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02/22/2026 , 1210

I hope i die soon

10/5/25

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I just wanna go to sleep and turn of my mind how i wish to have an actual switch.... everything is so frustrating and infuriating. If he wanted to, he would !

Lately, i feel that he gradually stops trying. He's always going around to help or assist people that he forgot himself. Ughhhhhhh i also feel abandoned whenever he goes without even a checkup on us, on me. It's always me who is trying to set. Like, I'm just the one who is excited for us to have time.

Lately, he just lets me sleep with a heavy heart, whereas before he would freak for the slight emotion decline, he would notice.

I don't get it, i block him and saw thatvhe tried to call me on messenger, why did he not tried my number or other accounts. If its me i would even reach out to his family or friend, it's just u fair...

I should not rely on my imagination of him, the potential he could be. It's just hurting me to expect something out of what he can't or not.

I don't know if I should return that call, but I'm reversing the situation like what would i do , I'll probably try his cell or ig or other number just so i could reach him. But him on the other side stopped after a few missed calls.

I wanna rest, but my mind betrays me, i hope after i write this. Sleeps will come and get me.

#akin