* ofmays

❪ㅤ𝗆𝖾𝗅𝗍ㅤᵘᵖㅤ❍﹒ㅤ𝗺𝘆ㅤ𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦.ㅤ❫

[ofmays]

                  ❍﹒𝗈𝖿 ㅤ— ㅤ 𝑚𝑎𝑦𝑠.

𝙼𝙰𝚈 𝚂𝙰𝙸𝙻𝙴𝙴. history major & stereotypical brooding bookworm. CLOSED roleplay for anomalyhqs : penned by finn ( he / they )

🗡, 𝚂𝚃𝚄𝙳𝚈𝙸𝙽𝙶 : red string of fate. coping with self hatred. BLOOD as a form of love. & — the MONSTER becoming an ANGEL. 🗡, 𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙺𝚂 : rules. profile. anomaly. plots. nav.

[ofmays]

will be approaching people for plotting tomorrow, apologies for being so absent as of late, the holiday season always has me way more busy than i originally anticipate !! i am very much lost in terms of some of the messages i owe people so help me out and like this post if: — i owe you a plotting message/reply and you'd like to continue our conversation. — you'd like to start a plotting conversation. (lots of new members to get to!!) thank you for being so patient with me, once again i'm very excited to plot and write with everyone !!

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    ❍﹒𝗈𝖿 ㅤ— ㅤ @seriphic !

yuhui smiles down at the ground, leans in a little bit more. "we should take a walk in the city when they're all up. maybe... for my birthday."

yuhui is staring, staring a little too much than what may is used to, and now may's cheeks are mirroring his eyes, red and warm. he clears his throat, glancing aside with a small nod. "yeah, yeah we can do that. we can visit the lights even after your birthday, closer to the holidays...if you like all of that." may feels like he's rambling even when he isn't. it's a little embarrassing, being like this...it simply wasn't natural for him; he feels as if he's out of his element completely, all nerves and breaths caught in his throat.

the mention of winter coats play at his mind for a minute longer however, and then he's taking off his own, stopping in their joined steps. "here." he says matter-of-factly, draping the clothing over yuhui's smaller shoulders. he didn't really need it, it was unzipped the entire time anyways, and yuhui clearly needed it more than he did; the blood in his veins always ran warm. "i won't take no for an answer." and, if may had learned anything about yuhui, it was that he was a sucker for anything cheesy and romantic; part of him is proud for even taking the initiative for doing something so daring for his own standards.

but then again, everything about yuhui was daring in some way.

he carries on in his steps after that, and his hand ghosts at the small of yuhui's back. "let's make a lot of plans for over the holidays, yeah?"

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    ❍﹒𝗈𝖿 ㅤ— ㅤ @huitians !

“ and, just so we get this cleared up, luo is like... those stray puppies that follow you around: annoying! and no -- not the cute ones. he's always around yuhui, who you, may sailee, have asked me to be nice too, so yes, i see him a lot! not that i want to! ” huitian said with a huff, simply going on with his self rant, wihtout even acknowledging how much further this would settle in may's mind. “ and, for this to make the most sense to you, i don't even like men! so there's absolutely no way in your mind that there could be anything between me and that guy. ”

"me? lying? come on, you know i'm incapable." and then it's may's turn to glare at huitian, pushing his annoying pen away from his face. "i never said we had nothing going on, i just asked you to shut up." a small smile, a glance back down to his book; maybe may shouldn't have started with huitian, because as much as it was amusing, it was exhausting trying to mask his own feelings; yes, he liked sun yuhui, and yes, he was distracted, and yes, may sailee was terrible at masking his feelings, good and bad; and huitian just always had to pick up on it.

who needs enemies when you have a best friend?

may rolls his eyes seconds later however. "alright, alright, you don't like men, and you definitely don't like luo." he closes his book with a comical thump, his hopes of studying for the night now bitterly defeated. "but you can't lie to me, you've been distracted too," uncrossing his legs, he relaxes against the head board of his bed, stretching his arms above his head. "and don't tell me you haven't been. i have best friend senses. they're real."

or maybe may could simply pick up on whatever feelings huitian was so desperately trying to bury right now. may didn't enjoy it, prying into people's minds, and it wasn't exactly mind reading, but it still didn't feel right; like an invasion of privacy.

he stares at huitian after a small shake of his head. "why do you let him follow you around then? we both know you're not the type to bring a stray home."

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    ❍﹒𝗈𝖿 ㅤ— ㅤ @luoism !

"you don't have to help if you're busy - i was really just on my way to the nurse, it's okay, really!" . . . so maybe may is a little scary.

and, much to his own distaste, may winces as well, feeling how luo flinches and reacts to the pain shooting up his arm. he has to bite the inside of his cheek, glancing aside briefly. did he truly have the time to help luo? he had assignments to catch up with, textbooks to read and mark with yellow highlighter, annotations to make, a coffee date to get to . . . okay, fine, he could help luo, just this once -- (partly because sun yuhui would give him a stern talking to if he didn't.)

