Full of Spite

Olive || 27 || she/her Disabled and neurodivergent trauma survivor just searching for community. I do not tolerate hate of any kind. I’ll update this again later when I have more energy.

[anarchotahdigism]

Help Samer's Family to Evacuate From Gaza

My name is Louis Allday and I am fundraising on behalf of my friend Samer. He previously had a campaign with Gofundme who deleted his accoun

Sameer urgently needs help. His phone broke & a screen repair is $350. Right now, in the Gaza strip, new phones go for around $7,000 as the occupation doesn't allow in phones or parts. To get repairs done you have to purchase salvaged parts & find someone able to do the repairs.

Sameer relies on his phone for raising funds so his family can survive the genocide. Please share & donate.

[stormysapphic]

anyway here's to disabled people who are not healing. disabled people who are not recovering, ever. people with disabilities that only get worse and worse over time. people who cannot access treatment for their disabilities or whose disabilities simply aren't treatable. people who know they'll only get more and more disabled as time goes on. people who know their disability will kill them sooner or later. you are seen, you are important, you are not dead weight, and you deserve support.

[socialist-anxiety]

capitalism teaches us that poor people aren’t allowed to have free time or do anything recreational

[oliveasaltylife]

[CW medical trauma discussion]

I dislocated my shoulder in august of 2022 and couldn’t relocate it completely until over a month later. I also tore the meniscus in my SC joint, which just added to the fun.

Anyways, my shoulder never healed and has only gotten progressively worse. This shoulder is already my worst joint, but this injury was the tipping point. I’ve been fighting with different “specialists” (and my previous pcp who is a terrible excuse of a money hungry DO) ever since, while also going to physical therapy. My PT is great though, and has been trying to help me get answers and find different specialists.

This morning, I had an appointment with a unicorn—the whole office put on masks when they saw my husband and I were wearing our respirators. (They only had baggy blues, but everyone was wearing them correctly which is more than I can say for the hospital). But I’m so glad I was able to see this doctor. I’m not sure if we can afford treatment with her because of course insurance doesn’t cover it, but I had an actually great experience with her. She listened to me and asked clarifying/follow up questions, she never rushed anything I was trying to explain, she understood I’m hypermobile—immediately upon examining my “good” shoulder, and remarked that it’s weird any doctor has tried to negate that, and she was incredibly thorough with both the physical exam and ultrasound imaging.

I have torn ligaments in my shoulder!!! And at least one is completely nonexistent!!!! In addition to other partial ligament and tendon tears and impinged nerves in my neck, shoulder, and lower in my arm! Who would have ever guessed?? (I told my husband and my pt and my pcp that I thought something was “missing” and joked about betting on something being torn and missed in my mri. They believed me but didn’t know what to do with the info because I have seen at least 4 other providers who all told me I was being a baby and one of them told me I wasn’t hypermobile—that’s a story for another time). She wants more information on my vasculature because I have weird anatomy in my neck apparently (?) but also wants to check for vascular thoracic outlet and eagles syndromes. She’s the first provider (who can actually do something about it) to actually want to get to the bottom of all the damage and figure out what’s coming from my neck vs my shoulder and that made me feel so comforted in my already positive appointment with her.

I’m not really sure what treatment will look like yet but she’s also not sure dextrose injections will be enough. I have this horrible feeling I’m going to need surgery, and I think she was sort of trying to hint at that towards the end of my appointment today. I have a follow up in about a month, so we will see. She is also going to take a look at my bad knee that’s been giving me issues for nearly 10 years. No one has ever looked at it though because it’s a byproduct of a pretty bad injury from when I had to wear a knee-high walking boot for 8 weeks. It was so heavy that it was pulling my entire leg out of my hip socket and caused the same stress on my knee (and likely the rest of my pelvis lmao). Every doctor I saw about it laughed in my face because “that’s not possible.” This doctor made sure we have a full follow up appointment so she can give me a knee assessment too.

