colors

& suddenly a light appears inside my brain & i think of my ways i think of my days & know that I have changed it's the colors you have no need to be SAD it really ain't that BAD

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hi everyone, i just want to explain why i’ve chosen to leave this group. if you would please, take the time to read this. i would appreciate it if you could, but i understand if you don’t have the time.

i’ve been in this group since july of this year, and many of you have been welcoming and kind since the beginning. i had a great time in the first few months, but at some point it seemed like things started to change. i mostly keep to myself and i try to rp with everyone here, but i’ve noticed that there was a shift at some point. i tried to ignore this and keep playing, but at some point it was impossible. my friends and i here have been told individually, multiple times, that people feel that we’re posting too many text posts or tweets, or that we’re bubble rping. some of us weren’t told at all, and only one of our friends were told that we were doing something wrong (despite the fact that i have noticed some people doing it on a much more exclusive scale but we have all left that unsaid because we didn’t want to cause a bigger issue or drag more people into this) . we’ve tried as individuals to rp with everyone possible and thread with everyone, but this has not been enough. another person and i here tried to do a bigger thread together and were immediately reprimanded for writing multiple characters at once (for some reason, i wasn’t informed that i was doing anything wrong, but the other player was and i had to be told through them). this has happened multiple times, and it has gotten to the point that i feel uncomfortable and unwelcome here, especially when my activity seems to get better. it feels like my activity isn’t welcome or wanted here.  

i also feel uncomfortable with the way some of the characters of color are approached, and i haven’t felt like my input would be welcome in the future regarding such issues. since the first time i spoke up about such an issue (and it was very hard for me to do that, i’m not the bravest person and it’s very stressful for me to bring things like this up) i felt like i would be reprimanded if i ever did it again. now, it’s not my job to tell people what to do with their characters and i have no desire to do so, but as a queer person of color, i try to help where i can and it’s very upsetting to me when people use certain tropes or plots with people of color. i didn’t expect to feel like i was inconveniencing people or like i had done something wrong by bringing it up.

if you’ve noticed that my activity has dipped lately, it’s greatly in part to this whole situation. i’m very anxious and stressed when i log in here, and i worry all the time that i might get reprimanded or kicked out if i post one too many tweets or text posts when i don’t have muse for longer paras or threads. i worry that if i reply to anyone too often, it will be seen as bubble rping. i don’t feel as welcome as i used to, i don’t feel comfortable or get excited to log in anymore. i just feel worried and stressed and that’s no way to feel when doing something that you enjoy.

i’m sorry for this long winded post but i wanted to explain why i’m leaving and won’t be returning. i really have loved writing with all of you, and i’m really going to miss writing ollie, luz, frankie, and kenzi with you all. if any of you would like to write with me in the future, please send me an im and i’ll give you my 1x1 account. if not, i wish you luck with all of your future rping and i hope you have a good time in the future. i’ll miss all of you and your characters that i’ve gotten to know in this time, and i’m sorry i can’t stay any longer.

thanks for reading if you’ve made it this far, and good luck!

binx

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@olliepop: note to self! don't buy peri xmas presents with catnip in them cause he'll sniff em out and ruin the surprise ):

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sweetrosalind:

“Poison ivy…? Oh! Yes, during that camping trip! Ollie, right?” Her heart sped up nervously, there was something about seeing a familiar contestant that was strangely exciting and nerve racking. “I’m positive. You can keep them if you want. I just, uh… I don’t know. I was going to hand them out to the other girls here just like I did my first time I came to the show. Seemed a bit silly though, yeah?” 

“Yeah! That book helped me not die that week,” she joked, chuckling and cradling the flowers with a small frown. “That’s not silly. I think it’s nice! I mean, I still haven’ met like - no even half of the people in the house. I bet it’d be a cool way to meet everybody.” Ollie grinned and waved the flowers at her. “Are you still sure? I’ll keep ‘em if you really don’t want to do it, but I think it’s a cute idea. Um - why’d you leave in the first place, though?”