"it's fine, i can help." he drops luo's wrist after inspecting the wound for a few more seconds. then he's walking to his dorm room, waving his hand in gesture for luo to follow. he sets his mess of papers down onto his desk after turning on the light. "so, try telling me again," he starts, reaching forward to take hold of his coffee cup once more. "how did it happen? i need to know. as much detail as you can manage." and then he's rummaging for something within the drawer of his desk between a gulp or two of iced americano; a small vial to be precise. may's blood bending came at a price you see, a small, slightly morally ambiguous price.

silently, he hopes luo doesn't sit on his bed, god, there was nothing worse than outside clothes on fresh linen.

[ofmays]

    ❍﹒𝗈𝖿 ㅤ— ㅤ @detagen !

“may? are you sick or intentionally here?” the question is a somewhat teasing remark poking at the other’s anti-socialness. considering may typically avoided any living person like the actual plague, the assumed biggest party of the year was the last place ryder was expecting to run into him at - much less trying to seek entrance in by himself. 

may wasn't too fond of parties...or people...or being outside...or of anything, really-- but he was fond of a certain someone as of late, and that alone is reason enough for why he's frequenting the unfamiliar halls of the blue house, a place far too loud and in-his-face for his liking. maybe his distaste for practically everything around him had finally come into use though, forever unable to hide his feelings; ryder was approaching him, and while they weren't extremely close, may was comfortable enough with keeping him around, he is pulgasari's captain, after all.

"ryder, hi." he replies sheepishly, not bothering to raise his voice despite how crowded the hallway was. admittedly, it was a little embarrassing to be seen like this, out of his...natural habitat. he waves his hands in front of himself in gesture. "no, i'm not sick, i heard there's a cold going around though..." gaze finding the floor, he smiles. may still wasn't very good at making conversation, but it was somewhat easier with the older male. they seemed to fit well together as leaders of their team, or maybe ryder just made enough noise for both of them at once; it was nice to have someone fill in the gaps, the social ones at least.

may clears his throat and looks up to ryder after a few seconds pass, remembering why he was here in the first place. "someone invited me here, actually...i didn't think the line would be this crazy though...could i get in with you? he's probably waiting for me."

[llovelymoonn]

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    ❍﹒𝗈𝖿 ㅤ— ㅤ @seriphic !

"may," he says. his shoulder brushes against the other student's side and his heart beats like a running rabbit. "you're really nice... why do more people not know you're really nice? maybe—maybe i have to start telling everyone."

"ah...you really don't have to do that..." may sheepishly laughs to himself, not fully able to look at yuhui for a second more, for his mind was already riddled with nervous thoughts and ideas he should definitely shelve for later, so he glances aside, bringing his hand to his mouth. part of him hated the fact that yuhui made him so...shy. excited, giddy. those were feelings he wasn't all too used to feeling, to processing, they shook him a little, overwhelmed him to a point where he could confidently say he was infatuated with sun yuhui.

he shivers with a particularly sharp blade of wind passing between them. it makes him stand closer to yuhui, until their arms are brushing, nylon against nylon. "didn't think it would get cold like this..." and yes, may is certainly talking about the weather, because, well...he wasn't really good at this stuff. "are you warm enough?" he tilts his head to the side as he asks, genuinely concerned. may didn't know a lot of things, but he knew he liked seeing yuhui smile after taking sips of his matcha latte, and he didn't like to see him cold, no matter how cute his nose looked when it was red.

"you can stay close if you are, you know...if you'd like that."

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    ❍﹒𝗈𝖿 ㅤ— ㅤ @huitians !

“ but you, may, on the other hand, have been very distracted... ” he trailed off, taking the pen in his hand to point at his pink cheeks. “ .. and very pink. ” huitian teased, tapping his pen against his book once more as he glanced down at it shortly. now that they had started, there was surely no way that they would go back to studying.

either way, his history of classical music text book would be nowhere as interesting as what they were going to talk about.

may huffs out some semblance of a laugh as huitian hurries to defend himself; forever predictable, but still, he was entertaining at least, even while sneaking a poke of his own in there. he tries not to let it get to him, tries not to let it make his cheeks warmer or his heart beat hammer in his ribcage. he knows more than anyone that he's been distracted, uncharacteristically so. still, that didn't mean that huitian had to point it out !!

"shut up. you don't know what you're talking about." he replies, staring at the pen for a beat too long before glancing back down to the article he'd reread far too many times for a single study session; his thoughts elsewhere before their conversation had even started. this wasn't about him and...his friend. it was about huitian and his friend. "you go on as if i can't like, make friends with someone." and maybe that was partially true, because simply put, may didn't make friends with just about anyone, but again, this academic year was full of surprises.