I’m really sick of fighting handfuls of terrible doctors and “specialist” for years before finding just one good one. And having to do that for different specialties is an absolute nightmare. I’m really sick of doctors bringing up how I’ve “slipped through the cracks” and still forcing me to slip through them even further. I have had multiple providers tell me that I have a malpractice case with my previous pcp/that horrible DO, and even though I now have definitive proof of damage that has happened as a direct result of his lack of care, I don’t have the resources to even consult with legal council. Which pisses me off to no end because I want this man’s license. (Related, and also unrelated—my pcp also wants this man’s medical license revoked, allegedly, but that’s off the record). I also don’t even know if I could still pursue malpractice because it’s been almost 3 years since I left his practice.

This country’s medical and legal systems are such bullshit.

[anarchotahdigism]

We need your help to survive. Please help me and my family.

Hello,

Help my friend Mohammed. He's a young man in uni who has lost family,friends,housing,his beloved deaf cat,has narrowly survived being massacred & still remains kind & determined amidst the genocide inflicted upon Palestine by the occupation.

[anarchotahdigism]

Mohammed's family went north to see the extent of the desolation left by the occupation's genocidal campaign & found their home was a pile of rubble. They intend to rebuild everything they've lost & will need significant help to do so. Meanwhile, humanitarian aid--what little the occupation allows in-- is being taken by the greedy to be resold at viciously high prices so everyone is still facing extreme food & medicine shortages.

[alsousighadasblog]

Hello, I am Ghada, the mother of my daughter, Maria, who has not yet lived her childhood.

Maria was born suffering from “birth dislocation” and she was not yet a year old. The war began against us and our house was demolished and we were not able to complete her treatment so that I could see her crawling and walking before my eyes.

I ask you to help me leave Gaza to complete my daughter’s treatment and build a bright future for her

1€ makes a difference

I hope you can help my daughter Maria walk as quickly as possible. Please donate and spread the GoFoundMe campaign.

Donate to Help Ghada survive the genocide, organized by Mohammed Adel

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[pocket-poly]

I am STILL learning this.

I'm still unlearning that low- maintenance isn't good, and makes me loveable.

Having needs and wants dosn't make me difficult

[moonlitmanchego]

Reblog to give a trans woman an embrace so warm and loving that you feel her shoulders drop and her body finally relax a little

[mohgazzz]

🚨 We Need Your Kindness to Survive 🚨

Hello, I am etaf, a Palestinian living now in Egypt with my family after we managed to escape from Gaza when all our property was destroyed, and we returned from scratch in this life. When we escaped to Egypt, we did not think of anything other than feeling safe from the fear we were facing in Gaza, but unfortunately I did not expect that life would become this difficult, after we left with nothing, no home, no money, no clothes, no family, we are facing something beyond human imagination. When I ask for help, I cry a lot because we are not used to that. We used to live in beautiful palaces, have a job, and a beautiful life, and now we have become nothing!💔

Our source of income was destroyed and the new merchandise was burned. 💔

We are now facing daily challenges to survive—things that most people take for granted, 💔 Lost Stability: The war has left us without work or a stable source of income. 🍞 Basic Needs: Food and Children's needs, rent, education, and other basic living requirements. are becoming harder to afford with rising prices .

📚 Dreams on Hold: Loss of family and loved ones Like so many here, my family’s dreams have been replaced by the need to simply survive. 😢

How You Can Help:🌹🫶

I’m sharing our story with the hope that someone out there might care. Even $5 can make a big difference for us, and if you’re unable to donate, just reblogging this post can help spread the word.Your kindness, no matter how small, is something we’ll never forget.

What This Means to Us:

Your support is not about changing our entire situation—it’s about giving us a little relief, a little hope, and a way to keep going. We are not asking for much, and we understand if you can’t donate. Sharing our story is just as valuable to us as a donation.

Thank you for reading this far. It means the world to us to know that someone is listening. Your kindness gives us strength and helps us believe in a better tomorrow.

With all our gratitude, Etaf Al-Qataa and Family ❤️

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[diaaedin]

Hello

The announcement of a ceasefire here in Gaza today puts us in front of the bitter truth that we have lost everything!

Our homes, our jobs, everything

So don't stop helping us, try every way!

