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@ramuqrr 's vent account

[olyfensive]

hashtag bleeding really bad hashtag not gonna clean it hashtag whateva

[olyfensive]

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unblocked them idk why im so pathetic how do i communicate without seeming like the toxic needy ex

[olyfensive]

im so toxic i know im gonna hurt everyone im not worthy of any form of love

[olyfensive]

haha no sorry my life is so over im telling you guys, tomorrow night is the last night i cant life like this i cant live wirh this i cant live without them i cant do this im fucking done with all of this goodnight

[olyfensive]

msrry im sorhry im

soryy in so sorry in goma cut i feel os horriblw im gonna kms

[olyfensive]

i didnt want to do it i was just scared i was gonna lose my shit and dm you i dont wanna make you uncomfortable i’m sorry

[olyfensive]

please talk to me

[olyfensive]

lol everything just got 100x worse no i’m actually kms hhahahahahhah this isn’t a joke i swear i’m about to write notes and justbtake a bunch of bennies i’m so tired everybody hates me

[hvilsng]

why do I keep self sabotaging everything good in my life?

[melodysav02]

I miss her so much, I'd do anything to go back as we were, but what we had is long gone

All I want is for you to say sorry and come back

[borderlyx]

What if I committed suicide right now, in the hope of waking up next to you, crying, holding you, telling you about this nightmare... a nightmare where, after we broke up, I was completely alone while you were able to live without me as if I didn’t mean a fucking thing to you.

But then we went back to living happily together, and you were mine again.

[ih8tev]

You look as beautiful as in the day that I lost you. I'm tired of watching from the distance and waiting.

[cellr-d00rxx]

"fuck off." (aka "please don't leave me. no matter how much of a bitch I am to you,, please don't go. you matter more than I could put into words. please please please don't go. I'm sorry I push you away. I'm sorry. just please stay. I need you. and that scares me. that's why I push you away. because nothing scares me more than messing up a relationship that actually matters to me, and its easier to leave you first than be dumped for someone else who's a better version of me.")

[borderlyx]

It feels like something is missing inside me, ever since you’ve been gone.

I don’t know… it’s like a piece of me has disappeared, like nothing makes sense anymore, you know?

You left and took that part of me with you, the part I needed to be able to breathe emotions… emotions that are now drowned in absolute emptiness.

[angelwoaw]

I wish I could forget you, but you made me the happiest I’ve ever been.

[thedisorderedpoet]

why does loving people feel so guttural and painful for me? i just want to love without feeling every ounce of emotion to my core.

it’s becoming more and more difficult to find reasons to stay.

my existence is torture.

[50rd1d]

I hate that there’ll always be space in my heart for you.