StateOfInsanity

•Vegetarian// I swear sometimes// some people suck// music tho•

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~Just let me be your moon. Since you're my sun. I will do what I can with paper and pen to make your lone heart feel life again.~ #youremorethangray #words #encouragement #quotes

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•Spinning tails in the mind of a girl Making her believe everything that could be, When everything that is true is right there For the taking. // She starts to back away Screaming and kicking As you try to hold her back Saying, "things will be different Soon it will be you and I". // She stares in silence at that reply Stops every motion just to see Your face cold and expressionless. // She knows you don't mean it That everything you say is a lie You don't want to leave your past You just want to drag her down In your mess. // But yet, if we were honest I'm walking on the tightrope Just to be with you Because you keep pulling at the Red string connected to you and me. // Maybe this isn't love Just fate But I want to break fate I want to fall off the tightrope Because I believe in better Chances for me I believe I should be with someone Who is right for me No drama just a secret crush buried. // You have to understand that if I don't stay It doesn't mean you lost me I'll always be there It just means I found so many things better For me. That's right for me. // We are just dirty secrets Wanting to come out But the world will scar us For they will never understand Soulmates and fate go hand in hand Yet, it may not be the wisest choice If we follow.• #soulmates #fate #newpoetry #poetsofinstagram #beweary

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•why do you do this to me• #firstandthelast #goaway #newpoetry #poetsoninstagram

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"In the midst of the mist Of the gray and the green Only your eyes are seen And between those little flowers Hold some power you adorn// I can't afford to lose you In this mist between the gray and the green Oh you my hope My favorite flower I pray to God you never bother To leave this place To hide your beautiful face.// Sweet sorrow between the trees Oh but true hope You bring The spring song It's sings your name Your name, your name..." #newpoem #adventuresofblue #yourname

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"I think I'm in love with a boy who is a man, A sensitive soul, With the world in his hand. The colors burst off of his chest And into the cold heart of the Midwest. I never seen such marvelous wonder Since the cold heart of the summer. I enjoy the magic that protrudes From a boyish man who dreams of dreams Filled with glitter, as I see: Walking through life with a grin Happier than I could've been. He gave me a smile and a wink And there my heart sinks. I wonder if this boyish man Will be the one to hold my hand With the world in the other, Oh, what a plan. But will this boyish man Actually see That the glitter, the colors I want for me? Not a lust, not a quest But a trust of love Inside this cold heart of the Midwest." #maybeonedayitllbeforyou #newchapter #formyfutureman #breakthiscoldheart #poetsoninstagram #midwestdreams

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Just some poetry.... #confusion #poetsofinstagram #latenightthoughts #chicagowinter

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I DID MY FIRST BAND REVIEW PLEASE CHECK IT OUT HONESTLY IT WOULD MEAN A LOT TO ME Sorry I'm excited. #allcapsforjoy #lustera #band #posthardcore #indie #pleaseread

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"I guess the hardest part is staying After all the time wasted Letting go would be too easy Waiting patiently by the door Knowing what I'm in for When you walk in Oh I hope to God You'll understand that This was not my master plan This was not where I originally stood So stop making me sound good For I failed miserably I caved in finally feeling free I detested everyone against me Destroyed who I used to be So fall in love with the girl now Fall in love with her For she is everything created For you to want to be with She holds a million universes Just in her eyes alone And millions more in her soul So don't tell her to quit the fight When will power of the mind Will help her survive She is scared so give her time She came back from a war Don't expect anything more Than she is willing to give Which is everything So she pushes down doors And cracks windows Just to get inside your damn mind So stop and think that maybe You don't deserve her after all Because what are you willing to give up? You can fall in love with her all you want It doesn't mean she will give her Heart away that easy, You can say everything to bring her Down to her knees begging for you back But one day she will realize Her self worth. So yeah keep pushing her away Keep leading her astray Because that will bring her running back." #poetry #poetsofinstagram #fallinginlove #youdontdeserveme

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•okay so I know I posted this already but I had to go back and edit it because I'm just like that with my writings. This is the final draft and yeah I deleted the other one because I was frustrated with it....• "I give all of me to You My heart patters Making me mad as a hatter // I rather die than the latter I cannot let go it seems Tightening my grip on Pointless dreams Running around late, Covered with regret (oooh) // Oh blue, baby blue That is the feeling I get From your blue eyes Turning in circles in my head. Just like a deck of cards, I have to split My right breaking from my left For I can't function With my heart tripping up my heels Like a gag reel. // So many roses red You have given me Painted with my blood Spilled over your knife Stabbed in my side The same side you held. // These jokers disappear When you left, They left with smiles only Straggling behind, saying words That you were right after all. You promised me you did not Believe them true, but Now you do, you do, you do. // I give all of me to You My heart patters Like a white rabbit Making my brain Mad as a hatter For those baby, baby blues Broke my clock work heart With red roses raining over This charade parade." #poetry #poetsofinstagram #finaldraft #aliceinwonderland #charadeparade