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ashlynxblack:

       “Yeah, I’d offer you some but you just said you’d never eat again so…” Ash mused, pulling the plate of food away. 

Ollie pouted as the plate was pulled away, her eyes mournfully following. “I mean if you were already gonna offer, I could maybe eat like, a little more. Plus, sweet potatoes are dessert, I always save a little room for dessert.” 

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nadia-wesley:

“I feel the same way – uh but yes. You can have them. I’m not a big fan…”

“Wait, you don’t like them, like at all? How come? And I mean, I guess if you don’t want them, I could eat them, just so they don’t get thrown away...” 

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elizabethanderson:

“What?! No way. Even post Thanksgiving I could eat more food. It sits for that night then you have to finish the leftovers.”

“Well yeah, but that’s tomorrow. I always make day after leftover sandwiches. But I need at least like - ten minutes before I can even look at a cranberry right now. Unless they’ve got some of those marshmallow yam things left, I could maybe eat a little bit of those.” 

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claudiagrayson:

“Oh well, I’ve never been in the states when it was going on. Plus they don’t have it in Europe, at least not in Austria.” The native Austrian said, shrugging lightly. “But yeah, these potatoes are left over. Would you like them? They’re the first Thanksgiving dish I ever made. You’d have to heat them up but I think they’re pretty good if I do say so myself.” She said with a proud grin upon her face. “Mine, oh gosh. I really liked the pie. There were also these carrots that had a little brown sugar on them and they were to die for. What about you?” The redhead said, the thoughts making her hungry now. 

“Oh! That makes sense, I mean, I know only some places celebrate it,” she replied, her eyes widening in response to the offer. “Yeah, sure! If you don’t mind - I love sweet potatoes. But these are the first ones you’ve ever made? They smell super good,” Ollie grinned, taking the plate and turning to pop them in the microwave. She leaned back with a hum, nodding along at the dishes she mentioned. “You put sugar in the carrots? I’ve never eaten them like that before, but I love sugar so I bet they’d taste awesome. Um - I think I liked the turkey and the pecan pie best. That’s probably ‘cause pecan is the sweetest pie, though. Where’d you learn to make the sweet potatoes? I tried to help once and I kinda made a huge mess.” 

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evelynxro:

“I think I am in a similar situation. I ate about two pumpkin pies and a ton of whipped cream. But I have no regrets, I am happy to sacrifice myself for pie. I’m just happy I laid off the wine this year.”

“Two pumpkin pies? Wow, I bet you could win one of those contests. I think everybody else drank lots of wine though, so they probably drank enough for you, too. Oh - was there any of that pie left?” 

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kathyoreilly:

“They’re my sweet potatoes,” Kathy said as she stuffed her mouth full with more food. “But if you’re not going to eat that anymore,” she said pointing at Ollie’s plate, giving her puppy eyes in hopes she’d get the last baked beans from her.

“Oh - okay,” Ollie replied, her lower lip jutting out in the tiniest pout. Her eyes went wide at the question, and she frowned down at the beans, pushing the plate toward her. “Nah, you can have ‘em - but are you sure you don’t wanna share the sweet potatoes?” 

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claudiagrayson:

Claudia let out a small chuckle as she listened to her friend. “I agree. This was my first Thanksgiving, and I went a little overboard.” She said. “I mean, I didn’t eat any turkey, but I think I’ve ate enough mash potatoes to feed a small village. I didn’t know there was so many ways you could make potatoes. Mashed, baked, fries, all of it.” 

“Wow - it was your first one? How come?” Ollie had never met anyone that hadn’t celebrated the holiday - at least, not in person, not that she’d discussed it with. “Yeah, all the potatoes are great. My mom usually makes mashed potatoes, scalloped potatoes, sweet potatoes...what was your favorite food? I mean, if you have one, since it was your first Thanksgiving.” 

