Ok @ok-ay-lang - Tumblr Blog

Posts

Hi tumblr! It's been a while since the last time I posted here. I just want to share things here that I can't post on my facebook since I have co-workers who are also my FB friends.

It's been 6 months since I've started working as an HR Assistant. It was one of a hell ride. Yes, hell ride. Toxic, stressful, overwork buttt underpaid. If we will just talk about my rel. with my workmates, there will be no problem at all, but if we are going to talk about my rel. with my bosses, they're somehow nice, butttt they will let you do things that are too unrealistic, and they will give you too much responsibilities to carry. Can you imagind one person handling 1 growing company, giving employees' benefits, processing their regularization, handling events or programs, etc. Walang awa lang sa tao?

And what made me more furious and helpless? Last wednesday, my boss talked to me about the upcoming regularization date of the employees of one newly opened fast food chain here in the PH. She wanted me to think of an activity for it, because before, it was just an interview. Imagine, isang tao lang ang gagawa? Robot lang? And duh, I only have limited time to conceptualize and execute the activities. And ito pa, for me to be more familiarize, she wanted me to have an immersion first at the fast food chain. Yes, it is a great oppotunity, if....we dont have limited time.

I wanted to resign, its not physically, emotionally, mentally and psychologically healthy. I can't sleep well, nagigising na lang ako bigla sa madaling araw and mahihirapan na ulit ako matulog kaiisip. But the thing is, I am havibg a hard time to resign, first, mawawalan ako ng source of income, second, ego. Ayoko namang isipin nila na nahirapan lang, umayaw na agad. Na kahit noon pa man, sukong suko na talaga ako, pinipilit ko lang pumasok.

Should I resign?

Life update:

• I am currently on my 5th month at work

• My supervisor/Assistant HR Manager assessed my performance last Monday, and guess what? Mareregular ang ateng nyo. Didn't expect this, knowing na ang taas ng standard ng sup ko.

• I still don't know if I like my job or not

Hey, hey, hey 🌻

Supposedly, masaya dapat ako. I reached my dream. That is, to be part of HR department. But mind you, I'm not happy. Everytime I go to work, ang bagal ng oras. Which is not a good thing if you're really enjoying. I guess, iba ang gusto sa iba ang nararapat. I only wanted to work in a corporate world because of the salary hahaha but, until now, di ko pa rin talaga alam ang gusto ko. Or maybe, nahohomesick lang ako? I always used to stay in Bulacan, lagi akong nasa comfort zone, kaya siguro nung naiba na environment, there were days that i feel so unmotivated. Sa totoo lang, gusto ko na magresign at maghanap na lang ng work sa Bulacan. Kaso, ang pangit non sa resume kung di ko matatapos contract ko, however, June ang start ng classes, kung itry kong mag educational setting , paano ako aabot sa hiring kung August pa end ng contract ko haha

If we will just talk about my superiors, co-workers, job and the company, I really have no problem at all. Mabait ang boss, mababait at masasayang kasama na co-workers, challenging na trabaho, and isa sa pinakamalaking company ang RMSI. But, I don't know, di ako masaya. Try kaya nila ilipat sa Bulacan yung office? Hahahahaha

Life update:

February 23-24, 2019-We (I, Bryan and his family) went to Baler. Buti na lang pumayag si mother, knowing how conservative she is, pumayag rin without even questioning us haha perks of working haha. That was the first time I had an overnight trip with Bryan's family, because usually, I only joined them on a day trip, and mind you, Angat area lang yon hahaha. Honestly, being with them is just an easy thing for me hahaha, walang halong biro, kasi sobrang accommodating nila and sobrang thoughtful, tipong busog ka na, pakain pa sila ng pakain sayo. And take note, sinundo nila ako nung umaga tapos hinatid din nila ako sa bahay after haha. Pero wag kayo, mommy pa ni Bryan katabi kong matulog hahahahaha

Sharing some glimpse from our trip:

February 25, 2019 - went to Bryan's house. Actually, sinurprise ko sya. Just a simple surprise, tipong binilhan ko lang sya ng Cake and food. Surprise? Kasi di nya inexpect, akala nya kasi dahil nag Baler na kami, babalik na agad ako ng Makati the day after ng baler, but, nung mismong 25, naisipan kong puntahan sya kasi birthday nya ng 26, and I wanted him to feel special on that day. Medyo kinasabwat ko pa mother-in-law ko hahahahaha charot, chinat ko pa si tita kung pwedeng pumunta sa kanila that day kasi ang alam ko aalis sila. And I was right, aalis nga sila hahaha, kaya naman nagpunta agad ako. When I arrived at their house, pati si tito nasurprise haha di nya rin inexpect. That day, mas nafeel ko na they treat me as their daughter haha, nagpunta kaming sementeryo para dalawin mga lola nya, at nagpapicture pa kasama ako, o di ba! Tahrush haha tapos after non, sinama pa nila ako nung dinalaw lolo nya, tapos hinatid pa ako hanggang bahay namin.

