Maybe It Is My Responsibility

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[ohnosmallknives]

2020-2021

2020 was the worst year ever and I think we can all agree about that. But somehow it was a great year for me. I know I haven't been posting on here at all and that's because I haven't felt motivated to. And honestly thats probably not going to change anytime soon. This will probably be one of my last posts on here but that's not necessarily a bad thing.

And here's why, let me tell you about my 2020. I started the year by almost being hospitalized right before the pandemic started. For those curious, I had mono that was turning into pneumonia. Thanks to that I have asthma now, super fun and cute I know. I was sick from February until mid April and had plenty of time to do nothing. And I know how incredibly lucky I am that it didn't get worse and I only have asthma now. But this was one of the best things that happened to me. I was finally able to leave a crappy job and take time for me. I had reached a point where I forgot how to live and feed myself literally and mentally, I had to relearn so much this year.

Once I was feeling better and things opened up a bit my friends and I formed a bubble and started hiking. I made my health a priority for once. I began facing all my trauma, including trauma I didn't even know I had, with the help of my friends. And through facing my trauma I allowed myself to be vulnerable and fell in love with one of my friends. We are incredibly happy, and want what's best for each other and I genuinely feel like this could be it and that scares me. But like in a good way.

It has been a terrible year but it was one of the best years of my life and I'm nervous but excited for 2021!

[umbrellaxfree]

ohnosmallknives​:

Peter smiled nervously as he waved to Tony. “Hey Mr. Stark so um… This is my brother… Um twin brother Emerson.” He said introducing the other. “So um… I’ve been thinking a lot since things got out and um… I think it might be for the best if I tell the world I’m Spiderman…” He said obviously nervous as he spoke. He was planning on never coming out but that’s not always how things worked out. “But I’d need to do it in a way that proves Beck wrong… And clear my name because I didn’t kill him.”

“Why doesn’t he live with Aunt May?”  Tony had a good point.

“So..we actually have different mothers.  There was a mix up at the fertility clinic and when our embryo split, we got placed into two different women.  It wasn’t until a few years ago, completely by accident, that we discovered one another.”

Tony looked between the two.  But it seemed to make enough sense to him.

“Okay.  We’ll set up the press conference for tomorrow.  That will give us some time to work to clear your name.  But that does put your brother at risk.  People may come at him thinking that he’s you.”

Emerson blushed.

“I…have my own abilities.  We all do.”

Suddenly, the room felt small to Tony.

[ohnosmallknives]

Peter nodded as his brother spoke. "Yeah I'm pretty sure he'll be okay... But his powers are a bit on the newer side so I was thinking we could get him in for some training soon." He said with a slight smile.

"I think Natasha or Steve could be a good fit for combat training at least from what you've told me about your powers." He turned to look at his bother to see what his opinion on this was.

[umbrellaxfree]

ohnosmallknives​:

Peters eyes went wide as his brother squeezed his hand. “I um…” He looked around the room at the others as if looking for answers but getting none. “Well that’s definitely new but I’m happy for you. We can definitely get you trained. And there are a couple different versions of invulnerability like you could be completely invincible or like you can take damage but heal quickly or like…. Im getting ahead of myself.” He stopped himself not wanting to freak out the other. “I think that um… I should probably call Tony about getting a press conference and about introducing you to the team…”

“Yea, you should probably contact him first.  You’re safe here with us while you wait for him to arrive.”

Emerson would support Peter no matter what he chose.

It was only an hour before Tony arrive, and seemed surprised upon seeing Emerson sitting next to his brother.

He pointed between the two before speaking.

“Which of you is Peter?”

Emerson pointed to his brother.

[ohnosmallknives]

Peter smiled nervously as he waved to Tony. "Hey Mr. Stark so um... This is my brother... Um twin brother Emerson." He said introducing the other. "So um... I've been thinking a lot since things got out and um... I think it might be for the best if I tell the world I'm Spiderman..." He said obviously nervous as he spoke. He was planning on never coming out but that's not always how things worked out. "But I'd need to do it in a way that proves Beck wrong... And clear my name because I didn't kill him."

[umbrellaxfree]

ohnosmallknives​:

“I know, but the ones that want to hurt me and the people I care about aren’t going to care if I deny it or not. They’ll still come after me and I don’t want to run forever…” He admitted, “I know there’s a lot riding on this but I don’t know if staying quiet is the better option…. Wait you have powers now?” He asked not wanting to gloss over that.

“Apparently my friend Kingston is like…ancient…and is able to bestow powers on others with a kiss.  He judged me worthy and gave me three.  Flight, super strength, and invulnerability.  I’m afraid to try the last one tough.”