"you're friends with him too, and that other guy...y'know, the one you hate so much you just so happen to spend time with him every now and then." may continues with a sigh, laced with sarcasm as he toys with the pages of his textbook. he smiles again, slyly. "you know what i think? i think you're a liar."

[ofmays]

❍﹒𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁: for @seriphic / yuhui !! ⠀⠀ 𝚃𝙰𝙶𝚂: none as of now !! ⠀⠀ 𝙻𝙾𝙲𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽: somewhere on campus ?? for now ??

grabbing coffee with yuhui had become a habit by now— a very strange and out of left field habit for may lee of all people. he was used to grabbing an iced americano and running to his dorm, but now he’s holding a caramel macchiato and walking beside his new…friend, taking his sweet time as he glances down to him, noticing the curl of his lashes and the rounds of his cheeks.

it was november, it was getting colder, but may feels a lot warmer with yuhui by his side, shy words and glances adding to the growing list of things may finds oh so endearing about the drama student.

“your drink is spilling.” he comments, pointing to the cup of matcha latte yuhui was holding onto for dear life, but instead of waiting for him to snap the lid shut on his to-go-cup, may does it for him, reaching with his free hand, attempting to ignore the way he presses his lips together in nerves as their cold fingertips brush against one another.

he clears his throat and glances to yuhui with a sweet, shy smile. “there, fixed it.” and within growing november heat, may wonders to himself why sun yuhui of all people wanted his flat company so much.

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❍﹒𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁: for @luoism / luo !! ⠀⠀⠀𝚃𝙰𝙶𝚂: slight blood mention !! ⠀⠀⠀𝙻𝙾𝙲𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽: yellow hall hallway !!

he was in a rush, bag thrown over his shoulder, pages in his hold from house meetings and assignment briefs for the week, a cup of iced americano spilling down his hand in small drops, visibly tired from the hefty three hours of sleep he got the night before. put simply, may was busy, may was pre-occupied, and may definitely didn’t have the time to stop by xu luo looking at him like a lost puppy, holding his arm mere centimetres away from his face.

may stops in his tracks with an eye roll, and his heels would’ve made a comedic screech against the hardwood floors if possible. he could honestly think of several places he’d rather be right now. it wasn’t like luo was a bad person…or annoying…—well, maybe a little annoying; but that was out of his control. they simply hadn’t spent enough time together for may’s liking to be so casual, and luo was overwhelming to his senses, creeping under his skin.

“uh…” he glances to the nasty scratch against the younger’s arm and back to his face. he couldn’t leave him here, looking so…pathetic. wounded. so may sighs, taking a sip of his americano before handing it to the other. he takes hold of luo’s wrist after that, holding it up to get a better look at his arm.

“how in the world did you manage that?”

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❍﹒𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁: for @huitians / huitian !! ⠀⠀⠀𝚃𝙰𝙶𝚂: none as of now !! ⠀⠀⠀𝙻𝙾𝙲𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽: may's dorm !!

may and people didn’t exactly mesh well…he was people-averse by nature, prickly and abrasive— that was until he met someone just as horrible anti-social as himself; two negatives had to make a positive, right? that’s what may told himself at least as he clung so desperately to huitian the minute their friendship picked up; conversations laced with petty remarks and enough eye rolls to give one a headache.

it wasn’t for everyone, but somehow, may had found a safe place in someone who was just like him, because after all, those feelings were familiar, those emotions and thoughts of judgement were something all too known to may, so huitian was safe, a home far away from bangkok.

“stop distracting me.” may sighs as he tucks his pen behind his ear, smoothing down the pages of his environmental history doorstop of a book. he needed the break, but he had half an a4 page left to fill, and time was ticking. “and stop talking about him, i’m not distracted— we’re supposed to be studying, remember?” and he looks up at his best friend, hoping he doesn’t catch sight of the slight pink across his cheeks. this academic year had been full of surprises, and of course the other man was all too caught up with may’s business, constantly poking his head in. may could do that as well though, oh, he could do it really well, actually.

“you’ve been distracted, too. you don’t actually hate that guy, i know you— so spill.” and so may looks to huitian with a shit-eating grin, reaching for his now-warm soda on his nightstand, studying forgotten just for now.

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⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ❍﹒𝙼𝙰𝚈 𝚂𝙰𝙸𝙻𝙴𝙴. history major &&; stereotypical brooding bookworm : house pulgasari's vice captain with an expertise in BLOOD MANIPULATION and RBF. . . he also really loves tchaikovsky and wine ( ONLY RED !! ) and will one hundred percent talk your ears off about the rise and fall of marie-antoinette &&; the roman empire — the roman empire IS his roman empire !!

hi everyone !! really excited to get to writing with everyone and learn about your muses all the more !! i'm finn ( he/they, 24 ) & i'll be writing MAY while staying here !! here are some direct links to may's PROFILE, his ANOMALY and his unfinished PLOTS page that i'll definitely get to in due time !! ( here's a quick rules page too for reference !! ) below this i'll leave a tldr on his background and ability, feel free to like this post if you're interested in plotting, but be warned that i'm going to be messaging each and every one of you anyways !! :3c

tw: small mention of blood/animal death !! i tried to be as brief as possible so apologies for the word vomit fr...