Sharing some photos:

Honestly, i am so blessed na sila naging parents ni Bryan. Tinanggap nila ako ng buong buo hehe

This week, February 6, will be the first day of my training in Rustan's M&S. I don't know what to feel, medyo kinakabahan buttt, syempre, excited. I've waited and prayed for this. You know, the only thing that makes me nervous, eh yung makikisama ako sa ibang employees na may group of friends na talaga, parang ang hirap maging bagong salta haha. Good thing, may kakilala na ako na nakasabay ko during the final interview, HR department din, but different facet sa HR, pero syempre, kailangan ko pa rin makisama and galingan syempre sa trabaho para ma-regular hahaha. Anyways, goodluck sa akin lalo na sa Feb. 11 hahaha wala munang Valentine's date for me this year, career muna hahaha

So happy that someone I know who didn'make it last time will retake the board exam. It takes bravery to retake something you once failed. Because if I am at her position, maybe, I'll just continue with my life and would not take any chances again. Sooo, I'm so happy for her for risking again. I know, it would be so harrrddd, she will take a lot of preparations again, but knowing how brave she is, I know, this year, she will claim her license. May not all her anxieties, times where she will feel unmotivated and tired, would not be enough reason for her to quit. Claim your license this year, girl! I believe in you!

Hey guysss!!! Finally!! May trabaho na ang ateng nyo haha, actually, last January 18 pa nahire pero sa February pa start hahahaha. Okay na rin, at least may hinihintay haha. That was the reason why I became inactive from most of my social media accts, busy sa paghahanap ng work haha. 1 week ako nagstay sa friend ko and kung kailan Friday na, noon pa nahire haha and luckily, HR Assistant position ko sa M&S. Akala ko talaga isusuko ko na pangarap ko na makapagwork sa HR eh hahaha. But God is good, timing lang talaga. Kahit ako, di ako makapaniwala na matatanggap ako sa M&S, sa lahat ng pinag interview-an ko yun ang walang preparation at talagang walang expectation kasi naisip ko dahil kilalang company yun, maraming nagaapply, so mababa ang chance na mahire ako hahaha di ko rin knows pano ako nahire, pero ang alam ko, ginawa ko naman din makakaya ko haha.

#diary

December 08, 2018

Feast of Immaculate Concepcion and one of my special events, our oath taking. Until now, I am overwhelmed by this blessing. Ginusto ko, pero di ako masyadong nag expect. Natakot ako na baka bumagsak ako, so I tripled my effort, I have read countless books that I don't usually do, and most especially, I asked God for guidance, and from other saints, like St. jude and St. Joseph of Cupertino.

For me, it is sooo big deal na makarating ng PICC, because that was just once in a lifetime experience para sa akin at para sa nanay ko. Gusto ko nga sana lahat kami makapasok ng PICC, but limited ang tickets. Kung pwede lang talaga. Pero kasama ko rin yung lola, tita ko, at si bryan, yun nga lang, di sila nakapasok ng PICC. Pero malay natin, mag masteral pala ako at magtake ng board exam for psychologist hahaha yes, i have plans for my future, di lang halata haha. But hindi pa ngayon, and di ko alam kung mapupursue ko haha baka mag-asawa pala ako bigla hahaha. Anyway, sharing you some photos from our oathtaking, I'll upload the other photos once na nakuha ko na sa camera, struggle is real pag sira ang laptop hahaha

#diary #self #oathtaking #blepp

While I was browsing tagged photos earlier on IG, napansin ko na mas clingy pala kapatid ko kesa sa akin haha. Sya yung bawat gala namin together, sya yung pala kuha ng pictures. Though naaappreciate ko sya sobraaa, pero ngayon ko mas naappreciate. Imagine, bago sya umalis, nilibre nya pa ako ng gala sa Tagaytay kasi nga ilang taon syang mawawala. Nakakamiss grabe. Sana pala mas inenjoy ko yung moment na yun kasama si ate kasi ilang taon pa bago masundan yun. Nakakamiss pala yung may kapatid dito sa Pilipinas. It has been 5 months simula nung umalis si ate pa Japan and I miss her already. Nung nakapasa ako, parang kulang kasi wala si ate, di ko maishare sa kanya kung gaano ako kasaya nung moment na nalaman ko resulta. Tapos sa oath taking, wala ulit sya. Wala sya sa mga important events ko na sana dapat nandon sya. Namimiss ko na talaga kapatid ko. Nasanay ako na lagi kaming magkasama kasi dalawa lang kami. Na isang punta ko lang sa kwarto nya at isang kalabit para umiyak kapag may masakit sa akin o kaya para maglambing, andyan lang sya. Ngayon, kailangan ko pa mag eroplano. Nakakamiss din pala yung may kaaway, at may tumatawag sa akin ng baboy/babs/pangit para manlambing. Tagal pa ng 3 years.