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"I give all of me to You My heart patters Making me mad as a hatter I rather die than the latter I can not let go it seems Tightening my grip on Pointless dreams Running around late, Covered with regret (oooh) Oh blue, baby blue That is the feeling I get From your blue eyes Turning in circles in my head. Just like a deck of cards, I have to split My right braking from my left For I can't function With my heart tripping up my heals Too many feels. So many roses red You have given me Painted with my blood Spilled over your knife Stabbed in my side The same side you held. These jokers disappear When you left, They left with smiles only Straggling behind, saying words That you were right after all. You promised me you did not Believe them true, but Now you do, you do, you do. I give all of me to You My heart patters Like a white rabbit Making my brain Mad as a hatter For those baby, bat blues Broke my clock work heart With red roses raining over This charade parade." #charadeparade #new #poetry #poetsoni stagram #babyblueeyes #aliceinwonderland

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"I have believed the lies of Satan Time and time again I have let him devour me like a lion. I can't say I regret it When it pointed me back to You, But I do want to fight it, Because I stand with You. // Oh Lord, You know the desires of my heart You understand that I'm coming to a new Part of life and dreading somethings But Lord You have a will through my Sufferings. // I pray everyday for him, I pray for peace and protection Being calm and still in the storm And praying that he looks to You more. // I stopped questioning the what ifs And just gave it all to You You are my Father You guide me in my troubles Lord Oh oh You guide me through the storm. // As well as You guide him, Lord I do not know where he stands But I know You do and that is enough. I pray through his storms he is tough But let's You lead. // We are just lost souls Looking for meaning in the world I found my meaning, He found his: And in You Lord It is all eternal bliss." #poetry #prayer #lostsouls #lovethosearoundyou

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God will makes things right and beautiful in His own time. We just got to learn to trust Him. It is crazy how He has such a plan for us bigger than our own. Things we cannot even begin to dream of. 💕 #ecclesiastes311 #verses #thetruth #godisgood #beautyintime

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"I feel the chains wrap around my wrist Take over my life Oh I'm a mess. It takes everything in me Not to give up on this Path that I need to follow. Oh so much sorrow Just drowning out the truth Drowning me in self pity Can you relate? Probably not for your happy Happy of the life you chosen Without me I am at joy trust me It is just I know you Or used to And now I mean nothing You should mean nothing to me But I'm too nice I pray and pray for you To be the man after God's own heart The man I saw you become. Yet, you lost me You left me in the rain So I ran far away Back to God Back to my safe haven Some days I pray for your return And some days I pray for you to never Come back But each time I pray I pray for peace upon your name I pray you are full of joy I pray you are following God's path I forgive you I do It is just hard to say it's true For everyone tells me To forget you But my open heart Won't let me. We had a spark. We had chemistry. You just walked away from it. Were you scared or just hurt? If only I could apologize I would You deserve that at least For me to come and say sorry Sorry for not being honest about myself That I am a woman after Gods own heart And no I don't need you But I want you to smile at least one more Time for me again." -it is all kind of jumbled but it's just something that has been eating me up on the inside. No it's not great trust me I know and it isn't everything I want to say but yeah here it is part one of a thousand parts of things I want to say to different people. #partone #poetry #justmyedit #relevant #pleaseread

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Literally I have this desire to help everyone and then I get hurt cause they are hurt and this is why I want to be an addiction/abuse counselor because it just breaks my heart that people are in these dark places and they see that there is no hope but there is. I just want everyone to know about the love of God and His salvation and saving grace. #BeThePersonYouNeed #futurecounselor #quote #stolefromfb #GodsLove #Hope #AddictionandAbuseCounselor #suicidepreventionweek

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"If to write something happy It shall be in vain Pushed up against a wall Full of pain Sliding down the tone of joy Only to see that there is none Oh you played me like a toy Till the sun was dead You enjoyed ruining my nights With such cold fights Yet you expect me to write Happiness for your sight Man, when will you end End the war with in I swear I would have been there Until the end On your side But man you back stabbed And will all my might I fight now To end this song of grief For more a reluctant tune of Sleep. Sleep, sleep is not for the weak No less than it is for the dead So I forewarn your handsome head That maybe I'll be happy Once again Without you nit picking Everything I say. Maybe I'll write a song of joy Since I'm not being used like a toy Your scheme is complete And we are no more you and me." Because I don't write happy things it's not in my nature... #poetry #poetsoninstagram #poems #ilikethis #readthis

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~I will find my silver lining~ "My Silver Lining" Part One You may not be my silver lining My bright blue sky on a sunny day; You may not be my blue eyes That shine as if they are the stars. My hope is fading Just as I am waiting Waiting around for nothing anymore Just a love only the Lord can fulfill. I am not backing out of Empty promises, The only promises you can fulfill. I dream dream greater Than yours, but would love to See yours come true. No, you may not be my silver lining My gold in an empty cave You may just be my color pink On a cold winter day. Part Two I want to be your silver lining The kind that stays The real kind with a future attached, I want to be your brown eyes With hope filled gold in Between a beautiful fall day. I may not shine as much as you Want me to, but God knows the truth; With all of the pink in the world I was your silver lining. I was your empty promises. I was in your little dreams. Maybe that is all you need: Just God, empty promises, minor dreams And me, the girl with a Beautiful silver lining. #mysilverlining #basedonSilverLiningsPlaybook #dreams #poem #poetry #partoneandtwo #pleaseread

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I have been learning to be patient and wait on God a lot recently. #patience #waiting #learning #quote