second chance // danomi → January 2nd, 2022 { future }
She couldn’t help it, the feeling like there was a pit in her stomach was constantly there, ever since she realized she could be pregnant again. How could Naomi do this again? God, nine months of hell, it was supposed to be worth it. That’s what had gotten her through it before. It was going to be worth it when she saw her baby girl, that’s what she told herself. But that didn’t happen, and thinking about it all made her heart drop. And that’s all she had been thinking about lately.Â
Naomi felt the tears welling up in her eyes as she leaned into Daniel, burying her face in his neck. “I don’t know if I can do this,” she said.  How could she? Naomi had done everything right before, but she still lost Haven. Just the thought that it could happen again…that was reason enough. And she didn’t know how it would feel, but part of her couldn’t help but feel guilty. Would they feel like a replacement for the daughter they lost too soon? She wished it wasn’t like this, she wished she could be happy. But she just felt scared. Naomi was crying at this point, her tears dampening his shirt. “I’m scared, Daniel.” She cried, this time voicing her thoughts out loud.Â
God, Daniel wished with everything that Naomi didn’t have to feel like this. No woman deserved to fear the thought of carrying their own child. He held his girlfriend close as she cried onto him. He didn’t stop her. All he could do was be was there for her. The two of them had gone so long without thinking about Haven with each other together, that the two of them needed this moment in order for things to ever be okay. It was okay to be sad.
After a few minutes of silence, Daniel finally looked up at the counter where the test awaited to be read, and then glanced back at Naomi. “If you’re not ready it’s okay. We can sit here all night or for days, and I promise I won’t leave your side. I know you’re scared, and I wish you weren’t. But, we’re in this together, and I’ll always be by your side no matter what happens. I know I wasn’t before, and that is what I definitely wish I could take back. I wasn’t with you when I should of been, and still to this day, it eats me up so fucking bad, Naomi. Maybe things would of been different if I was there.”













