“I thought you’d be gone by now?” (mod lord m & vic pls)
caroline would probably be home, that’s why he probably sounded like that. the crashing thought of suddenly remembering she was pregnant… and this would never work out. nothing would work out. regardless if caro and george broke it off, she’d be back and victoria would be a nothing. she’d be the thing that will had briefly. it probably meant nothing.
this fucking pregnancy shot her emotions. it was not easy. pressing in her head, beating every good thought with a bad one to counteract any potential good. he had no idea, she was still hiding a pregnancy well enough and maybe it was time to leave his view for awhile.
it was like her entire mind shot around in so many ways and nothing could calm her down. luckily, vic played herself cool on the outside. brushing her hair to the side, she watched him carefully. maybe he sounded a little clipped and her emotions were too thick to think clearly enough to not sound terse in reply. she spent a few hours before leaving because she thought it would be a good quiet time. reflection. maybe she took what he said to heart, he probably didn’t mean it like that. this child had her in such a fit of confusion, her emotions misplaced or dropped all on the floor to cause such a vulnerability. maybe what he said was a reminder on why she couldn’t love him, but she did anyway. caroline didn’t give a fuck and she loved william lamb so much.
brushing her hair back from her face and shoved her macbook into her backpack and threw it on her back and shook her head. “yeah well, i can leave, if you want.” her body felt like sheer fluid on the inside at her own biting words, like her words bit like acid. her entire being hurt. maybe she shouldn’t have been such a bitch about it, but everything felt a flurry of emotion. she held her mouth for a moment and felt like she was going to puke, but groaned like it was just the flu. easy out to the moment, if he asked.
