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DANIEL KALE RUSSO; Twenty four, and Human. I promise i'm trying.

[okdanielrusso]

second chance // danomi → January 2nd, 2022 { future }

[alrightnaomi]

She couldn’t help it, the feeling like there was a pit in her stomach was constantly there, ever since she realized she could be pregnant again. How could Naomi do this again? God, nine months of hell, it was supposed to be worth it. That’s what had gotten her through it before. It was going to be worth it when she saw her baby girl, that’s what she told herself. But that didn’t happen, and thinking about it all made her heart drop. And that’s all she had been thinking about lately. 

Naomi felt the tears welling up in her eyes as she leaned into Daniel, burying her face in his neck. “I don’t know if I can do this,” she said.  How could she? Naomi had done everything right before, but she still lost Haven. Just the thought that it could happen again…that was reason enough. And she didn’t know how it would feel, but part of her couldn’t help but feel guilty. Would they feel like a replacement for the daughter they lost too soon? She wished it wasn’t like this, she wished she could be happy. But she just felt scared. Naomi was crying at this point, her tears dampening his shirt. “I’m scared, Daniel.” She cried, this time voicing her thoughts out loud. 

[okdanielrusso]

God, Daniel wished with everything that Naomi didn’t have to feel like this. No woman deserved to fear the thought of carrying their own child. He held his girlfriend close as she cried onto him. He didn’t stop her. All he could do was be was there for her. The two of them had gone so long without thinking about Haven with each other together, that the two of them needed this moment in order for things to ever be okay. It was okay to be sad.

After a few minutes of silence, Daniel finally looked up at the counter where the test awaited to be read, and then glanced back at Naomi. “If you’re not ready it’s okay. We can sit here all night or for days, and I promise I won’t leave your side. I know you’re scared, and I wish you weren’t. But, we’re in this together, and I’ll always be by your side no matter what happens. I know I wasn’t before, and that is what I definitely wish I could take back. I wasn’t with you when I should of been, and still to this day, it eats me up so fucking bad, Naomi. Maybe things would of been different if I was there.”

[okdanielrusso]

second chance // danomi → January 2nd, 2022 { future }

[alrightnaomi]

It was one of the nights they had Kylie with them, and normally Naomi could be found in the kitchen setting the table for dinner or helping Kylie with her homework. She loved it when Kylie was around, she still couldn’t help but smile when she would walk into the living room and there would be toys and dolls everywhere. It made the whole apartment feel more homey and welcoming, she thought. But this particular night was different, and Naomi didn’t know how to feel about it. 

She couldn’t pinpoint the exact day when it started, the nauseousness and just the overall feeling like she was coming down with something. At least that’s what Naomi thought it was, a stomach bug maybe. Of course it happened to occur over the holidays, which was never a good time to feel sick, but Naomi tried to ignore it. She had to get past it, it would only last a few days, right? But here they were, weeks later. Naomi wasn’t feeling any better, in fact she was feeling worse. It was like both of them knew what was happening, and she had to admit the idea had been in the back of her mind since she started getting sick….but it couldn’t be. Right?

But that’s how she found herself on that particular Sunday night in her bathroom, waiting. Naomi sat on the edge of the tub, her timer on her phone inching closer to the three minutes the test needed before she could see the results. Pieces of Daniel and Kylie’s conversation could be heard, but she didn’t pay attention to what they were saying. Her thoughts were screaming in her head, Naomi really didn’t know what to think about what could be happening. They had never really talked about kids, or even the possibility that Naomi could be pregnant again, it was like it was an unspoken rule between the two of them. But yet there she was. It all felt so familiar, like it was only yesterday that she was in the bathroom, with Daniel and Eric on the other side, just waiting for the results. She had thought that those few minutes were the longest of her life, until now. Naomi felt sick to her stomach. 

She was so engrossed in her thoughts that the sound of Daniel’s knock on the door caused her to jump, bringing her back to reality. Naomi hadn’t even noticed, but the timer had been going off for a least a minute already. “You can come in, it’s not locked.” She said quietly, not moving from her seat as she silenced the alarm. Her wide, worried eyes looked up at him as he entered the small room, her heart pounding against her chest. “I can’t look at it.”

[okdanielrusso]

Daniel and Naomi didn’t really talk about having kids together, not because they didn’t want to have kids together, but because it was just something they just didn’t think to talk about since Haven; which was almost four years ago. If it was a possibility, he wouldn’t mind it at all. He’d love it actually, more than anything. But the thought of what happened the last time possibly happening again was something that he knew she feared most. He was even scared of that possibility.

He joined her on the edge of the bathtub and put his arm around her, “we’ll look at it together,” he assured her. “We’re in this together. We shouldn’t let what happened before scare us. Whatever happens, we’ll be okay. We shouldn’t think the worst thing possible. We should be happy, Naomi. I want you to be happy.”

[rilakkhuma]

[okdanielrusso]

second chance // danomi → January 2nd, 2022 { future }

“Daddy, I’m turning seven! Do you know how many that is?” the little girl beamed, as she held up seven of her fingers with a small grin. “I think I’ll be old enough to take care of a hamster. I deserve one for my birthday. I mean, look how great I am with Poppy,” she inquired, trying to make a point to her dad as she called her dog over and started petting him. “My mom would never let me have one. She thinks I’ll kill it.” Daniel was in the kitchen making his usual Sunday night dinner of chicken tacos that Kylie loved so much, as he listened to her go on about all the things she wanted for her seventh birthday. He gleamed at all the ideas she brought up, and didn’t even disrupt her as she went on and on. 