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sweetrosalind:

Rosalind looked down in disdain at the bouquet of flowers clutched in her hands. It was stupid. She was stupid. When she first arrived at the show months ago,  she bought flowers, and offered them to anyone passing by. Eager and even star stuck, it seemed pathetic to do it again. “Bloody idiot.” She muttered as she shoved the flowers into the kitchen’s trash bin. Rosalind turned to leave, but stopped in her tracks once she realized someone had witnessed her anger. “Oh! Don’t mind me, love. I’ll just be going now.” 

Ollie frowned as the girl tossed the flowers into the trash - they were a beautiful little set, full of colors she’d have loved to keep. She whispered to Peri as they bounded forward, lifted the lid of the garbage without a second thought. The flowers were clutched in her hand when the girl turned around. She recognized her! “Hey, I remember you! You shared that poison ivy book with me! You don’t have to go,” she replied, a smile on her face. “But - are you sure you don’t want these? Why’d you throw 'em away? They’re super pretty!?” 

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“I don’t wanna see another piece of food ever again. I think I ate, like - a whole turkey all by myse - hey, are those sweet potatoes?”

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saffyhaynes:

Saffron was glad that the other girl had stopped to pay attention to what she was saying. She stared at the girl for a moment, a soft smirk gracing her features. “I’d really appreciate it if you could show me. I’m afraid I haven’t a clue on how to navigate myself around this place just yet, and all I want is a drink.” She chuckled gently. “

“Of course - it’s totally no problem. I don’t wanna say Peri and I are the welcoming committee, but...” Ollie trailed off, squeezing a bit of yogurt into her mouth as she steered them toward the hall. “We’re not, though - we just spend a lot of time around here so we run into people. And Peri’s a wanderer, so,” she shrugged, gesturing to the cat so the girl knew who she was talking about as they walked along. “It’s down this way, c’mon...um - what’s your name?” 

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@mickey-so-fine: Because it's a cat. that's weird. what in the bloody hell is a muddy buddy? @olliepop

@olliepop: @mickey-so-fine i don't get it. how is that weird? people have pets as best friends all the time! like i said, peri's always here for me. and muddy buddies are chex cereal with peanut butter and chocolate and powdered sugar, they're a super yummy snack!

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saffyhaynes:

Saffron sighed as she stared down at her phone. Her phone lit up for the seventh time, indicating another message from a boy she’d been involved with. Couldn’t he read signs and understand she wasn’t interested? She hadn’t even really liked him, he was just there to cure her boredom. She couldn’t be bothered to deal with people wanting her affection right now, so she slid her phone back into her pocket before taking a proper look at the place. “Hm, how lovely…”She mumbled, her fingers tapping against the handle on one of her suitcases. She smirked softly as she noticed another person, hazel hues lighting up. “Don’t suppose you could be a complete angel and show me where I can get a drink around here?”

Ollie muttered to Peri absentmindedly, that there seemed to be a few new faces n the mansion again. He was always curious to see who they were, and she followed the cat into the living room with her go-gurt as he wandered along. She raised her brows when she was suddenly addressed by the girl there, a somewhat nervous chuckle falling from her lips at the question. “Um...I don’t really drink a whole ton, but there’s all sorts of stuff in the kitchen?” she replied, waving the plastic tube in her hand toward the area she’d come from. “There’s like - a whole shelf of it, plus the huge wine cellar thing. I can show you where it is?” 

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@mickey-so-fine: You watch telly with your cat? Do you not have other friends? Well, I don't have any other options, so maybe I'll take you up on it.

@olliepop: @mickey-so-fine of course i do, he's my best friend, why wouldn't i? i've got other friends i guess, but peri's always around. well, just let me know cause i'll probably make extra popcorn and muddy buddies if you do!

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@mickey-so-fine: I have no idea who peri is @olliepop. And that's....well a pretty low key night I guess

@olliepop: @mickey-so-fine peri's my cat! and it's tuesday, we keep it lowkey on tuesdays. and like, every day. everybody's different though, the offer's open if you're still bored later, we're only on season 4 :)