#diary #family

Posted this not to brag kasi wala naman akong maibabrag hahaha but Tumblr is one of my memory keepers, that's why I did not post it on Facebook or Twitter, kasi ayoko na magkaroon sila ng bad impression sa akin na ang gusto ko lang naman is to collect memories.

Anyway, 1 week have passed, and I still can't believe that I made it. I thought that I may fail because I only knew 20 items in TOP, but guess what, that's my highest score. And kahit ako, di ko alam kung pano nangyari yun hahaha! AbPsy for me is 50/50. Di sya masyadong mahirap but there are still difficult items. What can we expect from a board exam, right? Then, psychological assessment is our major subject, and mind you, it was difficult, but for me, at the time that I was answering it, it's difficult but not too difficult like TOP hahaha. Then I/O exam came, at first, I thought that it was not difficult because most of the lecturers and previous batches told us that it is quite easy, but when I started answering it, ang hiraaaapp!! 40 questions were easy, but the other 60 items, di ko na alam kung san ko hahagilapin yung sagot hahaha madaming questions ang nakakalito, tipong di mo alam kung ano ang gusto nyang itanong haha.

78.80, para sa akin, mataas na yan. Because I was just expecting and wishing for a flat 75.00 hahaha. Makapasa lang kako, kahit sumabit lang masaya na ako. But, God is good, I have been blessed with so much more than I deserve! ❤

RPm na ako!!!!

Maybe, to those who read my previous posts, alam nyo kung gaano ako naanxious about board exam. Dahil di pa ako makatulog sa sobrang saya, mag kwento na lang ako haha

April 2018, undecided pa rin ako kung magtetake ako ng board exam. Bakit? Natatakot ako. Takot akong bumagsak. Takot akong di mameet ang expectations ng iba, lalo na ang expectations ko sa sarili ko lalo na at yung ate ko, first taker din sya ng nursing exam and she made it, kaya lalo akong natakot, but, I stilk chose to take the board exam and mag review.

May 2018, nagstart na ang review season. And guess what? Wala akong kaalam alam kahit na basic sa stats hahaha. Ang hindi ko makakalimutan is hindi ko alam ang KR20, which is basic lang pala yun sa stats hahahahaha. So to shorten the story, may-oct 2018, nagreview ako sa RGO QC every sat-sun and ang hirap bes lalo na pag saturday, sobrang haba ng pila sa bus pauwi at sobrang siksikan. During these months, nagbebreakdown ako, naiiyak ako sa takot, sa pagod karereview. Tipong gumigising na lang ako para magreview, at matutulog na ang iniisip eh yung rereviewhin nya kinabukasan, tipong di na halos ako umaalis ng bahay kasi nakakaguilty na may isang araw ka na dapat pinagreview mo na lang pero gumala ka. I've read 4-5 books na tig 600+ pages, iba pa yung drills and handouts from RGO, sobrang challenging para sa akin ang magbasa, kasi hindi ako avid fan ng pagbabasa, wala akong libro na natatapos hahaha pero dahil sa board, napilitan ako, and di ako nagsisi kasi may natutunan ako hahaha. From may or june yata, I started to go to National Shrine of St Jude once a month, para mag novena or dumaan saglit para makapagdasal. My friends and I also went to other churches like St. claire in QC and Our Lady of Manaoag in Pangasinan. But other than these, nakapagsimba na rin ako sa Antipolo nung May haha. Before board daming rituals, nagpatasa na rin ako sa top 5 nung 2017 para sure pass hahahahahahaha. But I know that these are not enough, kailangan pa rin ng sikap at prayers.

October 28, day before the board, ang saya ko, kain dito, kain doon, may video pa nga ako na kumakanta sa videoke sa condo na mukhang nasiraan na hahahahahaha at nung gabi, di ko expected na makakatulog agad ako, pero I did hahahaha.