“Your mother wouldn’t even let you have a fish, Ky. Remember she yelled at me for buying you that hella rad goldfish? I’m honestly not surprised she won’t let you have a hamster. ” He glanced over to his daughter once he was done chopping all of the ingredients, and gave her a reassuring smile, “you’re at my house three days a week, Ky. It’d be hard on me to keep an eye on it, while you’re not here. Especially since I’m doing a lot of work with trying to open my own restaurant. I think Poppy is good enough for now, okay?” He tried to explain to her in the most honest way possible; trying not to upset her. The almost seven year old let out a sigh, but then finally let out smile as she ran over to her dad giving him a hug, letting him know she understood.

As Kylie was eating her dinner and watching her favorite cartoons out in the living room, Daniel was back in his and Naomi’s bedroom sitting on the bed waiting for Naomi to come out of the bathroom. The past few weeks had been a little rough. She was feeling sick all throughout the holidays, but the two of them just sort of shrugged it off as no big deal. But then, the nausea hit Naomi harder, so they knew it was finally time to check what they should of checked in the first place. All of the memories from when this happened the first time came flying back quickly and hit him harder than it should of. “You okay, babe?” He said softly knocking on the bathroom door, “I’m right here, okay? Everything is going to be okay.”

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: guess who is the top of her class in preschool!!!

@danfrancisco: KYLIE IS!!!!!

@danfrancisco: my daughter is a genius take that everyONE

@danfrancisco: NOT ALL russos are dumb

[okdanielrusso]

@runandchase: @danfrancisco dude

@runandchase: @danfrancisco no

@danfrancisco: @runandchase DUDE HOW MANY TIMES DID I HOOK YOU UP WITH THOSE FREE NACHOS

@danfrancisco: @runandchase ALL THE TIME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[okdanielrusso]

@runandchase: i should start a kickstarter or something

@runandchase: FUND CHASE'S BAKERY ALL BACKERS GET FREE COOKIES

@danfrancisco: @runandchase can I just get the free cookies

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: today my best bud since the beginning of time; @oliverncompany, turned 25.

@danfrancisco: happy fucking birthday you nerd i hate you

@danfrancisco: @oliverncompany april fools I love you

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: our plane is here and this is my cue to take something and knock out before i pull a final destination 1 and freak out on everyone

@danfrancisco: oh god what if our plane explodes

@danfrancisco: MAYBE THIS TRIP WAS A BAD IDEA

@danfrancisco: people are staring ok maybe i should stop

@danfrancisco: pce canada see u in a week broskie danny boy is outta here

@danfrancisco: but no rmr how good but really horrible the final destination movies were? like damn i miss the early two-thousands

@danfrancisco: OKAY BYE

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: naomi is already passed out and we haven't even gotten on the plane yet

@danfrancisco: kylie's knocked out on the floor in front of me

@danfrancisco: they're BOTH SO LAME

@danfrancisco: i'm all alone

@danfrancisco: SOME ONE PAY ATTENTION TO ME DAMMIT

@danfrancisco: not you @oliverncompany i see you liking my tweets

@danfrancisco: go take care of your baby why are u still up u fucking asshole

@danfrancisco: i'm kidding i love you i'm really tired i have no idea what i'm saying anymore

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: there's honestly so many people here traveling with their kids i don't get it don't these children have a bedtime

@danfrancisco: *says the guy whose daughter falls asleep at like midnight*

@danfrancisco: smh @ these parents

@danfrancisco: i'm gonna be hella pissed if all these fucking canadians are going to disneyland too

@danfrancisco: like no who gave you the right

@danfrancisco: GO TO CANADA LAND and ride a moose or smthing

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: okay no I didn't lose her

@danfrancisco: #dadoftheyear

@danfrancisco: she was trying to bribe some other little girl into giving her their box of cookies

@danfrancisco: i've taught her well

@danfrancisco: @melcorona our daughter is in good hands i swear

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: update, i think our flight should be here in an hour, unless American Airlines is fucking with us

@danfrancisco: if so, then fuck you america this is why I'm #teamcanada now

@danfrancisco: shit i think I lost my kid

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: there's this foreign couple arrguing next to me and naomi and we're trying our hardest not to laugh

@danfrancisco: i think it's funny because we have no idea what the hell they're saying but the tone in their voice is just so bad? like man, i feel so bad for this other dude, he really fucked up big time

@danfrancisco: i think his name is raul

@danfrancisco: i feel for you man but you fucked up

@danfrancisco: this is the most i've tweeted in centuries

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: our flight was delayed three hours

@danfrancisco: it's almost twelve in the morning and i have a five year old who's on a major sugar high

@danfrancisco: at least she'll sleep the whole flight

@danfrancisco: "daddy i'm going to stay up the whole entire flight!!! there's no time to sleep when i'm SO excited" i give her a minute after we take off that she knocks the fuck out

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: have i mentioned how much I hate airports

@danfrancisco: especially flying back to the states

@danfrancisco: canadians are no joke man

@danfrancisco: i promise homedog, i'm not smuggling canadian bacon back to california even though it's just hAM #stopcallingitcanadianbacon2k20

[okdanielrusso]

@danfrancisco: Kylie, Naomi, and I are on our way to Anaheim

@danfrancisco: DISNEYLAND !

@danfrancisco: it's all of our first times

@danfrancisco: we're all psyched

@danfrancisco: honestly tho I heard the churros were hella good I think that's what I'm most excited for

@danfrancisco: oh and of course i'm hella excited for Ariel

@danfrancisco: don't tell Naomi ;)))))