New Soul

{breathe, stretch, shake, *pray}

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With this guy, Every. Day. Gets better.

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My type-A, gets-me-where-i-need-to-be-on time, plans everything and packs everything husband. He planned our honeymoon to the T around my personality and I couldn't be more thankful. Everything he planned, you can really tell that he did it to make sure I was happy😭

Everytime we start something new or get to the "next stages" of our relationship, all I can think about is how excited I am because I'm doing all of it with this guy.

I didn't post much during our honeymoon or even take many photos or videos during the week before our wedding because I wanted to keep those memories to myself. And to tbh I still don't know why lol

Ugh I loves him.

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I have been so ridiculously moody, unhelpful with wedding planning, and taking it all out on this poor guy. Even when he feeds me after work and makes sure he does at least one thing for the condo every day to make sure it's move in ready. Sorry papi.🙃 Nts- do better.

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Jan 22/19

As much as M and I have the same humor, we are almost the complete opposites on everything else. It's weird but it works because it creates balance, especially when we least expect it lol.

We were finally able to meet up with our tenant today after months of chasing after her. 24hrs prior to our meeting, I was sending her angry msgs threatening to evict her and report her to the board meanwhile, M was just there sitting calmly letting me type aggressively. Today, driving to our meeting, he started going on with his angry rant and I was completely cool, calm and collected and our roles switched in a snap of the finger lol. It's like we both subconsciously know we'll drive each other mad if we're both 100% furious.

This whole "ordeal" has been such a learning experience. Here's to one step towards ending this darn lease agreement and another step to adulting lol

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Jan 20/19

Literally the day after I wrote my previous post, M and I got in one of our most challenging arguments. 😅 C'est la vie

He was honest with me and pointed things out that I do which I never really thought about. Long story short, twas a humbling reminder that youre never going to handle arguments or fights perfectly no matter how long you've been with someone. Lesson learned: never walk out of the house during an argument. 😅

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Jan 18/19

From wedding planning to trying to evict our crazy tenant, you're all hands on deck without me having to ask💕

PS- i know with just a little over 4months to our wedding, M and I are bound to wanna call the whole thing off at least once every week. So, I decided I want to be able to go back and read these little notes after our wedding to remember what a nightmare the four months leading to the wedding were. Jk. I love this man. The four months can't go by any faster if you ask me.

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Partner

We're going through a lot of new challenges in a short period of time that sometimes it feel likes we've bitten off more than we can chew. But on those days especially, I'm so thankful for having a partner who's able to pick up the load that I can't make on my own. I can't stress enough how important it is to be with someone thats able to make you laugh no matter how you're feeling and what you guys are going through. I don't know how he does it, but I'm pretty sure it's why we haven't pushed each other off of a building yet. Everyday I catch myself thinking how much I would never want to do life with anyone else but him. Tbh I never used the term Partner until after I got engaged because fiancé just seems so formal. Now the word partner speaks to me more than ever. Its give and take. It means being able to trust the other person and making sure you're someone they can depend on as well. Its about handling your sh*t because they deserve the best version of you. Its learning from one another and admitting your mistakes so you can both grow on your own and as a union. I dunno, he's my partner and I'm so frikking glad.

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Unconditional

His confidence in us and continued efforts to make this thing we have work, without ever putting a second thought, is more than i could ask for. I don't know why I've been so blessed, but God knows I won't take this for granted.

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Everyday I fall a little more for this guy. And I can't even deny it, he's one of my favorite blessings. Gross I know.

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"Good love requires us to grow, it challenges us, and when it's real, it ends up changing us for the better." -RH

[boymeetsworldsubs]

[faketrees]

Being 10 years old and not knowing what a virgin was made this scene really confusing for me as a kid… 

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Most days are good, but some days make you wish you could just fast forward to when it stops hurting.

[purplebuddhaproject]

Confusion is a gift from God. Those times when you feel most desperate for a solution, sit. Wait. The information will become clear. The confusion is there to guide you. Seek detachment and become the producer of your life.

(via anglesvividlybroken)

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Oh, Universe-hold me up

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NTS

Any productive change takes conscious effort. Progress doesn't occur overnight. Most especially ones that matter and last.

[tblaberge]

A soulmate is not someone who shares your interests and is attractive to you. A soulmate is someone who is willing to grow with you, who chooses to be with you until the end, and will love you through good and bad. It’s not about sunshine and laughter, it’s about mundane moments filled with unknowns. Love is so much more than a spark you have, or passions shared, it’s working for something deeper and lasting. I think that at the end of all things, we’ll see what really matters, and I think the things we produced with love and grace will be what we have to show. So love with purpose, love beyond yourself, and love knowing that what you are growing is beautiful and good.

(via kushandwizdom)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Invest in yourself. You can afford it. Trust me.

Rashon Carraway (via phuckindope)