I'll Regret It Later

My thoughts. My moments of why. Questions I'd rather keep away from those close to me and through away somewhere else. A hidden journal if you may. A place to vent out. For not only myself but to all.

[ohburningroses]

Amazon. Marshalls. Amazon. Marshalls. Amazon. Marshalls. Amazon. Marshalls.

I really, really hope it’s Marshalls.

Ugh please call me.

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I like to believe in God’s, but I don’t really pray. I used to all the time. But I’ve grown tired of a lot of things & kind of given up. Even though I still do believe in Gods.

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I wanna puke.

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I probably don’t eat much anymore. Other times I probably eat fine. Sometimes I can even eat a lot. Idk anymore. lolz

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I would much rather focus on the happy & the good then be sad & hateful. Too many people do that already. It feels better when you focus on the positive too regardless of anything too.

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Kagami easter // Kagami B-Day

Gorillaz 2D Melancholy Hill

Free! Haru Happy B-Day

NGNL Sora

Osomatsu-San Ichimatsu Cisswap or otherwise

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Just for once, step out of your illusion & wake up into reality. For once think of others before yourself. It will literally not kill you to do it one time. I know you’ll never do if for me, but do it for her God dammit.

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I really am hardly ever the one to text first. Idk why.

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Aaah Dom please don’t say anything. Or do anything for that manner. I’m not suited for dating. I don’t want to carry my problems onto another person. Pretty much the main reason I don’t date. I really am okay not dating. Honestly I think I would drive them insane. I can almost guarantee it. Jajaja

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I’m tired. I’m numb. I don’t care.

I just really don’t sometimes.

Stop reminding me I have depression. Yes I’m ugly when I cry or when I’m literally breaking down from stress.

Yes dammit I stress out easily, but you stressing me more is not helping a thing. There’s a reason I’m stressed out all the time. But it’s not like anyone is helping. They never offer or care. All they care is to remind me how shitty I am. Picking at everything. Ever wonder why this or that is something I do?? Of course not.

I’m not even mad. After everything I just can’t feel anything. I hate it. But tomorrow I’ll put everything behind me. Nothing will be better, but that’s normal. All I can do is try to make things better & fuck trying does help. Pretending does help.

Ignorance is bless. & with it, so are my memories.

Sorry Dom I ended up telling you some of my problems. Stress is pilling. I can’t take it some times. I honestly just break down until I can’t feel anything. I tried telling someone before; it was fruitless.But you did end up helping me realize somethings. I knew, but sometimes you need someone to tell you for you to open your eyes. But I’m grateful.

When I’m grateful to someone I offer my help, so I hope I can help you some time in the future. But even when I offer to help with nothing in return people take it badly/like I want something from them. I hope you don’t. I just want someone to trust. I may do it with you but Idk. Two times showed me it was a bad idea. Though they say third times the charm so maybe. Though I could also say Hinata was the third try & your the fourth. Jajaja I need to stop talking to people.

I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m sooooo fuckin’ tired.

[mytoecold-deactivated20180808]

You know what else I hate? How fucking cliche depression sounds when it’s bad. I feel like the worse it is, the more it sounds like a Myspace poem written in 2007 by a Bullet for my Valentine fan

[mirayama]

[animanga-and-stuff]

[bigdumps]

sick sad

[beyoncebeytwice]

when u make plans while ur in a good mood but then the day comes and you would actually rather die

[sizvideos]

This is what it feels like to be depressed

Video

[humansofnewyork]

“I worry about going insane. Ever since I was young, I have periods where my thoughts make no sense and I get very impulsive and I hit things or bang my head against the wall. I just need to feel pain. It’s the only thing that pulls me out of my head and calms me down and gives me something to focus on. I think about the number 110 billion a lot. I think that’s the number of planets in the universe, or cells in the body, or grains of sand, or people who’ve ever lived, or one of those things. It makes me realize how unimportant I am. There have been seven times recently where I’ve had a knife to my wrist and I was trying to get the courage to kill myself.”

[ilostmypen]

they keep asking but the anwser quite simple actually

[bethpecoraart-deactivated202007]

Trapped, a short comic about social anxiety. 

[dovemother]

low key wanna die. high key know it’ll get better and that I’ll be okay but still low key wanna die

[minhosblackgf]

me: hoe don’t do it me: *starts crying* me: oh my god

[pleatedjeans]

[squiddleward-deactivated2019032]

This is so profound. I can remember mean things said by people years ago, and they still hurt even today. Please, think twice about saying unkind things to someone because it could very well weigh them down for years to come.

[furanuku]

[celihime]

The world began in silence afterall

[alabastermoons-blog]

[justaselfharmer]

[pixelryan]

This is very important. Depression has a habit of making you think you’re less than what you are. 

Don’t fool yourself and say you’re just not as good as others. Depression will bring you down, you’re amazing.