BIG inspiration for how i write lily. she becomes obsessed with it to the point it brings her PHYSICAL EXHAUSTION. she is black and blue, bruised all over, but she keeps going, killing ANYONE in her path. she starts disassociating which allows her to kill people more easily, maybe even killing people she didn't MEAN to kill because she was just in AUTO PILOT. pure reflex. that's lily.

she doesn't just want to kill howe, she wants to hunt down every single soldier that was involved in the assault in castle cousland. she'll pay information brokers and spies to give her the names after the blight is over with and she'll kill those too.

ellie at one point says 'i don't sleep. i don't eat.' until she's done with this revenge thing, lily will pay attention to almost NOTHING ELSE short of her brother and/or any other siblings and/or MAYBE a love interest.

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help how do you address a queen/king in dragon age? your grace? majesty? highness?

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howe’s words. (01/??) // lillian couslandedits — 0𝟧/??

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lillian cousland -- art i commissioned from my friend @maerya-art and PLEASE JUST LOOK AT HERRRRRRRRRRRRR!

[ofhighever]

Which Corvid are you?

Jay

Jays are symbolic of intelligence, trickery, and aggression. This is mainly due to their high intelligence and assertive nature. They possess a strong territorial behavior and never get along with other species. They have the gift of mimicry and can easily imitate the calls of other birds, particularly hawks, to trick other birds into fleeing. They've even been known to mimic domestic cats. Jays are fierce protectors of their territory. If you’re planning on messing with these birds, be prepared to be besieged by them. Jays are also notorious for stealing shiny objects from other birds. Despite their unmistakable, colorful plumage, these beautiful members of the crow family are more often heard than seen.

tagged by: @korvyna tagging: @highevar @softersinned @thomasrainier @vendettamuses (whichever muse you're feeling the most rn!), @bloodyd