Donate to Secure Safety for the Hasania Family, organised by Victoria Wheeler

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[narishkeyt]

Whatever You Do, Don’t Talk To Police

[anarchotahdigism]

so glad to see yt "leftists" asking Hasan "I made millions by befriending Nazis & was besties with a Nazi pedo" Abi for "help" with the LA fires because yt leftists constantly ask "what if Nazis can be useful to us?"

no principles, just vibes It's what I expect from the same group of people who took most of 2024 off from distroing masks to "recover" by going on plague rat polycule trips while asking other mask blocs to mail them masks despite also refusing to mail out masks to LA area people cuz that was hard :( Same people who don't see a problem with that racist grifter Nukit/Naomi Wu's antiBlackness or Sara Anne Whatever's harassment campaign Fortunately that same group of people is getting flooded with support for finally doing the thing that everyone has expected them to do except they're just distroing masks for the fires & not mentioning COVID or promoting mutual/direct aid

Fortunately that same group of people have made time to do media interviews! Fortunately they think tagging the red cross & asking them to distro will achieve anything when disabled people have been sending useless petitions, emails, phone calls, texts, & internet posts for years asking/begging for masks to be distributed & mandates to return.

[anarchotahdigism]

hate that "phases of genocide" thing because many peoples around the world have been through those stages multiple times because genocides don't just mean "complete extermination the first time." It means "we, the power-hungry, will keep doing this series of mass oppression through various mechanisms til we succeed in our goal of shattering our victims and we'll deny that it's ever been done before to them or anyone else as benefits us politically while maintaining genocidal conditions short of all-out campaigns of extermination unless and until we can accomplish that too politically."

westerns keep pointing to the fucking phases like "oh my god, it's almost there, we're running out of time!!" You're always out of time. There's never time or reason for inaction in the face of genocide. Y'all just enjoy the excuse to not burn down the extractive, omnicidal status quo. People are suffering and dying, just not in numbers or ways the comfortable deem actionable. It takes a certain amount of cinematic suffering for westerners to be willing to riot and maybe, maybe fight a few cops or troops or politicians. Meanwhile people are in hell because of inaction and doing what they can to organize and survive and resist it while having to hold the too-soft hands of their oppressors and explain "yes, we mean this too has to stop, and you, too, can help." But then I remember y'all dropped the mask a few years ago, embraced fascism and eugenics wholeheartedly, and I wonder why I even bother speaking at all. Even the ostensible anarchists of the so-called west dropped the mask and embraced eugenics as of a couple years ago & I have to remind myself that people will always liberate themselves in spite of their oppressors and despite those feckless fairweather wretches who call themselves allies. What are you doing right now to help? What comforts have you shed for others? There are still some handfuls of people performing direct actions while masked and there are still significant amounts of people masking consistently. There will always be some willing to reject excuses to embrace or maintain the status quo. People will find others truly in community with them, who are willing to do the work when called, instead of wasting time demanding yet more education and reasons for why they should join the fight against genocide. Solidarity within and between communities militantly determined to pursue liberation is what wins out.

[anarchotahdigism]

People enduring genocide: "escalate your protests, become a global resistance" westerners, camping, partying, going for walks: "we are so back"

[guldaastan]

i honestly don't know how to say this but the survival of an entire group of people who are going through a active genocide should not have to depend on how well they are able to articulate and present their condition to you in a post.

but it is. a person gets donations to buy necessities if their post ends up being eye catching or something that grabs the reader's attention. what happens to those who cannot make such posts? no one's survival should depend on something like this.

i urge you to help alaa and her two young children. she needs to buy food and other necessities which are very expensive. she also needs to buy firewood regularly to keep warm.

her fundraiser has been verified.

please donate and help her out

[dyspunktional-leviathan]

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[titsay]

[oliveasaltylife]

[CW: medical neglect; medical mismanagement; medical trauma discussion]

My obgyn/endo surgeon has been on leave since the beginning of last year, with no word on when (if?) she'll be returning. (I am assuming she's going to return just based on what the other people in the office have told me, but no one has a timeline). I was supposed to have an exploratory/excision lap plus hysterectomy back at the end of 2023, but we all agreed I was not stable enough for surgery--definitely not for a hysterectomy--and continued to try to manage my symptoms.

