I wish more people could realize how much better it gets. There was a time when I honestly thought I would end up committing suicide fefore I saw fifteen. I tried, twice. Now? Im turning sixteen in a few months, im working on getting my first job, learning to drive, and I finally worked up the courage to tell my best friend of two years how I actually feel about him. And I am beyond thankful that neither attempt worked. I would hear people say “it gets better.”. I never believed any of it that cliche motivation. My reasoning was that while it may have gotten better for them, I was another story. And look at me now, ive got a few amazing friends, a closer relationship with my family, and a solid plan for the future. I have everything I need, even if its not everything I want. The brutal truth is, life sucks. People break your heart and dont look back, and things wont always go your way. It can get pretty hard, and the world sometimes turns on you for no reason. But you just have to pick your head up and push through it, cause despite all the bad in life, there are some pretty awesome things, too. And if you end your life now, you’ll never get to experience any of these pretty awesome things. When you sit back and look around you, the good will always outweigh the bad. Just take a second glance.
Two years later, and now I’m 18. I’m lying in bed next to the love of my life. He’s snoring, and our dog is too. I never thought I would see the day I turned 18, let alone celebrate it with someone who would die for me. I’m happy. It gets so much better.
Now I’m 21 and I can’t believe how happy I am. Some days are still hard, but I’m so happy I stuck around.