⠀ ❍﹒ current : brief about may as of now !!

may "kwanchai" sailee — don't call him kwanchai though...nobody does... !! currently 25 and is a taurus sun, cap moon and sag rising to anyone who knows what that means !! he is currently on his post-graduate year of history and is house pulgasari's vice captain (its very srs to him ok ??) he's known to be a hermit and keep to himself, mostly tucked away in corners of the library or campus. he love love LOVES classical music and what he studies, don't ask him about his interests or he won't shut up !! oh, and definitely don't ask him about his anomaly or he'll try to k*ll you with his brain . . .

⠀ ❍﹒ background : he doesn’t really have a tragic backstory tbh…all of his current problems stem from his distaste for his anomaly and what kind of person it makes him !! below i’ve left some trivia points i guess ?? just to get to know him better !!

— may is born to two loving parents in bangkok, thailand as their first son, a product of their pre-arranged marriage. he has one older sister and one younger sister. although his parents would disagree, he’s incredibly spoiled by them and is their secret favorite child (for some reason…) they are incredibly wealthy due to may's father's involvement in the fuel industry.

— throughout his youth, he attended only the best of the best schools and after school activities. he picked up ballet at a young age and excelled at it along with his studies. he still loves ballet to this day, but is far too dedicated to his current major: history, to pick it back up. he settles on watching drama rehearsals for now. a certain hamlet is just way too eye catching for him to look away…

— he learned of his anomaly at age eleven when a mouse was caught in a trap at home. he didn’t like seeing the mouse in distress, it evoked something in him, and the next thing he knows he’s directing blood back into its wound, steady, steady…until the pressure became too much and he near explodes the creature in his palm, killing it. since then he’s had a distaste for his ability and only uses it on himself.

— blood based anomalies run in his family, and while may has never been shamed for his ability, he was instructed throughout his life to keep it a secret while he attended high ranking schools. little did may know that it would prove to be incredibly difficult to keep his ability to himself due to his blood empathy, and soon enough his parents realized that it wouldn't be easy to hide it. in search of answers they found nuvilli, a drug currently in production. along with providing generous donations to the drug itself, and later to seoul university for anomalies, may was admitted to the university on the base of a scholarship, but to anyone else he basically paid his way in.

— may is extreeeemely anti-social...like really anti-social, and it's mostly to protect his own mental health with his blood empathy, nothing personal !! (most of the time) he gets a bad reputation for his overall attitude and anomaly; most would see him as intimidating(? or something similar!) and weird. he's actually really sweet under it all though, he has a lot of love and care to give !!

— being the vice captain of pulgasari is like a full time job to him /srs. he seemingly becomes a whole new person while taking part in games and meetings; entirely more confident. it's the only time he actually gets to show off his anomaly without feeling like a freak for it !! he's known to be pretty involved on field during games-- he's kiiind of an ace but he definitely won't say that about himself . . .

❍﹒ anomaly : a brief breakdown !!

may has a blood manipulation ability, he can use it for blood-bending and blood links, and suffers from blood empathy as a by product. he can only use blood for bending (from himself and from others) when it is visible. he's kinda really ashamed of his anomaly and doesn't talk about it a lot or use it :/ his main weaknesses are sight proximity and water !!

❍﹒ plots : a few quick ones i just thought of rn !!

— tutor may where may tutors your muse and helps them with school work ?? he's very studious and likes to help others when it comes to school work !! he also has a lot of extra time to himself due to being in his post-graduate year of uni !! (less days for a whooole lot more work to do) this is one of those plots where may will actually force himself to be social . . . — house pulgasari members plz plz plz !! self explanatory but maybe they get to see a different more confident side of may !! — his one and only sole ex that ruined his mental for months after they broke up because he swore he wouldn't get into a relationship for that EXACT REASON but he did it anyways and it went way worse than he could have ever anticipated !! both of them probably sucked like it was bad for both parties . . . — people who also live in the yellow hall !! self explanatory again >< — those who are in different houses than house pulgasari...they probably don't like may and may doesn't like them either...a fun competitive plot :3c — overall just people that get on may's nerves and visa-versa !! he has a very short temper and doesn't have a lot of patience for people, this paired with his anti-socialness does NOT make him the most pleasant person to be around on a surface level fdghdf

ok shutting up for now but if you have any ideas for plots please do not hold back, may is very dependent on them for connections !!

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