In the meantime, I was sent to see a colleague at a different practice, who was absolutely horrible. She gaslit me about my pain saying that maybe I just have really painful periods (!!!! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!! It's taken me (at the time) 10 years to get a maybe diagnosis of endometriosis from a qualified specialist who was planning on operating on me, and expecting to find endo and maybe adhesions). She was also ignoring my firm boundaries on an IUD and completely disregarding the fact that half of my decision to not have an IUD comes directly from my specialist who agrees it's completely contradicted for my care/QoL and with my history. Every other sentence out of her mouth during my 45-minute appointment were about getting an IUD or trying to convince me to get one and that it would solve all of my problems. She then convinced me I needed a physical exam, but no ultrasound. I should have denied it and left. This appointment was nearly a year ago and I still feel violated.

I've gone back to my original practice and have been seeing one of my specialist's direct colleagues, who I like much better. She finally offered to have me try gabapentin, with hopes it might help another condition I'm dealing with--I had horrible reactions both times I tried my tiny doses. (I felt like a horrible combination of drunk and hungover the next morning, and it ended up making me sick so I was advised not to take it anymore). I had to cancel the follow up I had with her over the summer because I wasn't able to drive myself that day. I wasn't able to reschedule until last week. I was recommended surgery and she was completely comfortable with a hysterectomy. My issue is that I spent the next 10 minutes asking her questions specific to my care (and also pretty in line with what my other surgeon was planning) and felt rushed for the first time with that office. It would have been a little different if this wasn't immediately after recommending me for surgery. Idk, that just put me off. But she was also brushing off my personal medical history and my family history, which was the first red flag. (I find it so infuriating when doctors try to minimize the severity of my conditions/symptoms simply because the only surgery in my history was in 1998 when I was a toddler. Idk if I explained my thoughts on this properly and will probably circle back to it at some point). She was also shocked when I explained that I don't tolerate NSAIDs and can't have tylenol. And got defensive when I said that lidocaine doesn't do shit for me. I even explained to her that I felt everything when I got SI joint injections (which were incredibly painful but my trauma/neurodivergence didn't allow me speak up while I was on the table because I didn't want to be labeled a problem. I was also given an intern but that's also a story for a different rant/vent) and she didn't believe me. Eventually she begrudgingly told me that we could "probably" consult with pain management (great, the people who fucked up my back before getting properly diagnosed with tethered cord). And she still dismissed my very real conerns for vascular compressions because (wait for it) my radiology report didn't note any vascular compressions. Reader, it takes an incredibly skilled radiologist to even know what vascular compressions are let alone how they manifest in CT/MRI particularly when breathing protocols aren't followed. Hell, most doctors will tell you these incredibly real, but not nearly as rare as they're made out to be, conditions don't exist but I digress.

I put feelers out in my local EDS group and they really only confirmed my suspicions that this surgeon does not work with complex patients. The surgeon on leave is known for working with complex patients and patients with CTD, and is incredibly knowledgeable with comorbidities. She is also humble enough to tell me when she didn't know something or needed to consult with other specialists, and I have never questioned her care. She is the only one in my entire state who is an endo excision specialist, and the only one who has extensive experience working with complex patients. We can't afford to go out of state, and we couldn't afford my husband taking time off work to go out of state anyways. And covid. I'm never not going to be worried about traveling, even if we can get there by car. And I know that my tethered cord surgery *has* to be out of state because that's where my surgeon is based, and there's no way we could afford that twice (even in different years).

I am just so angry at upset with this whole situation. And I'm also angry that advil/tylenol is the norm for post-op, and the norm for post removing an entire organ from my body?! Are you fucking kidding me?! My husband got a vasectomy and was given 3 weeks of pain meds automatically. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! I'm not surprised--just filled with rage. I mean, currently my only pain management is weed and the occasional muscle relaxer, but that only goes so far. And after abdominal surgery? How the hell am I going to be able to smoke "comfortably" and without coughing?! (I'm still trying to figure out a budder reecipe but I haven't had the energy oh what a surprise). Just fucking bullshit.