well, hello again, possibly for the final time..
I hadn’t been on in ages. I happened to still be logged in somehow from back in March... or April? Either way, it’s been a long while.
Here I am though, and I’m genuinely surprised this account still gains an audience. It will always hurt me to know that so many people out there identify with my stories and poems—that shouldn’t be the case. We shouldn’t all have to suffer like this... but what else can we do?
I know I mentioned this already in my previous post, but i was in a very loving relationship for some time. It is really what I needed, and helped me realise that I am worth more than being just someone’s mistress. I am worth so much more than that and this is clear to me now.
I truly hope that my words have helped you all. That is the only reason I’m keeping this blog around: in hopes that despite all my suffering, someone who is in a similar position to the one I was once in will see what I have written and feel a sense of comfort, as if there is someone else out there just like them. That’s what I want for you all.
Beyond that, I want you to be happy. As we’ve both been through the same or similar situations, I know I wouldn’t wish this upon any of you. It’s a real awful psychological battle within yourself, and this time in your life is trying, but you will prevail against all odds.
You are not to blame.
That is my closing statement. You are not to blame. No matter what the situation is, the bulk of the blame lies on the person who committed the crime, not the person who only partially benefited from it. If there were criminal sentences for this, you’d get five years and the true criminal would receive sixty-five. That’s how I see it now. It helps me lots.
Find yourself peace. You are not to blame. Someday, you too will realise that you are worthy of real love. I hope, for your sake, that this day comes soon.
And that’s all... sending my love.
xoxo,
Anya