October 29, 1st day ng exam. Mag isa lang ako na naassign sa Holy Trinity sa aming sampu na magkakasama sa condo, but luckily, kasama ko pa rin si ate martha hahaha. 1st subject, TOP, gosh, nagulantang buong pagkatao ko, di ko ineexpect na ganon kahirap kasi sabi madali lang daw top, but mind you, sobrang hirap, as in. Natulala ako, parang maiiyak ako. Natawag ko lahat ng santo, pati yung lolo ko na namatay na, naistorbo ko pa hahahaha. After ng 1st subject, di ko kinakaya, maluha luha ako pero pinipigilan ko, sobrang nakakatulala, parang nagdadalawang isip na akong ituloy, sabay text sa nanay ko na wag na silang mag expect, pero tinuloy ko pa rin. I took the 2nd subject on the 1st day which is yung major subject talaga. Habang nasa grab pauwi, tulala ako mga te, di maipinta mukha ko, tipong tinatawagan ako ng jowa ko di ko sinasagot kasi ayokong maiyak sa sasakyan hahaha. Kaya nung pag uwi, nagmamadali agad akong pumasok sa condo sabay tawag kay bryan habang umiiyak hahaha.

October 30, 2018 2nd day, 2 subjects left and guess what mahirap pa rin hahahaha pero atleast may alam na kahit papano hahaha pero tipong di pa rin sapat para umabot sa 75 hahaha. Pero pag uwi ko, wala na akong maramdaman hahaha kasi parang nacondition na utak ko na baka di talaga kayanin. Kaya uminom na lang kami after, nag food trip at nag netflix hahahaha saya di ba, binagyo pa kami non hahahaha

And ito na, nov 9, 2018, lumabas resulta. And I passed it!!!! Sobrang sulit lahat ng pagod, ng luha at ng pagtaba. Thank you sa guidance Lord, st. Jude, st. Joseph of Cupertino, st. Claire, padre pio, our lady of manaoag, our lady of antipolo at sa lahat ng mga santo na natawag ko. Thank you din kay mommy, ate, daddy, ninang, nanay, sa mga tito at tita ko, kay Bryan na lagi kong kasa kasama tuwing nagsisimba at sa napaka habang pasensya hahaha at kay tatay na nasa langit na, inistorbo ko pa hahaha. Pati na rin sa mga kaibigan ko, at sa mga nagdasal na makapasa ako, na pinagdasal buong pangalan ko hahaha alam nyo na kung sino sino kayo hahaha thank youuu!!!!

Graciela Roma V. Legados, RPm

Last oct 29-30, I took a licensure examination, and guess what, wala sa 5% ng nireview ko ang lumabas sa board exam and halos puro kapa kapa na lang ang ginawa ko esp sa TOP. Sobrang nakakapanlumo yung top. 1st subject pa lang maiiyak na ako sa hirap, kasi lahat ng choices mukhang tama. Not a joke, naiyak talaga ako pag uwi ko sa tinuluyan naming condo kasi sobrang pinanghinaan na ako ng loob. But real talk, lahat ng subjects sobrang hirap, pero ano pa nga ba aasahan? Eh board exam yun. Honestly, di ko na hinihintay resulta, kasi sobrang nahirapan talaga ako at puro kapa na lang ang ginawa ko. Pero sana magka milagro, makasabit man lang kahit 75%. Gusto ko lang ng lisensya at pin, Lord, please po. Kaya pakibabaan na po expectations. But, i really did my best, dasal na lang talaga.

YEHEYYY!!

So my mom, (after 20 years haha), gave her approval na pwede na kami magtravel ni Bryan kahit saan namin gusto magpunta. May tiwala naman daw sya kay Bryan (so sa akin wala, ma? Lol) and 'wag daw muna ako bibigay hahahaha. So yes!! Travel na 'to!! But ang tanong, may pera ba kami? Hahaha we'll get there. As of now, thank you Mommy ❤

#diary #family

TAGAYTAY 2018 part 2

After kumain sa Leslie's, diretso na ng La Bella, and sobrang ganda nya and excluded yung place kaya medyo mahirap lumabas ng village pagka gabi kasi madilim na at wala masyadong katabi. Pero tama lang kung gusto mo ng tahimik haha. Village nga pala yung La bella, and santorini inspired sya and dinedevelop pa lang pero sobrang bongga na. Highly recommended except nga lang sa shower nila na hot and cold pero wala akong mafeel na hot, puro cold. Yung shower nanlalamig na hahaha. Pero overall, sobrang solid nung place, yun nga lang mahal ang pagkain kasi breakfast lang ang free, so pag nagutom ka at wala kang dalang foods, eh mapapabili ka talaga. And sobrang ganda nung concept nung restaurant/cafe don sa hotel na pure organic lahat ng nasa menu kaya healthy living ako ng isang araw haha.

Overnight hotel accommodation price: less than 2500 for a studio type hotel room with complimentary breakfast and water