Just Because. @ohwelljustbecause - Tumblr Blog

I feel like a culmination of all the ages I've ever been; without ever having actually aged a day.

I feel like a child who's been tasked with adult things; never truly understanding why she must do these things.

Everything feels so hard, so heavy. When does all this stop, and when do I finally begin?

It sucks to feel lonely because of someone you never thought you'd feel lonely with. It sucks to feel alone. Isolated. To feel unloved by the one person you always wanted to be loved by. When does happy ever after happen? Is there an age? A limit? A particular word or phrase that needs to be said? I thought "I love you" was supposed to be happy. Freeing. Exciting. Instead, I hear it and I feel sadness. Longing. For something I had but feels like I've lost entirely. For something I worked hard for, but it wasn't enough. For something I feel like I'll never have back. And it feels like you don't care.

I'm fucking depressed

Why am I here?

Have I lost sight of everything that made me, me?

Is it worth it anymore?

When will things feel right for me?

When will I stop feeling like nothing is, or ever will be, put together? Whole? Calm? Happy?

What am I doing here?

2 steps forward, 10 steps back.

demilypyro

scientists announce squishing a cute girl’s thighs essential for maintaining mental health

demilypyro

the scientist in question was absentmindedly squishing her own thigh as she made this statement

I just need help.

I need someone to help me.

I can't do this on my own anymore.

ollielephant

cumonthevoid

none pizza with left beef

the-chocolate-chip-pancake-blog

It should be a rule of Tumblr to always reblog none pizza with left beef

babymarkers

ive missed you

pisshandkerchief-deactivated202

Was gone for 4 hours after I got off work, after a fight. Didn't come home from work for four hours. He never bothered to ask me where I was or if I was okay. Not. One. Message.

It's been 2 fucking years at this point. I'd think you'd have figured this out by now. Instead, you just continue to shit on me or treat me like I don't matter and expect me to still be around. This shit sucks.

Yes, I'm here through everything. Does that mean I'm gonna sit around and let you treat me like shit because you feel like it? No.

Drop the fucking sad boi act. Stop treating me like shit and then love bombing me in the same day. That shit sucks. Either love me, or don't. Your choice.

I am so very, very tired of being put down. Treated like my love isn't enough, or maybe is just too much. A lot of the time, I show my love through being physically caring, making sure you're taken care of, especially if something is hurting you. It hurts for that to be shut down in the way that you do it.

Saying "fuck off" to me when I'm just trying to take a look at something that was bothering you... That's not the way to do that. You really need to fix your attitude. I'm very tired.

psifever-deactivated20201216

toastbutteregg

ohwelljustbecause

Literally my boyfriend being pissed about anything at all and something else happening that he doesn't like (even if it's the smallest thing)

Haven't posted here in years, I'm sure anyone I had previously interacted with often on here years ago is no longer active... But I'm just gonna use this as a platform to vent about random ass shit that pisses me off, most likely. So feel free to mute me or whatever lol

solitaryspellbook

I've been studying and reading up on Wicca (and other pagan religions) for about 12 years or so. I've never really practiced it though. I love the concept and the ideas behind it. I love and worship nature. But my question is this: I don't particularly feel that worshiping or believing in actual gods or goddesses works for me. I believe in the energies and magic present in nature and the universe, so is it possible to cast and practice while only worshiping nature rather than deity?

Yes, of course. In eclectic Wicca/Paganism, it’s entirely possible to worship a different concept of the divine. Many Wiccans also see deities as abstract concepts, or personifications of ideas, and worship them more as symbols than as actual entities. Another way of thinking of them, is that they are conceptual beings who exist in the human mind and psyche, but can still be interacted with as an exploration of the self. I hope that helps :)

oh-so-bittersweet

10 websites to calm you down

if you’re anxious, having a panic attack, feel suicidal or just generally need to calm down because you’re stressed after an exhausting time, here are a few sites to soothe you. stay safe and try these out!

thequietplaceproject

this is an amazing way to relax and forget what you're supposed to do rn

calm.com

a site to simply calm you as the name says by nature sounds and nature pics

rainymood

just the sound of rain and if you want to suiting music

simplynoise

its really just noise and nothing more but can be soothing

colors

colors flowing into each other forever

nothing

countdown of two minutes to the sound of waves, simply relax