Em’s other siblings stayed out of the conversation, just watching to protect if the need be.

Squeezing his brother’s hand a bit to show he was stronger than normal, he smiled.

“How about you come out as officially being Spider-man.  And I…maybe…get some training from the Avengers on how to control my powers better?”

[ohnosmallknives]

Peters eyes went wide as his brother squeezed his hand. "I um..." He looked around the room at the others as if looking for answers but getting none. "Well that's definitely new but I'm happy for you. We can definitely get you trained. And there are a couple different versions of invulnerability like you could be completely invincible or like you can take damage but heal quickly or like.... Im getting ahead of myself." He stopped himself not wanting to freak out the other. "I think that um... I should probably call Tony about getting a press conference and about introducing you to the team..."

[ohnosmallknives]

Starter Call!!!

[peachsmemes]

MORE  PINTEREST  PROMPTS !

“ there  is  absolutely  no  excuse  for  what  i’m  about  to  do ! ”

“ maybe  swearing  will  help. ”

“ burn  in  hell. ”

“ i’m  fine.  i’ve  had  worse. ”

“ someday ,  we  will  reunite. ”

“ i  may  have  the  right  to  remain  silent ,  but  i  don’t  have  the  ability. ”

“ that’s  beyond  stupid !  ( he’s  /  she’s  /  they’ve )  created  a  new  kind  of  stupid. ”

“ can’t  help  doin’  sneaky  things ! ”

“ i  am  not  as  fine  as  i  sem. ”

“ we  love  a  bit  of  trouble ! ”

“ well ,  that  didn’t  work. ”

“ my  alignment  is  chaotic  dumbass ! ”

“ it’s  only  forbidden  if  you’re  a  fucking  coward. ”

“ i  licked  it ,  so  it’s  mine. ”

“ just  get  in  the  fucking  blanket  fort ! ”

“ you  meant  something  to  me. ”

“ find  comfort  in  the  chaos. ”

“ guess  you’ll  just  have  to  FIGHT  ME ! ”

“ take  that ,  fuckers ! ”

“ i  just  like  angrily  doing  things  for  my  friends ! ”

“ why  do  i  hurt  all  over ? ”

“ i  may  be  a  fragile  little  flower ,  but  i’ll  kick  your  fucking  ass ! ”

“ i  want  to  be  a  part  of  something  big. ”

[askmemesyo-blog1]

For each ❌ I receive, my muse will reveal one of their kinks.

[belladoesrpmeme]

𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 ♡

For the fluff and soft hearted, here is another lists of sentence starters that has the highest potentiality to turn into a soft scenarios. Feel free to change any pronouns / sentence structure according to your muse’s preference!     TRIGGER WARNING:   N/A.

“I never noticed your eyes were this [colour].”

“Your heartbeat’s really loud.”

“You asleep?”

“I like this, being so close to you.”

“Your hair keeps falling into your eyes, do you know that? Here, lemme just—”

“You’re so, so, so pretty.”

“I just — I’m breathless, okay? Whenever I’m with you, it happens.”

“You make my heart beat so quick.”

“You always know how to make me smile.”

“You’ll always be safe with me.”

[Kisses the other on the cheek]

“Always.”

“I can’t imagine being anywhere but here with you.”

“All my choices lead me to you.”

“I’ll never give you up.”

“I sleep better if you’re around.”

“You snore in your sleep. But… it’s adorable, okay?”

“I like this. A quiet breakfast with you.”

“There’re billions of people on this planet, and I love you. How incredible is that?”

“I trust you.”

[Holds the other’s hand when they think the other won’t notice]

“You keep staring at me instead of watching the film. What’s up?”

“Let’s push all of these stuff away. I wanna dance here right now with you.”

“Are we really doing this? Are we really slow-dancing?”

“When you laugh like that, it just — you’re so beautiful, you know that?”

“No, sorry, you laughed. I … I never saw it before. It’s — pretty.”

“You haven’t laughed in a long time, and I guess I was staring ‘cause I forgot how that looked like.”

[Puts head on the other’s shoulder]

“I will never let you go.”

“You’re the best thing to have ever happened to me.”

“You wrote me a song?”

“You’ve got a fever. Of course I’m not going anywhere.”

[Suddenly feels around the bed to search for the other’s hand / body when they’re sleeping]

[Extends a hand when they see the other was searching for it while they’re sleeping]

“I just feel calmer. When I’m with you.”

“You’re not in bed. I came looking for you.”

