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I’ll be dead by friday. I’m so happy I can’t wait. Finally this hell will be over.

#dead #pills #done #suicide #slow suicide #tired

I have to protect them from me. They are safer without me around. Its better for me to be locked in this room. Im doing what I can to help them survive.

#protect #isolating myself #saving them #depression #depressed

PLEASE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE

KILL ME

PLEASE IM BEGGING

Im desperate please somebody kill me! You can rape me first and then kill me! You can beat the shit out of me and do anything you want! Just please end my life! Please!!

#please!#end my life please #im begging #suicide #murder #death #desperate #please please

I have $100 for anyone who is willing to come to my house and murder me.

I cant to it myself and I need to just be fucking dead somebody help me.

#seriously #kill me #murder #suicide #im for real #end my life please

*Queued hours ago when I was still alive and hadn’t purposely fucked up

*I’m sorry this was how I planned to go out

*I hope this never goes through and you never see it. I hope queue fails me and you never find out what I’ve done.

*I hope you hate me forever, I deserve it. I never deserved your kindess, love, or loyalty.

*I have done nothing but failed you at every turn

*I dont know what I will do or say to you, but I hope its enough to make you sickened and disgusted by me.

*I hope its enough to make you happy of my... leave.

*I promise I will never fail you or dissapoint you ever again. You’ll never have to watch me fall apart again. You’ll never have to put up with me day in and day out. I’ll never have a chance to ruin your life again.

*I love you.

*Goodbye

@razluna-k

I’m so glad he didn’t call my bluff. Saying it made me sick and was a last resort but I knew he wouldn’t want that...but I’m so relieved he didn’t call my bluff.

I’m sorry. I’d rather have you hate me then watch me die like this.

I know you’ll never see this, but I did what I had to do to protect you. You were right, about why I was doing what I was doing...but now I have to play the heartless villan till I die.

You’ll be fine, you’ll be happy and you’ll thrive now that I cut myself out of your life.

I wish you nothing but the best and I really do love you my dearest friend... but I am not meant to be in anyones life and this is the only way I can safely dissapear.