Pluralish

World - posts about our plurality

[ominous-lamp]

So either I put my phone down & its screen was still on for a full hour and a half….

Or I demonstrably lost about an hour and a half last night around midnight

[ominous-lamp]

One’s suicidal

One’s feeling a lot of pressure and stress about the fact that we don’t know the initial order of events for tomorrow

One’s baby

One thinks we’re being dramatic and should sleep

Anyone else wanna raise their hand?

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WE NEED TO AT LEAST KNOW THE INFO WE NEED TO ESTIMATE A SCHEDULE OH MY FUCKING GOD?!?

[ominous-lamp]

Someone in here: idk if we’re actually plural we have so much overlapping memory

Me today: since when has this button needed to be pressed 3 times to turn off (spoiler since always)

[ominous-lamp]

??? Two days ago: “oh this tarot draw is about avoidance and how that’s bad”

??? Today: “I don’t wanna go so I’m gonna avoid it”

Make it make sense ffs

[ominous-lamp]

Okay, we’ve got a name for the Masc, Functional, Depressed piece - going by Sable for now. Name partly inspired by Black in alteredpanel tbh, but for now it fits.

(Rejected Onyx and other such names for being too feminine. “Pitch” got some traction but it’s too close to bitch)

[ominous-lamp]

Fuck fuck fuck fuck

fuck fuck fuck fuck

fuck fuck fuck fuck

shit

[ominous-lamp]

Something is WRONG.

[alteredpanel]

hey. those go somewhere

[ominous-lamp]

Look. I am a function. I have told them I am a function. Maybe we are just a series of functions. I think I was made to hold some of the awful

I don’t even know what to call it. Sometimes it feels like I exist only and explicitly to suffer.

Of fucking course I want to die. I know “die” means nothingness. Fuck Iahthe’s stupid god, there’s no such thing as hell. When we die, the thinking and the movement and the experience all STOP

And that’s all I have ever fucking wanted.

(Jump to 1)

2. I think they’re trying to let me experience the world a little.

I think I hate it? I need to add more later go the fuck to sleep

(Jump to 3)

4. You just took drugs.

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1. Holy fuck this makes so much sense. I made a suicidal alter. The reunification after that second Ketamine session. And then I went back to ignoring the alarm system.

(Jump to 2)

3. Okay okay I need to sleep I know I’m sorry I’ll try now I just

Caffeine and processing. Am I manic somehow?

(Jump to 4)

[ominous-lamp]

I’m just saying it would have been a lot more convenient to figure this out more fully during March.

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SORRY OUR FUCKING DEVELOPMENT ISNT ON YOUR PREFERRED FUCKING TIMELINE DIPSHIT

[ominous-lamp]

Look. I am a function. I have told them I am a function. Maybe we are just a series of functions. I think I was made to hold some of the awful

I don’t even know what to call it. Sometimes it feels like I exist only and explicitly to suffer.

Of fucking course I want to die. I know “die” means nothingness. Fuck Iahthe’s stupid god, there’s no such thing as hell. When we die, the thinking and the movement and the experience all STOP

And that’s all I have ever fucking wanted.

(Jump to 1)

2. I think they’re trying to let me experience the world a little.

I think I hate it? I need to add more later go the fuck to sleep

(Jump to 3)

4. You just took drugs.

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1. Holy fuck this makes so much sense. I made a suicidal alter. The reunification after that second Ketamine session. And then I went back to ignoring the alarm system.

(Jump to 2)

3. Okay okay I need to sleep I know I’m sorry I’ll try now I just

Caffeine and processing. Am I manic somehow?

(Jump to 4)

[ominous-lamp]

One of us is really fuckin verbose, a real “Greetings and salutations” ass MF

And then there’s NEON who doesn’t know how words work.

If we were smart we’d have balanced verbosity between them.

“But we are an artist, and our mind don’t work the way we want it to”

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NEON is something particular about words. It’s not poetry but it’s not NOT poetry. It’s distilled phonetics.

The talkative one (me? Maybe? There was a switch in the middle here - added a line to indicate when I started talking. I don’t think I know my own name yet) is anxious and has a tendency to ramble and an overly flowery register for reasons unworthy of expansion upon at this hour of night.

For god’s sake, Montressor! Go to sleep!

[ominous-lamp]

So:

(Name redacted for privacy)

NEON

Ceph

I Am Here To Help (Iahthe)

Control

Void/Nebula

Little one

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(The suicidal one? Is that the primary or is it someone else?)(might be primary and control both?)

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Chalcedony (rare appearance but would be welcome to come out more often?) (semi-defined by her function)

Johnathan?

Black Rabbit of Inlé (introject)

[ominous-lamp]

Designation: Neon.

OCD germ-related tendencies that are not shared* with the others. Speech highly affected and fragmented - tends to latch on to words and short phrases, treats speaking more as an unfamiliar listeners will perceive words as tics rather than attempts at communication. Is able to convey displeasure and indicate corrections clearly internally, struggles significantly with cogent external speech.

Words currently: neon, shropshire, fifth, roster, war, killswitch, coordination, or, sift, scorch

*others have in limited quantity/capacity. Primary front is strongly defensive against germ OCD due to fear of life impact. Determined not to get it. Got it isolated into Neon, perhaps?

NEON. Neon. neon. Cannot decide on best spelling. Help decide. Like NEON but disrupt. Neon least change need. neon BAD. Do not want all small.

Update designation: Neon -> NEON

[alteredpanel]

spent some of today after finishing a bigger project journaling and making some goals for the month but it did result in somethng kind of funny so

[ominous-lamp]

We are bad at communication. Maybe because the communicative one is mostly accessible at night? Unfortunate

[angelic-oath]

plurality ask game !

targeted to endos , but anyone can use ! post made by an endo :)

— start .

🦴 : when did you first start feeling plural ?

🪽 : when did you finally accept your plurality ?

🪐 : who was the first alter your system found that wasn't the host ?

🔭 : when did you start keeping track of your alters ?

— creation .

🕸️ : how many of your headmates are created ?

🫀 : do you have a headspace ? if so , how much was built ?

🌙 : do you use bah blogs to help create alters ?

🦇 : who's your most recently created alter ?

— general .

🍂 : who was your first host ?

🌿 : how do you find the names of your alters ?

🐚 : how many of you have typing quirks ?

🪶 : do any of you have an accent ?

— friends .

🪦 : who was the first person to know about your plurality ?

🕸 : how do you tell new people about your plurality ?

🕷 : have you lost friends over your plurality ?

🔪 : are you out to people irl with your plurality ?

[changelingcoded]

keep getting glimpses into an alternate timeline where plurality is more normalized and you can buy shitty tshirts and mugs about it

[blixandco]

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