“What are you doing up? Come to bed.”

“It’s weird. I never thought I could feel like this, but you showed up. Now, it’s like I don’t wanna go on knowing I might lose the feeling.”

“I don’t mind sharing the blankets with you.”

“You’re cold. Come here.”

“You always do that. You always warm me up.”

“Stay.”

“It’s getting crowded. Here, hold my hand.”

[Hugs for a very long time]

[Puts feet on the other’s lap]

“I’m so proud of you, you know that?”

“I love you.”

[minacixus-blog]

nsfw starters; fifty reasons to have sex

send a number for a drabble/starter. they are sorted into categories ;

 CATEGORY ONE; general

‘i can’t sleep’ sex

‘make up’ sex

‘break up’ sex

‘revenge’ sex

‘rebound’ sex

‘i’m bored’ sex

‘curiosity’ sex

‘first time’ sex

‘homecoming/prom night’ sex

‘hotel room’ sex

‘distraction’ sex

‘the condoms are about to expire’ sex

‘anniversary’ sex

‘snuck out of the house to hook-up’ sex

‘post-argument’ sex

‘we’re drunk and horny’ sex

‘comfort’ sex

‘walked in on while naked’ sex

‘to change the subject’ sex

CATEGORY TWO; risky/kinky/strangers

‘i need a place to crash’ sex

‘your friend just told you about a new position’ sex

‘the elevator broke down’ sex

‘end of the world/the world is in chaos’ sex

‘i can’t believe we survived’ sex

‘i caught you masturbating’ sex

‘you caught me masturbating’ sex

‘crotchless underwear is a thing’ sex

‘i’m/your pregnant and horny’ sex

‘we’re in a public place and i just spent the last half hour making you ridiculously aroused’ sex

‘you’re my teacher and i finally seduced you’ sex

‘i’m your teacher and i can’t believe your my student’ sex

‘best friend’s younger sibling who suddenly got hot’ sex

‘i saw a cool scene in a porno and i want to reenact it’ sex

CATEGORY THREE; cheating/assumed cheating

‘everyone thinks we’re banging, so we might as well just do it’ sex

‘we’ve been friends-with-benefits for a long time, and now that one of us is in a relationship, are we going to stop?’ sex

‘randomly hooked up one night and the next monday you walk into my work and i discover that my favourite colleague is actually your husband/wife’ sex

‘one or both of us is in a relationship, but we can’t help it’ sex

‘we’ve both been cheated on by our respective partners, so fuck it’ sex

CATEGORY FOUR; established relationships

‘we just got engaged’ sex

‘i thought you were dead, but you’re not and i can’t believe it’ sex

‘we were childhood sweethearts, and we haven’t seen each other in years’ sex

‘i need to lose my virginity and you’re the only person i want to lose it to’ sex

‘you just walked into my office for a job as my secretary/assistant and we haven’t seen each other in years, but sexual tension is a thing’ sex

‘our families hate each other for (insert reason here) but that doesn’t matter to us’ sex

‘we’re in a dysfunctional, toxic relationship but i still love you more than anything in this world’ sex

CATEGORY FIVE; lgbti+

‘my girlfriend left me with blue balls, and you’re her brother and i’m pretty sure i’m not gay but lets go for it’ sex

‘we pretended to be lesbian lovers to get a creepy guy to stop hitting on us, so we kissed to complete the charade and we both kind of liked it, so…?’ sex

‘you’re my room mate and you’re really hot, but we’re both guys/girls and this is new to me’ sex

‘i’m gay and you’re curious and you asked me to show you what it’s like’ sex

‘you’re gay and i’m curious and i asked you to show me what it’s like’ sex

[lokitheliesmith]

@ohnosmallknives

Loki had been under no illusion that coming to Earth would be an easy option for him, but that was where Thor in his 'wisdom' had chosen, and frankly, after waking up in wreckage and space debris it had been the only lead he had.

Two weeks in a barely space-worthy escape pod later, he'd crashed down almost in the Avengers' back-yard (how was he to know the big black crater visible from orbit was the ruins of a base they'd built after he'd left?), which was really just his luck.

He'd come quietly. Banner of all people had vouched for his role in evacuating Asgard. Nobody quite knew how Thor would take it if he returned to find him in a cage. Which was how he found himself in borrowed clothes, curled sideways in a deep, comfortable armchair in their common living room, trying to rest his eyes and mentally prepare himself for seeing Thor again.

[lokitheliesmith]

"Wise." So yes, he assumed with a sage expression.

