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she / her | 5'3, sw: 138, cw: 127, ugw: 90

[ohn4]

hi1!1!1

quick notes to PLEASE read,,

++ the stuff on this blog may be triggering to people with eds, block me (please dont report) if youre trying to recover. youve got this :)

++ block me if youre homophobic, racist, sexist, etc or just a bitch because i will not have any of that here teehee

++ this is my first time doing a blog like this, PLEASE lmk if i do or post something wrong or uncalled for, and dm me for removals/changes

++ im open to anyone messaging me just to talk or find friends, im always here !! (pervy ana coaches pls stay away)

++ lastly, im FULLY PRO RECOVERY and i encourage everyone to pursue it, however i do understand that some people arent ready and that's completely ok <333

:: stay safe

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[ohn4]

i miss the rage

[ohn4]

food log (24th july 2023)

- khichdi : approx. 480

- coffee to help empty my stomach : approx. 70

- costco samples : approx. 250

- pizza : 710

total : approx. 1510 cals

[ohn4]

food log (23rd july 2023)

- iced black : 0

- digestive cookie : approx. 78

- 2 almonds : approx. 16

- diet sprite : 0

- spicy chicken : approx. 350

- izze mango drink : 90

- solkadi : approx. 130

- cucumber : 10

- mutton curry : approx. 68

- daal makhni : approx. 200

- blueberries : 67

- cinnabon : 880

- digestive biscuits : 155

- pasta : 415.

total : approx 2459 (most of it was very overestimated and i purged so ended up losing weight)

[ohn4]

food log (22nd july 2023)

- two big slices of bread with cream cheese : approx. 492

- coffee : approx. 270

- diet coke : 0

- baby orange : approx. 44

- salad : approx. 179

total : approx. 985 cal

[ohn4]

food long (21st july 2023)

- banana : approx. 135

- bottle of coke (wanted diet but it’s alr im high restricting) : 240

- one roti + rajma + a spoon of yogurt : approx. 307 (purged)

- popcorn : approx. 150 but i’m overestimating

- gum : 5

- noodles + tofu + rice + egg : approx. 600 (purged)

total : approx. 1437 cal

[ohn4]

food log (20th july 2023)

- half a mason jar of coffee with mostly water, little bit of whole milk & no sugar

- 1 roti (flatbread) and sabzi with daal (lentils)

- a baby orange

- a kiwi

- a gogurt

total : approx. 691 cal

[ohn4]

been a while.

how the fuck could i let myself get like this. my lw was 108 and i’ve gained 20 pounds since then what the actual FUCK is wrong with me.

i have my finals in a couple months but wtf do i do i need to lose this weight quick

[ohn4]

when i finally consider recovery my body decides to be repulsed by the thought of food <3 nice

[ohn4]

my grandad said i look like i havent eaten for days is it bad that i took that as a compliment BSHDHS

[deadinparadice]

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[banana-ool-deactivated20211208]

oh no what’s this force on my reblog buttoonnn

[sortagaysortahigh]

THIS IS SO IMPORTANT !!!

[peoplehaterforever]

ALWAYS!!

[skinnyvintageangel]

REBLOG

[ohn4]

!!!!

[ohn4]

i dont know

[ohn4]

why is my ig feed full of ed recovery content when i havent even searched up anything to do w it 🤨🤨 instagram explain pls

[ohn4]

managed to maintain 108 for almost two weeks but i just had to binge on the weekend so now im back to 111 fml its time to starve

[ohn4]

me: eats normally at a family event to not look sus and convinces myself that ive been faking it all along

also me: either binges and purges or starves the whole day before to mentally prepare for eating like a normal person

[ohn4]

guess who just got a basket full of her binge and fear foods 🔫🔫🔫

[ohn4]

why do i waste all this food and interaction when im gonna binge later anyways i hate it here