"When a creature's bonds are in his mind, he is truly a prisoner." He mused, mostly to himself, before he had an idea. "If you knew where they were, would that alter your opinion? I know several ways to locate people, with minimal equipment."

[ohnosmallknives]

"well I guess that would depend on where they are. I can't exactly just show up in Europe." He suggested with a shrug. "But the peace of mind would be nice."

[lokitheliesmith]

"Well, then." Knowing, Loki appreciated, was half the battle most of the time.

"Minimal materials, but it does require a couple: a map, an atlas might be best if you require a planet-wide search; a plumbline, any reasonable length of cord with a small weight attached will do; and a something to signify the person you're searching for."

[ohnosmallknives]

"I um yeah I think I have all those things in the lab." He said with a slight smile as he sat forward a bit. "Wanna come down and see what we can find."

[lokitheliesmith]

Loki wasn't entirely certain that was permitted, the instruction being to sit and wait, but when had he ever cared so much about the rules.

He unfurled himself from the armchair slowly, easing himself stiffly to his full height, gaunt without his armour to disguise it.

"I shall."

[ohnosmallknives]

Peter stood up, definitely surprised by the height of the other. "Yeah it's gonna be this way." He said as he walked towards the elevator.

[lokitheliesmith]

Loki nodded, and tried to stretch the ache out of his back and shoulders and he followed him to the elevator, his still near full cup of coffee forgotten on the table.

"It works better with physical objects, rather than simulacra." He offered, in case that altered Peter's idea. Physical maps, and real objects to track them like a bloodhound with a scent.

[ohnosmallknives]

"well I have something's my aunt gave me, so um that might work yeah?" He asked as they descended into the lab. He was nervous but excited about this, he'd never used magic.

[00807x]

forgive me father for I have sinned in all the coolest and most glamorous ways possible

[thevampirelestat]

[lokitheliesmith]

@ohnosmallknives

Loki had been under no illusion that coming to Earth would be an easy option for him, but that was where Thor in his 'wisdom' had chosen, and frankly, after waking up in wreckage and space debris it had been the only lead he had.

Two weeks in a barely space-worthy escape pod later, he'd crashed down almost in the Avengers' back-yard (how was he to know the big black crater visible from orbit was the ruins of a base they'd built after he'd left?), which was really just his luck.

He'd come quietly. Banner of all people had vouched for his role in evacuating Asgard. Nobody quite knew how Thor would take it if he returned to find him in a cage. Which was how he found himself in borrowed clothes, curled sideways in a deep, comfortable armchair in their common living room, trying to rest his eyes and mentally prepare himself for seeing Thor again.

[lokitheliesmith]

"Wise." So yes, he assumed with a sage expression.

"When a creature's bonds are in his mind, he is truly a prisoner." He mused, mostly to himself, before he had an idea. "If you knew where they were, would that alter your opinion? I know several ways to locate people, with minimal equipment."

[ohnosmallknives]

"well I guess that would depend on where they are. I can't exactly just show up in Europe." He suggested with a shrug. "But the peace of mind would be nice."

[lokitheliesmith]

"Well, then." Knowing, Loki appreciated, was half the battle most of the time.

"Minimal materials, but it does require a couple: a map, an atlas might be best if you require a planet-wide search; a plumbline, any reasonable length of cord with a small weight attached will do; and a something to signify the person you're searching for."

[ohnosmallknives]

"I um yeah I think I have all those things in the lab." He said with a slight smile as he sat forward a bit. "Wanna come down and see what we can find."

[lokitheliesmith]

Loki wasn't entirely certain that was permitted, the instruction being to sit and wait, but when had he ever cared so much about the rules.

He unfurled himself from the armchair slowly, easing himself stiffly to his full height, gaunt without his armour to disguise it.

"I shall."

[ohnosmallknives]

Peter stood up, definitely surprised by the height of the other. "Yeah it's gonna be this way." He said as he walked towards the elevator.

[ohnosmallknives]

STARTER CALL!!!

[umbrellaxfree]

ohnosmallknives​:

Peter just rested his head on the others shoulder as they hugged. “I… It is my fault I shouldn’t have trusted him… Shouldn’t have let him get to me like that.” He pulled away from the hug. “I was going to tell you eventually, but it just never seemed like the right time.” He sighed, “I talked to Mr. Stark on my flight home. They’ve put everyone in safe houses until things get sorted and Shield is working on a disinformation campaign to deny everything. But um i don’t know if I should deny it’s me or if I should come out but prove Beck is alive. It’s just all so complicated right now.”

Leading his brother to the couch, Emerson decided to be a calm voice to put Peter’s options and possible consequences on the table.

“If you let the world know who you are, they’ll also find out that we’re siblings.  Aunt May and myself will have to contend with those of your enemies who take the low road and tried to hurt the people you care about.  Not that I can’t take care of myself…now.  I uh…Just got some nifty powers of my own.  And all my other siblings have powers as well.”

Worrying his bottom lip through his teeth, he thought of the other option.

“The other option has you denying it.  Some people may still try to hurt you.  But you would be safe in the long run.  So would May.”

He brushed some of his brother’s hair from his eyes.

“But is that really what you want?  To hide away?  Mr. Stark has a public identity.  As does Mr. Rogers… But there are still more Avengers with hidden identities.  And maybe one of them is probably better to talk to about this sort of thing.”

[ohnosmallknives]

"I know, but the ones that want to hurt me and the people I care about aren't going to care if I deny it or not. They'll still come after me and I don't want to run forever..." He admitted, "I know there's a lot riding on this but I don't know if staying quiet is the better option.... Wait you have powers now?" He asked not wanting to gloss over that.

[naughtyandnicerpmemes]

Send "Oh!' for my muse to grab your muse's ass unexpectedly

[lokitheliesmith]

@ohnosmallknives

Loki had been under no illusion that coming to Earth would be an easy option for him, but that was where Thor in his 'wisdom' had chosen, and frankly, after waking up in wreckage and space debris it had been the only lead he had.

Two weeks in a barely space-worthy escape pod later, he'd crashed down almost in the Avengers' back-yard (how was he to know the big black crater visible from orbit was the ruins of a base they'd built after he'd left?), which was really just his luck.

He'd come quietly. Banner of all people had vouched for his role in evacuating Asgard. Nobody quite knew how Thor would take it if he returned to find him in a cage. Which was how he found himself in borrowed clothes, curled sideways in a deep, comfortable armchair in their common living room, trying to rest his eyes and mentally prepare himself for seeing Thor again.

[lokitheliesmith]

"Wise." So yes, he assumed with a sage expression.

"When a creature's bonds are in his mind, he is truly a prisoner." He mused, mostly to himself, before he had an idea. "If you knew where they were, would that alter your opinion? I know several ways to locate people, with minimal equipment."

[ohnosmallknives]

"well I guess that would depend on where they are. I can't exactly just show up in Europe." He suggested with a shrug. "But the peace of mind would be nice."

[lokitheliesmith]

"Well, then." Knowing, Loki appreciated, was half the battle most of the time.

"Minimal materials, but it does require a couple: a map, an atlas might be best if you require a planet-wide search; a plumbline, any reasonable length of cord with a small weight attached will do; and a something to signify the person you're searching for."

[ohnosmallknives]

"I um yeah I think I have all those things in the lab." He said with a slight smile as he sat forward a bit. "Wanna come down and see what we can find."

[umbrellaxfree]

ohnosmallknives​:

Peter just smiled awkwardly as the other looked him over. “I um yeah it surprised me too.” He said as he stepped into the mansion. He wasn’t sure who he could trust these days but they seemed okay as he walked through the hall with Jamie.

“No I didn’t kill him, he shot himself. But I’m not even sure he’s actually dead… It’s really really complicated.” He said in response before turning to his twin.

“um hey, so um… Sorry about all this.”

Telling his publicist that he would call her back, Emerson hung up the phone.

“Listen, Peter…while I wish you had trusted me enough to tell me that you’re Spider-Man, I can understand.  And what happened isn’t your fault.  You ended up with an arch nemesis who knew your identity and used it to out you to the world.”

His arms came to wrap around his twin.

“I’m just glad that you’re okay.”

His arms were very loose in the hug.  This was because recently he had developed his own powers, thanks to a friend’s kiss.  Apparently his friend Kingston had the power to bestow abilities upon others.  He said he gave him invulnerability, super strength, and flight.

He hadn’t tested the invulnerability yet.

He had tested the strength and flight.

Both were a check.

“Have you spoken to Mr. Stark yet?”

[ohnosmallknives]

Peter just rested his head on the others shoulder as they hugged. "I... It is my fault I shouldn't have trusted him... Shouldn't have let him get to me like that." He pulled away from the hug. "I was going to tell you eventually, but it just never seemed like the right time." He sighed, "I talked to Mr. Stark on my flight home. They've put everyone in safe houses until things get sorted and Shield is working on a disinformation campaign to deny everything. But um i don't know if I should deny it's me or if I should come out but prove Beck is alive. It's just all so complicated right now."